mom's on her way home...not too excited about that, but it's all good...

my life just pretty much sucks right now...people all on me for crap i didn't do...dealing with my own issues...dealing with my parents (which is bad enough in itself)...dealing with my brothers and sister...school...bowling team...choir...and on top of all of that, dealing with losing two of my best friends...

sometimes, i just want to sit on the beach...by myself...doing nothing...listening to the ocean's waves...having PEACE for once in my life...

all i want to be is loved...that's it...i didn't ask for all of the crap that i got stuck with...

[me]

i need a life...other than *insert amazing guy's name here*


i am so pathetic...he doesn't even talk to me...anymore...it hurts to see him with her...

he doesn't even know i love him...i want to tell him, but he's never around...i wish i could tell him, but it'd ruin my life...i already know it would...

what should i do? i love him......he loves someone else.....

*sighs* why me? why now? he's older...he wouldn't go for me anyways... but he's perfect...he's amazing...

well, my mom's out of town for the weekend **SCORE!!!** lol...i really shouldn't be happy about that, but trust me...I AM...

today went to work with my dad so i could watch the kids (it was a lot easier than watching them here)...lucky for me they were having the firefighting olympics...so that kept the kids, matt, and definately me occupied...haha...hot firefighters in their uniforms and such = heaven...courtney seemed somewhat jealous when i texted her earlier...haha...

anyways, so yeah...that's about all that's going on...have a better picture up now...the only reason it has the resolution under the picture is because of the hosting service i used...

talk to you all later...
love you all...
[becca]


...how could someone i love so much hurt me so much more...

today sucked...major boringness...

get to go to my mom's piano teacher's recital...fun fun...you know it...

i'm getting sick of this house...LET ME OUT...i want to do something this fall break to get me away from all the madness...

well, i love you all and i'll be back when i can..

[[becca]]

wow...i need more updated pictures of me...that one's from fine arts in texas...one of my "fat" pictures...

be back when i can...
[becca]