thank you guys so much :]
everytime someone told me happy birthday, I smiled
so I guess I was smiling most of the day.

exams went well.
I made above 95's on everything

school was fun for the most
and laura came home with me afterward
we went to sonic
when we got to my house
we went wild and laughed our butts off.
ahaha, man I love that girl
then we dropped her off at her house so she could get ready
and then tiffany came over so we could give her a ride.
and me and tiffany probably laughed the whole 30 minutes
until we got into the car to go pick up laura.
we got to the church
and we met tyler there, who gave me a stuffed animal :]
how sweet.
then we headed off to kobe's
which daaaang, it was butt load of money
but I got cake for my birthday, heheh
oh I forget to mention,
I got to spend the whole night with my favorite guy.
and it made me not want to go home at all
okayokay, then we went to opry mills and opry land hotel
and got lost, how predictable. ahaha
*sighs* I wish it would have lasted longer.

but I loved my birthday.
even if things didnt happened that I wanted to
it was all wonderful
and I got to spend time with my amazing friends
and my sweet sweet guy.

okay well that's about it.
I'm fifteen, feeling pretty good
hopefully I'll get to hang out with Claire today

lovelovelove

one more day until my birthday.

heck yesssssssss

I woke up in a really good mood today.
I mean lately I have been in a good mood everyday
but this morning I woke up and I was like
"thank you God."
and I started singing in the shower.
it was kind of odd but...
I'd like to wake up like that everyday.
tomorrow I'll be in a really good mood
I just feel so blessed to be alive right now.
15 years, a great 15 years too
yeah, I've had my bad times
and I know bad times
but it's all wonderful right now
and that's what counts the most.

today was midterms x_x
gym and algebra today
theatre and espanol tomorrow
science and english monday.
phhhewww.
and I made not 600 cookies but more like 250
because we just couldnt make that many ahaha.
it was fun though
7 girls singing relient k.
that's hott

offcially tres days til my el birthday.

yeahyeah I am in Spanish but
it's just more fun making up your own little words.

my weeks plan;;

wednesday--
chuuuuurch

thursday--
midterms
staying after school to bake 600 dang cookies!

friday--
midterms
MY BIRTHDAY!
dinner/oprymill/ opryland hotel

I'm so excited about friday.
I'm going crazy just waiting for it to come around.

saturday--
hanging out with claaaaaire :]
well most likely

past events;;

Christmas parade--
it was fuun
I love dancing in it even though
I get sweaty and grosss.
afterward though we went to this church thing
but we got there at 5 and it started at 7
so we hung out at wendy's [me, paige, & tiffany]
wiiiiild.

okayokay. thanks for the comments.
I love yaaa.

hmm man I have way to much to do this week and next.

I have the Christmas parade.
I have my birthday
and then I have Christmas.

my life is still great though.

"love is when you're smiling even when you're tired"
--some 6 year old.
and that my kids, is very true.

everyone one is doing the
"what I am thankful for" entries
so, I shall like to do the same :]

I am thankful for the amazing God above
my true daddy-o, heh
who has unconditional love for me
and you has always been there for me
through the heart aches and the laughter
I just most of all want to thank Him
because..
He is the reason I have everything I have
and I know I dont deserve any of it.
but it's His amazing power and love
that lets me have all of it.

I am thankful for claire
she has been my best friend for 4 years
and she's stuck by me all this time
even when I was the hateful little brat I was
I love her more than she could ever know.
she's let me cry in front of her
and she's let me make a complete idiot out of myself.
no one can make me laugh like she can :]

I am thankful for my sister.
even though sometimes I'd like to choke her,
I love her very much ahaha
she's the only reason I come home
and when I go off to college, she'll be the
only reason I come back home.
we can sing and dance together
and it's just pure fun with her

I am thankful for all my other friends
like laura, tyler, josh, lareisa, alexanna,
rachel, abby, ste and many many more.
so many inside jokes and fun times
that I wouldnt trade for the world.
these people make me want to get up in the morning.

