Yeah I have a lot of songs that I want to share with you guys so I think I am going to pick one a week and that will be my song of the week for you to enjoy.

Current mood: curious

This can't be the same thing I have done before. But it feels the same. It does not look the same or really there is another sense that is not one of the six ones. Another special one. I am not sure what it is. But that one sense that is the same as everything I have ever done before. I hate it. I am almost scared. I think that is the reason I feel it. Maybe this time when I was going I got over my head, or maybe it is that feeling that you know you have never been here before but everything looks so familiar. Then you get kinda dizzy. I am lost right in that feeling. Spinning in circles not know what to do.

Have you had one of those feelings that everything is going so right that it can't be really true. You just wait for it to end and then it does and you realize why it seemed so good. Or you were just fooled and believed it was good until you were crushed and devestated?  There is something going on that seems so good that tastes like a lolly pop flavored like a mirical. The taste it leaves in my mouth and that lingers on my lips is indescribable. I have been a fool too long to change my ways. I have already accepted that it must be true, even though countless times I was proven wrong. Must I fall into the same trap again? Or is this time for real. I find me pinching myself sometimes just to check. I don't wake up and I feel the pain. So it must be right?  Even if it was not real I don't think I would change a thing. Like I said I have been a fool too long to change my foolish ways. Maybe this time the fool will be proven to be a genius. Just for taking one risk. Is that what it takes to be considered a genius? Making so many mistakes and risks that finally one turns out the way you want it and everyone remembers you for it? Or is it just not giving a crap what anyone thinks and following your dreams. It seems that I have done both. So I must come out as something this time.

Well you know those things that you really think are right then you turn around and are so glad that you didn't make that move? well Yeah that happend to me. I was so sure that there was something up. Something I had to say. When I should have realized to sit down and don't say a thing. Even if you do something that is too late, at least you did it. I think. Right? Well I learned to hold my tounge and I am glad I know how and when now. Pray that I use it.

Yeah so right now I am kinda pissed off and I don't really have a reason I have just been kinda on the edge lately. Just ready to jump at whatever I need to. There was a fightish thing in the lunch room. Someone said my best friend was talking about their mom so he shoved him onto the table and my friend came back and pushed and cocked back his fist then I jumped in and stopped it. I was worried that he would get in the fight and if he did I would jump in and then a lot of our friends would and I don't want a bunch of people getting kicked off the football team so I just  stopped the fight. But then at football Our coach took Jordan Wood to the side and asked him about the fight. Coach was like what happend. Jordan said the guy pushed me. Then coach was like "Well did you push him back" Jordan said "yeah I pushed him back" then coach said good cause I don't want no pu**y as* line backers on my team." But I really don't post things like this saying how I feel I really don't like talking about how I feel. Not like I don't cry or nothing because there are times that I do, I just don't like talking about my feelings but this is whats going on. I just thought the coach was funny

Yeah I am not sure anyone really realizes how boring 2nd block is. LIKE REALLY BORING. But I guess I am having fun just screwing around on the internet. Everone else is playing games or looking at dickson pepe rally pics. I am really thirsty I want a coke even though I hardly ever drink them. Ok well peace. Oh I am not sure why I posted this I never post things like this. It is weird.

I was not always the best man, or boy. I have not always been what I should be. The basic instincts that I was taught were not the best. I am sorry that I can not be perfect for you. I ask for your forgiveness. I pray that you accept. Maybe one day I can change what was done. There is nothing I would change about my past only things I would change now. I have learned a lot of what I should not be and where that can take me. I have danced on the line for too long for me to not be a good dancer. My two left feet are making me stumble now, it is you that can save me and hold me up. Only if you choose to.

I really like this song. It is great. Elizabeth is not allowed to comment.

Some times the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. 

Which would you choose to do, the right thing, or the thing you enjoy?

What if the right thing is just a way to prove a point? What if you have to choose the point or the thing you enjoy so much?

What do you do?  

What would be considered grounds for breaking up with someone? If you are in a steady relationship for say a year, how do you just break up with someone after that? You can't say oh I just don't love them anymore. If that is true then did you ever love them? I don't think that you can just say I just don't like them anymore. It doesn't make sense, especially after a year. I would think that after 3 months at most you would find that out. Now notice this has nothing to do with anyone or anything. I was just thinking about people who dated a little over 2 years and broke up. Yes I know I said it wasn't about anyone, well because it is not, it is inspired by them. I just don't quite understand why that would happen, knowing that neither cheated. Why if two people loved each other would they let an argument do that to them? If it was an argument. So what do you guys think?

Ok well last night was the Freshman football game. I was switched to a starting position and made the first tackle of the game I was really pumped, but we ended up losing to what I think was a bad call by the white hat. I know I should not blame someone else for what happend. Winners blame themselves and line back up and do it again until the get better. that is what coach says. I guess it stands true. Well I am really tired I just hope you guys have a great day. If you come to Dickson's home coming that is cool and thanks. It will be a blast. Hope to see you there. Peace.

Make your own Windorph
Ok so this is my little dude. I call him climbing turtle. That is his hippie name. His real name is Clem. I made him to look like a hippie getting ready for DCHS homecominng. What do you guys think?

Ya see Dickson County Homecoming is coming up. So you need to put on your blue and orange and meet us at the stadium at 7 o'clock We are facing the Riverdale Worriors and for anyone who knows anything about 5 A football you know they are good. Dang good. So show up eat a dang burger and enjoy one of the best days highschoolers have. Dang it.

 

 

 

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For some of the more slower ones I have highlighted the important words and phrases to make it easier.  

