This is my last stop on the internet, and I have a big long list of things to do once I have disconnected.... So, I thought I'd procrastinate just a little bit more by making a post.

No school today. I might be excited about that had I gotten a bunch of stuff done over the weekend, but I kept saving everything up for today. However, considering who I spent my weekend with, I can't say I'd do things different if I could go back. Last night, Andrew and I went to IHOP to draw, smoke, and drink coffee. Then, we came out to my house to create and destroy. We spent a few hours painting, and then burned some of my old diaries and such. You have no idea how long I could ramble about how happy I am with things between us.... I have everything I have ever wanted in a relationship.

Life is good. I think I'm going to start attending Emerge every Sunday. I said that before, but then I decided I need a break from church, and I probably did. But now I've had one, and it's the only church I don't dread going to. I feel like I actually get something out of it. So, that's that.

What else, what else....um, well, I guess I should probably get started on all of this stuff. Farewell.

My first show -ever- is going to be at 310 Chestnut Street (Nashville) on Saturday, January 28th from 7 to 10pm. It's called "__nym." and the theme is language. I'm very excited about this. However, our clever little postcards only list the artists' last names. So, I am listed as "__ Lick." Not fun, but oh well. Hope to see some of you there.

I don't think the posting every day thing is going to happen. I sort of lost my motivation for that when this thing got shut down for that brief while.

Life is so weird. I don't know if it's the new year that is so strongly reminding me of the strangeness of life, or just everything that has been going on lately. Either way, I posted on my xanga several minutes ago, and I mentioned school starting back soon. The thought depressed me at first, but now I've decided that I'm happy about it. I've gotten a lot accomplished over the break, but it'll be nice to have responsibilities like class and homework. Mainly just so I won't feel like such a bum. My parents are helping me out with bills since I'm not working right now, and they only do it because I'm in school. So, when we start arguing at a time like this when I am not going to school every day, I feel really bad. Mom and Dad are nuts, and they make me crazy as well, but I do appreciate every thing they do. I don't think they realize how much I appreciate it. That's probably because I never tell them.
Anyways, I'm off to embark on non-cyber adventures now.
Enjoy 2006, people.

I'm going to start posting here every day. Yes. Every single day. I decided I wanted to post somewhere every day, and this is my newest online journal. So, it gets to be the lucky chosen one.

I had some wine tonight, and I feel terribly guility. I drank enough to be tipsy, and I haven't done that since I swore not to drink any more. I guess we all slip some times though. I'll try very hard not to do it again, and I guess that's the best I can do.

My most important prayer right now is for all of my friends to be happy for Christmas. Every one I know that believes in God (including me) is doubting, and the majority of my friends don't believe at all. I guess I feel like if everyone could be completely happy....for just an hour maybe, not only would my friends understand that God answered my prayer, but my own doubts would subside as well. It feels like a naive childish wish, but we're supposed to have faith like a child, right? Even if God answers my prayer in an unexpected way, I just want to know that it gets answered somehow.

I'm going about my day....everything is fine....I decide to sign up for one of these because I'm bored and everyone is neglecting xanga. And then, I get hit with a bunch of badness....First, I get a call from my female best friend saying that she has done one stupid thing, and is about to go do another really stupid thing. Then, my male best friend IMs me to say he's dropping out of school. Terrific. How am I going to make it through Watkins without him? And if anyone else drops out, what's going to keep me from doing the same? Goodness. I hate being helpless.

I have a wicked double cheeseburger craving, but it's almost midnight. I'm not driving.

So, now....I'm sitting here chain smoking and watching Conan O' Brian while my female best friend is out being retarted. I can't say it too many times....I HATE being helpless.

I think I have some things to be optimistic about though. So, there's that.

Alright. time to go find people on here.