this is a really funny commercial!!!!  i love the yawning. lol

k look understand that the things i do, i do for a specific reason.  most of the things are because i am dramatic and i want everything to be perfect all the time.  but some, i feel that either they NEED to be said, or someone NEEDS it done.  i occasionally notice things that other people don't and maybe, just maybe, that's my problem right there.  i try to fix things that don't necessarily need fixing.  i know, this is an extremely random post but this is one of those things that i think NEEDs to be said.  lol

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n e way...crazy.  i've had a fun day.  sorta.....not really.  i guess it's been like other days.  i hate when you sit down to write and you just can't think of something to write about.  nothing has happened in my life lately, nothing is funny right now.....NOTHING is interesting or worth writing about....except that nothing is interesting. lol  so...i had lots of fun yesterday!  i was a very tired individual.  i cant wait till wednesday.  and i'm totally psyched about the New Year.  so yeah i hope you have a nice life.

so yeah i went to see I am Legend lastnight.  o my golly gosh that was...amazing to say the least.  i almost cried, for serious!  i spent half the movie curled up in a ball because i dont like the noise those things make AND they were jumping out everywhere.  ok.  so anyway, we get about 15 or 20 minutes into the movie and the guy is washing his dog.  and he turns on some music.  and guess what?  the song he plays just happens to be Steele's myspace song.  you know, when you have a new crush or you get a new car, you start seeing that car everywhere?  or you just see stuff constantly that makes you think of them?  well that's how i feel right now.  i mean, i like the fact that i think he's cool, but it needs to leave me alone.  i can't NOT think about it.  it's very frustrating, but it's okay with me.  like it makes me happy and upset at the same time.  dang.  this is confusing.

1. Is there someone you wanna date right now?
um....i do but i don't

2. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
jerkwad.

 

3. Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
heart broken def....

4. What is your name?
my name is jose.

no it's carmen

 

5. Name a quote from the song you are listening to:
i feel like a hero and you are my heroine

6. What are you doing right now?
uh this duh

7. Do you miss your ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
uh i don't really have an ex...but the person i stopped liking yes i do miss them

8. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
no....i don't particularly like secrets

10.Regret(s)?
oh way too many to keep track of

11. What was the reason you last cried?
i don't know really....i don't quite remember

12. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
is dad up yet?  i need his jacket

 

13. Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
uh well i don't have a myspace but if i did and i knew what my profile song was, then yeah there would be a meaning and it would be 'i like the song, duh'.

14. Do you have a best friend?
a few actually

 

(where is 15???)

 

16. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
yeah actually...lol

17. What do you think of people who don't have sex before marriage?
they are very smart

18. Do you own a pair of green pants?
army green yeah

19. Are you more independent or dependent?
sure i'm both

20. Ever had the opposite sex over when no one was home?
um no

21. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
no sir

22. What is your favorite fruit?
i really REALLY like kiwis.  :)

 

25. What is the most important thing in any relationship?
LOVE duh

26. What is the last song to make you cry?
idk....

27. Does anyone love you?
yeah like family...that's it.  well and a friendly love.

 

28. Do you love someone?
yes siree i sure do

 

29. Are your best friends pretty?
they are all gorgemo

30. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
uh i guess

32. Whats the one thing thats getting you through this week?
laughter

33. Who do you miss?
i miss...........you!

34. Do you give out second chances too easily?
yeah i think  i do

 

35. Where was your last car ride to and from?
ride to pastor steve's from abe and amelia's

36. Where is one place you want to visit?
i want to go to paris

39. Ever felt that no one relates to you?
i feel like that a lot but i'm pretty wierd.

 

40. Had plans and broke them?
yeah that's sad

41. Done anything illegal?
probably

43. Are you a vegetarian?
i'm pretty sure that's a no...just guessin.  LOL

44. Are you a tease?
um...some would say yes but i say no

 

45. Who are you jealous of?
lots of people

 