It seems that a remark I recently left has caused a few people to be upset. I meant the remark in no disrespect to the person. I see that I was somewhat rude but it I did not mean for it to come off as rude, more of joking. So it seems that I should apologize for the rudeness and making anyone upset or angry.

 

 

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If you don't know what I am talking about then it probably doesn't pertain to you, therefore I am not apologizing to you. Idiot.  

There are not a whole lot of things I am sure about. Well I am sure that the sky is blue, God is pretty cool, and well that I am wearing a blue shirt. But I am pretty dang sure that last night was like the best night ever. I had a lot of fun. Just thought you guys should know.

 

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oh have you guys heard the song In the Sun? it is really good.

 

May God's Love be with you,

Always.

May God's love be with you.

(It is a great song.)

peace 

So basically this weekend was the most friggain awesome. It started out with watching DC's first home game (a win) with some friends that I had not seen in forever. It was so awesome hanging with them because I had not talked to them in forever. Then the next day I went to hang with Levi and Mckenna Davis at a hay ride thing when I saw the same people so I hung with like a bunch of people. And met some dude from England. Well anyways I beet up this 20 year old because the thought that he could take me so I pinned him twice and he gave up. Then Levi was talking to some of his friends like we should totally go screw with someone and make them so friggian scared. Then I said "Hey can I tag along" So he was like sure dude you staying the night? So I did. It was so dang cold. But cool we camped under the stars with a bunch of guys and dogs...dogs bad guys kinda cool because it was basically just talking about hunting and...well...guy things. So I didn't sleep at all because those gay dogs kept trying to snuggle with me and one was making out with me the whole time (sorry Elizabeth it wasn't my fault). And it was cold. Then we all kina got up at 6 and threw a can of coke in the fire and we forgot about  it and 20 min later it blew up and coke went everywhere. So I went to Church with Levi and Mckenna and hung out with them the rest of the day. It was pretty cool. I learned some pretty awesome stuff and got out of my head for awhile.

So apparently they are sweet and somewhat sour. Not completely sour because there is still that hint of natural sugar. There is still that taste that turns to taste good even if at first it doesn't. But with the creme you have that gaurenteed sweetness. Unless ofcourse you have too many berries and not enough creme. See then you have almost overwhelming sour. But it is about how you start the bowl. You can put more creme or too many berries. When you take all the bowls and put them together, it is not what matters. It does not matter about one bowl of too much sour and not enough sweet. It is when you take all those bowls and put them into a very large pot. Then you can see if you have had more sweet. But it is not about the fake sugar it is about the natural sugar. How many times has those berries turned into a wonderful taste like they always do. When you measure all of that. That is the sweet.

I love Dr. Cox in this I think what he says is pretty true. ENJOY. I did.

So what is it? How do you do it? What if everything is as it seems? So perfect. Is this perfect? Have I finally hit that home run that wins the game? Or am I just at the top of the 3rd? Do I really have that much longer to go? Will the score stay the same? Do I want it to stay the same? I can't tell if I am a head or if I am behind in points. I can't just press cruise control. Someone must progress. I would rather it be me than the alternative. I don't want to make a major change. I don't want to beat the other team by that much. Or do I want to shut 'em out? They have already scored so I can't go back in time. I have already screwed up early in the game. But I came back. I am winning now, from what I can tell.

You must be differant to make a differance.

I am ready.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(i hope) 

I could not get any sleep at all last night I just kept sitting up and thinking. It was like this one thought would not escape my head...

It is true I am not in control.  Dang.

photo from austincaresnot

I want to thank a one Chris Harrelson for assiting me in writing this...welll at least the idea. I know it is long but I find it pretty darn good.

Don't know you but I am just saying.... I think it is kinda silly to say you are not going to date (unless you are just comming out of a relationship or so)...although there is nothing wrong with it. I did that for awhile....I strongly believe that dating leads to marriage. That is why you should date someone to see if you could marry them so if you dely your dating then you would dely finding the right person...No I don't think that if you date someone that means you would marry them...No I don't think that you should pick certain people who you think you would marry and only date them. Dating is to see if you could last with them, not if you will; although I do not believe in dating as in hey lets date because you are hot, oh wait this chick is hotter and I can do her. I hate that. I don't believe there is one right person for everyone because if that was so then not many people are going to end up with the right person because no one is perfect (well htere was this one guy but we killed him) so people would end up with a bunch of differant people. So that would just not work. Love takes work. If you choose not to work then you choose not to love. Love is deeper than skin; therefore I don't believe in love at first sight. But does that mean marrying someone is just who you can tolerate for the rest of your life? Shoot I don't know but I plan on only marrying someone who I can tolerate. But then how do you know when you meet that person? Like I said before it takes work. Expect to work for relationships...I think. because if being with one person forever was so dang easy there would not be so many divorces. I think it is the people who are lazy and don't want to work are the ones left a lone or bailing 2 or 12 years into it. Or maybe something happend. But I think that if you love that person then things will wade out because the truth is "The couples who are truly right for eachother wade through the same crap as everybody else but they don't let it take them down and if they are real lucky someone will say something."  yes yes from scrubs but it is still true. I hope that all of you who made it this far have learned something, if nothing else that I am a rambling idiot. Or maybe you heard just what you need to.

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Ok wow. What a an amazing actor, writer, and director. He wrote, directed and stared in Garden State. I love that movie it is really good. It is just a movie about life and love. I really enjoy watching it over and over. Zac Braff is also simply awesome in the show scrubs. He can be funny and serious he just simply astounds me as an actor. I wish that all people in the buisness were as good as him. Great job Zac Braff.

 

 

 

 

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i am sorry for misspelled words.