I got my Senior Picture Proofs today!! I think they look really cool! But I cannot decide which four I want. I have narrowed it down to these, but I do not know which ones I want. Any help choosing?

 I pick up my senior pictures early Saturday. Mini-camp starts in about two weeks. I have great friends that I will be able to get to see again. I just can't help but feel like there is something missing from my life.

Yes, ladies and gentleman (actually, just the ladies), I am offically 17. It feels strange reading that...hmmf...Idk... Senior pictures were great! I got to see some of them and I really liked them; can't wait until I get the proofs back! The guys who took my outdoor shots were either just graduated for college or still in undergraduate school. They were really cool. I wanted to take a picture in the water with my swords and tried tp pull some water up from the little stream with my sword for in the pictures. They both thought it was a REALLY cool idea. In fact. the guys both said that they finally got to do something cool instead of the boring senior pictures they normally take. It made me feel really good; plus, they all were complimenting me the whole time like they do everyone else. On top of that, I didn't mind the fact that a few girls there were flirting with me. My mom made me dirt cake,and I have just been playing my new video game all day that my dad got for me for my birthday on Sunday.

Talked to Heather for the first time today since she left for boot camp. I don't know but I guess I am the only person in my family who doesn't miss her. My dad is making me clear out my van and he is going to try and sell it, again. : ^(    I guess there is no sense in holding onto the past.

Tell you what, I am happy during the day but as the sunsets I change. I'm aggressive, extremely more violent, angry for no apparent reason, and yet, slightly depressed, sadden, and increasingly lonely. Maybe it is because the light during the day makes it hard to day dream (yeah, I know it sounds weird but stick to it), where at night the darkness allows my imagination to roam and it tends to dwell on the past.

Well, I guess that's that. ttyl

It's been a while since I updated. Yes, I really am updating at 2:00 o'clock in the morning. I haven't slept in almost two days now and... I've never felt so alone... on the day we celebrate my birthday...

Happy Birthday, Michael, the girl that you have love for two years no longer wants to be with you!

...Happy Birthday too me... Happy birthday too me... Happy Birthday... dear Michael... HAppy birthday to me...  

Okay, a quick update:

• Prom night was GREAT!, next year's prom is going to suck compared to the night I had that night;
  


• I am offically the BNCO for the corps
  


• Kittrell Devil Derby was a success
  


• But the greatest was the "two-year-anniversary" with my angelic girlfriend the night before prom

Already this year I have had to deal with a problem as next years BNCO. I think that we can get passed that and have a great year next year. I understand that a lot of people do not like me being BNCO, one reason I understand is I can be a prick because I don't like flirting constantly to every girl alive, and frankly, I have a girlfriend whom I love to death and WILL NOT, I repeat, W-I-L-L N-O-T under any circumstance jeopardize that relationship because some little girl wants me to flirt with her or be "nice" to her just to earn someone's popular vote. I am not talking to anyone in particular and if you feel like I am singling someone out, you are wrong. I am above peer pressure, and my morals speak firmly against doing something just because others want me to. I will do what is right and will not sway no matter how hard the wind blows, and that is why I think Colonel chose me as the BNCO; I will stand-up and use my power justly.

If I have to step on someone's toes in order to do something right, then so be it. The fact of the matter is that Colonel chose me because he thought I would be a great commander. Plenty of other people tried out for the position that would have done a terrific job, but Colonel chose me because he thought I would be the best for the position as he told me and as I firmly believe I will be. I am not being arrogant; I am having faith in myself so that others may have faith in me. I might be hard and I might seem mean, but I guarantee that when next school year ends, the corps will have changed for the better and perhaps it will the best year for a long time. I don't care what other people think about me, quite frankly, next year WILL be a great year, it WILL be a successful year, and I WILL be a GREAT BNCO because we have a GREAT staff (each and every person chosen), and people with excellent ideas and I am determined to lead this corps with the best of my capabilities.

To those who do not like me being BNCO:

A.)  Either suck it up because they didn't try out for the position or

B.)   They can leave the corps; it really does not matter to me.

I mean, I want people in the corps but if they are just going to cause a bunch of problems, then they can just leave. People seem to join JROTC just to get out of gym and then they complain because we make them actually work, and that I guarantee will change. This is my stance on the issue.

OHS JROTC BNCO 2006-2007

Michael Alan Thoe

I really have no idea how to start off this post and would much rather have had Sarah announce the "good" news herself, but since she didn't... As of April 27, 2006 I will be Oakland High School's Junior Reserve Officer Training Corps Battlion Commander (in short, OHS's JROTC BNCO). So,  I am the big guy in JROTC. Yeah, I am still really not sure what to think of that... I just hope I do a great job next year, whether or not people like me. So, here's to the seniors and the exceedingly high standards they have set before me.

