At the moment i am torn. My life is at a crossroads i need help.

Things are going downhill quickly. I love my family dont get me wrong but sometimes i grow to resent them. As if being sisteen wasnt hard enough as it is personal drama makes the icing on the cake. Sometimes i just want a break, a break from eveything, just be alone for a while think contemplate get a grip on reality and bring my own being to the surface again. Theres to much in life that people take to seriously and things they take for granted. I for one have learned that every moment with whomever that moment is shared with is special. Things from the past can never be forgotten no matter how bwad we want them to but eventually wounds heal, it just takes some time and nurturing. Guys come in all different shapes and sizes none of them are the same. there are the guys who are jerks, the guys who are immiture , the guys who only want one thing, but sometimes you might get lucky and run across one who genuinely loves you for you. If you ever find one hold on to him, If you dont you wont begin to imagine how lost youll become.

O my gosh i really cant believe that time is going so fast the last time i wrote i was still a freshman.... hardly though! now as my sophmore year is winding down its hard to believe that my high school experience is almost over, its crazy!

omg it seems like it has been forever since i wrote last.

Alot of things have changed since then im not in that realtionship anymore and in fact i've been in 5 more since that.

My freshmen year is coming to an end with only one more week of school left, its crazy how fast it whent by.

I have changed alot since then too! I look at things differently now i have a new perspective on things, im not so uptight anymore. My favorite movie and book came out since then too!, TWILIGHT! It doesnt matter how many times i watch it, it never gets old! I cant wait till New Moon!, even thought its the saddest of all the books, they wouldnt be as awesome as they are if they didnt have the emotion in them. The thing that sucks though is at this rate Breaking Dawn wont be coming out till im a senior! that sucks! But i'll just have to wait like everyone else.

well i really dont have much else to talk about so im gonna go, oh but there is one thing, if you are ever on you tube any time soon go and find the scary maze game and get one of your friends to play it its hilarious you'll know what im talking about when you see for yourself!

Ok so i am in a very awesome relationship right now and so far everything is good. I like this guy alot and i never EVER thought that we would be going out, i met him a couple years ago and it wasnt one of those movie moments where you meet somebody and then you fall stait into love i had thought nothing more of this guy  than a friend. we whent to school together until i whent to high school this year, i hadnt talked to him in  5 months an one night out of nowhere i got the earge to just call him and catch up on things. So i called him and everything that i had thought of him had totally comepletely changed, we talked for hours that night and i started liking him so much that i even broke up with the guy that i was dating just to go out with him i know it sounds bad but its not as bad as it seems, the guy i was going out with then wasnt really my type and i had started to realize that we shouldnt be going out, then on top of that i had fell for this guy, and that gave me the idea that i should breake up with the guy i was going out with, and i am GLAD that i did cuz if i hadnt i probably would not be going out with a guy that i really love and a guy that i know loves me for who i am! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKay this year has been my freshman year of highschool and i am like totally blown away by how different it is from middle school. I love it here at creek wood because there are so many different things going on you have your choice at practically anything you like , the lunch is much better, and you get sooooooooo much more freedom its crazy to think that at the end of 8th grade i wasnt looking forwaed to this!

Ok, i am really confused, guys are so  so so....... they are so difficult ok incase you dont understand, there is this guy and i really like him and he said he liked me and then the next day hes got a girlfriend and its not me the next day they arent going out we start talking again and just when i think hes gonna ask me out i loose interest just like that, i have no clue why this happened it just did so im trying to put everything together and figure out if im the one not making any sense here or if its him. So can you read this and help me out here!

So who do you think should run our country?

      All through the night all through the day when the leaves outside your window sway i hope you know i love you and im open to anything you say i will be there and always will all through the night and all through the day

Ok well i guess this will probably my last thought on phusebox for a while because this is the last day of school and well i will be leaving to go to florida soon and then when we get back i will be going to gatlinburg and then i will be goin to chicago so my summer is going to be pretty jam packed so im gonna miss you guys and i'll see ya before long

                                            love ya

I am so freakin happy that school is about to be let out, although im going to c.w.h.s next time school comes around and i'll never be going back to middle school again, i have to realize that growing up is a part of life and everybody has to do it.

