hey you fun children! 

"Don't try and rush love...give it time and it will grow into exactly what you planted."  CARMEN

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So I was at neely's lastnight and we watched Titanic.  I had forgotten how sweet a love story that was.  It was so hard to remember that it was just a story because it was so REAL.  I cried even though I told myself I wouldn't. 

"IF YOU JUMP, I JUMP" Jack to Rose...aww.

There was one more line that was in the movie a couple times and these both just stood out to me.  I thought they were super cute. 

"Never let go..." jack to rose/rose to jack

Well this is pretty pointless but i just wanted to write about it.  oh and i went to a pool party and i actually played kickball!!!  omg.  oh and for all you people who know how pale i am...i went swimming today and i got a tan!!!  just barely but it's there!!!!!!!!!!!!  AAAAAAH!...okay well i'm gonna work on it.  i WILL be darker than what I am now because you can see through me.  tehe. 

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"He'd never tell you, but he can play guitar...I think he can see through everything but my heart.  First thought when I wake up is "My God he's beautiful" so I put on my makeup and pray for a miracle.  Yes, I could tell you his favorite color's green.  He loves to argue, oh and it kills me.  His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes...if you asked me if I love him...I'd lie."

...cowboy take me away...

grr...stupid slow computer.  Neely gave me her iPod so i could put some of her songs on there for her because her computer is too old..and she doesn't know how.  Well, it's taken about 15 minutes and i'm not even done with the first cd yet.  I was thinking to myself "What have I done?  I hope there's not a bunch of cd's"  well i just counted them...there's 29.  well, it's all for a good friend, i guess.  maybe i should have taken the payment she offered me...but heck i get a bunch of new songs to give to kaelynn!  woo.  yeah whatever.

okay, this is NOT my 4th entry of the day...it's almost 4 o clock in the morning on Wednesday!  So booyah.

I got inspired to write my life story so far...plus i don't have much else to do.

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WEll, where should I begin?  I KNOW!  I'll start with my parents.  My mom and dad were married on September 1st in 1988.  (I think...I'm not very good with dates and such.)  My mom gave birth to a pretty little girl with white blonde hair on November the 22nd, 1993 (me, duh.).  I was born so close to Thanksgiving...in fact, this year (2007) I will be celebrating my birthday on the fine holiday.  A few years before I was borned, my dad's mom, (My Mimi) died of brain cancer.  I never got to meet her but that's where I got my pure, low singing voice.  Then, a few weeks before I was born, my Granny was proudly pronounced a breast cancer survivor.  She still tells me to this day how happy she was to be able to hold me.  I don't remember much from when I was a baby, of course...let's see...ah, Burns, TN.  We lived in a little house in Burns; me, my mom, and my dad.  Then my brother was born on June 18th, 1997.  The house was getting too small.  I don't remember too much about the move except I DID NOT want to leave my Lion King room.  That same summer, my family and I went to Michigan, New York, Canada, and every state between.  WE didn't fly, we drove-in an old "air-conditioning impaired" woody Jeep.  I remember swimming at my aunt Marty's lake.  And I remembe the BIG, orange moon.  Then, that August I started school at the age of 4.

 

 

 

 i can't flippin delete this stupid blank entry dang it

hey guys can you pray for my cousin(s)....one of them is going through something that i can not say on here...and shawna, the redhead, is having bad stomach pains and she keeps running out of breath so if you don't mind please pray for them!  thanks

hey people this is a band called "FM static" and they are SO awesome!  They aren't very well known but they really should be...i introduced them to my friends at school and they all said they really liked them...they are REALLY good...AND I LOVE THIS SONG. 

p.s. keri i need my CD back

~carmen loves...~

well i can't believe i'm going to be doing that three times this summer.  i'm not overjoyed, to say the...most.  i miss my friends.  i took a lot of pictures...and that's about the most fun thing i did...OH YEAH i got 3 new shirts...one is really cute and i think i'll wear it to the movies next time i go...and one is orange and it says "My imaginary friend just beat up your imaginary friend"  OMGosh i love it.  Then the other one is just army green and it says old navy in camo letters...i just got that one cuz i didn't like any of the other ones and the deal was '2 for 12'...so yeah...i'm a bargain shopper!  I'm working tomorrow and tuesday and probably a lot this summer and most likely after school once it starts.  this is supposed to be about pigeon forge but i get sidetracked plus there's not much to say.  except they have the most frickin' awesome mr. gatti's in the whole world...yeah.  i got some new size 11 flip flops...not that you really care to know that...but just sayin'.  OH we did my absolute favorite thing we do when we go to p.f. and that's mining for gems...well sorta like panning.  I got some garnet and i think that's super pretty.  i want a ring.  i got one of every gem...birthstone really, and i even got ruby!!!  we have so many stones.  i think i will give some away.  or figure out how to make them into jewelery.  whatever.  and i wanted this anklet that had peace signs on it but my mom said that someone might think i was smoking something.  i think that's zaney.  they had the most beautiful porcelain (and not porcelain) dolls i have ever seen in my life.  i loved them~i collect porcelain (and not porcelain) dolls if you didn't know~.  well i think i'm gonna go now.