Okay, well nothing is really new. Beautiful is sick with mono, I am as healthy as a horse (which for some reason we assume it means your health??), I am ready for the summer to get here, and I am thinking of getting a job at Kroger because I like it a lot more than I do Bi-lo or Food-Lion.  We got a 039.something out of 400 on our ACI (Annual Command Inspection) in JROTC of course, which is really good considering the moron cadet who decided to walk onto the field (I am not sure if he is a cadet anymore) in the middle of inspection and nine cadets missing. I have a three page paper due next Thursday on J.R.R. Tolkien’s The Hobbit, and the ACT this weekend. I also gave Sarah my Chess painting for her birthday, which I hate giving gifts because I am always questioning whether they actually like it or not especially when it involves my art work. I am looking forward to Boy's State at the end of May and beginning of June. I was thinking about getting a job as a waiter so that I could have a little pocket money along with a pay check, ya know? Idk, well, I think that is long enough! ttyl

Okay, first day of Spring Break... so far pretty good! Tonight I am going to the library to see if I can go get some info on this mysterious J.R.R. Tolkein guy... LoL. I am trying this new technique out "killing with kindness". So far it has worked wonders, wonder why I haven't already tried this... no matter. I have a lot of stuff to do this week academically, but nothing to do socially for now but things just tend to pop up in my life. Well, hope everyone is having a good break. Ttyl

I got my letter today and after a long introduction they stated that I was not accepted to Governor School. Yeah, majorly depressed about that... I think that is the first thing that I have worked really hard at and failed. I guess on a brighter side, I got an 84 on the ASVAB, which is one point away from qualifying to be a Nuclear Engineer, so yeah, I guess it is not such a bright side. Question is what I am going to do for the 5 weeks I was going to be at Governor School?

SPRING IS HERE! I love spring! This week has been REALLY good! Despite some of the crazy things life has thrown at me including getting injured in my left arm this week (but that is certainly not the worst thing), I have still yet to get depressed, which I owe to the one and the only GOD!! LoL I didn't really intend to give anything up for Lent but I think I did anyways and that would be being depressed and I don't think I will stop with Lent. Looking forward to being off of school on Friday. That is about it! ttyl

Yeah... yesterday read Callie's or Mark's page to find out the story. Right now I think the best thing to do is not dwell on it and move on as a lesson learned. Although, the incident has put a few things in perspective and on the bright side no one got perminently injured. God Bless and ttyl.

Well, as title this is entry is about new things. Yes, this weekend was a blast and yes, this week has been one of the best ones I've had in a bout four years, and today was like I was a little kid again after school. I am enjoying life for the first time in about a year. Can't wait until this weekend! I am finally going to officially go to my sixth drill competition and get my official drill berret! The reason why I titled it new things is because I have done more exploring on what I want and how I want my life. There are things that I have done that I am not proud of in my life but I need to stop letting them hold me back from doing what I want to do and finally living a normal happy life. There is a lot more but I think that is enough for today. LoL

Callie and Jade I hope you do well at the state competition!

Well.... Saturday kinda started off like crap. I had to forfiet the competition in order to get to the Militay Ball on time when I had beaten everyone in the qualification bouts with ease, which I also didn't now they were qualification bouts. I didn't even get to stay for the whole thing! I still got third but they gave my medal to someone else because I wasn't there. I competed just in foil, not even my best weapon. Oh well... They all new I was better than them anyways!! LoL

Jade looked gorgeous in her dress, as did all the lovely ladies at the Military Ball. The Military Ball gave me an excuse to be the gentleman I love to be, oh, and thank you Sarah for allowing me to pull your chair out for you a couple times so that I could feel like a true gentleman. (Oh, and you know you liked what Modrall and I did!!) LoL

The only bad thing was that my National Guard for Color Guard lead my flag straight into a ceiling fan (which I told him specifically to make sure he doesn't lead me into) and then he proceeded to pistol-whip me, his commander. LoL But it was funny.

DANCING WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!!! Taking the jacket off was like a switch. With the jacket on I was the anal person I have to be as a company first sergeant, but after I could take it off (and by take it off I mean... well... I let your mind wonder on that...) I had soooo much fun! Jade was so much fun, too, and I am very glad that I took her to the Military Ball. I was really surprised one how she danced but in a very good way. I danced with a lot of ladies and I even got to slow dance with three at once. OH YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT GUYS, THREE AT ONCE!!!! I taught Christina Smith a little swing dancing, and danced a few slow songs with her. It was so much fun that I was literally bouncing off the walls. I got a lot of people to loosen up and have fun. It has to be the most amount of fun that I have every had in one night in my whole life!

