Level 1:
[ ]I had an asthma attack
[ ]Smoked A Cigarette
[ ]Smoked A Cigar
[ ]Smoked Weed
[ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
[ ]Drank Alcohol
[X]Been In Love
[ ]Been Dumped
[ ]Been Fired
[ ]Been In A Fist Fight
[ ]Snuck Out Of A Parent's House
Total: 1Level 2:
[X]Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
[ ]Been Arrested/Seen Someone You Know Get Arrested
[ ]Made Out With A Stranger
[ ]Gone Out On A Blind Date
[x]Had A Crush On An Older Person
[ ]Skipped School
[ ]Slept With A Co-worker
[ ]Seen Someone/Something Die
Total: 3Level 3:
[x] Been On A Plane
[ ] Thrown Up From Drinking
[X] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been Snowboarding
[ ] Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
[ ] Been Mosh Pitting
[x] Taken Pain Killers
[X] Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
[ ] Been in a BAD relationship
Total: 7Level 4:
[x]Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
[x]Made A Snow Angel
[ ]Had A Tea Party
[ ]Flown A Kite
[ ]Built A Sand Castle
[x]Gone Puddle Jumping
[x]Played Dress Up
[x]Made A Pile Of Leaves
[x]Gone Sledding
[x]Jumped Into A pile of leaves
[x]Cheated While Playing A Game
total:  15Level 5:
[x]Been Lonely
[ ]Fallen Asleep At Work/School
[ ]Used A Fake/Someone Else's ID
[x]Watched The Sun Set/sun rise
[X]Felt An Earthquake
[ ]Kissed A Snake
[x]Been Tickled
[ ]Been Robbed/Vandalized
[ ]Robbed Someone
[x]Been Misunderstood
total: 20Level 6:
[ ]Pet A Deer
[ ]Won A Contest
[ ]Been Suspended
[ ]Had Detention
[ ]Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident
[ ]Had/Have Braces
[X]Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[X]Had deja vu
[X]Danced in the moonlight
[x]Hate(d) The Way You Look
total: 24 Level 7:
[x]Witnessed A Crime
[x]Questioned Your Heart
[X]Been obsessed with post-it-notes
[x]Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
[x]Been Lost
[ ]Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
[x]Swam In The Ocean
[ ]Felt Like You Were Dying
[x]Cried Yourself To Sleep
total: 31 

Level 8:
[X]Played Cops And Robbers
[x]Recently Colored With Crayons/Colored Pencils/Markers
[x]Sang Karaoke
[x]Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
[x]Made Prank Phone Calls
[ ]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose
[ ]Kissed In The Rain
[x]Written A Letter To Santa Claus
[X]Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe total: 38Level 9: [ ]Watched the sunset w/ someone you care/cared about
[X]Blown Bubbles
[ ]Made A Bonfire On The Beach
[ ]Crashed A Party
[ ]Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
[x]Gone Rollerskating/Blading
[x]Had A Wish Come True
[ ]Been Humped By A Monkey
[X]Worn Pearls
[ ]Jumped Off A Bridge
total: 42Level 10:
[ ]Screamed 'Penis'
[ ]Swam With Dolphins
[x]Got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube/Popsicle
[ ]Kissed A Fish
[x]Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
[ ]Sat On A Roof Top
[x]Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
[x]Done/ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
[ ]talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x]stayed Up All Night
total: 47Level 11:
[X]Picked & Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
[ ]Climbed A Tree
[X]Had/Been In A Tree House
[x]Have been/Are scared To Watch Scary Movies alone
[ ]Seen a Ghost
[x]Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes or Flip Flops
[ ]gone streaking
[ ]Been to/Visited Someone At Jail
[x]Played Chicken
[ ]Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
total: 52
Level 12: [x]Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
[ ]Broken A Bone
[x]Are/Been Easily Amused (very)
[x]Caught A Fish
[x]Caught A Butterfly
[x]Laughed So Hard You Cried
[x]Cried So Hard You Laughed
[ ]Mooned/Flashed Someone
[x]had someone Moon/Flash You
total: 59
Level 13: [x]Cheated On A Test
[x]Forgotten Someone's Name
[ ]Slept Naked
[x]French braided someones hair
[ ]Gone Skinny dipping In A pool
[ ]Been Kicked Out Of Your House.
[x]Rode A Roller Coaster
[x]Had A Cavity
total: 64Level 14: [X]Been Used (horrible feeling)
[x]Fell Going Up The Stairs
[ ]Licked A Cat
[x]Bitten Someone
[x]Licked Someone
[X]Been shot at with a paint ball/bee bee gun(OW!)
[ ]Had sex in a field/garden
[ ]Flattened someones tires
[ ]Drove in a car until it ran out of gas
[x]Had five dollars or less and bought something.
total: 70

Final Total: 70 out of 140 (haha i got exactly half.) 

have you ever heard someone tell you something like: "if you love something, let it go.  if it comes back then you know it's true"????  well...no matter how badly i don't want to do that, i think i have to.  also, do not get upset because i'm not telling you every little detail.  i just hope it does come back.  at least for a while...

