1 John 4:18

February 15, 2008There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

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November 10, 2007

i like back massages

i dislike papers that are late....egh

 

i want a hug from each member of my family right now

i miss wide open spaces without concrete

 

 

i love the gift that God has given me

i hate being behind or feeling useless 

 

  goodnight all 

 

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September 28, 2007

my throat is tight

i can't swallow

all of my emotions seem to have collected in the pit of my stomach and they seem to swell with each tear i hold back 

 

i don't want to cry,

but i don't want to hurt either

yet i can't seem to prevent either 

 

i feel my heartbeat throughout every part of my body 

i don't want to think because i don't like my thoughts

anger, hurt, dissappointment

fear floods in bringing with it even worse

those things unnamed by the heart because i don't want to admit    

    they are there 

 

 

if little things are impossible, then what of the big things?

what does this mean?

why do i hurt? 

 

is being numb better than feeling pain? 

last day.... hmm

September 11, 2007

well..... today is the very last day of my life as a teenager.

 

very very odd. 

very final sounding.

 

life is... life

 

 

 

life is good-ish

July 14, 2007yesterday i hiked mt. leconte- exhausting! amazing! today we went to dollywood. i rode mystery mine- accomplishment for me. then one of our guys accidentally hit the curb in the van and blew a tire. interesting- i want to go horseback riding so bad- it's about all that would help me clear my head right now... don't like the new phusebox.