♥...blue eyes...♥
Social
Relationship Status
Married
Highschool
IS BIG
College
Juilliard (I HOPE!)
Interests
God, music, drama, writing, dance, photography, art, reading, Steele, mime, horses, computers, being hilarious, watching movies, looking at the stars, horseback riding, clothes, germ-x, anti-algebra clubs, piano, emailing people, hanging w/ friends, talking to my friends, tennis, golf, athletes (mainly baseball players), singing, playing volleyball, talking, smiling, laughing, (lol)
Favorite Music
My mom, WAVORLY, Beethoven, Craig Morgan, Faith Hill, Brad Paisley, Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, Nickleback, U2, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Skillet, Chris Tomlin, Everlife, BarlowGirl, Superchic[k], Enrique Iglesias (lol), Alan Jackson, bluegrass, Alison Krauss, Loretta Lynn, LeAnn Rimes, Broken Heart (my parents), Lonestar, Jackson 5, James Brown, Aretha Franklin, Green Day, Hinder, All-American Rejects, Shania Twain, Lloyd, Will Smith, The Isaacs, Claire Lynch, Dolly Parton, Tim McGraw, Kenny Chesney, Jimmy Buffet, The Beatles, Rolling Stones, Vanessa Carlton, Evanescence, Mountain Heart, Steven Curtis Chapman, Phillips Craig and Dean, Rascal Flatts, Rhonda Vincent, Brad Russell, MercyMe, Casting Crowns, The Fray, Mat Kearney, Rebecca St. James, The Darins, Panic! At the Disco, Patsy Cline, Rascal Flatts, Shania Twain, Bon Jovi, Eric Clapton, Diamond Rio, Leeland, Kristian Stanfill, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Terri Clark, FM Static, Linkin Park, Fall Out Boy, Boys Like Girls, Fleetwood Mac
Favorite Movies
MOULIN ROUGE, Princess Bride, Benny and Joon, Benchwarmers, Napoleon Dynamite, RV, Back to The Future, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Flicka, Facing the Giants, Sahara, Stick it, John Tucker Must Die, The Wizard of Oz, The Cat in the Hat, The Spongebob Squarepants movie, Bring it On, Bring it On All or Nothing, The Three Musketeers, Chasing Liberty, Forrest Gump, Drumline, Remember the Titans, Kingdom of Heaven, Pirates of the Carribean, Cars, Meet the Robinsons, Day after Tomorrow, War of the Worlds, Forrest Gump, Center Stage, The Ghost in the Darkness (thanks Amber!), Delta Farce, Spiderman 1 2 and 3, Ice Princess, Uptown Girls, Miracle Run Myspace Graphics- At Myspacejunks.com
Favorite Books
Bible, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Loser, WHEN HITLER STOLE PINK RABBIT, Lord of the Rings, Junie B. Jones (lol), and so many more...i just have a lot of "random reads", To Kill a Mockingbird, Bridge to Teribithia, Dragon Rider, Chicken Soup books, Don't You Know There's a War on?, Boy at War, The BFG, George's Marvelous Medicine, The Witches, pretty much anything by roald dahl, The Horseshoe Trilogy
finally
July 25 2007
i FINALLY got my highlights done!!! it's really blonde...wow. i do NOT feel very well...i can't breathe! i didn't sleep lastnight...i think i'm an insomniac because that happens to me a WHOLE lot...what's up with you fun kiddo's? OH i wrote a poem in my time of not-sleeping lastnight...i think i remember it...
Love is...kissing the sky
touching a heart,
holding a hand,
caressing a thought,
Love is...thinking of you
wondering why,
your words broke my heart,
when you said goodbye,
Love's...an immaculate impulse,
a bittersweet notion,
the feeling inside you,
more than an emotion,
Love is...the feeling I have,
the feeling you don't,
I keep saying you will,
But my heart says you won't,
Love is...a push and a pull
A tight joint effort,
Knowing you can face,
Everything together...
WOW I REMEMBERED IT!!!
well that's about all...remember-life's too short to not have fun!
