GUYS. We seem not to care. Not completely apathetic. But we like who we like and if that is cool with you great but if not it doesn't matter. Or if we get into it all we do is hit each other a few times then we are friends for life...maybe not life but ya know? We don't whisper or giggle, we don't wanna be completely tied down but we hate being free. And when it comes down to it we always have that one girl in our mind before we go to bed.

 

GIRLS...

I am going to put a quote in from my great Uncle Haggard. He is always insightful, and this...this is the only thing I know about girls, he says this. "Austin, man, girls are trouble. They have no idea what they want...NO No take that back. They know excatly what they want man, they want your soul." You guys can remark on what you think should go under the "GIRL" section. 

I will call you even when I have nothing to say.

I will miss you no matter where I am.

If I am in your arms I will miss not being there sooner.

All those times I forgot to call you back, I am sorry.

I tried to keep you out of my mind.

All those times you didn't call me back, I forgive.

It was no big deal.

"I love you, I've made up my mind." -Thank you Ray Charles.

I will stay awake for hours to hear you speak over the phone.

I will walk a thousand miles just to be the one who is with you.

"I will give up every dream I ever had to make this one come true.

When I wake up, well I know I'm gonna be, I'm gonna be the man,

Who wakes up next to you." -Thanks Proclaimers.

I would love to be that guy that is on the news.

I would love to be that guy who has all of the awards on his chest.

I would love to be that guy who has the general star on his shoulder.

I would love to be the strongest and best in my feild.

But I would give it all away to be with you for a life time.

"I should know who I am by now, I walk the record stands somehow

thinkin' of winter, your name is the splinter inside of me, 

while I wait..."-Thank you Joshua Radin.

I have decided to walk a lot  of different paths.

Along the way I have realized a lot of things.

I have realized that when you are walking everywhere you get tired. I have realized that when you take so many paths you get lost.

I have realized now more than ever I want to walk a new path.

No, I do not want to change a thing that I have done in the past.

Even though I was tired and lost I still know where you are in my heart.

"Every long lost dream lead me to where you are, Others who broke my heart they were like Northern Stars pointing me on my way into your loving arms, this much I know is true". -Thank you Rascal Flatts.

I have been up in the middle of the night to see the stars shine.

I have been awake at dawn to see the sun rise.

I have had that phone in my hand praying for the courage to tell you.

"I woke up early this morning 'round 4 a.m. with the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate. Pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep. Thoughts of you kept keeping me awake." -Thanks Keith Urban. 

I am done with all of this confusion. 

It has gotton me no where but confused.

Fine.

Now this stands true. 

I love you, I've made up my mind.  

What happened to the American way? It used to be when we were attacked we hit back and we hit hard. When the Japanese hit us they hit with a few thousand small bombs. Well then the US didn't just get even. We dropped two bombs. Little Man and Fat Boy. People like to call them atom bombs but I call them the boot that Toby Keith was talking about. 7 years ago today. It was on a Tuesday. Do you remember? At school we had just got set in. Said the pledge, and we had just started our work. Less than an hour later we were attacked. I remember every male in my 3rd grade class said we should kill all of the people who did this. (except in a 3rd grade way of course). We listened to "God Bless the USA" over and over and over. Our principal's name was Dr. Tharpe, my teacher was Mrs. Call. We didn't understand much, just that we were attacked and many killed. 2,974 people, another 24 missing and presumed dead. Now tell me that, that 2,998 people is not something to get angry about. Tell those families that. Tell the men's families who have died in this war that. Tell their kids who never got to see them that. It won't go over too well. So while you are using your right that they protect by speaking out against the war, our president, or our military. Just remember the 1,315,237 people that have died in the past to protect you and earn freedom. This is Courtesy of the Red White and Blue by Toby Keith.

*note should be listened to while shouting loudly in a county accent.  

(men's poem)

I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

I want to love you but I don't know they way...

Ha that rhymed.

It is just I don't have the time...ed

no no no.

Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

With us nothing ever is.  

It never had to do with any of that.

Hanzel is the name of my cat.

It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

Dirty liberals.

When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

Everyone is always saying life is short.

Then why do you hold back so much?

How much must I bleed to have bled?  

Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

My father would be proud of me? Don’t bring him into this.

Just simply you and me.

I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

Now that I did what they wanted me to. Where did they go?

He is like the crap on my boot, it doesn’t phase me.

