Some of you already know but I want to post it anyway :-). Yesterday my dad and I went out and he bought me the promise ring he told me he would get for my eighteenth birthday :-) It is absolutely gorgeous. It has a white gold band and three small diamonds sitting on either side (so that there are six in all) of a ruby stone. We found it at Shane Co. in Franklin and I love it. I get it on Friday because they have to make one in my size which I found out is a 7 1/2 ( I would have guessed 8 but he said I could even go with a seven) Anywya I'll post pictures when I get it. It's beautiful in case I haven't mentioned that yet. 

So Fine arts is coming up and I'm going to get sick of this song :-) I'm doing stained glass masquarade by casting crowns. Some of you have seenit. I'm going to try to make it 100x better this time around... we'll see.

To all of you in fine arts it's coming up soon so get to work :-). This is my last year... I think I can honestly say that I don't care (well some yes) but for the most part about how far I make it... I want to be able to feel like I did well. Like I spent the time it took to do a quality job.

On that note I think I'm going to go practice. Hope you all have a great day!

    My dad entered one of his homes in the parade of homes this year and won AGAIN!! Last time he entered he won as well... Cause he is just the BEST!!! Anyway check out his site.
 http://jensenqualityhomes.com/index.html 

    At least for me :-) Thanks to everyone who came tonight. It was fun... Oh and to Pastor Kenny who said I needed to do SOMETHING on my last night... I squirted one of my managers with water... and then grabbed ice before going to say goodbye to the other and stuck it down his collar :-) that was fun... Oh and I think he's going to come Sunday night to see the fine arts performances so that should be cool. But I am now officially done and my last night was a blast!!
Goodnight to all and to all a goodnight.

I love my dad.

   Something about the colors outside today has put me in a very undefinable mood... but it's good.
    We have bible study tonight and you should all come. We are studying Mark chapter 1 starting with verse 13.
     I put in a notice at work that I will not be working past the end of this month. :-)
    I'm excited about  art at the moment... I'm in one of those... when I get home tonight if I still have it then I will finish my dad's painting :-)
   In other news.... it turns out that scuttlebutt is actually a word... it was today's word of the day. That was different... It cool because lately some of the words have been really lame... it was all ones that I knew and that people I didn't really learn from. But now... I can use scuttlebutt wow... that just sounds so strange... hmmm

Great Quote-
"All art is but imitation of nature"
Lucius Annaeus Seneca

Enough randomness

    So I spent today at home... not allowed to go anywhere because I am supposed to rest... well it turns out that staying home isn't enough... Joshua said "you didn't do nothing! you cleaned!!" But I didn't much. anyway so I can't go to work tomorrow either... I have to stay home. To me doing nothing is not my favorite... so I am going to try tomorrow... only because I know that if I do then maybe I can actually be doing stuff by saturday without having to take a ten minute break every time and again. so yea... maybe I can get some good movies... after one tonight I'm out. ::giant gasp!!:: I did get to have some fun tonight so that was cool. Thanks to cool friends!!
luv ya
      Immortal

Weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then cruel is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the fire wall
Can I lose my need to impress
If You want the truth, I need to confess

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

Burn away the pride, bring me to my weakness
'Till everything I hide behind is gone
When I'm open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on
Cause honestly,
I'm not that strong

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You
(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You
(And I move, and I move, and I move)
Closer to You

I'm not alright
I'm broken inside, broken inside

I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through,
It leads me to You, it leads me to You

I'm not alright
I'm not alright
I'm not alright

That's why I need You

    I've slept all the way through the last two nights :-)... eight and nine hours... and now I get to go running :-) I'm off work today :-)

29  He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31  but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

    When you're laughing at that quip and everyone around you seems to be having a good cachinnation... look around to find at who's expense this laughter seems to come... the one who's smile is forced, who stands trying to dismiss or disregard the words said in jest that still cut too close. For while this person may be 'a good sport' and to only come back with their own crack... when no one's looking they may absorb those words more than anyone could guess...

Just been a challange to me lately... anyway...

James 1:26  If any think they are religious, and do not bridle their tongues but deceive their hearts, their religion is worthless.

1Peter 3:10  10  For, "Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech.

Ephesians 5:4  Entirely out of place[among christians] is obscene, silly, and vulgar talk; but instead, let there be thanksgiving.

       Well.... I'm not one to plaster out all over that it's my birthday, but I guess that's already been done ::glares at zay:: But thank you very much to all of you who left comments or tracked me down. I had a great birthday :-)
lots of love
       Immortal

    So I guess it's been awhile... I've been working and... working... oh and I started painting again :-)... I've got a couple of pieces I"m working on. Some fun, some for others and some personal that's been cool.
    I have a couple days off this week so I took bethy out and had a girls day on tuesday. She got the cutest little dress.. .I'll have to post pics later. It's adorable on her... We found it at sugarees. I have an awesome sister :-)
    I also have today off so I get to go and hang out wiht zay... not sure what we are doing yet but whatever it is I'm sure we'll have a blast whatever we do.... well I guess that's an update on my life right now... leave me lot's of comments.

