you're beautiful, that's for sure
you'll never ever fade, you're lovely
but it's not for sure that I won't ever change
&& though my love is rare, though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
&& baby all I need for you to know is
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away

this song explains me in a way
I am afraid a lot of the times
I dont like trying a lot of things because
I overthink the consequences
I've had many people call me a goody
I'm not, I'm just scared
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I dont want to do that anymore
I want to experience things
because it could be the greatest thing in my life
like love, something I am experiencing
it's going wonderfully now..
but later, I'll start trying to make excuses
and I dont want that
especially since I have the most wonderful thing
going for me at this very moment
but with all this love and help from everyone
I actually think,
I wont have to be the "goody"
everyone thinks I am

these seniors in my theatre class
were talking about prom and college
and it hit me that I am growing up
and in about three years, that's going to be me
-sighs-

I've been happy, content, extatic
d, all of the above
I feel very blessed.
with my friends, family, church, boyfriend
I love them all.

ohohoh
I got a 3.8, baby
ahaha, that's right.
in your momma's face
that's right.

remember when we had our innocence?
I miss those days
especially when I see what's happening to
people so close to me
I just want to slap them
but I guess I cant do anything about it

hope you like the new profile picture?

oh, the questions of the day is--
if you could do something special,
I mean REALLY special, for someone
what would you do? and why?

ps;; I like the new ketchup packet. random, I know. but have you seen those things?

something is changing
something is taking place
honestly, I dont know if I like it
I've felt like this before
I dont want to feel it again
too many hurt people
too much that's been said
c'mon, please dont do this to me again.

x_x

jaamie.

new years eve is a good day to make friends and say silly things.

Tanmanistheman90: probabaly?
DANDELIONxx: what?
Tanmanistheman90: yeah
DANDELIONxx: what are you talking about?
Tanmanistheman90: she only told me yesturday.
DANDELIONxx: what did she tell you?
Tanmanistheman90: pants
DANDELIONxx: what about the pants?
Tanmanistheman90: they dies
DANDELIONxx: yeah, I told her that last week
Tanmanistheman90: n-n-n-n-n-noses
DANDELIONxx: m-m-m-m-ouths
Tanmanistheman90: the KKK took my baby away!
DANDELIONxx: OH NO
DANDELIONxx: the KKK rape my mom
DANDELIONxx: raped*
DANDELIONxx: it was hard on the family
Tanmanistheman90: in the forest
DANDELIONxx: yeah.
DANDELIONxx: in the back of the ditch
Tanmanistheman90: lol
DANDELIONxx: I meant truck. but whatever
Tanmanistheman90: wait yopur the mean women that wouldnt tell me how to get music or background on phuse!
DANDELIONxx: wait, your the kid who wouldnt leave me alone the whole day asking me about the music and background.
Tanmanistheman90: it was like twent minutes
DANDELIONxx: yeah, I know
DANDELIONxx: lol

two thousand six, here I come

with my wonderful friends, boyfriend, and family.

someday baby,

you & I

are gonna be the ones.

dear kidds.

hmmm to day kind of sucks
I had all these plans that got canceled
first it was to claire's house but
things didnt work out well so we're just going to
take a raincheck.
then laura and cody was supposed to come over
but laura is going somewhere else
it just seems like cody & I have no luck with
the movie planning.
and then I wanted to get my hair cut
but the lady got sick..
and my mom is being a...mom
I got dragged to wal-mart
only to walk around aimlessly for an hour and a half
(but I found c.d's I'd like to buy)
she's getting aggitated with everythig I do
and it's making me mad
because I'm not really doing anything!
erg.
hopefully it'll get better when
I talk to chad or when tifany comes over
she hasnt been here in a while
and we have lots to talk about.

I would like to see king kong.
josh said if you are a logical person, you shouldnt
but I'm not really a logical person, so I might as well
he said it was weird that there's a giant monkey
and then a lady, and this monkey is killing all her friends
yet, she still loves the giant monkey..
hmm, yep sounds good to me. ahaha

school is going to start back up soon.
and I am not really wanting to go back
usually I'm like, "yeah! school"
but lately, I just dont want to go
at least I have laura, without her
I dont think I could survive oakland
I also have to go to work monday, ick
I have to work longer though
instead of going in like at four I shall go in at two
I might finish early but then again, I might have to work
until about seven thirty, and I really dont want that.
my paycheck shall be bigger than usual this month though
so that's a benefit :D

okayokay. have a wonderful day.
I shall leave you with this quote.

