feelings of l-l-love?

August 25 2005
"i dont want to lose you
i want to gain you
i want to be with you for a long time"
-the one & only max

how can you not fall in love with someone
who can say that to you?
& actually mean it..

bleh

August 24 2005
not happy.
sorry if I dont update.

-editeditedit

I love Jason Mraz.
he makes everything a little bit better... :]

crushes & stuff

August 23 2005
hehehe
okay this guy name chance
sweeet & everything
went up to Rachel
& this was the convo

chance- hey
rachel- hey
chance- you're friends with Jamie right?
rachel- [laughs] yeah why?
chance- does she have a boyfriend?
rachel- uh sort of
chance- what is that supposed to mean?
rachel- well this guy likes her & she likes him
& they have been seeing each other but they are NOT going out
chance- oh okay [walks away]

:D someone likes me at school
this just made my day even better < 3

I hold tight to what I know...

August 22 2005
the song "never alone"
never gets old.
it makes me love God even more. < 3

outside it felt good
but school was boring.
cept Spanish
because this guy Darius is in there
& he makes me laugh everyday
he's cool aha.
I love highschool
I love the people too.
so much better than Mcfadden
I don't miss it one bit
well maybe Mr. Leach, Mr. Nichols, & Nolan
but that's it ahaha.

I am pretty much all around happy
that's rare for me
just hope it lasts for awhile.
read yesterday's entry if you want to know

well okay
there's one thing still bothering me
I hatehatehate it when people start talking to me
& then just out of no where stop
:[ it stinks.

well I love you guys.
got new pictures. :D
ch-ch-check em out ahaha.

xoxo-

gosh dang it, I think it

August 21 2005
JimmeHendrix42: yay!! lol so
what do u think about those poems on there?

dandelion xx: they are sweet.
they always make me smile.
I look at them when I feel upset or something heh

JimmeHendrix42: lol like now?
what did happen jamie

dandelion xx: I just feel like I cant do anything

dandelion xx: when I do want to do something
I have to lie about it..I'm just tired of it..

JimmeHendrix42: aww jamie u can do something
u made me fall in love with you
i think thats a pretty big one

< 3
hehe
I like this feeling.

Our God is an awesome God. < 3

August 21 2005
I am content

I've been doing my devotions
My passion for God gets stonger everyday
I can't ever get enough of Him
He does so many things for me
I don't think I can thank Him enough

He's given me a wonderful family
even though 95% of the time they irritate me
I love them
especially my sister
I don't think I could make it everyday without her

He's given me an awesome bestfriend
He blessed me with her in the 5th grade
She's always there, she understands me
She's my shoulder to cry on
when my parents are being parents
& boys break my heart
she knows how to make me laugh
I love her, more than she could ever know.
I just hope I can be just as great as her

He's given me amazing friends
everyone I hang out with is just positive
I don't think I would be where I am without them
I love them so much. like Joshua, Tiffany, Sam
Laura, Tyler, Elizabeth, Abby, Stephen, Chelsey,
Kayla, Alexanna, Cody, Michael, Rachel, Josh W, Barrett,
Drew, Mike, Scott, Darius, Shea, Lauren, Donald, Erik,
Kristin, Laura M, Kayla G, Ashley G, Paige, Suzanne,
Shawn, etcetc.
a little shout out. teehee
If I didnt mention you
I still love you

gleaming

August 20 2005
okay
here's the thing
I have been wanting to meet this guy Max
because we've been talking for like two months
& today we were supposed to go to Starbucks
he called me at the last minute & said that he couldnt go
I was really upset but I was kind of used to it
well I decided to go anyways with Tiffany
I went there & saw this guy that looked like him
& Tiffany kept getting these phones called from
"someone she didnt know"
ahaha I didnt put it together until
I saw her talking to the guy
they had planned to get me off guard.
I was like so horrified but now I am happy.
he's like the best freaking guy.
we might date, I dont know
but I know I like him alot
so I met Max, finally
& I am like gleaming with joy.
hehe
< 3

sighs..