 Im kinda anxious to get to creek wood well because it's a new beggining and its gonna be alot different. Well i guess   i'll go and let you guy's go and plan out your sweet vacations but it's only bye for now!, And by the way are any of you guys upset by the American Idol winner?

with one simple gesture you can save a persons life.

Have you ever wondered why we want the people we cant have and that we have the people that we really dont want? I really like this guy NOW and i come to find out that my chance has come and passed. Okay he used to really like me but i wasnt ready for a relashionship with him and i didnt really like him that mmuch then well i kinda did but i was scared to go further with him and of course when he asked me out i said no BIG MISTAKE, and now that he doesnt like me that much anymore i really really like him and i just dont know how im gonna get over him i really want to but for some reason i just CANT i used to think it would be easy to just STOP liking someone but i've come to find out that its not that easy, you cant just make your life come to a halt and stop loving someone ( can you ? ) Well i dont know truthfully i dont think i ever will but somehow it will work its way out i hope! ( advise please )

Sometimes i think about life after death i know there has to be more than what meets the eye i know for alot of people when they think of the end they think of being buried but i know there has to be more than just taking a ride to your grave in a hearse but i know whatever happens after death everyone is going to experience so i guess ill just wait and find out for myself.

Have you ever just sat and wondered about the future and asked yourself, am i going to make a family, or am i going to be successfull in the career i worked so hard for, or am i even going to live long enogh to get married. Lets face it the future is a scary place and we have to face it one step at a time whether we want to or not. Sometimes i just sit and try to plan things out but you have to remember alot of things dont go as they are planned i guess you just have to look at it this way god made plans for all of us so whatever happens in my life is meant to happen i just have to steer myself the right way until i get there!

I dont know why but here lately i just dont know what is going on with me one day i'll be fine and then the next day i just dont feel like myself and like i am depressed i dont know why this is happening to me and i dont know when its going to end all i know is god is the answer to all my problems and he holds the KEY. so maybe all of this is meant to be happening to me but im not realyy sure i havent really opened up about this before so i hope im doing the right thing but maybe one day when i am older i will understand what i am going through but for now it remains a mystery

Have you ever had one of those days when nothing seems to be going right? Well i have learned from recent experience that trying to go into depression wont help anything! With your time on this earth all you can really rely on is people who really are your friends and will support you through the bad times and your family

hey yall whats up not much with me omg i cant believe we  got out of school for 6 days!  That is too much time out of school for me i dont know about you but i actually like school this year i guess im just starting to enjoy my last year of middle school but im really excited about creek wood high school is a big step for me and im kinda not looking forward to it and at the same time but i have to go see ya later!

Hey yall whats up not very much for me eccept there is alot of drama going around to me because of my friends arguments and im kinda tired of it all i mean i love all my friends but i dont love them so much when they pull me into a motherload of CRAP that i dont want to deal with i am 14 years old for crying out loud i mean there is enogh drama in my life as it is just for me going through my teen stages in life i dont need any extra added on top of that.

IF YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYIN !!! sooooo now that i got that out of my system i feel a little better thank god for phusebox my anger management ANGEL !!!!

Soooo yall i am so confused i am really worried about the prom i have been looking forward to this for a long time now but now that it is almost here im not looking forward to it so much well i mean i want to go but  i think that it is going to be boring and  i might not want to go so much anymore. I know there are so many peaple on phusebox that have already been to their first prom and if you could give me a little advise it would really help me out so PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!

hey everybody wutz up oh my gosh i was so glad that school was out two days in a row and the day befor it opened two hours late how awesome is that!!!! I cant wait until summer i am so over the cold weather that it isnt even funny  summer is gonna be so much fun we are planning on going to disney land and then when we get back were supposed to go to chicago pretty much every year the past three years we have gone there and i love it  the city is so exciting when you ve lived in tennessee your whole life! But i am glad that i dont live there  it is all to hectic and noisy it is nice to live in a community that is quiet and laid back. Well i guess i have run out of things to say so i guess ill talk to ya later!!!!!!!!!!