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let me state that i do realize i must work for what i want.  i am willing to.  but there are some things in this life that no matter what you do as a person, you can not change them.  you can not keep living a fairy tale thinking that you can fix every problem.  you can't.  sometimes you have to sit back and let "nature take its course."  you can't change the way others feel.  you can't change what others do.  you can't keep pressing an issue that is not getting any better with your "help".  if you back off, they wonder what's going on.  if you press harder, they wonder why you won't drop it and let it go.  so i'm letting it go.

 

no, i'm not talking to or about anyone, fyi.
Two names you go by:
   1.Poochea     2.flintTwo things you are wearing right now:
    1.blue and white dress    2.my favorite necklacethings you want very badly at the moment:
 1.wisdom in certain areas   2.a certain wish to come trueTwo people who will fill this out:
   1.Grace maybe           2. Megan
Two things you did last night:
   1. wrote a paper   2.went to krogerTwo things you ate Yesterday:   1. really good pie   2. spaghetti
Two people you last talked to:  1Ross     2Dad  Two things you're doing today:
  1. going to graduation  2. taking a shower
Two longest car rides:
   1. Michigan   2.CanadaTwo favorite beverages:
   1.Water    2. tie between sweet tea and root beer.

i won't even bother asking how anyone is...because no one ever answers.  But i'll just tell you i've been FANTABULOUS.  to the max.  t-totally...rockin.  yeah.  i'll just say that i need a lot of prayers.  there's someone i really miss...and there is a lot going on with my family right now.  i am scared, and i don't know if i can handle it.  so please, keep me in your prayers, and if you aren't a praying person, keep me in your...not-prayers.

Am I the stubborn one?  I think not.  You only believe what you believe because you've told yourself that so many times, now you are convinced.  I am not.  Am I the wrong one?  I think not.

Serrated...notched like the blade of a saw.  I sit silent...for fear of being divulged once more.  My ground plan is to use the element of surprise...for it will surely stupefy all who contested to negate me in the previous days.  In an instant, I will turn.  Just like a dream, I will appear chimerical.  Certain eyes, they will see through my mischevious and magnificent masquerade.  Certain people, they will not.  Certain times, I will collapse.  Certain ones, they will catch me.  But no, NO.  I have apprehended them.  It is a fool's foul-up.  An unshakeable plan.  One that will not be repressed...will not be serrated.  I have the element of surprise under my belt.  Tucked away like a stolen diamond.  A treasure of superior value; a crime unexcused.  Strike, I will.  Soon, I will.  Monitor, you should.

Run to me and I'll run away with you.

Stay at my side, and never leave.

We can face the world together, and together put the world behind us.

Nothing can ever contain my love for you, no matter how large.

No person can ever take the place of you.

No emotion fill the space in my mind that your smile wholly consumes.

No where is too far for me to run.

If you're there, I'll defy gravity and all else just to be there.

I don't care what it takes.

To make my wish a reality, I'd go to the bottom of the deepest ocean, to the border of heaven, and back.

I promise...no, swear I will.

We can face the world together, and together put the world behind us.

Stay at my side, and never leave.

Run to me and I'll run away with you.

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be.
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright.
Yet I am I, who long to be.
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love - put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Plunge me deep in love- put out my senses,

Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

I am not yours, not lost in you.

lol this is jordan.  he's so funny!!!  pretty cool

here it do be grace

period 1: Physical Science with CARDONA!!!!

period 2: wellness

period 3: English I Honors
period 4:  Choir
period 5:
period 6:
period 7:

People You Mostly Talked To During:
period 1: Deven or Rachel

period 2: Jennifer

period 3: Austin

period 4: Hallie or Rachel
period 5:
period 6:
period 7:

 

Random Questions:

Who was your favorite teacher?
CARDONA!!!!!

Who annoyed you most during 3rd period?
Austin lol SHUT UP!!!!

Who did you sit with at lunch?
Keri Hallie Sarah Nathan Lindsey Jessica
Are you most likely to fall asleep or not pay attention?
not pay attention

Which class did you get the most homework?
i didn't have no homework today

Which class were you the most hyper?
that's hard to judge.  i stay hyper.