Although, a lot happen that night that was really fun and interesting, but there is one thing that I thought was very interesting: I got to see an old friend, Kyle, one of Callie's best friend's ex-boyfriend who I met while helping Callie move into her new house. We talked for a little bit and caught up on how things were going. We both seem to be happy at where we are in life and the way things are going.

I had a load of fun, which goes to show that if you want to have fun don't wait around for it, DO IT! CARPE DIEM!!! (THANKS ELAINE!) SEIZE THE DAY! AND BOY DID I!! It feels SOOOO good. I feel better than I have in about eight months! I hope everyone had as much fun as I did and if you didn't, ITS YOUR FAULT! LoL

After the M. Ball, Jade and I went back to my house and watched The Thirteenth Warrior, which was fun. I took her back home at about 12: 45 a.m., then got home and ate at about 1:20 a.m., and finally went to bed at about 2:15 a.m Sunday morning, but I had to get up at about 6:35 a.m. Thats about it!

See everyone on Tuesday or maybe not! ttyl Bye!

~M.T.

CARPE DIEM!!!

LoL, Well, there have been some changes in my life, (FINALLY!!!), but like always, I had to take it in my own hands to do it.

Anyways, today, actually about five minutes ago, I broke into Mrs. Daniels room when we were suppose to go to Miss Bohall's room. So, a few people and I who are in Mrs. Daniel's first period are now in her room while she is on a field trip.

I have to say I haven't felt like this in a long time... it is like I am about to fight... adrenaline... and it feels great... LoL

Ahhhh, to the future, whatever it may hold!

Malus Asinus = Latin for Bad Ass

Well, the weekend was good, did absolutely nothing after my Governor's School interview, which went well. I will know in about a month if I got in or not, so until then I just have to be patient. The week, though, has not been so good. Monday I just sat around and played Final Fantasy VIII (yes, I am a geek). I got a big ole lecture from my mom, about how I have to change to make others happy when I could not be more miserable, which of course I thought to myself *Mom, you have no idea...* but like the good young son I kept it all inside waiting for another day to explode. Say La Vi... Why do other people always want something from me? Well, I guess that is not really fair to say about everyone but it seems like it. Dad was really pissed off at me after the argument with mom, can't really blame him, after all I get the protective gene from him. House was hilarious like normal, so that made me hapy for awhile, but my mom seemed happy with the "progress" she made. Basically, she wants me to not talk about how I feel and be a "yes, ma'am" or "no, ma'am" kind of attitude. Well, I feel a little bit better... venting is good...

Oh, I have a fencing competition this weekend!! Yay! I am going to win, I've decided. LoL I am doing Sabre and Foil, my two best weapons so I think I am insured a spot in the top three. Well, I guess that is all. TtYl

This week so far has been okay except for the brief moments that it completely sucked, but I think it is getting better or at least I am going to make it better. It was my dad's birthday yesterday, but we went out to eat on Sunday at The Daily Buffet, which was twice for me in three days. This weekend is going to be crazy, well, at least the beginning of it it will be. I still have two art things that I have to do! AHH!! Well, I better do something productive....

Well, Saturday I've labeled as a "good day". I feel very good when I am productive, which is probably why yesterday sucked; I was completely lazy and mildly depressed. This Saturday I have my interview for Governor's School, so PRAY FOR ME!!! Next Saturday is Oakland's Military Ball which will be fun. I have to get a haircut sometime this week before Thurday.... Well, I guess that is about it! Talk to Everyone Later!!

Today was a very productive day. I got up, did my daily hygen routine, ate breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, swept and washed the kitchen floor, finished scetching my painting, painted the best picture I have ever created, ate dinner, cleaned the kitchen again, put the finishing touches on my painting, watched Walking Tall with my parents, cleaned my room, vacuumed my room, took a shower, checked my email, and now I am writing an entry on what I did today. LoL Wow, that is a lot of things and I LOVE my painting! I am proud of it. I am hoping my sister will take a picture of in so I can put it up here. Well, talk to everyone later. Hope everyone had a good and productive day. LoL

Yeeah, I overslept but I feel really good. I hope today is a good day because I feel great, and I think I am due for a good day.

I woke up  because there was someone making noises in the kitchen and I wondered what was dad doing? I opened my eyes and realized that it was at 6:40 am!!! I normally get up at 5:30 am in order to take a shower and what not, but I didn't rush this morning to get ready because I hate my early day class.

Well, better get to school... LoL