well we are finished with the costumes for the play!!! yay!! whoa that was alot of sewing but its all cool. im going to see the play with Justin on sunday because that is the unison night we can go.

so Prom is next week!!! ohmigosh.. i am so excited!!! im like that little kid on tv where they are going to Disneyland or whatever and hes like 'I'm Too Excited to Sleep!!" yeah that's me.

now i have to go work on graduation invitations. >:|

so this weekend and the beginning of this week has been a walking disaster today. its not cool at all and it really sucks because i have been a walking accident waiting to happen.

i smashed my finger in a glass fridge, a giant laundry trashcan that was brimming with nasty tablecloths fell off its wheels and landed on the back of my ankle so now that is killing me too.

today at work, a pitcher of tea almost toppled onto my head, a glass also fell but didn't break, teas was on the floor so i mopped it up and STILL a lady fell and dropped all of the food she was carrying.

then! brittany was rolling a cart with glasses on it and caught the back of her shoe (i guess) with the wheel and it bounced a glass off of it and the thing like bounces 4 feet into the air 3 times before it shattered. then less than 2 minutes later you could hear in the dish room that nate or someone dropped a glass and a bowl or something cause there were two different shattering noises.

it was crazy tonight. i think we were jinxed... they gave us a little talk that OSHA was comiung and that we needed to be safe and know where all the safety books and stuff were... i think that jinxed everyone... it was a disaster.

plus i spent all of my day sewing costumes for the wizard of oz play. and im not even on the t-shirt for costume design. that pissed me off. i designed half of her damn costumes.. but fine. what does it matter.

now im going to dry my rat-nest of hair... and go to bed..

(:

today the senior's had a meeting which was totally about after prom and they gave away prizes today in little paper chests. which on the stage where you saw the beach scene with the palm trees and etc... yes brigette helped paint that. (: smile and say wow! you're great! :P

anyways we got little treasure chests when we left which had bubbles and beads and bubble gum coins and i pirate eye patch. :P (which ayla smacked herself in the face with! ha!) it was cute.

but so me and this girl, named falon, had a bubble war with the cuban in our fourth period. lol she is the coolest. but she is strange. she eats like hot fries... everyday.. almost. :P yeah shes weird.

so i was totally going to put a picture of justin on here and talk about him but he said no because he was too bashful. (: i love him hes such a good best friend. its a nice picture too. i won't tell you what we were joking about... but, i'll tell you it had to do with me reading my porno-for-girls-books. :D

tomorrow im going to lay out in the back yard naked and tan..

:P no not naked. gotcha! lol.

now im gonna sit back and listen to Michael Buble` and relax.. (:

e'er'body ready for the easter bunny?

well yesterday i spent the day at home because i slept in early, but i also helped my grandma move around the furniture because we are remodling like half the house... so yeah and she's like 78 and still kickin so i don't want her to hurt herself. :| so i stayed home (:

i wanted to drive up to Memphis to see my cousin. she is really deathly sick because is in in the hospital with a ruptured appendix which is really scarey. ):

i got my prom jewelry. its pretty :D i would show you a picture but you would call me hickey because i got them all over my neck :p i like 'em. i don't understand why people don't. i feel they are a sign of affection and love. and... i like when i get them too. >:} mwuahahahahaha.

anyways im off to eat home made tacos!!!! isn't life great? (:

so today my job was so awesome. i had a really good time. I worked in A/L and finally not healthcare for once!! I was actually a real waitress this time. it was so great. like it was just great and i had fun. :P and thy said i was really strong in a/l and they want me to work sunday mornings also. which is okay with me.(:

so i should get my paycheck real soon which would be great. i really kinda need it now. lol. i can live, but its  not easy going almost over 3 weeks without a check. and i want to get everyone something for easter (: cause i like to do stuff like that. :P i like seeing people happy.

prom & graduation are getting closer and closer!!! :D omigosh i cannot wait. im sooo excited its killing me. (: a girl i work with who is a couple of years older than me and she is sweet is dating a black guy and she has a baby with him and they live together and its so sweet cause i see that as me and sam. (: its so cute. we were talking about it today (:

i ordered my invetaions for graduation just now lol. hopefully ill get them in time. cause as soon as i get them i will start addressing them. i like doing that stuff. :D that o i might just stick them through my computer and print the info on the envelopes. (:

im excited!!! about everything.

there was so much i wanted to say but i don't remember!! (:

oh well. ill give you an update on the projects within my house. (: as everyone knows we always have a giant yardsale each year at our house and we always have awesome stuff so everyone should stop by. (: so my grandma is making me up a box (she kinda figures for my apartment/or things i want to keep for my future living arrangements) of stuff she doesn't want that i do (keepsakes included - i hope :P) and i've already claimed the blender, waffle maker, coffee maker, etc.

