I love you.

Radx3: you know those pop ups above the xanga sites?? like its liek this long rectangle?
dandelion xx: yeah
Radx3: well im looking at this one that says help ByeBye Kittly clean up her mess from her party last night and win an ipod nano..and theres pizza, a bra, margrite glasses, beer, cigarettes, and wine bottles all over the floor
Radx3: and im pretty sure i see some condomns
dandelion xx: ahahahaha
dandelion xx: pop ups rule
Radx3: lol
Radx3: and theres this weird purple tube thing with a handle...whatever it is..idk what it is.
Radx3: i dont WANNA know what it is
Radx3: lol
dandelion xx: ahahah, I wouldnt want to either!
dandelion xx: grrrrooooosssssss
Radx3: yesss!!!
Radx3: and it looks like hello kitty!!
Radx3: looks like hello kitty has a secret lesbian life...
dandelion xx: oh my gosh, hello kitty was like my hero when I was 5 and now...now SHE'S A LESBIAN? why didnt anyone tell me? ahhh
dandelion xx: lol
Radx3: lol
Radx3: if you go to an xange site with the ad and keep refreshing it until ti comes up you cans ee it
dandelion xx: ahaha okay, I'll do it
Radx3: lol

me & alexanna's conversation. :p

ah, the mall is such a fun place to go with your best friends & little kids who laugh at you because you cant get out of the little car.

yayayayaya for the new phusebox. ^_^

definately worth the wait. it's the boooooomb.

ahahah

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

yeah I'm sure their c.d name describes them
ahaha
relient k=woah
especially in concert
when matt is singing, playing the piano & guitar
the drummer has his shirt off
one the the guitar players cant stay still for anything
it was crazy & fun :]
I'm going next year if them come back

& right now, I'm not in the
"I hate the world mood"

you guys are great ^_^
& I love you.
just so you know

this is my last entry for a little bit
who knows I might be back in a week
but until then I leave you with some of my thoughts.
I went and watched the excorcism of emily rose with Claire
it got to me
I believe that there are demons that do that.
I dont know..but it's scary
people overlook stuff like that
emily rose took on the responsibilty for God
she could have just died right there
but she suffered for God
and it made me think, would I?
would I go through that much pain for God?
I mean, would you?
she was a light to some people
just like bruce and ellen were
I want to be a light
and yeah maybe I wont get possessed
or die in a car crash or anything
but I want to impact someone
Duane says he believes that in heaven
there will be a time when we see the people
we didnt witness to and they will confront us.
personally, I would like to keep that number down
and all the people I have let go already, I'll see
and they'll ask me why I didnt help them
and I wont have an answer
maybe it was because I was selfish and didnt want to embarrass myself
or I just couldnt walk up there
I dont know but I just want to try harder now.
I fought with a few people today too
that also made me think..
I need to be better
a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter
because I have been awful with trying to be those
God, please help me out.
I need you right now, terribly

I'm so tired.

even though I am grounded
my fall break has been good.
claire is coming over friday
& I am getting my hair cut :]
I also got my first pay check.
I'm going to blow half of it
on the relient k concert
I will hopefully be going too.
^_^
life is still all that and a bag of chips.

I like someone ^_^






that's always a nice feeling.
but for now, I wont tell them.
saves all the trouble.

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"From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How my worst fears are letting out
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
& living's just a waste of death
& why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
& this is you and me
& me and you
Until we've got nothing left"

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we dont know what could have been
until we actually think about it
& we realized how much we missed out on.
I've realized how many things I've let slip by me
& also how many people I've let slip out of my life
I kind of miss them.

"I dont know why I'm still afraid.
if you werent real, I'd make you up"

laura white is officially crazy
^_^

thing to remember:

"the sky is blue & I have a big toe"


"queer? what?! that is just not nice, now I dont want
talk to you if you're going to treat me this way because
I totally think you're hott & all I'm trying to do
is hook up with you"

"would you be my friend if the bottom half
of my body was paralyzed & I have to move around
by pulling myself around with my elbows?"

"gladde can make you high"

"who would want to rape you?"

hehe we had lots of fun.
maybe too much?

have a good day
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I'm okay you guys ^_^
seriously
I was just in thinking mode
these last two days.
but thank you so much for the comments.
I dont think you guys know how much I appreciate those
hmm well laura might come over today
& then we are going to this japanese party.
fo sho
ahahaha but yeah that's exciting
then tomorrow at church we have this
ginormous breakfast, mmmm
lol then I have to babysit.
first weekend I have been home
so it's weird & boring
heh

okay, okay I'll let ya go.
have a wonderful day.

I LOVE YOU

In the deepest part of my heart
there is a strong feeling
something quite so tender
something that could dissolve with our touch
It is the uncommon love
the one unknown to mankind
a love that makes us afraid
afraid to let go of what we have
to experience something wonderful
something beyond our years
at one point we have to contemplate
to take the risk, or to let it be
to take the risk could
give us the world, and all it's riches
to let it be is something we could regret
we miss out on what could have been
but for now, it sits in my heart
& I yet know what to do with it.

-by me

:[ I am sad.
no one leaves me any remarks anymore.
ohwell.

I was reading Krisitn's site & all I saw was
"what do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror?"
& it made me think, what do I see?
I see someone who tries.
tries to please everyone, tries not to get hurt
tries to avoiding things because it's not part of the plan
I see someone who is afraid
yet I see someone who is content with herself
I dont think I am ugly or fat
or any of those ridiculous things
girls wonder all the time, constantly
I havent yet thought of all the things
but I will as time goes
I'll find out what God wants me do to exactly.

no plans this week.
how weird
so if anyone wants to do anything, call me
I might go to the movies with Chad
& other wonderful people on Saturday
but other than that I dont think I have anything.
see ya my kiddos

-jaaaaaaaamie

here are some quotes ^_^

"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
-a lot like love

"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
- never been kissed

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

"brighter than sunshine" by aqualung

best song ever.
a lot like love=best movie ever.

my sunday school girls
are coming to spend the night.
so no time to think about boys.
which is exactly what I need right now.
no thinking..
-sighs-


read here.

I love you.
didnt you know?

heh
phusebox is being mean :[

I'm not quite sure how to feel at the moment
I fell for someone really fast.
& I didnt know how to deal with that
but I know that those were some of the best days
I have ever spent with a guy
& the best times that I spent talking to someone
who actually cares for me, truely.
then all those doubts itch in your mind
& you are confused.
that's where I am now.
I'm confused
not sure how to handle my feelings
my thoughts, my everything
I'm just trying to hold on to God
trying to listen & see what He wants me to do
because lately I feel like I have been wasting my time
just I havent been doing what God wants me to do.
I am trying to sort out my thoughts
so I can fully know what I want
& to see if I can give the love back.
I almost cried today.
but I didnt..

"being grown up
isn’t half as fun as growing up
these are the best days of our lives.
the only thing that matters
is just following your heart
& eventually you’ll finally get it right."

in this diary--the ataris

mmhmm.
I love that song
last night was..
not very sure
I just need a break.
so please, everyone
just cut me some slack
I like him, I do
but -sighs-
it doesnt seem right to me
all of it is confusing
& I dont think I should feel this way
should I?

God, I love you.
I'm glad you're always there for me.

thanks for leaving me those remarks.
you are some great kidss.
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