46. Are you a lover or hater?
probably....both

47. Do you think your ex's new love is a player/slut?
again...the person i 'stopped' liking.

and yes i think she is

49. What/who can always make you laugh?
Grace Tyler Neely Steve Keri Megan
50. Who's your top 12 on myspace?

uh i don't have a myspace but if i did this would be them i guess

grace

tyler

keri (she doesn't have a myspace though)

megan (doesn't have one either) 

kaelynn

mckenna

my uncle jonjon

shawna

jacob

daniel

hallie/maddie

allie

dangflabit....my life is soggy.  now i can't eat it anymore because it's all goopy.  that's gross.  have you ever known someone (i don't really KNOW this person, per say.) and you think they're cool and all, but they just have this one thing that annoys the crap out of you???  I HAVE A PERSON LIKE THAT.  (grace should know. lol)  but anyway.  this is an extremely random post.  but i'm an extremely random person, so that's cool.  unlike you because you're not cool.  have you ever noticed that i don't like using capitalization?  it takes too long, so i don't even bother.  ugh.  well i think worship was good lastnight at church.  i'm not sure though because i wasn't in the audience but it was pretty moving for me, even on stage, singing and playing.  I can't wait till sunday.  i don't know why.  and then i can't wait 'till new year's.  FUN!  i have a lot of thoughts.  gosh.  i hate this!!!!!!!  do you know how frustrating it is when you want to meet someone but you just know that you could never ever build up the courage?  it's dang annoying!!  like, this guy seems pretty cool and it would be awesome if maybe i could talk to him and we could be friends or whatever, but i'm so scared to talk to him.....nothing would ever work.  he seems cool though.  i guess i'll just keep thinking he's cool and never talk to him.  that's horrible!  i need to talk to him.  i need some courage.  well....i guess that means....

WE'RE OFF TO SEE THE WIZARD, THE WONDERFUL WIZARD OF OZ!!!!!!  lol

(follow the yellow brick road)

hey all you fellas and lady fellas...it's Christmas!!!  HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!  I hope you all have a wonderful day with your family and whatnot.  I know that i sure am going to!  Well, that's just about all i wanted to say.  so.....yeah!

(p.s.  OMG i got a new camera.  YES!!!  so awesome...it's pretty good!!!!!!!!  AAAAAAAAAH!)

Can you answer 51 questions about the 1st person on your top friends list?

(i did not read this thing...so i'm gonna pick grace and maybe this will be interesting.)

Don’t change your top friend.

1) What’s their name? Grace
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend? well....sorta kinda

3) Do you get along with this person all the time? we have our moments definitely
4) How old is the person? 14

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you? no but sorta....no yes i don't know

6) Is this person older than you? uh huh

7) Have you ever kissed this person? NO

9) Are you related to this person? no and Yes

10) Are you really close to him/her? best friend!!!

11) Nickname? STEPHIE...but i'm not supposed to call her that.

13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week? A LOT 

14) Do you think they will repost this? no considering they already posted it once.

15) Could you live with this person? yes probably

16) Why is this person your number 1? cuz she is like one of my bestest friends everer

18) How long have you known this person?? a while...7 years?  maybe more i don't know

19) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? yes

20) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? um i don't think....????
21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person? yes that would be extremely sad 

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
we have done many MANY stupid things.  but we're cool and so that's all that you need to know.

24) Do you know everything about this person? i know a lot of things but DEFINITELY not everything

25) Would you date this person’s siblings? haha lol you don't need to know

26) Have you ever made something with this person? um....sure?  YES COFFEE stuff

29) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person? um no dear

31) Is your #1 on drugs? probably :)  lol

33) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes? um yeah

34) Have you and your #1 person made up a hand shake? haha no

35) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person? um....i don't know.  maybe

36) Have you ever heard this person sing? yes and it's very beautiful

38) Do you and this person have a saying? no...well, maybe

39) Do you know this persons myspace password? no i don't think

41) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 months? yes....horrible times.