:P
just some random thoughts
July 24 2007
well.......i'm dealing with a lot right now. stuff i really don't like dealing with...but i guess you don't ever really like problems, huh? my uncle and his family left today. i am so scared of high school...oh speaking of high school i think i might end up going to creekwood instead of DCHS...yup. i would be fine if i just stopped life right here and fast forwarded to when i'm out of college...i don't think i've ever been so scared in my entire life. and i don't have too many friends left to go through this with. i think i might give up phusebox for good now...if you haven't noticed, i'm just typing whatever pops into my head...except for some things because i don't want to offend anyone. maybe i should just say it...naaaah. all this seems to be doing is frustrating me. i miss a lot of people...like my best friend and keri and megan...but i miss people that i still see a lot too...i miss the way they used to act, the way it used to be. but i guess everyone's changing and that's something i just have to deal with. but i don't want to lose the few friends i have left. i'm tired of it and i wish there was something i could do to stop it but there's not, is there? well...je suis dans l'amour...and it's making me confused!
I get carried away by the look by the light in your eyes
Before I even realize the ride I'm on baby I'm long gone
I get carried away
Nothin' matters but bein' with you
Like a feather flyin' high up in the sky on a windy day,
I get carried away...
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NOTHING MATTERS BUT BEING WITH YOU
crazy
July 22 2007
wow
July 20 2007
when you're gone...
July 19 2007
-amore-
July 19 2007
i don't know why i titled this entry '-amore-' i just did. i wish that when i talked or tried to explain something i actually made sense sometimes. cuz the stuff i say actually makes sense to me and a few other people that are wierd like me...or just know me really well. what i'm about to TRY to say is probably not going to make ANY sense. so brace yourselves. have you ever been in a position where you are so sure of something that nothing can change your mind except for yourself? like you are so sure but then you start thinking and you aren't so sure anymore. ugh i hate that because i feel like that A LOT. it's quite frustrating. well anyway, i guess i will just write. i haven't done that all summer so this could be kinda long. my uncle is coming from texas tomorrow. i really miss him...he has two daughters. i've only seen one of them and she is 3...the other one was born while i was in Hawaii and the only thing i know is that she has dark hair...and i know her name, of course. I really love my uncle. He is so tall!!!! He's 6'10"...i hope i got some tallness from that side of the family. if i have it's not quite kicking in yet. it all goes to my feet...lol. but what is so great about my uncle is that he is funny...i love to laugh! this is a kinda pointless entry. that brings me to another wish...i wish i had some meaningful thoughts every now and again...maybe i do. *GASP!!!* I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING!!! i have not posted ANY of my poems on here...wow. that's absolutely...strange. so here's one i did a little while back.
"To Not Feel Love..."
To not feel love is not to feel life
To not feel pain is not to feel strife
To not feel confusion is not to feel real
To not feel real is not to feel love
To not feel heartache is not to feel adoration
To not feel anger is not to feel irritation
To not feel pity is not to feel compassion
To not feel compassion is not to feel love
To not feel betrayal is not to feel lies
To not feel awe is not to feel alive
To not feel sad is not to feel hurt
To not feel hurt is not to feel love.
so...yeah that's about all.
When I'm lost, in the rain...In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way...When I'm scared, losing ground. When My world is going crazy, you can turn it all around. And when I'm down, you're there-pushing me to the top...you're always there giving me all you've got. For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm...I turn to you. For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on. For everything you do, I turn to you...well enough of me boring you...go on with your lives now. sorry to waste your time!!!!
dang
July 18 2007
YOU LINT LICKER
July 18 2007
haha
July 17 2007
"If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. Don't skip songs.
---Eh, sometimes repeat artists come up.... skip it or keep it. . .whatever
Opening Credits
In The Jungle - Artist Unknown
Waking Up
"Boulevard of Broken Dreams" Green Day
First Day at School
"Not Ready to Make Nice" Dixie Chicks
Breaking up
"Where You Are" Rascal Flatts (gosh i got a twisted life)
Happiness
"Bicycle Race" Queen
Life's Okay
"My Immortal" Evanescence
Mental Breakdown
"Complicated" Avril Lavigne
Driving
"Born to be Wild" Steppenwolf?
Flashback
"Hips Don't Lie" Shakira
Getting Back Together
"Barbie Girl" Aqua
Wedding
"I Could Get Used to This" Everlife
Birth of a Child
"White and Nerdy" Wierd Al (OMG!!!!) haha
Final Battle
"Run it!" Chris Brown
Death Scene
"Temperature" Sean Paul...lol
Funeral Song
"Homecoming" Rhonda Vincent...wow that's perfect
So Long
"Ms. New Booty" Bubba Sparxxx (lol)
dang it
July 16 2007
bsb r back...lol
July 16 2007
aggrivation
July 15 2007
i am very upset.