What to do when you have stalled your car,

and no one has jumper cables.

But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

What about everything I am missing?

What about everything I will miss?

What about her?

What happens then? 

Where will you be in the end?

Will you stand or bend?

Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.

 Trying to find the perfect ending.

Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?

?

!

. 

(The poem of men)

I can't repeat the words I dare not say. 

I want to love you but I don't know they way...

Ha that rhymed.

It is just I don't have the time...ed

no no no.

Why can't I say what is obviously true.  

Do not ask what is wrong. Confront me.

With us nothing ever is.  

It never had to do with any of that.

Hanzel is the name of my cat.

It is not that I wanna be right, I just don't wanna be left.

Dirty liberals.

When will the scars from my fights be battle scars?  

Mirrors are fake because they show the outside you.

And no it has nothing to do with your shoe.

Everyone is always saying life is short.

Then why do you hold back so much?

How much must I bleed to have bled?  

Should you really live for the moment or the long term?

I think all of that mess is people on myspace trying to write love poems.

Is it a love poem if it is about you, my love?

Or is it a love poem because it is about love?

I was once told by a person that whatever decision I made they would stand behind me.

Now that I did what they wanted me to where do I go?

What to do when you have stalled your car,

and no one has jumper cables.

But aren't we all driving this car, called life man? -That 70's Show.

I can take the hit but thinking about the bruise makes me flinch.

Sis pacis , instruo pro bellum. 

I will fight if you give me something worth fighting for.

This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

What about everything I am missing?

What about everything I will miss?

What about her?

What happens then? 

Where will you be in the end?

Will you stand or bend?

Kill me and I will rise to raise revenge.

Offer me surrender and I will fight harder till you beg for it.

 

Trying to find the perfect ending.

Either way it will end with one of 3 ways so why not all three?

?

!

. 

 

Hey so this is like a really good song. I mean the video is kinda out there but I really like Aerosmith and I love this song. Obviously it is called "Angel". It is kinda toned down and a tad bit pansey but I don't know what draws me to it. Oh well I hope you all enjoy "Angel" by Aerosmith

I've written all the letters. 

I've screamed a thousand times.

Neither is really better,

Neither are really fine.

 

I've begged to have you back.

I want to see you again.

but I am left with is this simple fact,

I know I cannot win.

 

I wrote all of the letters.

I sealed them up to go.

The sooner the better,

but when they reach you, no one really knows.

 

I can't do it. I can't continue. I was never really good. I just want to tell you how I feel be straight up genuine and real. I can't bring myself to put them in the mail box, though. I do not want to ruin this. Then again I really want to know: would things be different? would the miles change a thing? would you say the same to me? or would you just let me go?  

 

 

 

If you must fight, then fight for only what is worth fighing for. 

If you must whine, then whine only about what you are willing to change

If you must lie, then lie only to your enemy. 

If you must swing, then swing only at the one that deserves it.

If you must lead, then lead only in the right direction. 

If you must inspire, then inspire to do the right thing.

If you must do the wrong thing, the do it in such a way that no one may question your motives.

If you must drink, then drink, but know when enough is enough. If you must kill, then kill only what you have created.

If you must survive, then survive and nothing more.

 

And Love, if you must love, then in that love, love not to fight, and do not whine, never lie to her, only at those who oppose that love, lead never in the wrong direction, inspire a deep understanding of relationship, love to only do what is right, drink never in spite of that love, and never ever try to kill what you have created in love, let it survive.  

 

 

Oh, and just be real.  

  

When injustice becomes law,

     Rebelion becomes duty.   

 

This is one of the best quotes I have ever heard. I am not excatly sure who said it. I know many poeple did in many different ways. But my question to you is: "When the guns are drawn and sides are choosen where will you be?" Will you still be pretending it won't happen? Will you hide behind your family or faith? Orwill we stand together in the front. 

Ok so this song has kinda been playing over and over in my head. Like this has been my theme song for the last week. I really like it and I have been trying to take a step back and just kinda see where everything is so that I can see where I need to be. I hope that you enjoy my choice for song of the week "Unwell" by Matchbox Twenty.

It is said that a butterfly can flap its wings on one side of the world and change the pattern of the wind on the other.

I often think about the effect of one of my decisions I have made in the past and wonder what if I had just said no, or what if I had said yes earlier. I can see the way so manythings would be different and I can see the futer obviously not THE FUTURE but like you know? It is almost scary to even think about that to think about giving yoruself that kind of power.   