so right now i'm eating pez and thinking of austin and his hello kitty pez dispenser.  lol (inside joke)

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1. Hi my name is...... carmen

2. Never in my life have I...... ran across the street to tell that old lady to turn down that darn tupac music because it's annoying
3. The one person who can drive me nuts is.........everyone annoys me sometimes
4. High school........is scary and i want it to die
5. When I'm nervous........i bite my fingers (knuckles, actually)
6. The last time I cried was.........a few days ago or something like that

7. If I were to get married right now my wedding party would be..........which one? the reception or rehearsal dinner or what?  well the dinner party would be at SHOGUN
8. My hair is....sandy blonde and shoulder length cuz i chopped 4 and a half inches off
9. When I was 5..........i was in 1st grade
10. Last Christmas........i got a camera and Grace still won't let me photograph her brilliantly beautiful face
11. I should be....in 7th grade...but i'm in 8th cuz i'm cool like that
12. When I look down I ......see my big gynormous huge size 10 1/2 feet. that i trip over a lot.
13. The craziest recent event was....probably neely's party

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be...Pheobe...definitely
15. By this time next year......i will almost be a sophomore...scary!!!  *shudders*
16. My current gripe is......i don't want to go to silly high school and i don't want anyone to move away dang it
18. There's this girl I know who...likes this guy

19. You know I like you when...i tell you i like you
20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be......some random hobo on the street probably; knowing me
21. Take my advice...don't eat soap...it tastes bad
22. My most wanted item is...does a person count? lol probably a phone which i am getting in like a few weeks or a car cuz i want a car real bad
23. If you visited the place I was born...um...you would be in nashville.
24. I plan to....take pictures all my life and read all my life and love all my life and become a literature teacher for the rest of my life.  (but i want to sing more than anything in the world.) and i want to get married and have a family and be rich.  but those are MY plans.
25. If you spend the night at my house...um you wouldn't.  unless you're neely
26. I'd stop my wedding if....i tripped walking down the aisle and landed on the flowergirl who threw the basket of rose petals at the ring bearer and the ring flies off the pillow and hits the groom in the eye so in his state of dilemma he flails his arms around and smacks the first bridesmaid causing a domino effect on all the bridesmaids and the last one lands in the groom's father's lap.
27. The world could do without...well not me definitely
28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than...shop at gap, old navy, kirklands, or any of multiple shoe stores.
29. Most recent thing I've bought myself...coffee
30. Most recent thing someone else bought me...coffee
31. My favorite blonde is...myself.  or rilee
32. My favorite brunette is...austin...or tobey mcguire (SPIDERMAN) or that guy from smallville...yeah.  but austin's my favorite

33. My favorite redhead is...i know lots and i love them all.  well they make me jealous because i want red hair...but i still love them!
34. My middle name is...unknown to mankind
35. This morning I...ate some cereal

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are...children

37. Once, at a bar...i met this guy named enrique and we stole his brother's car and tried to jump the border but we hit a squirrel and fishtailed into the rio grande and it took us to baja california so we looked for a taco bell and we found one but i wasn't hungry so we drove up to canada and we ordered some sweet tea but they looked at us like we were idiots so we ordered a biscuit but they dont know what that is either so we left and we drove back to new york to ride niagara falls but little did we know that's not a rollercoaster so we drove BACK to our little bar and enrique fell asleep, leaving me alone in the stolen car with smushed squirrel on the front to go wherever i please, so i went to england to meet the queen who arrested me for stealing a car.  but a lot of that wasn't in the bar, so really i just met a guy named enrique.
38. Last night I was...at six flags riding the go-karts

39. There's this guy I know who...likes this girl
40. I don't know...lots of things, really.  why everyone is leaving me dang it

41. A better name for me would be...smarticus piano head singing cat dog mail carrier's dog's grandma's wife's brother's mime.
42. Tomorrow I am...going to be in gatlinburg...hopefully ice skating or something
43. My birthday is...your favorite holiday

44. What I really want for Valentine's Day is...a valentine: austin

45. I am allergic to....my brother 

so this is the third time i've had to type this.  so read it.  i'm about to go to gatlinburg and i'm not particularly excited except for the fact that i get to go ice skating and play tennis and take lots of pretty pictures.  but anyway...i miss my awesome friends.  we all need to get together and do something this summer...like see a movie or something.  so i guess i'll talk to you people about my mini-vacation when i get back.  OH YEAH my aunt is opening this children's boutique thing and i get to work and MODEL her fall line.  i've always wanted to do something like that but never got the chance.  so it's here and i get money!  i like money and i like the stuff i buy with it.  but anyway...I LOVE YOU PEOPLE, especially one of you

~carmen loves austin~ BYE

i am so bored so this is a video from one of my favorite shows "Smallville" with the song "Hero"...yeah...i like this show and we all know i love Superman... :P

 

There were bells on the hill
But I never heard them ringing,
No, I never heard them at all
Till there was you.