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It was all so crystal clear, words like music in my ear...we had it goin' on, but something's wrong...something's changed
Cuz when I'm with you these days, you feel a million miles away, connection's not so strong, what's goin' on? What's going on??? Cuz every time I try to talk to you, I end up feeling so confused...like you can't hear a word I'm saying...when I try to get close to you, I'm having trouble getting through, I can't stand it, it's so tragic, I feel static between us.
You turn your back then you take my hand, It's getting hard to understand...is it you, or is it me? Is it time or space you need? When you're here, you're not around...communication breaking down! If I say goodbye to you, will that get through? Will that get through??? Cuz Every time i try to talk to you...I end up feeling so confused, like you can't hear a word I'm saying...when I try to get close to you, I'm having trouble getting through. I can't stand it, it's so tragic...I feel static between us.
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so, this has been my life since wednesday. i'm really confused and...well that's about it. So yeah. um...how are ya'll? Sorry this is kinda depressing but about the only thing i've done that's been interesting was the going-away thing and working in nursery today. and that's all. yeah i know...boring. well...yeah
yesssss
July 12 2007
woo
July 12 2007
Mark the things that you have:
[x] A mom
[x] A dad
[ ] Stepmom
[] Stepdad
[x] A younger brother
[] A younger sister
[ ] An older brother
[ ] An older sister
[x] Grandfather
[x] Grandmother
[X] Cousins
[ ] Half-brother
[] Half-sister
[] Stepbrother
[] Stepsister
[ ] Brother-in-law
[ ] Sister-in-law
[ ] Niece
[] Nephew
1. Are you a child of the 70s, 80s, or 90s?
90's
2. Where were you born?
a hospital
3. What city did you grow up in?
dickson
4. did you have a good childhood?
i don't remember it so i can't answer this question
5. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
well...i wanted to be a lot of things but the 3 i mainly remember are a janitor (because i read a junie b jones book and she wanted to be a janitor...and i wanted to be junie b jones...so yeah) and a makeup artist (3rd grade) and then a singer which is still what i want to be
6. What do you want to be now
um...a lot of things...a better person for one
7. Name the first memorable vacation you took as a kid?
canada
8. What was your first best friend’s name?
-Keri
9. Are they still your friend?
-yes they are
10. Can you name all the schools you ever attended?
oakmont elementary and dms
11. Were you closer to your mom or dad as a kid?
-i don't know
12. What was the first record, tape or CD you remember buying?
-probaby nsync or backstreet boys
13. How old were you when u first heard of chuck norris?
-very young
14. Are you scared of anything?
-yes i am scared of rejection
15. How old were you when you wanted to get your ears pierced for the 2nd time?
- like 10
16. Did you buy school lunch or bring your own?
-both...
17. Broken any bones or had any freaky accidents as a kid?
-no not really
18. Were you a mean kid?
-sometimes
19. Favorite board game of all of time?
-probably clue
20. Did you play house or pretend to be a super hero?
-wow...i definitely played both
21. What was your favorite class in elementary school?
-not math...never has been. um probably art or music
22. Seriously, are you still just a kid at heart?
-of course
23. Did you ever come close to dying?
-no i didn't...i don't think
24. When you were little did you ever do drugs?
nope didn't do that either
DILEMMA
July 11 2007
so i have a little bit of a dilemma...not a big one...a little one! I was asked to sing special music a LONG time ago at my church. They keep asking me because apparently they want me to sing...duh. But I am never ready or not here or sick or something and now I've finally figured out what I want to do. But...I don't want to do it by myself so I've gotta figure out someone to sing it with. There's my dilemma. Do I choose my mom and maybe ask Lane to do sign language or...(I'm not sure Lane would to this but...) ask Lane to sing with me and get someone else to do sign language or have no sign language...AAAH!!! Oh, since we're on the subject...I want to sing 'I Surrender All'. There's a version that a bluegrass group called the Isaacs does and it is SO beautiful. Oh And I want to sing it a capella..(that means no music)...but I'm not sure If I can do that...but if this falls through then we start over with the "not here, sick, not ready" thing. GRR. I really want to sing for my church but something like this always happens. Wow. But It is so beautiful the way they sing it and I just LOVE it. Yes, it's an old hymn but I think it can have the same power and effect as any other song. I'm purty excited about youth group tonight..but I always am so that's nothin' new. I don't want to read those two stupid books that I have to read for high school...but I have to read them! So I guess I'll get to that...eventually. Gosh I am a procrastinator. Well...I guess I'll talk to you people later. Or now...or whatever.