It was never about you or me

    we were fine.

It was never about timing 

    it always seemed perfect. 

It was never about who I was with

    I always prayed it was you.

It was never about communication

    we could never seem to stop talking.

It was never about God

    we were both in the right place.

It was never about love

    we always seemed to have enough. 

What was it?  What keeps me from running to you?

It must be the distance

    even though you have always been in the same place in my heart     and soul. 

I know I am relaly late getting this post up and I am really sorry, wel that is if anyone actully cares. This is a really old song I remember wehn I was like 7 years old and my brother would play this and be really sucky at air drumming. And it was like right when Halo came out and we would play that with his friends...well maybe I was older than 7. Or maybe I am crossing memories idk but there is Blink 182 with their song "All the Small Things"

Ok this is probably one of the best quotes I have ever heard from a movie. It is from "The Rock" staring Sean Connery and Nicalous Cage. Sean Connery was in the military special ops when he "commited a crime" he was moved to "the rock" other wise known as Alcatraze Island. Sean Connery was the only one to ever escape. He got away with it and was hiding from the FBI (Nicalous Cage). They found him when they needed to know how to gain access to the prison without being detected by the ex-military men who had taken it over and threatening to launch "nukes" into San Francisco. Well Nicalous Cage plays an FBI agent that is not well trained in the feild. Well, he was well "trained" but not good at doing things. Nicalous Cage says to Sean Connery I did my best!  When Sean Connery come back with this amazing line,

    "Your best? Your best? Losers always complain about their best. Winners go home and..." ...dance with the prom queen. 

To all you whyners out there including me. Don't do it. It won't help anything.  

OK this is what I want to do when I grow up. I want to write a letter to my wife that tells her that if anything happens to me to make sure that my son gets those wings on his chest, that patch on his shoulder. I could think of no higher honor to die for my country, "die for those oppressed." This is SSgt. Barry Sadler, one of the best "greet berets" there was. He led men in Vietnam when he took a boobie trap to the knee and was injured. I came back home healed up and  wrote this song. Once he was completely healed he was sent to Africa to do a lot of black ops operations. He was killed. Many missions are still classified to the public. Thanks for taking the time. I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do. Barry Sadler "Ballad of the Green Berets"

Hey you guys. Don't just pass this up as just another song of the week. This is a great old time song. If you get the chance listen to it. You can take everything as something else. Please enjoy. Oh I am not quite sure who this one is by, sorry.

Hey this was like my favorite song a few years ago. It is by Johnny Horton. A real old song but really fun. I hope you enjoy!

No it is not today and no it will not be tomorrow.
No it is not that night and no it is not those days.
No it is not that one dance and no it is not the lack of dances.
No it is not her and I know it is not him.
No it is not that airport and no it is not that one van ride.
No it is not that morning and no it is not that night.
Maybe simply it is just you and it is just me.
No it is not the fact that I can't live with out you.
It is that I can, but I hate myself for it.
No it is not the distance.
It is the ground traveled.
No it is not the future.
It is our simple past.
No it is not that I really like you.
It is that I absolutely hate that I love you.

Just so all of you can read this I put it in "Thought" form instead of just remark.No, I think that God doesn't have someone picked out for us. Or the perfect one in mind. When Amber and Aaron were doing their premarital marriage counseling their Christian counselor told them that every 5 years they would find someone more compatible with themselves then their spouse and another 5 years someone even more compatible. So if God had someone in mind wouldn't it be the one that was absolutely compatible? I also know many Christian families fall apart because of divorce even when they prayed for the right person time and time again. I believe that God does have a will for us, but I do not believe that he says "You, Austin, will marry so and so in the month of July." no that is silly to say you have free will but God says that you will do this and  you have to do that or that you have to marry her. He even gives you a choice to obey his will or not. It is indeed his will that you go to church, whether you do that or not is your choice. It is also his will that you read your Bible once again your choice.Now bare with me this all relates back. So ok, when it comes to bigger things such as large scale ministry work, I think that you still have a choice but it will get done whether you let God use you or not. Say that you know God put going to Brazil to do ministry work on your hear, and you don't go. He will get someone else to because it will get done. Not much longer I promise I will get relate this back. So if God lets you make those kind of choices I also believe that God can use you no matter what, where, how, and when. That means that if you are praying "God should I move to NC and start a church or should I start one here?" I would say that he would answer it, but I believe that he would probably answer it "You make the choice that is best for your family" Because no matter where you are God Can Use You! Now it is not to say that he doesn't care because he does. He cares so much that he knows every hair on your head. So if he can use you no matter what concerning something as big as ministry then I am sure he can use you no matter what concerning marriage. Now, if he can use you no matter what or when doesn't that mean that he can teach you something where ever you are? So, in that theory I believe that where ever you are that probably means that you are supposed to be there in that moment. Now if you are at a dead point in your relationship with Christ you can be taught something but you should work to remove your self from that stalled period  in your life. 