What was your favorite class?
science

Do you like lunch?
i take my lunch so yea

Do you like going to school?
sometimes

Who sits behind you in Period 3?
the door!!!!

How many kids are in your Period 2?
uh 20 something

What teacher do you dislike the most?
Mr. Byrd

Can you talk in your 3rd period?
yes totally

Who sits next to you in 5th period?
i have none
Who sits in front of you in 6th?
ain't got one

Summarize your year in three words?
freakin dadgum awesome

What do you hope next year is gonna be like?
less stressful...AN ADVENTURE.

What do you hope will change next year?
my life.

okay i'm going to try this again...it messed up really bad last time.

(this is an awesome song..."Roots Before Branches" by Room for Two.)

I heard part of this song on a commercial so i went and looked it up.  it is AMAZING!!!  so i want to dedicated to my AMAZING best friend in the whole world, grace.  you can do it.  (yes i mean you.)

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so many things you do and say
but i can't seem to find my way
but i want to know how
i know i'm meant for something else
but first i got to find myself
but i don't know how
oh why do i reach for the stars
when i dont have wings
to carry me that far

got to have roots before branches
and know who i am
before i know who i want to be
and faith to take chances
to live like i see a place in this world

for me

sometimes i don't want to feel
and forget the pain is real
put my head in a cloud
start to run but i fall
saying i can get it all
without my feet on the ground
there's always a seed before there's a rose
the more that it rains the more i will grow

got to have roots before branches
and know who i am
before i know who i want to be
and faith to take chances
to live like i see a place in this world
for me

whatever comes i know how take it
learn to be strong
i won't have to fake it
you want to stand there
when your coming through at best
there ain't nothing to beat the west
but i'll be standin'
i will be standin'

if i have roots before branches
and know who i am
before i know who i want to be
and faith to take chances
to live like i see a place in this world
for me

gen i need for you desperately to call me!!!!!!  i can not figure out what the heck i am supposed to do with this gay freakin prism.  i hate this.  it is not working.  there are no pretty colors and there's not any sunlight or anything.

I could go back, to every laugh, but I don't wanna go there anymore...I know all the steps, up to your door, but I don't wanna go there anymore.  Talk to the wind, talk to the sky, talk to the man with the reasons why...and let me know what you find.  I'll leave my window open, cuz I'm too tired at night to call your name.  But, just know I'm right here hopin' you'll come in with the rain...:).  I could stand up, and sing you a song, but I don't wanna have to go that far.  And I, I've got you down, I know you by heart...and you don't even know where I start.  Talk to yourself, talk through the tears, talk to the man who put you here, and don't wait for the sky to clear...

(to you, my imaginary rain.)

so  this song totally describes the way i feel right now...i think.  some of it does anyway.  here are the lyrics, along with side thoughts.

"He and I...it's something beautiful...but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last...I loved him so, but I let him go..." (did i though???  i don't think.) "...cuz i knew he'd never love me back.  Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced..." (too bad it is.) "...I'm still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious...Near to you, I am healing but it's taking so long.  Cuz though he's gone, and you are wonderful, it's hard to move on..." (tell me about it.  amen.) "...Yet, I'm better near to you..." (i'm not so sure.) "With you and I, it's something different...and I'm enjoying it cautiously.  I'm battle scarred..." (YES i am.  this sucks.) "...but I am working oh-so-hard to get back to who I used to be.  He's disappearing, fading suddenly..." (that's really suckish.) "...I'm so close to being yours..." (even though i wish i was his...) "...won't you stay with me...please...I only know that I am better where you are...I only know that I am better where you are...I only know that I belong where you are..." (but i want him to be there all the time..forever.  and this stinks.  i belong where he is...and i'm better there.  but i can't move.  i'm stuck in this spot, no matter how badly i want to get out of it.  when i'm with you and he's not there, it's no problem.  then i see him, and my knees go weak.  my heart beats fast...my mind starts racing with thoughts of how he and i could have been and should be.  but i can't move...help.)

so i just realized i was going the totally wrong direction.  i hurt someone (possibly) for someone else.  i messed everything up for nothing.  i got nothing out of this chaos.  if he would only realize the same thing...maybe we could...idk.

he tells me he would never hurt me..and i don't know what to think.  he tells me i'm his inspiration, and i still don't know what to think.  he tells me that no matter what happens, he won't change his feelings, and you guessed it, i don't know what to think.  i have no clue.

