FRUSTRATION

August 03, 2006

I am getting really fucking sick and tired of people being so damn inconsiderate, especially girls. If I even attempted half of the shit I have to put up with from people, I would be hated. Probably stoned. But I'm supposed to just sit back and take it. People care more about what they lose or gain from a situation than what's best for other people. Selfish. It pisses me off, and oh oh OH how I want to go into more detail, but it's best not to start shit. And I'm trying to be as mature about all of this as I possibly can be so I guess a vague post on phusebox will have to do for now. But who knows what the future holds.

Joshua Petker

July 18, 2006

Disapointment

July 13, 2006The relevant parts of Jewel's "Foolish Games":

Always felt I was outside looking in on you

You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care

Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say

Besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see

This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in morning

Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee

You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you

You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones

You'd teach me of honest things

Things that were daring, things that were clean

So I hid my soiled hands behind my back

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you

Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else

Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart

You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart

Long time

June 18, 2006It has been quite some time since I've made an entry. And now here I am with nothing to say.....

Well, I got a new car. My nutso dad bought a Ford Explorer from my brother, decided he didn't like it, and traded it to me for my crappy Toyota, Camry. His loss. I'm happy. I wanted a big car from the very start, but got stuck with Bella instead. Oh well. It's better now. I have a car with breaks that actually work.

Other than that....Andrew's show Thursday night was awesome. I was going to brag about him a lot, but he wouldn't stop peaking over my shoulder so he lost his bragging-girlfriend-moment.

I have to run an errand for my mom and then we're off to dinner at Andrew's parents'. Farewell.

The Product of our Ignorance

May 29, 2006What happens when we elect a president because of his religion? Funding for sexual education is reserved for abstinence-only programs. In an age where Hello Kitty makes thongs and Jenna Jammeson has a best selling novel, we deny teens information on condoms and birth control. Porn is easier to access than information on safe sex, and, more than that, porn is being accessed more than info on safe sex. In fact, porn doesn't even have to be "accessed" because it's everywhere. Half naked women acting like strippers and porn stars is the center of advertising, TV, and movies. No one can deny how casual sex is in today's society, and the fact that kids are starting to have sex younger and younger, and yet, we are still hanging on to the ignorant fantasy of teaching our kids to remain virgins until they're married. Nevermind the enormous ammount of pressure on teens to lose their virginity as soon as possible. Rather than telling them how to protect themselves if they do decide to give in to the peer pressure, lets instead make them feel even worse about themselves for giving into the message they are getting absolutely everywhere they turn. Furthermore, why not educate teenage girls how to make the choice in the first place? Why deny the fact that they have sexual desire and not teach them how to direct it? Why not teach them about the difference between their sexual desires and the pressure of society? We are all so stuck on this impossible idea of all teens saving sex for marriage that we're not willing to teach them the realistic information they need, and we're certainly not willing to do anything about how screwed up the messages in the media are.