i wish this thought had sound effects.  i would be yelling through the entirety of it.  yes, i have hit a low spot in my very happy little streak of happiness.  why does it feel like that every time i try to do something right it goes bad and comes back in my face???!!!???  i tried to be happy and i tried to be nice to everyone and still, someone ends up mad at me, they won't tell me why, and i hate it!!!!  WHY does it have to be like this?  if he knew how hard i was trying to be happy and be nice, would he even change his mind?  if he knew the reason i was upset, would he even change his mind?  one of my newest, closest friends is mad at me!!!!!!!!  you don't know how frustrated i am right now...because i am EXTREMELY TICKED!!!!!!!  boy it's times like these i wish i could just yell at someone or smack someone across the face....or something.  i...i can't even think...i am just so....ANGRY!  he sits there and laughs like it's no big deal, all the while knowing it's bugging the freaking crap out of me!!!!  i wish someone would hit him in the head with a football.  or something hard...not really.  but i'm mad, ok?  i know, it's not good to do that with your anger and/or frustration, but i haven't done this in a little while.  i'm usually sad, not hardly mad!!!!  like this!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm gonna go scream at something now.  bye