In A Relationship
May 30 2006
May 15 2006
May 10 2006
May 01 2006
April 21 2006
Lately everything has been a little hectic. I want to discuss 2 or 3 things tonight. Graduation is in less than a month now. The countdown has officially begun. We are getting chords and cap and gown and it's great! As a result of graduation, I had my freshman orientation at UTC today. It was very exciting. I got my MOCS card and it says student on it and I registered for classes and, wow. It's so weird to think that August 16 I will be gone. Anyone gonna miss me? Yea, you all BETTER, or else! The day started off with taking a math placement exam and I got a 40 on it and that's the highest you can get so they suggested I take Calculus or Pre-calculus but then Amy says to take college algebra because I need all the easy A's I can get before classes get really hard! Then the day was followed by lots of talking and informative stuff. I have signed up for 16 hours so far plus I have to sign up for my band stuff in order to keep my scholarship. I need to make a decision there but I guess I'll still do band, even though I really don't want to march!, because it IS a good stress reliever. There were about 40 people that had declarder Physical Therapy as their major today and this is the first of about 5 orientations I think. I also went to see where my dorm is and it has a decent location I guess. I can't think of what else happened so if you think of anything I didn't say comment and ask.
Tomorrow is a big day. First of all I'm hanging out with Leah and Megan and I can't wait but it is also Ben and I's 6 month anniversary. We hung out tonight since he won't be in town tomorrow and we talked about it a little bit. We've had a great relatoinship so far and we had our first little fight tonight so we're doing great. 6 months is a long time, especially in high school and with the odds being against us since he's a freshman and I'm a senior. It's very exciting. Ok sorry, I know I don't normally write about things like that but it was just something neat that I wanted to share. Sorry if that was boring or anything.
Prom is in a week! That's gonna be a great night! I think Ben is taking me to a restaurant in Nashville called Merchant's. Apparently it's very nice and has a piano and seats overlooking a good view. I'm about to go look it up and see how great it is. All I know is I need a pedicure REALLY bad and I can't wait to get it in a week. Nails at 10, hair at 1, then leave for dinner at 5 and reservations at 6. Definitely will take a ton of pictures and post them on here. Hope everyone is doing as great as me. 13 more days of school! (for seniors)
April 12 2006
March 18 2006
March 12 2006
March 06 2006
February 10 2006
February 03 2006
January 26 2006
So right now I feel both physically and emotionally sick. Things are pretty much going downhill fast. I don't know how to stop. I need a nice long weekend to myself. I need to prepare for next week. I need to go crazy for once. I'm being dragged into things that I don't want to be a part of and maybe that makes me a terrible person but I don't care anymore. I'm tired of high school. I'm tired of classes. I'm tired of people. I want summer to be here. I want a nice vacation, possibly by myself. I don't know what I want anymore...
This afternoon Ben came up to me in the band room and I just turned around and hugged him and we stood like that until Christi came in and said "Let's go!" I love those moments. I always feel so peaceful and comforted. His birthday is in a week and I'm VERY excited about it. Game tomorrow night might be a good stress reliever, that or what I do after the game...
January 09 2006
January 01 2006
2005 came and went. I'll now be graduating in 5 months and moving out a little after that. Wow. As I was thinking how to write this I know it took a lot of research. You see, I drew a major blank from February to May. The beginning of 2005 started out good then took a nasty turn a month later.
Starting in March I got a job and grew much closer to my two best friends because of the tragic event that occured in February. I also really focused on school and made good grades and I believe I practiced a ton!! I pushed people away from me and had much rebuilding to do over the next few months. I do know that in February and March I went to a few Winterguard Competitions and a couple basketball games.
I can't remember anything that happened in April except that Amy had a birthday. I also think this is when Amy bought a car which gave me the green Saturn. I also looked at several colleges over Spring Break in April. Prom was fun too. I went to Oakland's for prom committee and had fun working it. I also spent much of this month filming a video for church that we showed for Night at the Oscar's, a fundraising event for youth group.