next is my grandma's bedroom and bathroom are going to be painted green. a soft pastel green i suppose. (: if it was me it would be like neon green or grass green :P and then the next room to be painted is the living room and it is going to be the color of orange juice, or just a hair bit darker. :P but i picked the color out and they love it. cause we have that dark black oak furniture (which we also just got cause we are selling the other in the yard sale)

and also in the living room we are putting down hard wood floors ourselves. :D theat and mosaicing the fireplace and doorway.

then my secret own project that i am doing for my mom is painting the bathroom and redoing it. i am painting one wall as a lavender field and then i am tiling the rest.( i might wait on the tile because she wants to tear out the sink and bathtub, etc.) atleast i can paint the walls right??

alright. :P thats it for now. other than...

im hungry. :D

so my first period teacher is getting a litle bitchy. personal i don't give a crap. im going to be out of school in way less than a month and hey im ready to go. im ready to party, go to the lake and have fun in the sun.

she threatened us about current events. it was crazy! of course. i didn't care anyways. i never do my current event until like the last day. i don't care. senor-itas set in a long time ago. like... the end of junior year. :P

but then she said she is taking away the computer priveledges too. hey oh well.

r. flited with j. again today... its getting gross.

ugh... i don't get paid anytime soon. im afriad i can't buy anyone easter gifts... :'(

and im starving my lizard too... :'( i don' have money to buy him crickets. im starving myself... we are just all starving..

i don't geel right bumming off of people.. its just not right to me. i don't take kindly to charity!!! i will give to charity but i wont accept it... exception: financial aid for college... :(

ugh...why can't life be more simple... :(

well yeah.... see this guy... that is david boreanaz.. he played Angel on Buffy the Vampire Slayer... and other things like his main show Angel but other than that hes pretty hot.

Justin told me and rachel today about a girl that stopped him in the hall last year and was like "ANGEL??" and grabbed his arm and stuff and was like just flabberghasted. I was cracking up. it was great. And he also told us she did that like almost everyday which is hilarious.

yes i am implying that Justin looks like David B. and you know what i think of him... from my earlier comment.

Other than than. I have nothing more to write about. other than rachel found the same picture as me.

(:

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!

upside....

Ben's birfday party is today. (:

do you remember when the convienece of having a hot water heater in your house was created..?

well im sure my grandmother does.

and i on the other hand have had the experience of having to boil my water for a bath and to wash my hair like you used to way back when.

so today, we finally got a new hot water heater and had it installed... :D we went out for a celebration dinner and then i went home and took a nice hot shower with new fresh hot water. talk about the joys in life. (:

on to other news. :D my case was dismissed in court. i went up to the judge, had my pictures ready to show as evidence and etc but i never got the chance because my officer said to the judge that he had written on his copy of the ticket that he was going to ask the judge to dismiss it because he had pulled over the wrong car... and they had caught the other car after mine. so it was all good and i didn't have to pay anything :D

and my cop was nice afterall. but he did still look like a prick. mom on the other hand was hoping that the girl who pitched a fit and argued with the judge the last time was going to show up for entertainment. :P (which she didn't but thats beside the point)

well im off to bed.. i have work tomorrow. i think im pretty much dreading it... : should i look for a new job yet lol...

wow... what a night...

i really can't explain... it was just a random... i dunno if i like it. i don't know if i will like it. but i will tell you this. old people crack me up. :D

today... i spent $35 i dont really have but i do.. but... yeah... i have court again tomorrow. i really hop he dimisses it so that i don't have to pay court fines... because number 1 i don't have that money because i just quit my job and got a new one... and 2 i have a phone bill... and number 3.. i don' know when i'm going to get paid again...

bummer... plus its spring break... ugh :

Senior Skip Day...

what joy... :)

last night sam told me that he wanted to nashville....

i don't want him to move. he wants me to move with him... i don't know.. i just.. im not even going to college yet, i just got a new job and im just not ready for this big push. I know it is hard on him to drive back and forth to murfreesboro in the morning and at night and it would be totally easier for him... but i feel if he moves to nashville then i will never see him again because we dont see each other enough as it is. im worried that i will only get to see him maybe a few hours of one day a week....

its not fair and i don't want us to break up or split or anything like that. and to tell you the truth i knew this day would eventually come. and its just not cool.... im just really upset.

i don't feel good today. and i have a feeling that im getting sick and that something else may be happening. i don't know. im low on funds and i've got alot of things to pay for once again.

its just not a good day....

plus: my battery just died. ):

lunch time was a war zone today.

i just about kicked underclassmen ass.... i hate it whne people cut line!!! its just stupid. njust cause you think you're hot stuff doesn't mean that you have the right to cut line! im a senior and i patiently wait in line to get my $2 worth of crappy food that's greasy and hard and not all that healthy for a person...

