Another Soldier Down by The Isaacsi love this song.  please listen to it!!!  it's called "Another Soldier Down" by the Isaacs.  it's bluegrass but it's aboslutely wonderful!

so there's a lot of things coming up that i'm pretty dang excited about!!!  i get to be in the pageant...i get to be a model, i get my ring, i am going to virginia, tyler's coming, and it's almost my birthday!!!  ugh i am so tired.  gatlinburg is tiring.  whew...need sleep.  how was everyone's weekend?  mine was long...and tiring...did i mention that i was tired?  haha did you know that it takes me like 10 minutes to make a thought because my thoughts come and go and a lot of times i don't have any?  haha. 

"When it comes to friends, it's not the quantity that counts...it's the quality."

-Unknown

SO true.

i'm going to be somewhere this weekend with no internet...grawr.  so please i beg you call me or something.  thanks

oh if you don't know my cell # just message me or email me or something.

hey kiddos i went to the football game for like 45 minutes today...and when i left it was 28 to ZIPPO.  then we came back when it was over and the score was like...41 to 0...i think.  but anyway

all you cool kiddos that go to my school please PLEASE vote for me for freshman homecoming attendant!!!  THANX

well this love post is a little overdue.  but i was looking through some stuff and i found this and i thought it was a pretty cool little free verse poem...so yeah

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Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse of impossibility...It is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things, and warrants them to take effect, where he who does not love would faint and lie down.  Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.

Though weary, it is not tired; though pressed, it is not sraightened; though alarmed, it is not confounded.  Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top, the view is beautiful.  Love that is true never grows old.  True love reminds you that nothing else matters.  A Friend's Love says: "If you ever need anything,

I'll be there."  True Love says: "You'll never need anything; I'll be there."  Love is a decision, not an emotion or feeling, that if made from the heart will outlast anything.  Love is more than a feeling; it's a state of mind.  Love is what makes a weak man brave and a king step off his throne.

Good times, bad times,

easy times, tough times,

it comes in an instant

and lasts three days after forever...That's what love is.

for those of you that didn't know...i'm learning a song in italian called "Time to Say Goodbye"...it is more of an opera style song but not for me...i just sing. and it's a duet in this video but i probably won't sing it like that...still don't know what i'm singing it for...how bout fun? oh yeah this is sarah brightman and andrea bocelli...he is blind.

Dancing With God
 When I meditated on the word  Guidance,
I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.  
 I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.  
 When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.  
 The movement doesn't flow with the music,  
 and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.  
 When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead,  
 both bodies begin to flow with the music.  
 One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back  
 or by pressing Lightly in one direction or another.  
 It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully.  
 The dance takes surrender, willingness,  
 and attentiveness from one person  
 and gentle guidance and skill from the other.  
 My eyes drew back to the word  Guidance.  
 When I saw "G": I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i".  
 "God, "u" and "i" dance."  
 God, you, and I dance.  
 As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust  
 that I would get  guidance about my life.  
 Once again, I became willing to let God lead.  
 My prayer for you today is that God's blessings  
 and mercies are upon you on this day and everyday.  
 May you abide in God, as God   abides in you.!  
 Dance together with God, trusting God to lead  
 and to guide you through each season of your life.  
 This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached.  
 If God has done anything for  you in your life,  
 please share this message with someone else.  
There is no cost but a lot of rewards;  
 so let's continue to pray for one another.  
 And I Hope You Dance !

you know that gut feeling i had?  it wasn't a good gut feeling.

love shack baby....

When trying to hide my deep pain, I somehow always end up thinking of you

...how you left without even a last trace of a smile or...anything

While trying to fight the feelings I can't stand, I remember the times we used to have together

...knowing we could have had something good but now it's...gone

Forsaking my smile to work on my frown, it's harder each time I laugh out of pity for myself

...hearing people's real joy and sadly finding that I have...none

When I see your sweet smile every single day, I look back and think about how childish I am

...thinking how I could have possibly been depressed when you were....mine

But, now, you're not mine anymore and I can't seem to see the present for what it is

...imagining that you are still here, that this can't possibly be

reality.

 

 

...random...

it is late and i am up

you say hey and i say sup

i really want to go to wal mart

so i can ride in the shopping cart

this is a poem with some words

all my friends are silly nerds

i don't really mean that i'm just joking

it's only fun that i am poking

that line was stupid and so are you

i'm a llama and i say moo

okay that was stupid like your jokes

you'll get fat if you drink too many cokes

no i don't mean that you're really not dumb

it really is late and my brain is quite numb

i just wrote this poem on a whim

i like to drink milk, particularly skim

that was really random and i'm crazy

if you look outside, the sky is kinda hazy

this is kinda long but i'm really bored

don't fear, its the end you're coming toward

i'm running out of rhymes, of things to say

i think i'll sleep now

have a nice day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay go me...that's my late night poem

-love austin-

i'm quite confused.

okay i don't know how many of you know this but i'm in the drama club at school as of last wednesday...and our spring musical is (DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!).....