44.) Have you and this person gone clubbing? lol no

45) Do you know how to make this person happy? YES

46) Do you and this person talk alot? yeah didn't this question already get asked???  gosh youre dumb

47) Do you like this person? yes this has also been asked

48) Has this person yelled at you? i don't think....we have shared some raised voices but never yelling i don't think

49) Have you and this person got into a fist fight? she hits me...a lot 

50) Do you want to go out with this person? uh that would be a big no

51) Do you want to be friends with them forever? yes :) :) :)

1.What are 3 emotions you are feeling right now?

Joy, Tad bit of Frustration, Confusion


2. What time did you wake up this morning?
1 o'clock PM!!!!

3. How many hours of sleep did you get?
that would be like 14

4. What are you currently doing?
listening to a song, doing this survey, and just living

5. Have you kissed someone within the past week?
no

6.Have you told anyone you loved them today?
no considering i woke up about 10 minutes ago

7. Have you ever been in love?
i thought so....who knows?  i've loved someone but never been in love.

8. Do you like anybody?
i can answer that with a definite yes
9. Do you miss anybody?
yes i do

10. Do you have plans for tomorrow?
yeah it's Christmas!

11. What is the last thing you ate?
one of mrs. Terri Baker's WONDERFUL pretzel things.  yum.

12. Is there a member of the opposite sex in your life who means the world to you?
yeah...more than the world  :)

13. What are you listening to right now?
"With You"

14. Are you a generally clean or messy person?
organized mess person

15.Have you kissed 3 people on your top ?
uh no

16.Have you ever liked anyone on your top ?
don't have a myspace but sure why not

if i had one then yeah
17. Would you currently start a thing with your top ?

again.....sure

19. Do you find members of the opposite sex confusing?
most of the time yes


20. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
i was scared for someone i cared for

21. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
yeah a couple people

22. Are you going to be alone tonight?
nope

23. When is the last time you saw a movie in theaters?
i saw national treasure on friday

26. Is there something you wish you could tell someone, but can’t?
yeah

27. What're you doing tonight?
WAITING FOR SANTA!!!! lol

 

28. What is one thing you can't wait for?
i'm not sure...oh!  wednesday!  yay

29. How has the week been?
kinda....sucky.  kinda fun!

30. Do you have a best friend?
OF COURSE.  i have a few.  but one "best friend" lol

well since i haven't been on here in like 2 weeks....i have to clue you in on my life.  well, basically, i'm so dang confused.  there was this guy and we were flirting and so now we are 'talking'....and i don't like it.  i don't like him!  i flirt when i'm bored....*SIGH*.  but i can't tell him that i just can't.  he's a senior, though.  that's kinda cool.  keri, please don't kill me.  i'm sorry....but, i got caught up in the moment.  i can't make up my mind.  i want....AAAAAAAAAH!  i want to be little again.  but no one liked me then either so it doesn't matter.  but, you have to understand my position.  this guy is NOT bad looking, in fact, he's very far from it.  he actually liked me and he was flirting with me and well, that's the first time that's ever happened for me so that's why this is like it is now.  why can't someone that i like like me back?  i don't care.  oh yes i do, what am i saying.  i care very much.  VERY.  i just need to make up my mind.  i think i have, but i don't know this guy.  Steele....:).  i will talk to him eventually.  I HAVE TO.  just something but this....please!  i like being this senior guy's friend, but nothing more.  he has cheating problems so i don't know why i even flirted with him in the first place.  grrr.  i'm mad at myself.  and keri is probably mad.  i'm not sure what to do about either of the sitiuations.  oh well.

SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. a tv

2. piano

3. bed

4. karaoke machine

5. lava lamp

6. closet

7. ???

