''She's beautiful in her simple little way
She don't have too much to say when she gets mad
She understands she don't let go of anything
Even when the pain gets really bad
I guess I should have been more like that

 

You had it all for a pretty little while
And somehow you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
And then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should have been more like that

 

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserve
I guess I should have been more like her

 

Forgiving you well she's stronger than I am
You don't look much like a man from where I'm at
It's plain to see desperation showed it's truth
You love her as she loves you with all she has
I guess I should have been more like that

 

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserve
I guess I should have been more like her

 

She's beautiful in her simple little way...''

                                 

well...i cooked supper.  GO ME!!!!  for those of you that know me, you know that i can not cook AT ALL!  well, i guess it's not really cooking...i made grilled cheese and soup.  yum.  but the soup was from the can.  and my dad 'taught' me how to make the grilled cheese because i didn't know how.....so.....i guess i didn't really cook anything.  oh well.  still exciting, huh?  lol

"How sad flow the streams in the valley below

How to prove that I love you, I never will know.

You say that you love me, you say you are true,

But among all your fine words are lying ones too.

Although I have sworn that I love you, I know

That you will not believe me, and so I must go.

I thank you for moments of joy we did share,

And I hope that your luck will be better elsewhere."

--Author Unknown

This is a Valentine's truth survey. So dont lie:

1.Do you like anyone?
yes

2. Are you a flirt?
i have to say yes

3. Are you a player?
no

4. Would you get back together with any of your exes?
i am single and i have been forever...so i have no exes.

5. Have you ever kissed anyone on your top friends?
i don't have a top friends list, but if i did the answer would still be no.

6. Do you want a valentine?

yeah very much

7. Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?
yeah but the person was not there

8. Do you prefer group dates or single ones?
well i haven't been on either but i think group

10.Small kisses or makeout sessions?
um gross.

11. Do you like watching movies?
i love watching movies!

12. Any plans for valentines day?
not yet.

13.What's the best valentines day present for a girl?
flowers...and of course, chocolate.

14. For a guy?
well i'm not a guy so i wouldn't know.  wow, i'm such a good valentine, eh? 

15. Are you single or taken?
i'm single...

HEY i got a song on my profile!  cool.

"Sometimes love isn't fireworks...sometimes, love just comes softly..."

-Love Comes Softly

go read Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer RIGHT NOW!!!  they are the most awesome books EVER!!!!!!!  you can read them over and over and over and over and over (literally) and they never get old.  well, that's my rant.

hahahaha so i went to the driving range (that's at a golf course.) yesterday and there were these 3 really REALLY cute guys there.  when they saw me they had this look like "what is SHE doing here....with her manicured hands and her prissy clothes"....and then i hit the ball.  and they had this new look like "o my goodness she's good" and then they didn't stop watching me.  i thought it was funny.  lol

1. Hi my name is...... Carmen

2. Never in my life have I...... yelled at an old man
3. The one person who can drive me nuts is.........some bryan kid in my english class

4. High school........is not that bad, actually

5. When I'm nervous........i hold my necklace and/or tap my fingers

6. The last time I cried was.........lastnight

7. If I were to get married right now my wedding party would be at....SHOGUN
8. My hair is....sadly ugly

9. When I was 5..........i was a child. and in like 1st grade

10. Last Christmas........was fun.  i got a camera!!!  AGAIN! 
11. I should be....unafraid of talking to one certain person, i can talk to anyone else with no trouble whatsoever.

12. When I look down I ......usually run into a multitude of things.

 13. The craziest recent event was....i don't know.

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be...Pheobe

15. By this time next year......i will be out of mr. Trondsen's class!!! THANK THE LORD

16. My current gripe is......i am a chicken.  dangflabit.

18. There's this girl I know who...is a girl who likes a guy

19. You know I like you when...i tell you i like you duh
20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be......YOU
21. Take my advice...don't be scared to talk to someone that you want to be friends with.  you might miss a chance at an awesome friendship.