it started with one person and then all of his friends just jump up beside him like its no bother to anyone else. grrr!! usually i am one of the first in line today i was not and then all of these little kids jump in front of me... y'know its really not fair to the people who wait in line everyday. and if i had said something to someone like someone did behind me the person in charge just simply without a care in the world replies 'If i don't see them cut then I can't do anything about it' and its not fair!

well people may say life's not fair but in these circumstances, its stupid because people dont have any manners anymore and it irks my nerves. when i have kids they are totally going to act right and do the responsible things in life.

they dont have to be goody goods but i want them to respect other people. Be good and good things will come to you, right?

besides bad manners, another thing i can't tolerate is annoying, loud people. they also irk my nerves. especially when they laugh obnoxiously, throw food and manage to get some all over your stuff.... well... ive really had enough.

y'know... today in psychology... we were talking about Alfred Adler's theories about psychoanalysis and Freudian theories and how they differ and how people in their childhood feel inferior to someone cause the "bulley" effect...

i feel inferior to younger people who graduate at the same time i do and are more accomplished or smarter than i am... and they are like two years below me. and ive worked my butt off in school and i think i've done really good. then i seen a freshman coming into high school taking advance algebra and like... calculus!! i feel so stupid!  :|

sams not eating... it worries me... but i suppose im just the same... i think i eat to much...... ugh

detention today. i forgot my book. so i suppose i will draw... otherwise i wont be doing anything... and they will be like 'where are your assignments?!' and ill get mad and yell at them im a freaking senior back off!! (:

so i fell asleep at the end of Grey's Anatomy... :'( and i don't know what happened. someone care to fill in the details?? i seem to be doing that lately. so i just watch season one over and over again and memorize every word to make up for it. :P

so im looking for colleges. i need to get on the ball... i never did anything to get ready for college. i dont have any financial aid papers filled out... i don't know what to do... but i don't like going to guidance because when i go she is never there... and it makes me mad, so i just gave up on guidance to help me. (:

Anyone know any good art schools to go to?

(:

so today....

i got started on some of my investment mix today. not a whole lot though. I really didn't weigh it so i have no idea. :D but i did get started.

i asked kelsey about this art college in franklin. supposedly really nice. but i cant find anything on it... so someone can help me. (:

i don't know when i want to go to college. i dont want to rush into the school scene right when i get out of it. it defeats the purpose!! i don't know where i want to go, i don't know how im going to pay for it...
and i havent filled out any of my forms and ive taken the act 2 or 3 times and my score always sucks because i can't take standardized tests... they suck and school sucks and yeah... big stress ball taking over my life!!

on the plus my GPA is good but not super. and i have straight a's so far. :D so really. im doin great..

ugh... i can't wait till PROM!!

... so i've done a little self-exploring... and i don't like what i see... or what i think i see.. im sure.. im full of flaws...

im foolish
im selfish
im insecure
im fat
im a giant
im abusive
im inconciderate
im ugly
im a horrible girlfriend
im nasty
im stupid
im evil
im lazy
im annoying
im a bitch
im a drama queen
im moody
im a failure
im outspoken
im disrespectful
im ignorant
im insensitive
im plain
im a disappointment

...im never good enough...

yesterday was awful....

period.

so yesterday i went to symrna to get my car fixed and pick up my prom dress (: and well we went back to pick up my car after driving all over the place and when we got back to Matt's house my car still wasn't finished and it would be a couple of more hours. so we left again to go eat at chef wangs and he would call when the car was ready to be picked up.

so it was pitch black when we left his house and well we took a few wrong turns, drive for a long while and then landed in Nolensville.

OMG!!!

that was not cool and i never ever want to get lost again. dun dun dun... i was freaking out... i called James continuously and at one point i cussed him about there not being a road where he said there was a road. well we turned down some other road which leaded to some other road and blah... we somehow ended in Murfressboro an hour later....

i got to watch Grey's Anatomy that Justin bought me, but not all of it which was depressing.

im not working today... i have to go pick up my car and most likely get lost again. :-(

so last night i went with sam and rocky to the drug test place so sam could get a urine drug test. well it had just started like really storming and this guy with sleeve tattoos and a woman with him walked in and sat down across from us. and we were talkin about something and he was fuck man....

and he started talkin about tennesse drivers and stuff and how he cant believe them and sayin he was doin like 85 down the interstate and this old lady speeded past him doin like 95 and flipped him off.

ohmigosh i was crackin up. but he kept telling us about his life and i was like wow! cause he was talkin about living up in new york and ridin his bike over the snow and his worst accident ever was in '92 and he was tellin us about that and one time he was standing next to a tree and lightning hit it and it flew him back 60 yrds and into another tree and broke all of his ribs and dislocated both of his hips. i was sitting there like holy shit!!

but we were talkin to him and he kept telling us storys about him and then this guy had tried to beat the shit out of him and busted his skull with a baseball bat and larry got up and stabbed an ice pick in the guys neck and that he was in the hospital and died 5 times on the table and came back each time and was in a coma for 6 months and woke up and said damn that was a nice nap. They told him he was in a coma and he was like, 'Well then that was a hellova nice nap!'

but the whole time we were there we were all talking shit about people and stories about us and him. and we had a good time. lol. i don't think i'll ever forget that guy. he was like the most interesting person i've ever met.