"I believe in Christianity

as I believe that the sun has risen:

not only because I see it,

but because by it I see everything

else."
--C. S. Lewis

love,

jamie

thank you guys so much :]
everytime someone told me happy birthday, I smiled
so I guess I was smiling most of the day.

exams went well.
I made above 95's on everything

school was fun for the most
and laura came home with me afterward
we went to sonic
when we got to my house
we went wild and laughed our butts off.
ahaha, man I love that girl
then we dropped her off at her house so she could get ready
and then tiffany came over so we could give her a ride.
and me and tiffany probably laughed the whole 30 minutes
until we got into the car to go pick up laura.
we got to the church
and we met tyler there, who gave me a stuffed animal :]
how sweet.
then we headed off to kobe's
which daaaang, it was butt load of money
but I got cake for my birthday, heheh
oh I forget to mention,
I got to spend the whole night with my favorite guy.
and it made me not want to go home at all
okayokay, then we went to opry mills and opry land hotel
and got lost, how predictable. ahaha
*sighs* I wish it would have lasted longer.

but I loved my birthday.
even if things didnt happened that I wanted to
it was all wonderful
and I got to spend time with my amazing friends
and my sweet sweet guy.

okay well that's about it.
I'm fifteen, feeling pretty good
hopefully I'll get to hang out with Claire today

lovelovelove

one more day until my birthday.

heck yesssssssss

I woke up in a really good mood today.
I mean lately I have been in a good mood everyday
but this morning I woke up and I was like
"thank you God."
and I started singing in the shower.
it was kind of odd but...
I'd like to wake up like that everyday.
tomorrow I'll be in a really good mood
I just feel so blessed to be alive right now.
15 years, a great 15 years too
yeah, I've had my bad times
and I know bad times
but it's all wonderful right now
and that's what counts the most.

today was midterms x_x
gym and algebra today
theatre and espanol tomorrow
science and english monday.
phhhewww.
and I made not 600 cookies but more like 250
because we just couldnt make that many ahaha.
it was fun though
7 girls singing relient k.
that's hott

offcially tres days til my el birthday.

yeahyeah I am in Spanish but
it's just more fun making up your own little words.

my weeks plan;;

wednesday--
chuuuuurch

thursday--
midterms
staying after school to bake 600 dang cookies!

friday--
midterms
MY BIRTHDAY!
dinner/oprymill/ opryland hotel

I'm so excited about friday.
I'm going crazy just waiting for it to come around.

saturday--
hanging out with claaaaaire :]
well most likely

past events;;

Christmas parade--
it was fuun
I love dancing in it even though
I get sweaty and grosss.
afterward though we went to this church thing
but we got there at 5 and it started at 7
so we hung out at wendy's [me, paige, & tiffany]
wiiiiild.

okayokay. thanks for the comments.
I love yaaa.

hmm man I have way to much to do this week and next.

I have the Christmas parade.
I have my birthday
and then I have Christmas.

my life is still great though.

"love is when you're smiling even when you're tired"
--some 6 year old.
and that my kids, is very true.

everyone one is doing the
"what I am thankful for" entries
so, I shall like to do the same :]

I am thankful for the amazing God above
my true daddy-o, heh
who has unconditional love for me
and you has always been there for me
through the heart aches and the laughter
I just most of all want to thank Him
because..
He is the reason I have everything I have
and I know I dont deserve any of it.
but it's His amazing power and love
that lets me have all of it.

I am thankful for claire
she has been my best friend for 4 years
and she's stuck by me all this time
even when I was the hateful little brat I was
I love her more than she could ever know.
she's let me cry in front of her
and she's let me make a complete idiot out of myself.
no one can make me laugh like she can :]

I am thankful for my sister.
even though sometimes I'd like to choke her,
I love her very much ahaha
she's the only reason I come home
and when I go off to college, she'll be the
only reason I come back home.
we can sing and dance together
and it's just pure fun with her

I am thankful for all my other friends
like laura, tyler, josh, lareisa, alexanna,
rachel, abby, ste and many many more.
so many inside jokes and fun times
that I wouldnt trade for the world.
these people make me want to get up in the morning.

and now I am thankful for chad
I have done a lot of things to him
yet, he still likes me
he's into God and I love that
I'm always happy with him and I'm always laughing
yesterday, when I was feeling weird
I called him, and it was like everything
was a-okay :]
he's amazing and I hope everything works out.