22. My most wanted item is...does a person count? lol
23. If you visited the place I was born...you would be visiting a hospital

24. I plan to....talk to my cool friend that i haven't met yet.  lol

25. If you spend the night at my house...it would be a miracle

26. I'd stop my wedding if....i tripped walking down the aisle and landed on the flowergirl who threw the basket of rose petals at the ring bearer and the ring flies off the pillow and hits the groom in the eye so in his state of dilemma he flails his arms around and smacks the first bridesmaid causing a domino effect on all the bridesmaids and the last one lands in the groom's father's lap.  LOL
27. The world could do without...a lot of things, but definitely not me!!!!!!! lol
28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than...shop at gap, old navy, kirklands, or any of multiple shoe stores.
29. Most recent thing I've bought myself...um...i don't really buy stuff.

30. Most recent thing someone else bought me...a sweater

31. My favorite blonde is...um............probably daniel

32. My favorite brunette is...steele

33. My favorite redhead is... i'll have to say all my redheaded family and kaelynn of course
34. My middle name is...well, that's for you to not know and me to not tell you.  surprise!!

35. This morning I...woke up, against my will.

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are...children

37. Once, at a bar...i met this guy named enrique and we stole his brother's car and tried to jump the border but we hit a squirrel and fishtailed into the rio grande and it took us to baja california so we looked for a taco bell and we found one but i wasn't hungry so we drove up to canada and we ordered some sweet tea but they looked at us like we were idiots so we ordered a biscuit but they dont know what that is either so we left and we drove back to new york to ride niagara falls but little did we know that's not a rollercoaster so we drove BACK to our little bar and enrique fell asleep, leaving me alone in the stolen car with smushed squirrel on the front to go wherever i please, so i went to england to meet the queen who arrested me for stealing a car.  but a lot of that wasn't in the bar, so really i just met a guy named enrique. (REMEMBER THIS?)
38. Last night I was...at church and camino

39. There's this guy I know who...is the most coolest person i've ever known, but the problem is, i don't know him.  i just know of him.  :)

40. I don't know...why i'm being a wimp 

41. A better name for me would be...carmel or something

42. Tomorrow I am...going to school.  fun

43. My birthday is...uh.....fun?  nov. 22

44. What I really want for Valentine's Day is...a valentine: my metallic oceanic mammal???  lol (inside joke)

45. I am allergic to....you...and my brother

well...i have nothing much to say.  but, i'll just put a line up from and absolutely awesome song.  here goes.

"...We don't need to we got everything
We need right here
And everything we need is enough
Just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms..."

-jack johnson BANANA PANCAKES

what's up my people?  i am having a wonderful week!!!  this is really random and pointless and i was hoping i would say something meaningful, but nothing's coming to mind right now.  lol

all i have to say is

"let love find you...don't look for it."

You don't need to look for something when it's right in front of you.

so.  life is wonderful.  :)  i had a beautiful day yesterday and for the first time since about july i feel like i belong somewhere.  it's an amazing feeling to have.  i am not sure if i've got my head in the clouds or if i'm just floating!  it's awesome.  i'm pretty happy right now.  VERY happy.  and i don't have much else to say.  but i hope you are able to float.  it's fun.

why hello you cool kiddos!!!  how has life been for you?  i was sick yesterday and the day before, but i'm alive so that's all good.  i wish it wasn't so dang cold outside because i would put my new camera to use.  i need someone to hang out with and take pictures with, though. (GRACE.) but too bad i don't know anyone like that (GRACE.)  lol.  so i'm really bored.  and i hate celery.  (GROSS!!!!).  well tell me about your wonderful life.

                  

photo from

this helped me today....a little.  but it's really cool how God uses people to help us through.

