so i have a little bit of a dilemma...not a big one...a little one!  I was asked to sing special music a LONG time ago at my church.  They keep asking me because apparently they want me to sing...duh.  But I am never ready or not here or sick or something and now I've finally figured out what I want to do.  But...I don't want to do it by myself so I've gotta figure out someone to sing it with.  There's my dilemma.  Do I choose my mom and maybe ask Lane to do sign language or...(I'm not sure Lane would to this but...) ask Lane to sing with me and get someone else to do sign language or have no sign language...AAAH!!!  Oh, since we're on the subject...I want to sing 'I Surrender All'.  There's a version that a bluegrass group called the Isaacs does and it is SO beautiful.  Oh And I want to sing it a capella..(that means no music)...but I'm not sure If I can do that...but if this falls through then we start over with the "not here, sick, not ready" thing.  GRR.  I really want to sing for my church but something like this always happens.  Wow.  But It is so beautiful the way they sing it and I just LOVE it.  Yes, it's an old hymn but I think it can have the same power and effect as any other song.  I'm purty excited about youth group tonight..but I always am so that's nothin' new.  I don't want to read those two stupid books that I have to read for high school...but I have to read them!  So I guess I'll get to that...eventually.  Gosh I am a procrastinator.  Well...I guess I'll talk to you people later.  Or now...or whatever.

~carmen luvs austin~

p.s. hey austin make sure you bring your hat to youth group... :P