Immortal

    Tonight was a blast!! Just hanging out... playing around (animal game and vollyball with a christmas lights net) and listening to a bunch of guys playing guitars and singing... smoothies and friends ahhh it was great!

    Well I have made my half of the descision... My dad approached me with a request a little while back, that I would consider homeschooling my two youngest brothers. At the time I believed that this would mean dropping either completely from college for the next year or moving to part-time. Both of these would be detrimental to my scholarships. I had a day of of work and I stayed with my little brothers and did a lot of investigating on different class options and tried many different compilations of items.... I really want to be there to help my little brothers. I also want, however, to keep moving toward my goals. So with these things in mind I actually came up with a schedule that would allow me to do both :-). Granted it will be trying to fit everything in together and to balance, but I believe that I can do it. Now dad has to finish looking into private schools to determine what really is the best option,  but at least my side of the descision is made. I can do it. I am willing. I love my lil' brothers :-)

So I was going to watch a movie with my dad tonight. I borrowed a movie and came home because he said he wanted to watch something with me.... well I got here and he has already gone to bed so I am supposing that that means that we will not be watching a movie tonight... ::sighs::

Other thoughts ::beware of ramblings::
          I am beginning to think that if I gave away some of the things that I feel responsible for that maybe it would actually be easier on everyone else... that sounds strange... but right now I don't have time to do all of the things that need to be done... so I don't ever get "caught up," this causes me to stress and also to constantly ask favors of everyone else... I have learned to ask for help but only when there is absolutely no way that I can do it myself... If I turned some things over to others, then 1. I wouldn't be so stressed (which would make others happier to be around me or at least it more tolarable) 2. Things might actually get done besides what absolutely HAS to be done RIGHT NOW (which would make dad hapier and everyone else not feeling so guilty). 3. I wouldn't constantly be asking others to do things for me and they would be able to say 'look at all that I have to do' in that brag/complain manner that I wouold willingly pawn off. 4. I would be able to have a more clearly defined list of things I need to do so tha maybe I could be more efficent. 5. It would set things up so that thigs will run more smoothly even when I am not here. 6. I would be able to get things done that others need me to do for them.  hmmmm....

    Pray for me that I will know what I am supposed to be doing this next year. 

    Worked with Russ today...

To Russ: high five man it was cool. (and you're sign is the best one they've had)

        I've decided... I am a people person... I am the only person at DQ (of the people I have worked with) who actually likes working the window... Everyone else says they don't like dealing with people... on the other hand... I don't like working with people who don't do as well as they could and should at their job... I don't like having to sit there and watch someone do something that I know that I could do better... they can do better... they just don't and that annoys me... so does that make me difficult to work with?... Anyway... if you want to see me at DQ come through drive-through when we are really slow (then I can stop and chat at the window).

Until we... blog... again?

        Immortal

    So certain events and people have gotten me thinking about photography again... I haven't done any in a while simply because of the cost of film.. however... I have an idea... what I really like doing is to do those photo shoots that everyone always wants of themselves but they will never actually do for themselves... you know... the ones that are punk or that are country.... black and white or in somethign specific... the ones out in a field or in a park... laughing or not smiling... high contrast or glowy... but like I said I can't afford to... so here is my solution... if there is anyone who wants to have fun with pictures I will do them of you if you can pay for the film... that way I get the fun and experience of helping you get what you want and you get pictures of yourself and I don't dip into my college savings... anyway... anyone who has ever wanted to do this kind of thing let me know... :-) talk to you all later

    The mind.... Which is more real... our perception, or "reality".... I guess were our perception more true than perception itself would be reality? There are things I know to be true and logical.... and then the things that I feel.

    Well I haven't posted in quite some time. Mostly because nothing eventful has happened that is quality sharing material, then again, I suppose that has never before stopped me. I would like to say felicitations (I became weary of the incessant "congradulations") to all those who have now graduated.
    In other news DQ proved itself to be as I had expected - easy. Though I suppose that I didn't take the job simply for the fun of it so shouldn't expect much from it. I am unaccustomed to wasting so much time. I realize that for me every minute I am on the clock, I recieve pay. However, there are many points where there is aboslutely nothing that can be done. There really isn't even much more that I can clean. I was thinking the other day that there must be a more efficient system. So many people stand around and do nothing. I am also convinced that if they had people who were competent, that, in most cases, they could get by easily with about one third of the people which they have on the clock at any given time.
    hmmm.... that is enough rambling about that.... I slept almost 7 hours last night. I suppose that is newsworthy. Oh, another thing of note; I actually splurged and bought canvas! I also bought medium -yay! I spent nearly $40 at Hobby Lobby. Yes I know... a bit extravagant to just spend on yourself for no reason but I couldn't start my art again until I did :-) I actually don't feel badly about it.  I am going to start my art again. It was hard not to want to get more and more quality oils and more canvas... I was looking through a catalog the other day at linen canvas and new brushes and palette knives (mine is really really awful). I don't care what debates artists have had; linen is incontrovertibly better then cotton... then of course it is more expensive, so for now I will use cotton.
    For those few of you who are still reading, please excuse my verbosity. This post is quite lengthy for the amount to which it actually pertains. I wish you all a great day. Stop by and see me :-)