August 20 2005
I hate being let down..
I guess it's God's way of telling me
that I just don't need to go that way
or be with that person
I'm sure though, that He has something
planned for me :]
that's what I love about Him

1st week at oakland

August 19 2005
I personally thought it was kinda boring
class wise at least.
like all the teachers did were talk talk talk
ahaha.
I'm sure it will get better next week.
lunch on the other hand is fun < 3
I am probably the loudest girl in the annex
yesss. lol

I think Tyler Jones is like one of the BEST
freaking guys in the whole oakland highschool
we hung out all thursday at the football game
YES I went to the freshman game ahaha
but I had fun :]
so now we are gonna hang out after school
until I have to leave since he just walks home
what a sweetheart. < 3

this guy likes me.
tee hee
but it's quite funny.
ask me about it on aim.
I'll tell you if I am up for it.

nothing planned for the weekend
call me or i.m me if you want to.

love you guys.
you're too awesome. :D

mono :O

August 18 2005
yes the doctor says I might have it
cant be for sure until tomorrow.
so in the mean while I am going to
go to the oakland freshman football game
teehee.
just dont kiss me.
then you'll be fine.

love you guysssss. < 3

SEVEN REMARKS!!
-does a little dance-

I love/hate

August 16 2005
I love you .
I love holding hands.
I love butterflies
I love flowers
I love writing poems
I love singing
I lovelovelove music
I love the summer of 2004
I love oakland :]
I love friends!
I love dr. pepper
I love pink
I love relient k < 3 hehe

I hate stupid people
I hate smoking
I hate snakes
I hate repeated questions
I hate bees
I hate heights
I hate satan
I hate great expectations
I hate people that "think" that they are bad

randoms facts about me.

school was okay.
actually better than yesterday aha.

I have to go to the doctor's tomorrow. :/
lauren thinks I have mono
hmmm..ahahaha
but hopefully not.
especially the begining of school
ughh

bleh

August 15 2005
sorry if I dont update for awhile.
just probably wont have the time.

love you though. < 3

how was your first full day of school?

eek!!

August 14 2005
tomorrow is the first full day of school.
excited, yes
nervous, mmhmm

< 3
I love you guyss
lots

-edit

you know what?
I think I am the most horrible person alive
at the moment at least..
-sighs-

mooooovies

August 12 2005
went to the movies
& watched dukes of hazzard
with eric, sam, josh, jacob, ethan, chan, & cody
hehe it was fun.
the movie was pretty good, I think
I wouldn't know because I was laughing
through most of it ahaha
it's josh's fault, gosh! :]

amber pacific [[the band]] is pretty good.

nothing much more to say
cept THANK YOU for all the remarks
hehe I feel loved.

< 3
Jaaamie

dang it, highschool already?

August 11 2005
the only word to describe
the first day of school is hectic.

but I wasnt late
& I found all my classes.
someone I know is in every one of my classes
so I didnt feel lonely or anything ahaha.
my teachers were all nice.
it was all good.

I saw abby, donald, & stephen :]
like the most awesome people ever. aha

I got to hang out a little afteward too.
but I think I am going to do that every day. :]
yay ahaha.

I think I am going to love oakland.

well tomorrow I am going shopping
for school supplies.

good day to you. hehe

I LOVE YOU < 3

Jaaaamie

I'm just a no-class beat down fool.

August 10 2005
heh I like that song.
-beverly hills- by weezer.
I laugh everytime I listen to it.

orientations wasnt that bad.
I think I am ready :]

one more day of freedom
& I'm going to be spending it at walmart
ahahaha
ohwell :/
hopefully tiffany will pick me up
so we can go to the movies.

bleh.

I get like 9284687354783 comments from xanga
but 0 here :[
that makes me sad. ahaha
kidding

I love you guysss.

ahhhh :o

August 09 2005
today is freaking freshman orientation.
eek.

God gives me my happiness.