~Carmen~

 

Today's Scripture

“Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible" (Matthew 19:26 NIV).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria

Are you facing something today that seems impossible? With man it may be, but with God, ALL things are possible! If you seem to be in an impossible situation, get with God! Sometimes it’s so easy to focus on our problems and try to solve them in our own strength. But remember, the battle belongs to the Lord. He has a plan for your victory. He has a plan to give you a way out. He is making the things that seem impossible, possible. You can trust Him today. The Bible says that He has plans for your good, not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Start believing and confessing today, “I am with God, and with God all things are possible!” Are your bills piling up? With God, all things are possible. Do your relationships need healing? With God, all things are possible. Is there sickness in you body? With God, all things are possible! As you meditate on God’s power, He will work in your life, and you will step forward into that place of victory He has in store for you.

2008: In The Beginning

Where did you bring in the New Year?: technically, austin's house.  but really, in grace's mom's car.

Who were you with? yeah a bunch of humans, but mainly tyler grace and kaelynn

Did you kiss anyone at midnight?: no

Did you make any resolutions?: not yet but i'm sure i'll figure something out
2007: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?: no

Did you get anything for Valentines day?: i got nothing

Did you meet anyone special?: i guess not

Did you fall in love?: nope

2007: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends last year?: yes

Did any of your friendships end?: sorta yes

Did you make any new enemies?: yeah
Did you resolve any fights?: yeah

Who was your closest friend?: tyler and/or grace

Who did you grow apart from?: many people 
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: NONE at all 

2007: Your BIRTHDAY!!!

How old did you turn?: 14
Did you have a cake?: i think....YEAH it was..........superman
What did you do for your birthday?: had a party

Did you get any presents?: yes

Your favorite gift: i don't know i loved them all

2007: All about YOU

Did you change at all last year?: yeah a lot

Did you dye your hair?: i highlighted it

Did you get your hair cut?: uh huh

Did you change your style? not a whole lot

Were you in school?: sadly, yes

Did you get good grades?: for the most part...all things considered

Did you have a job?: no

Did you drive? some people crazy...lol
Did you own a car?: no

Did anyone close to you give birth?: my aunt
Did you move at all?: no
Did you go on any vacations?: a few

Did you leave the country at all?: no
Would you change anything about yourself now?: yes...
2007: Wrap Up.

was 2007 a good year?: sure why not

Did 2007 bring any new insights?: not really

Do you think 2008 will top 2007?:probably not

Do you have any goals for 2008?: yeah a few

If you could relive any moment which would you choose?: when i held austin's hand

this is a really funny commercial!!!!  i love the yawning. lol

k look understand that the things i do, i do for a specific reason.  most of the things are because i am dramatic and i want everything to be perfect all the time.  but some, i feel that either they NEED to be said, or someone NEEDS it done.  i occasionally notice things that other people don't and maybe, just maybe, that's my problem right there.  i try to fix things that don't necessarily need fixing.  i know, this is an extremely random post but this is one of those things that i think NEEDs to be said.  lol

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n e way...crazy.  i've had a fun day.  sorta.....not really.  i guess it's been like other days.  i hate when you sit down to write and you just can't think of something to write about.  nothing has happened in my life lately, nothing is funny right now.....NOTHING is interesting or worth writing about....except that nothing is interesting. lol  so...i had lots of fun yesterday!  i was a very tired individual.  i cant wait till wednesday.  and i'm totally psyched about the New Year.  so yeah i hope you have a nice life.

so yeah i went to see I am Legend lastnight.  o my golly gosh that was...amazing to say the least.  i almost cried, for serious!  i spent half the movie curled up in a ball because i dont like the noise those things make AND they were jumping out everywhere.  ok.  so anyway, we get about 15 or 20 minutes into the movie and the guy is washing his dog.  and he turns on some music.  and guess what?  the song he plays just happens to be Steele's myspace song.  you know, when you have a new crush or you get a new car, you start seeing that car everywhere?  or you just see stuff constantly that makes you think of them?  well that's how i feel right now.  i mean, i like the fact that i think he's cool, but it needs to leave me alone.  i can't NOT think about it.  it's very frustrating, but it's okay with me.  like it makes me happy and upset at the same time.  dang.  this is confusing.

1. Is there someone you wanna date right now?
um....i do but i don't

2. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
jerkwad.

 

3. Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
heart broken def....