THE WIZARD OF OZ!!!  i want to be dorothy...well duh i wanna be dorothy...i really hope i get it.  but hardly any freshmen get parts.  OH WELL...maybe i will!  i just really wanna sing "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" and skip on some yellow bricks while watching some small people sing about lollipops and munchkin-ness...haha.  SOOOO how's the week been for you cool kiddos?  mines been alright...as alright as it can be i guess...well not really.  i hope everyone's week is good and if it's not i hope you have the faith to know tomorrow will be better!!!  because let me tell you my week is not going so great...my whole LIFE is not going so swell right now but i've noticed that when i have a positive attitude it at least seems better even if it's really not.  well anyway...i guess that's all!

p.s.-for those of you that do not know what a thespian is...it's an actor or actress...of or partaining to dramatics!!! WOO!!!  okay well yeah.

(thespians do it on stage.)

i have so many mixed emotions right now.  i'm confused and hurt and ashamed and happy and all of it all in one!  well i guess....i dont' know! 

so how ya been?  i think i might put up one of my poems that i just wrote...only megan and gen have read it...wait did megan read it??  dunno.  oh well

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"You have to believe it and you hate it, but I don't have to believe it and I think it's beautiful..."

-Leslie, Bridge to Terabithia

(that's from the movie and three kids are in the back of a truck talking about the Bible.  don't we all know that's an interesting conversation.)

-still love austin-

My Rhapsody Playlist

i love these

this is my short playlist on rhapsody and i really like these songs....especially the jessica simpson one!!!  it's so sweet.  okay well yeah.

okay why is everyone doing a bunch of posts about love???  CONFUSED!!  but whatever.  what the heck...

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so how has everyone's week been?  i'm very tired...and kinda nervous...i'm gonna be in the FAIREST OF THE FAIR..but for sure this time!  i REALLY want to know which musical we are doing this year in drama...i want a part in it so bad!  but i heard from some drama people that freshmen don't get big parts, if they're lucky, they'll get like an understudy or just a side/crowd person.  dang.  O WELL...i can still try and be confident!  i'm so bored....yawn.  :O...BORED!!  i hate geometry...i really don't like that teacher.  if it wasn't for that class and sometimes choir, school would be good!!!  and i wish i had more than like 1 friend in my lunch shift...but i'll have at least one that i know of next semester...O WELL.  have you ever had a feeling, sorta like a hunch, and it makes you nervous but you don't know what for?  well that's how i feel right now.  i don't know why i have a major case of butterflies, but i do!!!  maybe something good's gonna happen...i hope so.  well i guess that's about all.  ugh so bored...UGH.

i love this song...it cheers me up a little. 

"cuz an empty room can be so loud, there's too many tears to drown them out so hold on, hold on

when you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love, have faith restart just hold on, hold on..."

HOLD ON!!!

nick (the curly headed, young, cute one) well his solo gives me goosebumps

okay i'm just going to say...i am very hurt right now. this is no one's business except mine elizabeths and maybe austins. there was no need for everyone else to get involved...yes i know about my post but everyone else didn't need to make it a big honkin deal. thanks yall i just want to say i'm sorry for being immature. i'm not going to put up something on dating because i know where i stand and thats...whatever. my heart is broken right now so if you could find it in yours, please pray for me. thanks...for real. i've never been like this before...i don't honestly care about too much. i feel very apathetic and a tad worthless. i miss my friendships that i've destroyed and possible relationships that i've messed up and couldv'e possibly been in...so please. this is no cry for attention or anything just please i'm so sorry you guys don't know how sorry i am for causing all this and i'm so tired of it...i'm so hurt and confused right now i don't think i'm exactly conscious of what i'm doing. so please forgive me and pray for me... please.

haha i learned something in geometry today!!  (surprise surprise)... "~" that symbol is a tilda or something and it means not...so when my screen name was ~carmen luvs austin~ it really said not carmen luvs austin not.  but it's a double negative so i guess it cancels it out...lol!  so i am really REALLY busy.  i got my wrist brace and it doesn't seem to help much...it hurts and it makes it hard to do stuff.  :(  well anyway i start piano and so i'm gonna be a bad kid and not wear it...and then i have to go sign up for the fairest of the fair pageant...ALL of you cool kids are gonna be there or else.  AND then tomorrow i have play auditions and stuff and then thursday i...there's something going on i just don't know what...BUSY!!!  ugh.  and then it starts all over next week!  woo...~.  (haha).  well how's your week been thus far?  i'm trying out for freshman honors choir...and then i want to follow in my mom's footsteps and get 1st chair in mid-state choir next year...but i REALLY want first chair in ALL STATE...just because that's better.  well okay

*-*carmen luvs austin*-*

"If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.  If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.  Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts and always perserveres.  Love never fails.  But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.  When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.  When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.  Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.  And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.  But the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians 13

I love this!

hey y'all...what's poppin?  i had a really long, but fun day!  i have found that the scarf i got for my birthday is my lucky scarf.  as soon as i took it off today (ice skating) i fell and hurt my wrist real bad.  (just take a guess who gave that to me... <3)  well anyway i got to wear a wedding dress today and i took fun pictures...i felt really pretty!  but it did kinda bunch up around my stumik...lol!  happy birthday grace....thinking of something to say...lalala.  i'll put pictures on here on monday...just not now!  i am now married...grace.  haha that's a sorta long story.  i don't want to tell it.  can't wait till the first football game...can't wait till monday...can't wait till birthday...CAN'T WAIT.  okay i have absolutely nothing else in my head.  except a small brain...OH we went to the parthenon in centennial park it was pretty dang cool.  kick awesum...wow haven't heard that in a while.  okay enough of this rambling...i'm done now.

~carmen loves austin~