There were birds in the sky
But I never saw them winging
No, I never saw them at all
Till there was you.

And there was music,
And there were wonderful roses,
They tell me,
In sweet fragrant meadows of dawn, and dew.

There was love all around
But I never heard it singing
No, I never heard it at all
Till there was...you!

okay...so the past few months i have really been struggling with life, basically.  the past week or two has been going absolutely WONDERFUL.  It got to the point for me that i realized the only true stronghold i have is God.  So I turned to Him and, of course, that worked.  I just wish I would have surrenderred EVERYTHING to Him before now.  Because I've realized that's so much easier than trying to fix stuff by myself.  In fact, I can't fix things.  My life has gotten so much better.  It feels so good to not be all stressed out.  Now I'm just worried about school...but I know it will all work out.  I can't even describe how awesome I feel right now.  I'm so happy.  Like, truly joyful.  Well, this is a little longer than what I planned on, but I guess that's okay.  HAPPINESS IS THE FOUNTAIN OF YOUTH

p.s. I really like that song "Everytime I Breathe" by Big Daddy Weave.

~carmen loves austin~ (actually she loves all of you!)

okay i was talking to someone...it was some of my cousin's friends...they are only 10.  and they were asking me about the person i liked!  one of the first statements that popped up was "He must be really cute!"  and so they were all like "my boyfriend is cute" and blah blah blah!  And the first thought that came into my mind was "okay you're ten you don't need a boyfriend" but i figured i couldn't control that.  so i tried to help them in the long-run by saying "You should look for the best in people; not look for the people with the best looks."  I felt smart!!  hehe.  but anyway.  i don't know why i posted this but i just really like that new quote of mine.

thanks for reading this...cuz you're probably really bored now

p.s. i am really going to miss you people that are going to 86 hours!!!  (one in particular) but i love all of you and i hope God does something amazing in each of your lives

 

i like this picture

 

 haha when you deny a friend request it comes up in big happy green letters:

Friendship has been denied!

sorry i just thought that was kinda funny.... 

so this weekend was really fun for me!!!  i almost broke my nose, but that wasn't the fun part.  i got to hang out with all my friends and...i got to see austin.  which, was, not exactly how i pictured it, but i'm okay.  i saw him and i'm happy!!!  Then i got to do something I really have been wanting to do.  I got to ride horses!!!  It was fun!  I rode neely's horse, jim and we rode on some trail with a LOT of hills.  I got to gallop!!!  It felt so good to ride again...i don't get to very often so it felt really good.  well...happy father's day to all you dads...tehe. 

p.s. does anyone know where i can find the sheet music to "Cut" by Plumb???

~carmen loves austin~

"Learn to laugh at your troubles, and you'll never run out of things to laugh at."  Lyn Karol

"I've learned to take time for myself and to treat myself with a great deal of love and respect 'cause I like me....I think I'm kind of cool."  Whoopi Goldberg

"When you have decided what you believe, what you feel must be done, have the courage to stand alone and be counted."  Eleanor Roosevelt

"Trouble is a sieve through which we sift our acquaintances.  Those too big to pass through are our friends."  Arlene Francis

"I know not by what methods rare, but this I know: God answers prayer.  I leave my prayer to Him alone whose will is wiser than my own."  Eliza M. Hickok (my favorite)

"Sometimes if you want to be a winner, you have to be willing to bear the scars from the fight."  Petra Salvaje

"The weak are the most treacherous of us all.  They come to the strong and drain them."  Bette Davis

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.  It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."  Judy Garland

"I wanted a perfect ending.  Now I've learned the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end.  Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next."  Gilda Radner

"Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place."  Zora Neale Hurston

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."  Dolly Parton

"The key to realizing a dream is to focus not on success, but significance-and then, even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning."  Oprah Winfrey

"It's good to feel stupid sometimes: it reminds us that we DON'T really know everything."  Myself

(see, i do think smart people thoughts sometimes...of course i do)

for those of you that have read twilight and heard about the possible upcoming movie, i've done some "research" and found this particular candidate to be quite fitting to the description of Bella Swan.  I don't know about you, but I think she's perfect for it.  Her name is Kristen Stewart and she's starred in movies such as Zathura, Catch that Kid, and In the Land of Women

haha this is funny.

tehe...

the title doesn't really have much to do with the post...but i like these...so read them.  tehe...i like number 8

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX.. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "God bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

A mousetrap, placed on top of your alarm clock,

will prevent you from rolling over and going back to

sleep after you hit the snooze button.

 

Daily Thought: SOME PEOPLE ARE LIKE SLINKIES , NOT REALLY GOOD FOR

ANYTHING BUT THEY BRING A SMILE TO YOUR FACE WHEN PUSHED DOWN THE STAIRS.

 

 

I thought these two comments were pretty funny.