~carmen luvs austin~
p.s. hey austin make sure you bring your hat to youth group... :P
well then
July 10 2007
so...my week was...let's just say it was AMAZING...well for the most part...except for the sunburn part. but it doesn't hurt anymore. and wow this is a lot shorter that i thought...but that's okay. how was your week? funny, no one ever really answers that question when you ask it. i really didn't mean for this to be so pointless...or short...or boring. but i don't have much else to say. except i heard a song just a minute ago and...i loved it it was so sweet. wow....great. okay bye
haha there's a school bus in the background...lol
why not
July 09 2007
so anyway...here goes nothing.
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Whats your favorite color?? orange
Do you like to swim?? um yeah
Do you want to stay where you are or move?? i want to move but not like far away...just somewhere...else
Do you like to take pictures?? OF COURSE
Do you have a camera/iPod?? i own both
Do you love someone?? um yeah i do
Do they love you back?? no they don't...
If you had a million dollars what would you do with it?? i would...i don't know anymore
If your happy and you know it what do you do?? i sing the song
Do you like toast?? sorta...sometimes
What are you wearing?? jeans and a t-shirt
Before you took this what were you doing?? cleaning
DO you play any sports?? no
What is your favorite Food like Mexican, Cajun, Italian ect. ?? Italian cuz it's fancy...well sometimes
If you could be doing anything right now what would it be?? living my dreams
Do you think surveys are gay?? sometimes
Do you like to stay inside or go outside?? well what might the circumstances be??
Have you ever been outside of the country?? uh huh...CANADA
Have you ever flown?? only once
If you could have 1 super power what would it be?? i wish i could make people accept me...or love me...or whatever
my autobiography
July 03 2007
Fill this out in YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as "My Autobiography"
Prologue 1. Where did you take your default pic? in my back yard
2. What exactly are you wearing right now? some maroon cheer shorts and an orange tank top thing
3. What is your current problem? i have lots
4. What makes you most happy? being with austin
5. What’s the name of the song that you're listening to? When I Said I Do by Clint Black and Lisa Hartman Black AWW
6. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away? yes 7. Do you ever watch MTV? uh sometimes
8. What’s something that really annoys you? i can't think of it right now
Chapter 1:
1. Middle name: unknown to mankind
2. Nickname(s): carmel, macchiato, carmel macchiato
3. Current place? office
4. Eye color: blue
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1. Do you live with your parents? yes
2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?sometimes
3. Are your parent’s married/separated/divorced? married
4. Do you have any Siblings? 1..but he's not a sibling...i don't know what he is
----------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 3: Favorite...
1. Ice Cream: mint chocolate chip
2. Season: winter
----------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Write on your hand: yes i do in fact...well sometimes
2. Call people back: no no one ever calls me
3. Believe in love: yes how could you not
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed? huh
5. Have any bad habits? i guess
6. Any mental health issues? um...yeah.
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Chapter 5: Have You....
1. Broken a bone: no, surprisingly. as many times as I've fallen on my face the answer is still no.
2. Bought new stuff in the last two weeks: yeah i guess
3. Had physical therapy?: no
4. Gotten stitches: yes
5. Taken painkillers? yes
6. Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling: i went scuba diving in neely's pool! lol
7. Been stung by a bee? yes i am allergic
8. Thrown up at the dentist: no but i've yelled at the dentist
9. Ever sworn in front of your parental. no siree
10. Had detention: uh uh
11. Been sent to the principal's office? yeah but not for a bad thing
12. Been suspended: NO
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Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1. Movie(s) you watched?: Titanic
2. Person to text you: um...i don't text cuz i don't have a stupid phone yet
3. Person you called: i can't remember
4. Person you hugged? neely
5. Last person you tackled: i don't quite remember...
6. Thing you touched: well by the time this is done it will have been the letter or key z.
7. Thing you ate: cheerios
8. Thing you drank: regular milk
9. Time you cried: lasnight
10. Wished on a star: lastnight.
nevermind
July 03 2007
my heart will go on
July 02 2007
yeah, I know, I already told you about my Titanic adventure...but I couldn't resist this. It's so sweet...awww.