and now I am thankful for chad
I have done a lot of things to him
yet, he still likes me
he's into God and I love that
I'm always happy with him and I'm always laughing
yesterday, when I was feeling weird
I called him, and it was like everything
was a-okay :]
he's amazing and I hope everything works out.

last off I am thankful for being 15 and alive
I am happy God has kept me alive to experience
all of these wonderful things and getting to meet
all these spectaculor people..

you should be thankful too.
<3

xanger banger

have you ever had one of those days where..
you just do not feel yourself at all
I'm having one of those days today
actually, I had that day yesterday too.
usually I am ready to wake up in the morning
and I am happy..
but yesterday and today I didnt even want to wake up
no, I dont mean like I want to die
it's just I wanted to stay and bed all day
I am so happy at church
because that's where all my friends are
I am okay at school
because I dont know what I would do without laura or rachel
but I still feel by myself when I'm not with them
and at home, geez, I dont even want to be there anymore
that's why I try to be out all the time
and I joined dance again..
because it give me another reason to get away
and the three people who make me laugh
like actually laugh until my stomach hurts
they are people I dont get to see everyday
and it's them who I need at times like these..
my head has been hurting, I think I am sick
:/ ick

thanks and I love yaa.

I cant resist the day, no, I cant resist the day.

and I pray that it never fades.

love quotes::

"Love is smiling a lot even when your tired"
--a five year old kid

"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
--a lot like love

"May your loss be met with a hurricane of love"
--elizabeth town

"With this hand I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way into darkness"
--corpse bride

stole the first one from morgan :]
but she's right, it's true.

I havent stopped smiling yet.

you guys are utterly sweet.
thanks for the comments!
<3

moonlight madness was pretty fun
first we saw clemency,
a band that's still hott and rockin. aha
then we headed off to rock climbing
which I did not do because..
Jamie doesnt do heights. -_-
yeah, I considered it but everytime I looked up
I shook my headed and walked away ahaha.
for most of the time these I got to hang out
with Claire, Lauren, & John
which was fun because we have weird conversations.
we just layed around on these really comfortable mats
people are supposed to be falling on.
I got to spend a lot of time with Chad when he wasnt
climbing..ahaha ^_^
then Josh ruined it my sitting on me, thanks Josh.
next stop was lazer tag which I liked aha
because I could actually handle it.
but before we got there we had to walk at least
a block to get to where we wanted to go..and
let me remind you, we were in nashville at like 1:30
in the morning..that's when all the drunk people come out
and it scared me a little and I didnt make eye contact, ahaha
and I was b*sizzle and claire was flava flav.
fo sho, yo
ahahahah, I shot the crap out of chad one game
but he got me more..:shakes head:
I came last in that game ahaha
after a few games of lazer tag we all went to
jackson heights and watched princess bride.
I love that movie, it cracks me up
the last stop was lamar's.
donuts and coffee, which by the way
the coffee just makes you want to gag there,
so please dont drink it :]

oh chad if you are reading this 1] I did see that
homeless guy under the bridge 2] I was going to say
something really nice, but ohwell you dont believe me
3] I had a good time & you're right, I couldnt not
talk to you the whole trip..then it just wouldnt have been fun.

okayokay, I love you guys :]
but you're stinking at the comments..

I love this girl :] she's great

gangstaaaaaaaa

slideshow :]

ch-ch-check it out.

happy halloween!

^_^

mmmm candy.

time square can't shine as bright as you

I swear, it's true.

<3

this entry is to Claire. <3

I dont know but I was thinking about this today
and I think it's something you need to know.
maybe about 4 years ago, you asked me
"what would you do if I died?"
and I responded something like "I dont know"
being the drama queens we were, we got mad
but I know the answer to that question now
and I wanted to tell you.
if something bad happened &
me and you didnt get to grow old together
like we have planned our whole lives lol
I would be lost, at first.
for a few months..or even the whole year
I wouldnt know what to do
& I would probably call your house &
you wouldnt be there or I'd wait to see your s/n
& you would never get on..it would devastate me.
I could never replace you, that's for sure
but then I would try to live my life as normal as possible
because I know you of all people wouldnt want me
to be all depressed and moppy twenty-four, seven.
I will always miss you & think about you.
but I'll wait to see you again.
that's what I would do if you ever
left me here alone Claire.
but hopefully, it wont happen anytime soon
& we'll just keep growing together

I love you.

p.s congrat nathan & rachel ^_^

four years as bestfriends. I definately love this girl < 3

this week has been..

simply amazing. < 3

no joke. it may have been long
but this weekend was most definately
worth the wait :]

I think I may take some pictures.
I need to post new ones on here anyways.

