be a man.

February 25, 2009

you would do it all over...we all know that.  Whether "it" is good or bad, who knows?  Doesn't look like we'll ever have the chance to know, either.  You're just gonna leave us wondering.  Leave me, in particular.  The mistakes you're making are not clear to you, but are a slap in the face to me.  If you could just give me one more chance to say what I think, it would work.  All you have to do is poke one hole and it will grow larger with time until its fabric eventually rips in two.  But then again, my words have always been words to you.  Never anything more, no matter how hard I try.  Maybe I'll just give up and run away...just like you.

uh.................hey.

January 25, 2009uh....i'm tired.  i have been up all weekend, basically, with no sleep.  :( but, i've had a very interesting weekend.  i went to a lock-in/scavenger hunt and we weren't allowed to sleep.  that was fun.  i made some new friends....i think.  but idk.  then i slept all day saturday...fun, i know.  and THEN i went to the teen center to watch the amazing mimes present...i <3 them.  i went to dairy queen ;) i sang some karaoke.  i laughed a lot.  i played ping pong very badly.  i was cold.  i heard an amazing speaker.  i was very happy.  then i woke up early this morning after staying out late lastnight....and went to church.  i love Jesus.  :) i sang.  i laughed and smiled.  i learned about Gideon (if you ever get the chance, read that story...it's a good'n.) i ate some yummy soup for lunch.  i played my piano.  i took a nap and watched Castaway.  I woke up and went to church again.  I prayed a lot at church.  it was awesome.  i learned that sometimes it's just powerful to sit in God's presence and not do anything but listen.  i sang some more.  i hugged a little kid that i love.  :) i went outside and it was precipitating.  it was disgusting.  ewwww.  i didn't get to go out to eat like i wanted...and now i'm typing this thing and i'm freakin hungry.  so bye.

Richard Fleeshman. (amazing.)

December 31, 2008so...i was on youtube and typed in "hold me close" hoping to find a cool new song to listen to.  well, this dude named richard fleeshman popped up.  i clicked on the first video called "hold me close" and immediately fell in love with it!  so, if you get the chance, look him up. :) he's really good.  (this isn't the whole song, but if you look him up on youtube.com,  you can find it.) ENJOY

on a light note...

November 04, 2008the "atmosphere" on here is very heavy...so i'll lighten it. or try to, at least.  I found out today that the appendix does have a use!!!  it is for digesting wood.  :)  lol

the passing face.....

October 20, 2008

what if...we had never met.  an idea that for the past years, i have pushed out of my head.  a thought i never wanted to think about.  but what if.  if i had never met you......so we "fast forward."  i don't know you.  you don't know me.  on a busy street, we're both walking...opposite directions.  we lock eyes...what runs through my head?  what through yours?  would you have fallen in love with me....would i have returned the favor?  who would you be in that life?  would i be different?  knowing who we both are now...what would i have thought of you?  would you be just like you are...or different....or would you even cross my mind a second time.  maybe you would have been just another face on a busy street...just trying to get to wherever your life was taking you.  without me....so then...in that regard...would you then be the one chasing?  or maybe we would both move on.  just a second on a street.  say we meet again.  would you talk to me...not knowing anything?  how would i respond...i wonder.

i can tell you what i would be.  i would be just another person.  i would see you, really see you.  i would be much different, this i know for a fact.  you changed my life, how could i be the same without you?  i would listen, just as i always have.  you would cross my mind...every day, constantly.  your face would have still stood out in my mind from millions.  i wouldn't move on...i would walk on...but not move on.  i would tell you, when we met again, that it wouldn't be the last time.  at least i would hope.  but if you were the same person you are now....would it be?