WOW!!!!!  so i've been in an AWESOME mood lately all because i have chosen to be.  (hey ya'll should go listen to the song "You Make My Dreams Come True" by hall and oates!)

anyway even though some of the stuff i have discovered really sucks, i am looking forward when it's not like that anymore.  I'm waiting until october...to see if this person can change their 'habits'...;).  and i can not wait until then.  excited am i.  lol  so how has your life been lately??  i really honestly care and i want to know. so tell me.  i'm totally clueless

When time slips through my fingers so I never get it back,

When all the moments I cherish seem to fall right through the cracks,

When everything around me seems like a clouded blur,

I know you’ll always be there, but then there’s always her.

When my heart begins to pound, and it tells me you are here,

When my fingers start to shake, and I only want you near,

When my heart is in my throat, and I don’t know what to say,

That’s the way you make me feel; I feel it every day.

When you look my way and smile that wonderful smile I love,

When I think to myself, “Surely, he’s sent from God above!”

When no one seems to matter, and you’re the only one I see,

That’s the way I truly wish you felt about me.

When I know it will never happen, my dreams just can’t be real,

When I think that no one will ever understand the way I feel,

When everything around me seems like a clouded blur,

I know you’ll always be there…but then, there’s always her.

guilty: you do
innocent: you don't

Singing in the shower?: guilty def.

Left the stove on?: idk

Ate Stale food?: guilty.

Spit in someone's Drink?: innocent that's nasty

Stole Something from a friend?: innocent

Played with Barbies?: innocent

Kissed your posters of your favorite stars?: lol guilty

Listened to stupid music and said you like it?: guilty.

Made someone cry?: guilty

Opened your Christmas presents early? never! innocent!

Found money, and didn't turn it in?: guilty.

Gave money to a homeless person?: innocent.  eww.
:)

Thought "Star Wars" was cool?: lol guilty  i'm a nerd

Had a super-hero costume?: inNOcent

Lied to protect a friend?: idk

Broken a bone?: innocent!

Seen "The Goonies" more than 10 times?: GUILTY

Played a Computer game for more than 5 hours?: innocent

Dyed your hair a color from the rainbow?:innocent


Hugged your mom in the past 24 hours?: idk

...Have you Ever...

Ran through the sprinklers?: who hasn't??  guilty

Ran through the sprinklers naked?: jeez louise no innocent

Went outside naked?: who would do that?  innocent

Flashed somebody?: innocent

Mooned somebody?: innocent

Been on stage?: duh guilty

been on stage naked or close to it?: eww innocent

Been in a parade?: Guilty

Been in a school play?: guilty

Drank beer?: inNOcent

Went to work/school with a hangover?: um well if i was innocent to the previous question, what do you think the answer to this one will be??  huh? 

Gotten detention?: innocent

Gotten expelled?: innocent

Been on a plane?: GuIlTy.

Been on a cruise?: inNOcent.  i would never get on a boat intentionally.

Traveled out of the country?: guilty

Liked somebody you could never have?: whoo don't get me started. guilty by far.

Liked a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend?: lol if you could call them a friend guilty

Cheated on a test?: ......guilty.

Broken into a house?: um no thanks i'm not a criminal.  innocent.

Stolen from your own family?: omg no innocent

Flipped somebody off?: not to their face...:(  guilty...sad..

Ate spoiled food by accident?: gUiLtY

Ate spoiled food on purpose?: eww who would do that?  innocent

Ate food you dropped on the floor?: haha gross.  innocent

Laughed at a funeral?: well when they said something funny.  guilty

Watched somebody's death?: oh my gosh innocent

Killed somebody?: no innocent 

 

Gotten a tattoo?: innocent.  ouch.

Gotten piercings?: guilty.

Fired a gun?: Guilty

 

Gotten into a fist fight?: innocent.

Gotten into a shouting match?: guilty!!!.

Swallowed sea/pool water?: eww guilty

Swallowed sea/pool water on purpose?:WHO WOULD DO THAT???  innocent.  duh.

Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose?: YAY GUILTY

Laughed so hard it hurt?: guilty by far

Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: lol innocent

Seen a live birth?: no i prefer not to either.  nasty.  innocent

Delivered a baby/animal?: INNOCENT

Had an imaginary friend?: idk

Fell down a whole flight of stairs?: lol duh do you know who you are asking?  guilty

Tripped on stairs?: haha yes guilty

Tripped on your own feet?: duh guilty.

Cried yourself to sleep?: guilty.  sad.

Cried in public?: guilty

Thrown up in public?: innocent

Lied to your parents?: guilty

Skipped school?: innocent

Hit an animal with your vehicle?: i don't have a vehicle.  innocent.

cheated on someone?:no innocent

Been cheated on: innocent

 

Been one who helped another cheat?: innocent

Cried so hard you threw up?: innocent

Given a wet willy to someone?: haha guilty

Gotten a wet willy?: lol yeah guilty