SEVEN RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Do you like anyone? yes

2. Does someone like you? yes in fact

3. Last kiss? my root beer mug!! lol

4. Been lead on? yes siree

5. Been cheated on? ...probably....grr

6. Want a relationship? not really 

7. Wanna get married? eventually

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. Music

2. God

3. Friends (tyler, you have lots.)

4. shelter

5. Food

6. water

7. ....dare i say....nevermind.  it's a person though

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. Austin

2. How bored i am

3. How i have nothing to do

4. Why hasn't A.J. talked to me

5. OMG i'm so bored

6. guess what.......i'm so dang bored

7. pickles

SEVEN OTHER THINGS - DO YOU:
1. Believe in God? duh

2. Had a dream come true? no

3. Read the newspaper? i dont remember

4. Get enough sleep everyday? idk...my bff jose
5. Have a best friend? one or two. but only one

6. Take a shower daily? ya

7. Wish on stars? sure

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Fallen in love? yes siree dang it no matter what anyone says 

2. Kissed someone of the same sex? NO

3. Hooked up with someone who had a gf/bf? no

4. Been to a Bonfire? yes i miss them

5. Ran away from home? no ma'am

6. Snuck out of the house? no

7. Pulled an all nighter? DUH
SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Cried? yes
2. Had fun? i guess so...i was the happiest at the movies.  i wish it would have lasted forever.  i guess that was fun.  but i hated cracker barrel.  rawr.

3. Been kissed? no
4. Felt stupid? um yeah
5. Talked to an ex? don't have one yet
6. Missed someone? ..............yes.
7. Listened to music? um do you know who you are asking? DUH

Apologize- One Republic

"I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah yeah

I loved you with the fire red
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...''

i wish this thought had sound effects.  i would be yelling through the entirety of it.  yes, i have hit a low spot in my very happy little streak of happiness.  why does it feel like that every time i try to do something right it goes bad and comes back in my face???!!!???  i tried to be happy and i tried to be nice to everyone and still, someone ends up mad at me, they won't tell me why, and i hate it!!!!  WHY does it have to be like this?  if he knew how hard i was trying to be happy and be nice, would he even change his mind?  if he knew the reason i was upset, would he even change his mind?  one of my newest, closest friends is mad at me!!!!!!!!  you don't know how frustrated i am right now...because i am EXTREMELY TICKED!!!!!!!  boy it's times like these i wish i could just yell at someone or smack someone across the face....or something.  i...i can't even think...i am just so....ANGRY!  he sits there and laughs like it's no big deal, all the while knowing it's bugging the freaking crap out of me!!!!  i wish someone would hit him in the head with a football.  or something hard...not really.  but i'm mad, ok?  i know, it's not good to do that with your anger and/or frustration, but i haven't done this in a little while.  i'm usually sad, not hardly mad!!!!  like this!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm gonna go scream at something now.  bye

"France IS full of crazy people..."
By: Someone WAY cooler than you  
"12 Signs that you're (falling) in like:"
12. You'll read his/her emails over and over again...
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her...
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and
faster...
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around
you...you can only see that person...
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs.
5. He/She becomes all you think about.
4. You'll get high just by their smell...
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you 
think about them..
2. You'll do anything for him/her...
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!  for those of you that know me at all, you know that i usually have something i'm upset about.  but, i am just so happy right now!  i can't even describe how good of a mood i'm in.  i've totally turned around.  i've learned that really, when you are going through something that stinks, or you're having a bad day, smiling really does help!  and when you bless others, you are also blessed!!!!  i've been like this for about a week and a half now.  i am just carefree because...i don't know why!  but other people are noticing that i am in a good mood.  i think i have the definition of joy.  i'm truly thankful and happy with what i've been given.  and i know Who i have to think for that!  ;) (thanks God)

well this is my happy little thought.  even though things still bother me, i smile and pray through it.....and it truly TRULY REALLY helps!  i'm so happy...i hope the rest of you can be this way.  it's not hard at all.  you just have to get rid of that little frowny face, that's all!  lol

luv ya'll!