I love you.

Radx3: you know those pop ups above the xanga sites?? like its liek this long rectangle?
dandelion xx: yeah
Radx3: well im looking at this one that says help ByeBye Kittly clean up her mess from her party last night and win an ipod nano..and theres pizza, a bra, margrite glasses, beer, cigarettes, and wine bottles all over the floor
Radx3: and im pretty sure i see some condomns
dandelion xx: ahahahaha
dandelion xx: pop ups rule
Radx3: lol
Radx3: and theres this weird purple tube thing with a handle...whatever it is..idk what it is.
Radx3: i dont WANNA know what it is
Radx3: lol
dandelion xx: ahahah, I wouldnt want to either!
dandelion xx: grrrrooooosssssss
Radx3: yesss!!!
Radx3: and it looks like hello kitty!!
Radx3: looks like hello kitty has a secret lesbian life...
dandelion xx: oh my gosh, hello kitty was like my hero when I was 5 and now...now SHE'S A LESBIAN? why didnt anyone tell me? ahhh
dandelion xx: lol
Radx3: lol
Radx3: if you go to an xange site with the ad and keep refreshing it until ti comes up you cans ee it
dandelion xx: ahaha okay, I'll do it
Radx3: lol

me & alexanna's conversation. :p

ah, the mall is such a fun place to go with your best friends & little kids who laugh at you because you cant get out of the little car.

yayayayaya for the new phusebox. ^_^

definately worth the wait. it's the boooooomb.

ahahah

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

yeah I'm sure their c.d name describes them
ahaha
relient k=woah
especially in concert
when matt is singing, playing the piano & guitar
the drummer has his shirt off
one the the guitar players cant stay still for anything
it was crazy & fun :]
I'm going next year if them come back

& right now, I'm not in the
"I hate the world mood"

you guys are great ^_^
& I love you.
just so you know

this is my last entry for a little bit
who knows I might be back in a week
but until then I leave you with some of my thoughts.
I went and watched the excorcism of emily rose with Claire
it got to me
I believe that there are demons that do that.
I dont know..but it's scary
people overlook stuff like that
emily rose took on the responsibilty for God
she could have just died right there
but she suffered for God
and it made me think, would I?
would I go through that much pain for God?
I mean, would you?
she was a light to some people
just like bruce and ellen were
I want to be a light
and yeah maybe I wont get possessed
or die in a car crash or anything
but I want to impact someone
Duane says he believes that in heaven
there will be a time when we see the people
we didnt witness to and they will confront us.
personally, I would like to keep that number down
and all the people I have let go already, I'll see
and they'll ask me why I didnt help them
and I wont have an answer
maybe it was because I was selfish and didnt want to embarrass myself
or I just couldnt walk up there
I dont know but I just want to try harder now.
I fought with a few people today too
that also made me think..
I need to be better
a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter
because I have been awful with trying to be those
God, please help me out.
I need you right now, terribly

I'm so tired.

even though I am grounded
my fall break has been good.
claire is coming over friday
& I am getting my hair cut :]
I also got my first pay check.
I'm going to blow half of it
on the relient k concert
I will hopefully be going too.
^_^
life is still all that and a bag of chips.

I like someone ^_^






that's always a nice feeling.
but for now, I wont tell them.
saves all the trouble.

< 3

"From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How my worst fears are letting out
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
& living's just a waste of death
& why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
& this is you and me
& me and you
Until we've got nothing left"

< 3

we dont know what could have been
until we actually think about it
& we realized how much we missed out on.
I've realized how many things I've let slip by me
& also how many people I've let slip out of my life
I kind of miss them.

"I dont know why I'm still afraid.
if you werent real, I'd make you up"