last off I am thankful for being 15 and alive
I am happy God has kept me alive to experience
all of these wonderful things and getting to meet
all these spectaculor people..

you should be thankful too.
<3

xanger banger

have you ever had one of those days where..
you just do not feel yourself at all
I'm having one of those days today
actually, I had that day yesterday too.
usually I am ready to wake up in the morning
and I am happy..
but yesterday and today I didnt even want to wake up
no, I dont mean like I want to die
it's just I wanted to stay and bed all day
I am so happy at church
because that's where all my friends are
I am okay at school
because I dont know what I would do without laura or rachel
but I still feel by myself when I'm not with them
and at home, geez, I dont even want to be there anymore
that's why I try to be out all the time
and I joined dance again..
because it give me another reason to get away
and the three people who make me laugh
like actually laugh until my stomach hurts
they are people I dont get to see everyday
and it's them who I need at times like these..
my head has been hurting, I think I am sick
:/ ick

thanks and I love yaa.

I cant resist the day, no, I cant resist the day.

and I pray that it never fades.

love quotes::

"Love is smiling a lot even when your tired"
--a five year old kid

"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
--a lot like love

"May your loss be met with a hurricane of love"
--elizabeth town

"With this hand I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way into darkness"
--corpse bride

stole the first one from morgan :]
but she's right, it's true.

I havent stopped smiling yet.

you guys are utterly sweet.
thanks for the comments!
<3

moonlight madness was pretty fun
first we saw clemency,
a band that's still hott and rockin. aha
then we headed off to rock climbing
which I did not do because..
Jamie doesnt do heights. -_-
yeah, I considered it but everytime I looked up
I shook my headed and walked away ahaha.
for most of the time these I got to hang out
with Claire, Lauren, & John
which was fun because we have weird conversations.
we just layed around on these really comfortable mats
people are supposed to be falling on.
I got to spend a lot of time with Chad when he wasnt
climbing..ahaha ^_^
then Josh ruined it my sitting on me, thanks Josh.
next stop was lazer tag which I liked aha
because I could actually handle it.
but before we got there we had to walk at least
a block to get to where we wanted to go..and
let me remind you, we were in nashville at like 1:30
in the morning..that's when all the drunk people come out
and it scared me a little and I didnt make eye contact, ahaha
and I was b*sizzle and claire was flava flav.
fo sho, yo
ahahahah, I shot the crap out of chad one game
but he got me more..:shakes head:
I came last in that game ahaha
after a few games of lazer tag we all went to
jackson heights and watched princess bride.
I love that movie, it cracks me up
the last stop was lamar's.
donuts and coffee, which by the way
the coffee just makes you want to gag there,
so please dont drink it :]

oh chad if you are reading this 1] I did see that
homeless guy under the bridge 2] I was going to say
something really nice, but ohwell you dont believe me
3] I had a good time & you're right, I couldnt not
talk to you the whole trip..then it just wouldnt have been fun.

okayokay, I love you guys :]
but you're stinking at the comments..

I love this girl :] she's great

gangstaaaaaaaa

slideshow :]

ch-ch-check it out.

happy halloween!

^_^

mmmm candy.

time square can't shine as bright as you

I swear, it's true.

<3

this entry is to Claire. <3

I dont know but I was thinking about this today
and I think it's something you need to know.
maybe about 4 years ago, you asked me
"what would you do if I died?"
and I responded something like "I dont know"
being the drama queens we were, we got mad
but I know the answer to that question now
and I wanted to tell you.
if something bad happened &
me and you didnt get to grow old together
like we have planned our whole lives lol
I would be lost, at first.
for a few months..or even the whole year
I wouldnt know what to do
& I would probably call your house &
you wouldnt be there or I'd wait to see your s/n
& you would never get on..it would devastate me.
I could never replace you, that's for sure
but then I would try to live my life as normal as possible
because I know you of all people wouldnt want me
to be all depressed and moppy twenty-four, seven.
I will always miss you & think about you.
but I'll wait to see you again.
that's what I would do if you ever
left me here alone Claire.
but hopefully, it wont happen anytime soon
& we'll just keep growing together

I love you.

p.s congrat nathan & rachel ^_^

four years as bestfriends. I definately love this girl < 3

this week has been..

simply amazing. < 3

no joke. it may have been long
but this weekend was most definately
worth the wait :]

I think I may take some pictures.
I need to post new ones on here anyways.