(:

nothing to say today....

so yesterday i had to go get dog food for brandi and yeah.. im 18 now and i can buy a lizard! ive always wanted a lizard or snake or whatever. (: so i got one and it was great. i named him Cheader Bob Rolando lol don't ask. i already had a tank and stuff so it was all good. I just need a screen top so that it breaths more. i'm worried that ill cook him like i boiled my fish.

I can't wait till tomorrow. i go to get my dress fitting. i gotta go to symrna at 430 to try it on and get it on the way to any alterations. im so excited. i gotta wear my strapless bra. :P

Sam tell Bobby dogs are for kids. (y'know- trix are for kids) :D

Do I look snazzy today?? (: or just cute?

So lately... I've just had the urge to dress super nice and cool i guess... i don't know... yesterday i got some strange looks and others gave me nice compliments... but... i don't know. its just not enough.

...today im going job searching. the goal is to hace another job by Friday and to quit McDonald's on friday when they have their F.O.R. because that's what our managers deserve. because they are on a giant power trip and they need to be set back. and you know. if they don't respect their employees then they wont have anybody, and since everyone at our store is pretty much like: "if you quit, we all quit." 

and you know... im suppose to be already certified as a shift manager by this month.. well im not. im doing everything i should be as a manager... but they refuse to order a shirt for me... they refuse to do anything further to advance me. and when someone asks them about it they push it away or squash the question like a bug and say its none of your business or something like that.

im sorry but i have pretty much given up on them. they have pissed me off and im not going to work my butt off for them anymore until i get the shirt and the pay for the work i do. grr... it just makes me mad.

anyways.. ill do what i need to i suppse. :

ahhhahahahaha!!!

ohmigosh! i heard this on the radio this morning and they were saying that Paul Wall has a new site and says that he is promoting making ever'body grills and that you can order him to make you one. And the cheapest thing you can buy is a single gold tooth for $50 :D

if you want to check it out (coughcough*sam*coughcough) the website is www.grillsbypaulwall.com and if you go to it and you're in class make sure the volume is either off or way down because the intro is music. BUT you need to watch the intro cause if you're like me you'll think its funny. :D

anybody watch the oscar's last night? :P

THIS.... is my dress!! I ordered it yesterday. and its yellow and its poofy. I got a ball gown and i love it. I feel like Belle in Beauty and the Beast. :D But I did find a dress that looked exactly like Belle's but! it didn't come in yellow so i didn't get it (: I have to have a yellow dress. I just had to. (: its close to $400 dollars. yeah i know. :D

Sam is excited now. Cause he can wear black and yellow. :P

kay! work today not really excited about it. : but hey ill live. (:

i love you sam. have a good day at school. (: and don't get pulled over again. :P

so yesterday was great. i wasn't nervous at all at court. it went very good. i was called up and i decided to plead not guilty and now i have my hearing on march 28th. my officer was a real prick. oh lol! and i got pulled over last night for driving with my headlights off. i cant tell! so hey, but he was real nice about it.

but i did see quite a few people i know. Like Zach, our waiter at Chef Wangs. :D somehow last Thursday court was mentioned and he said he had to go for something stupid. well we finally got him to tell us what he did after we guessed a million times. And when I saw him walk into the room I started to laugh silently. :P

later we went to cracker barrel and i paid for it. so now i only have like 20 dollars and i told sam i had dinner on thursday. and i kinda dont now. (: i can get mine and half of sams though. but if my direct deposit stuff goes in by tomorrow then i will have money. :D so it will be all good. :P that and ill sneek my check on thursday :P lol

Rocky comes back today!!! yay!

work tonight. ill probably do the deposit again (: its all good though.

love you sam. (: be careful.

i don't know....

im super worried anbout a bunch of things going on right now and im really tired... i give blood tomorrow and i go to court tomorrow and i have to most likely pay court costs which i really dont have the money for... so if i can borrow 40 from my g-ma and maybe 40 from sam or somebody.... well ill be okay cause i got 70..

omgosh.... im just really stressing!!!

 ):

interesting. :D