well, i decided to use Kaelynn's idea and write a seven day journal thing.  this is my first thought; i thought i would share it with you.

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11-02-07

THE PLEDGE

I was thinking one day about things that are really meaningful and awesome that are taken for granted.  Like faith, love, life, and simply happiness.  But one thing that I noticed that not many people would really much care to think about was the Pledge of Allegiance to our flag.  You know, that pledge means so much!  We are free!  Do you know what that flag stands for or what it really means?  Do you understand that lives are being lost every day in an effort to uphold the meaning of everything the flag stands for?  People every day shrug at the pledge and say it in schools as a routine.  It is one of the only references to God left in our schools and one of the only symbols of patriotism.  It really makes you wonder...why do people do that?  They say that they are happy to be in the Land of the Free and the Home of the Brave, and then...they can't even appreciate what the pledge really means.  We ARE one nation and that flag represents that.  We are one nation UNDER GOD.  The flag stands for that, too.  WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL!  The flag means that, as well.  It's an everyday symbol of unity, as well as patriotism and gratitude.  How amazing is it, that our nation has come so far?  It's absolutely amazing.  This has made me totally look at saying the pledge from a WAY different point of view.  Now, when I say the pledge, I say a prayer as well for all the people (men and women alike) over seas and fighting for this country that doesn't fight for them.  I am ashamed that people don't actually get it.  This is a free country, we are a free people, but freedom isn't free.

"I pledge allegiance, to the flag, of the United States of America.  And, to the republic, for which it stands; one nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all."

i got to see my pickin' banjo, fiddlin' player tonight.  yay!  see, a few weeks ago (2) i told him that i knew something he didn't know.  figuring he'd blow it off and forget about it, i forgot about it.  (well, actually i didn't, i still know it.  [someone might know what and who i'm talking about, if not, don't fret.])  and so tonight, he said "okay...so you know something I don't know"  I said,  YEP!  and he said to me...just like this..."You know that's been bugging the crap out of me for two weeks now, do you realize that?"  i know, small thing, but it made me feel all special.  woo.  he actually does remember stuff i say woo!...well, that's my happy little gung-ho moment.  so he asked me when I would tell him and I told him "A LONG TIME...a LLLLOOOONNNNGGG time."  he said, "How long, like a year??"  I laughed and said..."more like 10 years."  but....I think i'll tell him before then.  considering...welll......nevermind.

LOVE HIM

-Carmen-

okay so...i wanna play paintball at the next paintball war and we got everything all worked out with my party and the war and i am so happy cuz i get to play and then, it hits me,

I DON'T HAVE A GUN.

lol...haha.

well, i guess i'll wait...AGAIN.

i'm extremely ticked right now.  i have not been this mad in a while, let me tell you.  Last year, I had my birthday party hoping that it would be fun and everyone could come.  BUT there was a stupid retarded paintball war on the same day, 'coincedentally'.  Well, HOW IS IT ON MY DANG PARTY DAY AGAIN???  I don't know if any of you will really care about this thought since I don't think I'm inviting anyone on here that's going to the war anyway...but...I'm mad.  (Well, If grace goes, that's someone...)  BUT I don't think It's fair that I have had to work around everyone else's schedules for stupid paintball when there is a whole year that you can play (except when it's freezing.) BUT a birthday comes once a year.  It's not cool with me and I am sick of that!  CHANGE THE STUPID WAR.  I have no other options, and it's making me really mad.  It's a very frustrating thing when there is a month (less than, actually) until your bday and you have to re arrange your schedule because SOMEONE ELSE'S plan interferes with your own.  GRR.  okay i'm done.  not really but o well.

okay for all those people that say that i will never play paintball.  you WERE wrong.  YOU ARE WRONG.  they got me to play yesterday, but we were short on stuff like CO2 and ammo...so...then mr. Steve-man got there and I had to leave.  I just thought it would be fun to tell you people (one in particular...Austin) that all it took was one time of Deven and Chandler asking me (Chandler's so cute I couldn't say no.) and I said sure why not sounds fun.  So i'm gonna.  WOOO GO ME. 

P.S. They didn't have to shoot themselves in the foot either.  lol ha

ON HYPOCRICY and BEING HYPERCRITICAL:

The definition of being hypercritical is criticizing much (too much).  It's telling others what they should be doing and what they aren't doing well.

Hypocricy is criticizing or saying something that you yourself don't do. 

So, I came up with a quote today.  Here it is:

"Being hypercritical often leads to being hypocritical."

What I mean is that if you go around criticizing every little thing wrong with every person, eventually you will find something about you that you tried to fix on someone else that you need to first fix on yourself.

Sorry if I confused you, but that was my smart thought for the week.  LOL

What if...I said to him I've loved him all along?

What if...I said to him he was the only reason I believe in love at first sight?

What if...I said to him I that I think he's amazing?

What if...I said to him "I love you"?

What if...he said it back...

Your Guy Side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt[sometimes].
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own/ed an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to high school football games
[ ] You used to/do collect football cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x]Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth/ sometimes with out known
[x] Sleep with your socks on at night/ sometime if it's cold

Total: 15

Your Girl Side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss/stick.
[x] You love to shop/ sometimes
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You wear the color pink/ sometimes
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry/ sometimes
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] Were u in gymnastics/dance?
[ ](minus make up and hair)sometimes It takes you around/ more one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[x] You love the movies.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
[ ] Like being the star of everything.