I spent most of May planning Megan's surprise 16th birthday party with Leah and I remember a guard party that required a date that was very hard o find but I had fun taking Ben. In the end of May I began talking to A.J., which was also a very interesting experience that didn't last long at all.
In June we took a family trip to Williamsburg and New York that started out very rocky because of relations with parents. The trip was decent and was a nice break from everything. That took two weeks in June and it was fun.
July brought around some very interesting people again. I went to Jenna's birthday party and met Trey. The hurricanes in July also kept me from going to RYM, which I was actually looking forward to this year. Then band camp started and the first practice was amazing because I just knew it was going to be an amazing season and it really was the best since freshman year. The learning of ballet made me really nervous but I think it helped in the long run. I also started getting attached to someone at this point and this relationship only grew. My 18 birthday was also at the end of July. It is one that I will never forget. I had to go get senior pictures made on my birthday and then I had a band practice that night, in which I was surprised by Leah, Malory, Megan, Jeremy, and Kelly when I walked out the band room door. They attacked me with silly string and they had put sequins all over my car (which were not fun to get off by he way). Leah, Christi, Megan, Sarah, and Jenna had also decorated my car the night before at my party and it looked really cute. I also auditioned for and made the Murfreesboro Youth Orchestra.
August started football games and the beginning of my senior year. I had complications with my class schedule at first but now I love it!
September started band competitions and we did really well this year and it made me very happy to be a good band for once in 3 years. The football team was not so hot this year but thats ok. September ended with Trey finally asking me out after months of getting to know eachother.
October began with Fall Break. This year it was extra special because mom and dad let me bring Leah with us to Florida. We met some surfers there and we had a good week despite the nasty weather. The end of Fall Break also meant Trey and I breaking up because my heart was somewhere else... October also ended football games and competitions for band. The end of October also began the happiest relationship in awhile. Great Grandma Vanderbaan's life also ended in the end of October.
November started and not much happened this month. I was busy preparing for Mid-State an doing other things. I also started Winterguard this year and November started training for that. I'm having fun with guard and it's a good thing for me to be doing.
December is obviously the freshest month of last year. The month started with Mid-State auditions and actually making it this year. I had many people pushing me and believing in me and I think that really helped a lot. The Christmas Parade this year was exciting because it was my last one. I also saw Jeremy, my long lost Blackman friend, at the parade. Ben and I celebrated Christmas on the 23 by going to Nashville and going ice skating, enjoying a wonderful dinner at Jimmy Kelly's and exchanging gifts in the restaurant. Christmas at home was good and our trip to Indiana went ok as usual. The year ended in a good way with friends and it's looking like a very promising 2006. Now, if you want you can go to my xanga for my 2006 wish list.
November 30 2005
November 14 2005
October 23 2005
It's been awhile. I've been very busy studying for the ACT and focusing on family and band. I took the ACT yesterday. It was..fun I guess? My last band competition was yesterday and it was a very emotional day. We also got our pictures back from fall break which I will be putting up here soon. We did pretty well at MCI. We made finals and Mr. Lawson made all the seniors cry when he said thanks for sticking with this band for the past three years! It's always sad seeing men cry. You never know how to react but to cry for yourself. This morning in church we sang How Great Thou Art and my whole family started crying. It was very sad. It was her favorite song... I did go to orchestra today and told Mrs. Mullen that I wouldn't be at the concert on Tuesday night and she understood the situation. Please keep my family in your prayers. It will be a very rough week. Yesterday was just horrible. I'm so sick of people talking about me. Some people need to grow up and get lives of their own. I'm starting to realize that I'm growing up. I am, however, excited about going to the UT vs. Vandy game in November!!! I guess this is long enough so I'll leave on that note. I love you all!
Just added tons of new pics from Fall Break! Be sure to check them out!
October 09 2005
Life is good right now. Been studying A LOT for the ACT, which I take again in 2 weeks. I'm scared. I have 3 college applications to fill out and that scares me too. I want to grow up and graduate, yet I'm scared to leave home and be on my own. It's a lot of responsibility. Oh well, I'll focus on other things first...