Yes I know that Kid Rock is not the best person in the word but this song strays far from what he normaly does. He makes me half wonder if he is christian. Maybe he his not but heck he is standing up for what is right, which just so happens to be more than I can say for some. He is also kinda, bare with me here, standing up for chistianity. It seems like he cares like honestly cares. Maybe though I am just analyzing it way too much. Mabe like he says we just need to stop being so uptight, just admit our mistakes and apologize. Not a direct quote but "I'm not a saint but I believe in what is right." Powerful line from him. Please enjoy Kid Rock's "Amen"

Well I was just kinda listening to my ipod and this came on. Shy of some parts if you listen to the lyrics it is a good song. Well please enjoy Ways & Means by Snow Patrol.

1. What do you think love is?

2. Is it an emotion? or a choice?

3. Does it end?

4. If you are really in love does that mean that you should get married?

5. Does God have one "right" person for everyone? and if so is that the person you are to marry?

 

1&2. Love is indeed a choice. Because God choose to love us, and gave us the choice to love him Tyler I agree with you on that. I don't think that God would give us something as big as love up to our heart to make that decision. If I am not wrong it says in the Bible the the man who follows his heart is foolish.  And in that same way you can shoose to stop loving someone. Love in a relationship should be highlighting of eachother's best qualities. 

3. I think that true love CAN end. I believe that if you truely love someone than you have given them a lot. And no one is perfect, therefore someone could screw that up and throw it away. An extreme amount of trust and communication is lost there, and if you can't truely give them everything again then you don't truely love them again.

4. No, I think that even though you might truely love someone with everything you have that does not mean that you could work well in marriage together.

5. No I don't believe that God as a right person for everyone...or anyone of that matter. I believe if that was so then there would  be no divorces. But I have seen too many good christian families fall apart because of a divorce. And there was no way that that person was right for them. And before they married they prayed and consulted mentors and it still just didn't work. I am also convinced that God's free will really kicks in there and he lets you marry who you wish. Because the simple fact is, that God can use you where ever you are, and in any circumstances.

 

So I will end it with this quote from  Plato, "You often fall in love with what you want a person to be instead of what they are."

 

PLEASE ANSWER.

I honestly wanna know what you guys...and girls have to say. So please answer these questions if you have time.

1. What do you think love is?

2. Is it an emotion? or a choice?

3. Does it end?

4. If you are really in love does that mean that you should get married?

5. Does God have one "right" person for everyone? and if so is that the person you are to marry?

Please give reasons for all of your answers, oh a remark is a great way to share your opinion but a message will do great as well and if you do message me I will not say your name or that you messaged me if desired.  

Well I had to have a little help to choose the song of the week so I hope that you guys enjoy it because a good friend of mine helped pick it. She told me about this band and I can't stop finger tapping when I am listening to them! Well this is The Maine with "I Must Be Dreaming" and I got it in just in time! Enjoy. oh and a special thanks to Lindsay Taylor.

I am dedicating this for you, just you, but also the rest of you.

I want to tell you that my last days there were amazing.

Even though you will never read this, I know you know.

You are an absolute dirty Asian.

You are an absolute wonderful person.

You are the coolest person I have met.

You wonderful long night.  

Hey you, you stupid Hard Rock Cafe worker...Yeah you better not show your face.

You made me embarresed in the washing room.

Nothing is ever as it seems, especially at night.

Curse you, you unanswered questions.

You unfulfilled dreams.

You liar.

You curses.

But bless you, you wonderful smile. 

You ridiculous tan line.

You great memory.

You fulfilled dreams. 

You one person party. 

You liar.

and bless you who are not blessed for you deserve to be, in one day or the next.

I pray to God for that which will never happent, but maybe we will meet again, oh cursed, oh blessed, the absolutes, the coolest, the dirtiests and the most wonderful ones.