4. What is your name?
my name is jose.

no it's carmen

 

5. Name a quote from the song you are listening to:
i feel like a hero and you are my heroine

6. What are you doing right now?
uh this duh

7. Do you miss your ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
uh i don't really have an ex...but the person i stopped liking yes i do miss them

8. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
no....i don't particularly like secrets

10.Regret(s)?
oh way too many to keep track of

11. What was the reason you last cried?
i don't know really....i don't quite remember

12. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
is dad up yet?  i need his jacket

 

13. Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
uh well i don't have a myspace but if i did and i knew what my profile song was, then yeah there would be a meaning and it would be 'i like the song, duh'.

14. Do you have a best friend?
a few actually

 

(where is 15???)

 

16. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
yeah actually...lol

17. What do you think of people who don't have sex before marriage?
they are very smart

18. Do you own a pair of green pants?
army green yeah

19. Are you more independent or dependent?
sure i'm both

20. Ever had the opposite sex over when no one was home?
um no

21. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
no sir

22. What is your favorite fruit?
i really REALLY like kiwis.  :)

 

25. What is the most important thing in any relationship?
LOVE duh

26. What is the last song to make you cry?
idk....

27. Does anyone love you?
yeah like family...that's it.  well and a friendly love.

 

28. Do you love someone?
yes siree i sure do

 

29. Are your best friends pretty?
they are all gorgemo

30. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
uh i guess

32. Whats the one thing thats getting you through this week?
laughter

33. Who do you miss?
i miss...........you!

34. Do you give out second chances too easily?
yeah i think  i do

 

35. Where was your last car ride to and from?
ride to pastor steve's from abe and amelia's

36. Where is one place you want to visit?
i want to go to paris

39. Ever felt that no one relates to you?
i feel like that a lot but i'm pretty wierd.

 

40. Had plans and broke them?
yeah that's sad

41. Done anything illegal?
probably

43. Are you a vegetarian?
i'm pretty sure that's a no...just guessin.  LOL

44. Are you a tease?
um...some would say yes but i say no

 

45. Who are you jealous of?
lots of people

 

46. Are you a lover or hater?
probably....both

47. Do you think your ex's new love is a player/slut?
again...the person i 'stopped' liking.

and yes i think she is

49. What/who can always make you laugh?
Grace Tyler Neely Steve Keri Megan
50. Who's your top 12 on myspace?

uh i don't have a myspace but if i did this would be them i guess

grace

tyler

keri (she doesn't have a myspace though)

megan (doesn't have one either) 

kaelynn

mckenna

my uncle jonjon

shawna

jacob

daniel

hallie/maddie

allie

dangflabit....my life is soggy.  now i can't eat it anymore because it's all goopy.  that's gross.  have you ever known someone (i don't really KNOW this person, per say.) and you think they're cool and all, but they just have this one thing that annoys the crap out of you???  I HAVE A PERSON LIKE THAT.  (grace should know. lol)  but anyway.  this is an extremely random post.  but i'm an extremely random person, so that's cool.  unlike you because you're not cool.  have you ever noticed that i don't like using capitalization?  it takes too long, so i don't even bother.  ugh.  well i think worship was good lastnight at church.  i'm not sure though because i wasn't in the audience but it was pretty moving for me, even on stage, singing and playing.  I can't wait till sunday.  i don't know why.  and then i can't wait 'till new year's.  FUN!  i have a lot of thoughts.  gosh.  i hate this!!!!!!!  do you know how frustrating it is when you want to meet someone but you just know that you could never ever build up the courage?  it's dang annoying!!  like, this guy seems pretty cool and it would be awesome if maybe i could talk to him and we could be friends or whatever, but i'm so scared to talk to him.....nothing would ever work.  he seems cool though.  i guess i'll just keep thinking he's cool and never talk to him.  that's horrible!  i need to talk to him.  i need some courage.  well....i guess that means....

WE'RE OFF TO SEE THE WIZARD, THE WONDERFUL WIZARD OF OZ!!!!!!  lol

(follow the yellow brick road)