Carmen

so....i've been thinking lately....i want to go to Juilliard.  i...always kind of have, but never really considered the fact that i might actually be good enough to make it in.  double major....voice and piano...wow.  i need help with the tuition...it's about $40,000 dollars a year.  so...i need major scholarships!  right now i'm not thinking about the 'if i don't's.  because this is a dream that i'm gonna go after.

"Don't ever follow your dreams...chase them."

so yeah.

i'm bummed.

i don't know how to figure this out.  i've never been so confused in my life! 

but i've been really happy the past few days.  little things have been really bugging me though!  so...yeah.  really random and really short.

bye

okay.  i'm sick of being stabbed in the back over and over while each time i keep running back to the knife.

so i'm saying this once and for all:

THIS IS OVER.

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okay....well there's this guy at my school and i've never even talked to him but i feel like i'm supposed to know him.  i think he's really awesome but no one else agrees with me.  i think he's handsome...again, no one agrees.  i don't care.  i want to meet him and i need help!!!  keri, you have to introduce me....(you know who i'm talking about, right??? lol)

 

 I'M 30% SHY!!!

[] You don't like public speaking.
[] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[x] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[] being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[x] you hate to go shopping alone.

TOTAL SO FAR:2

[] When you're in a group of people, its difficult to think of what to say.
[] You have trouble talking to the opposite gender.
[] You hate to be teased.
[] You hate answering the door.

TOTAL SO FAR:2

[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[] You can't stand people watching you.
[] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[] You hate to read out loud....
[] You don't like answering questions.

TOTAL SO FAR:3

[x] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[x] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well...
[] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[] You wish you were more outgoing.
[] You hate being in the center of any room.

TOTAL SO FAR:5

[] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people.
[x] You blush easily.
[] you don't like singing in front of a lot of people

TOTAL SO FAR:6

Multiply it by 5

Repost with the title
im __% shy

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 Its another one :P
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2007 IS COMING TO AN END

1. Have you had any relationships this year? no

2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yes

3. Cried yet? yes

4. Been on a diet? cut down on stuff

5. Pulled an all nighter? yeah

6. Drank Starbucks? OH YEAH!!!

7. Went Camping? yes i have very fun...very fun indeed

8. Bought something(s)? uh huh

9. Met someone special? yeah...my stanley!!!  no and hallie too

10. Been out of state? a few times

12. What are you thinking about? too many things ___________________________________________
1.) Hugged someone? why of course

2.) Slept in someone elses bed? yes

3.) Got a job? no not really

4.) Loaned out money? maybe like a dollar

5.) Gotten in a car accident? thank the lord, no

6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill? i don't think...eeesh.

7.) Been called a slut? a hoe.  tyler!

8.) Done something you regret? a few things

LAST:
_________________________________________________________
Last Person you hugged? mrs. shawn

Last Person to call you? mommy

When was the last time you felt stupid? oh i lose track.. it happens so much!  lol

Who did you last yell at? Neely...:(

What did you do today? i...did school

TEN FACTS:
___________________________________________________________
01. Name? cArMeN

02. Natural hair color? blondey browney little bit of reddy

03. Initials? CCF

04. Hair style? cute

05. Eye color? AZUL

06.Height? 5'5.5"

07. Pets? 3 dogs....1 hermit crab...1 rabbit.

08. Mood? crazy

09. Where would you rather be?
houseblend or piano

10. What was the last thing you drank? water

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TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

01. Have you ever been in love?
i don't know

02. Do you believe in love? most of the time

03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? um...i don't have relationships

04. Have you ever been heartbroken? ...yeah...

05. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? no.  no one's ever liked me

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? sure why not

07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? yes

08. Are you afraid of commitment? not afraid.

 

10. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
UH no

EMOTIONS
___________________________________________________________
01. Are you missing someone right now? yeah

02. Are you happy? no

03. Are you eating anything? not at the moment.  which is odd.  lol

04. Do you like someone right now? like hate whatever 

so...here goes.