August 08 2005
last night was probably the most wonderful night
I have had in a longlonglong time. :]
I am just so happy now.
like the happy where you want to dance
& do flips all day ahaha. < 3

also God showed me something last night.
I know He answers prayers
but last night he answered one that
I had been praying about for maybe a year.
that's just wanted added to my happiness last night.
I mean God is amazing.
no doubt about that at all.

watch "nuisance" by john reuben.
it's awesome becaaaause
matt thiessen is in it :D
yes, the guy from relient k ahaha.

this week is going to be great.
I can just feel it.

music video & stuff. < 3

i am a sap

August 07 2005
I watched the notebook & a walk to remember last night. I dont think I have cried that hard in awhile. I've been keeping things bottled up lately so it just felt good to finally let it out. ya know? I havent felt content in a good while. maybe it's my relationship with God? I think it's fine but I'm not the person who decides on things very well. I've been confused & lost for the past few weeks. I want to straighten things out before highschool. so that leaves me like 4 more days...

boys. I like someone. I just hope everything turns out good. I hope everything works out. I hope..that's all I can do right now.

today I've realized how many great & wonderful friends I have. I've always known they were there but today they just shined a little more. :]

"It's gonna be Love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me baby
It's gonna be you baby
It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love"

< 3

August 06 2005
I love you guyss. :]

before&after

August 05 2005
okay okay I got to the hair coloring finally.
I have the pictures over there in my album.
tell me which you like better
I can always go back to black ahaha.

five more days of summer.
& I feel like I havent done anything. :/
have you ever had a summer like that?
I mean I am hardly at my house
but, I dont know.
I feel like I havent done anything exciting
cept going to ohio of course
at least I am going white water rafting in sept.
me & Josh are gonna rock that trip ahaha.

I'll let ya go.
see ya kids. < 3
hugs for you. heh
Jamie

screen names & mood changes

August 04 2005
I swear I change my screen name
when I feel like it's getting too old
or I just dont feel like it anymore ahaha.
sooo that leads too the whole point

my new screenname is:: dandelion xx

today I'm going to the mall with Claire
hopefully to starbucks. mmm :]

& tomorrow I think I am going to the movies
with my bestfriend Josh < 3
to watch batman? hmm..
but if you would like to come, COME lol

I've been thinking alot lately too.
I'm usually one of those boy crazy girls
most of the time thinking I need a boyfriend
& stuff but now it doesnt really matter now
God has been talking to me
I mean it would still be nice to have a boyfriend
but I dont think I need one now
dating is over rated because really
it's only a date when the guy comes
to pick you up & meets your parents. heh
not when have to you sneak out
to meet at the movies.
or when your mom/dad has to take you.
I dont know what that is called.
going out? ahaha

okay well I rambled more than I wanted too.
have a amazing day.
I love you guysss.
< 3
Jamie

cool springs rock my socks.

August 02 2005
cool springs rocks.
especially when you have the most wonderful people in the world with you.
well claire wasnt there, but the other wonderful people.
ahahaha

well duane told us to go around the mall
and get pictures with as many hott guys as we could.
because we were all mopin
cause we didnt have our own guyss with us.
so that's what we did after we got bored from shopping.
our goal was ten & we got ten, maybe more :D
ahahahaha.

so you guys rate them. 1-10. ahahaha.
man I had a great time.
glad I went.
< 3
Jaaaamie

God & love

August 01 2005
thanks for all the remarks :D

I have been gone all weekend
so that's why I havent written anything

new pictures < 3
so comment on those.
I actually look good in these ahaha.

I spent the day with Claire saturday.
always fun.
didnt get many pictures there
BUT on sunday I went to northside
and then to their "DL" afterwards.
which was crazy
I had so much friggen fun ahaha.
&& I got a couple pictures there.
alot of them are of patton
[[wearing MY sunglasses]] :] ahaha

abby:: that would be awesome &
you would be the greatest person alive
if you would burn it for me. heh I LOVE YOU.

God=love
without love you dont know God
without God you havent experienced true love.
it's that simple
because if God didnt know love
what would be the point of dying for us?
love is something where you dont expect anything back
so that's what we need to be doing
loving people without expecting anything

okay have a wonderful day you guysss.
I love thee. < 3 < 3

xoxo,
Jaaamie

< 3

July 29 2005
relient k is the friggen bomb.
ohyesss, you know it.
the lead singer is hott ahaha.
I want the new c.d
then I will be complete lol