1. Is someone in love with you?
i don't think so...but you might just have to be that person to know!

2. Do you know anyone named Dave?
sadly....

3. What color is your couch?
um...greenish/blackish

4. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
not really

5. Have you ever tried Propel Water?
yeah

6. What color are the walls of your bedroom?
lime green

7. Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?
it depends

8. Are you named after a grandparent?
no i don't think...hmmm

9. What did u do yesterday?
went to school and mime and deven-chandler's house

10. What is your greatest fear?
i'm not so sure anymore

11. Are you taller than 5'6"?
AAAAAAAH!  i'm so close!  dang it.

12. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
no i don't think...but that would explain why i haven't seen her in a while....hmmmm...lol

13. Ever seen a dead body?
yeah

14. Do you like the color green?
most shades.  some i don't like.

15. One of your favorite things?
playing and singing

16. How old are you?
13.  i mean, 14.  sorry.  it was just my birthday

17. Who was the last person to send you a text message??
hallie

18. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs?
HECK YES!  um.  no.

19. Last restaurant you went to?
dunkin donuts!  :) lol 

20. Whats the weather like today?
cold and cold

21. Last voice mail you received?
???  megan calling me to tell me happy bday!

22. What did you do today?
school because i don't skip to go shopping!  lol j/k

23. What's the first thing you would do with five million pounds?
i would convert it to dollars so i could actually do something with it.

24. How much did you sleep last night?
i don't know!

25. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
winter wonderslam

26. Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
um...i don't have stalkers.  well tyler springer

27. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
no but cross country

28. What jewelry are you wearing?
2 rings

29. What's your middle name?
you will never know.

30. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
sure why not

31. Whats your favorite drink?
i like coffee much.  and water is a pretty cool liquid as well.

32. Do you swear at your parents?
heck no.

33. Is your phone right beside you?
it's in front of me...

34. Ever been in a car wreck, while you were driving?

i'm a little kid and i don't drive

35. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
it could happen.  but yes i do

36. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
no that's annoying

37. Whats the color of your bedsheets?
they are some funky pattern

38. Have you ever crawled through a window?
no.

39. Are you photogenic?
outside!  i know, that's wierd, but my pictures always look better outside.  strange.

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
i dunno.  i don't shop all that much

42. What was the last thing you did?
typed this word.

43. Do you have a tattoo?
no dearie.

44. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
occasionally.

45. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
OH YEAH.

46. Have you ever told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?
i'm not sure.

47. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
haha yeah

48. What are you doing in 2008?
probably the same old same old

49. What is your ringtone?
i have 3 or four.  like 5 actually

50. What were you doing at 2am last night?
SLEEP like a normal person

have you ever met someone who seems to...for lack of a better word...complete you?  someone who is exactly like you in some ways, yet totally and completely different in others.  the things you aren't good at, they are.  and the things you are good at, they aren't always.  you are envious of what they have, the things they can do on a whim.  it's not a greedy envy or a selfish one, it's more of a looking-up-to kind of want.  it's almost like...they are made for you.  you find things getting more and more complicated while they are one of the few things that remain the same.  unchanging and steady.  you feel calm and...at rest when you are with them.  you will do anything just to make them happy.  and they the same?  i feel like this right about now.  it's like i've only known this person for a little season, but it feels like a lifetime.  i'm not crazy over them.  i'm not in 'like'.  i don't have a crush.  i just feel like they are supposed to be in my life in this season for a reason.  i don't know what that reason is yet, but i hope to soon find out. 

========sorry.  i feel that way========

so yeah.  i was at dunkin donuts lastnight with the pastor and fam, my fam, and angelina.  me, chandler, deven, and ross and angelina were all sitting at a table and all the sudden deven walks away.  i figured i probably made him mad.  and so i said, "Angelina, i think he hates me."  she looked at me with this crazy surprised look on her face like WHAT?  She said, "REALLY?  He says you're his best friend."  i felt so happy right about then.  so i went and i talked to him.  i asked him,"What's wrong???  Do you hate me...you act like it."   "Right now...right now?" he said.  "Well yeah," i said, "Why did you just get up and leave like that?"  Deven said,"Well, you were too busy talking and i was trying to tell you something and you weren't listening to me!"  i felt like a mean and horrible monster.  not really, but oh well.  so yeah...we fixed it all.  i really only put that up here to say...

it's funny when you find out that someone thinks so highly of you and you never even thought that at all.  just the opposite my friend, just the opposite.

well this is pretty random.  but i'm just letting it all out.  i have lots more to say, but most of you didn't even finish reading this.  if you did, kudos to you.  if you didn't, whatever.

EIGHT Last's:
1. Last drink: wata

3. Last phone call: tyler

4. Last text message: hallie

 5. Last CD played: ???  i don't know

6. Last bubble bath: it's been a few good years...wow.

7. Last time you cried: about 4 weeks ago..maybe?

8. Last meal: at like, 1:30 ish

SEVEN Have You’s:
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? no siree
2. Have you ever been cheated on?no siree

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? never kissed nobody

5. Have you ever lost someone? uh huh

6. Have you ever been depressed? oh yes

7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? OH no

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. went to grace's
2. went to church

3. sung

4. played the piano 

5. ate pizza

6. smiled really big and laughed

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Grace
2. Hallie

3. Tyler (sometimes)
4. Keri

5. Megan
List THREE favorite colors
1. Orange

2. Green.
3. Black


List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. get married

2. go skydiving
SO FAR IN 07…
Been to school - duh.

Made a new friend - uh huh
Fallen out of love - well sorta but if i fell out of it, it wasn't love, was it?

Done something you swore never to do- yes

Laughed until you cried - HECK YES

Went behind your friends back - probably i just don't live in the past.
Met someone who changed your life - sure why not

Gotten close to someone - yes

Found out who your true friends are- OH YES!!!

5. Do you have a crush? i guess you could call it that.  but i don't like that word.  sounds so...3rd gradeish

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? i don't judge hugs.
7. Do you believe in love at first sight? no i do not
8. Is there something you want to tell someone? yes very much so...very much 

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? wet seal 

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? oh buddy...if i had a myspace and i knew who my top friends would be...heck yes i would

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? sure....

12. How many people on your top friends? 46
13. How many kids do you want to have? i don't know...

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? not really.  no
15. Do you wanna change your name? sure

16. What did you do for your last birthday? had a partay
17. What time did you wake up today? i dunno

18. What were you doing at midnight last night? i would have been...uh...sleeping

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: see tyler
20. Last time you saw your dad? like 2 seconds ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? oh there's a lot of stuff.

22. Which hand do you like better? left hand

23. What are you listening to right now? silence

24. Have you ever talked to Tom? no siree

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? uh huh

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yes
27. Least favorite month? probably july...it's hot

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? a shirt

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? quite a few folks
30. Most visited webpage? bored.com or phusebox
31. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing? YES.  but i don't know how much help i would be considering my best friend's...a guy!

32. Coke or Pepsi? i don't really like them.

33. What’s the worst day of your life? that is none of your business.

34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no ma'am.

35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? uh ya

36. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds?  uh not models they are too skinny.  but people, i suppose so

Click here to create your own painting.um...my painting is depressing.  oh well.  it's kinda purty

so here's how it goes:

Eventually, he will realize you're worth it......

 

 

or you'll realize he's not.

 

<3

well...i got this orange peel dark chocolate (YUM!) and not only was it DElicious....but it had a beautiful poem on the wrapper.  how sweet.

Love is Enough-

Love is enough: though the World be a-waning,

And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,

   Though the sky be too dark for dim eyes to discover

The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,

Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,

   And this day draw a veil over all deeds pass'd over,

Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter;

The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter

   These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.

---William Morris

(That just made my day.)