Total: 10
Repost this as I have ___ guy traits and ___ girl traits

so...tonight was SOOOO fun!  for like, the first whole half of the farm fest, me and Grace were SO bored.  so, we sat on the fence and called people.  Then, I went up and sang and that was when all the fun started.  We went downstairs to this theather thing (in these people's house) it was so fun!  we played pool (by we i mean me and Grace and Chandler and Ross) and we just kinda hung out.  Then, we went BACK outside to the pumpkin carving table and we met my NEW fave set of twins EVER!!!  (Dallas and...er...Dontana.  Well, his real name is Dakota but I like Dontana better.)  They are kick-flippin-awesome.  They play golf and they were making me laugh so hard!  I haven't laughed like that in a long time.  I told them all my friends were mean and none of them were funny.  Well, tyler and grace and keri are funny.  Some of the rest are just cool.  But most of you are mean people.  And YOU KNOW IT.  BUUUUT anyway, I love singing.  and that's about all.  I love carving pumpkins and I love beans and ribs.  YUM.

here's a song about our winged friends.  i was rolling on the floor with laughter (well not really, but close) when i heard this song.  it has really made me see owls through new eyes.  i respect the wonderful creatures

(no really this is just to annoy grace and make you laugh)

so....if there's one little thing i'm excited about in my life, i would have to say it would be...the farm fest tomorrow!  I get to hang out with one of my bestest friends everer...(Grace) and i get to carve pumpkins.  plus i get to see Chandler...i can't look at that kid without smiling!!!  he makes life fun.  oh and i might be singing. 

 

but anyway.  this guy wrote me a note today that said "do you like brown guys" (William Darden) and i had to say...sure, but not like that.  sorry.  THEN him and his little fun friend Joe had to sit with us today and THEY CRACK ME UP!!!  BUT they embarrassed me.  Austin Marlow said hi to me and i said HE IS SO HOT (directed toward Hallie) and they over heard so they said "HEY AUSTIN Carmen says you're really hot!" and I turned SOOOOO red!  Then, they said, "Carmen, do you think chase is hot?" and i said no so they said (actually yelled...both times) "Hey CHASE Carmen thinks you're ugly!!!!".  but i laughed anyway.  i hope he doesn't think i think he's ugly.  he's not.  not saying he's hot.  but he's not ugly.  THEN (yes, there's more.) they were asking like everyone if they thought me and hallie were pretty.  and almost everyone said yes.  there was this one guy that gave this whole speech about how his opinions didn't matter and he thought he didn't know and blah blah blah.  but yes, for the most part, people think i'm pretty.  which makes me feel good because most of the time i don't think people think that.  and i don't think that.  so yeah i had a little ego trip.  but it's over...:)

HOW WAS YOUR DAY

(it's my pet peeve if you don't answer....answer me.  thanks luv ya much)

~Pooch E.A.~

lastnight i went to youth group at my church (DFA) for the first time.  i have to say even though the music needed much work, i could tell that the people up there had a heart for God and just wanted others to see it and follow.  Then when the pastor's wife, Janet came onto the stage, i felt as though she were talking to me.  she said that there were people there lastnight that have a need that needed to be met.  i'm praying God will meet it soon...before I go crazy.  i've been hurt pretty bad this last little bit of my life and i need prayers pretty dang badly.  this is not a "he doesn't like me" hurt, it's deep.  i NEED healing.  that's my need.  please pray

i'm really bored!  so here goes nothing.

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1. Honestly, how many people have you had strong feelings for?
like 3...but loved one and one only

2.Honestly, what color is your underwear?
you need not know that, thank you!

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
Austin and school and my birthday

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this...and supposed to be doing homework..but i don't want to.

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
negatory

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
yes...hehe

7. Honestly, do you watch THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR ?
UH no...no thanks

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
no, not jealous.  not quite...more of a...well, i don't know how to describe it

9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
my friends...and austin...and horses

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
UH DUH

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
no i'm cool

13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to tesco?
who-co?

14. Honestly, are you mean?
well i guess i can be...we'll just call me honest.  (thanks kaelynn)

15. Honestly, who did you copy and paste this from?
Kaelynn the Kidd..lol

16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?
anywhere but here...like maybe...out in some big field sleeping under the stars

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
love, yes...well, if love is real, and this is real, then it's love.

18. Honestly, what was the last text you got and what did it say?
I DO NOT GET TEXTS...grr


21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
not out of my way...but i might push someone out of my way and make a new enemy?  lol

22. Honestly, do you shower?
um...yeshh...who doesn't.   oh wait,  i know the answer to that question.  lol.  i won't say any names!  ;)

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
no i am most certainly not

25. Honestly, ever made anyone cry?
yeah i have...they cry with joy when they see me cuz i'm so cool like that

26. Have you ever cried over someone?
oh yes every single day

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
um...like yesterday

28. Honestly, have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes in fact i have...

29. Honestly, have you kissed someone of the opposite sex this week?
no me no kissy

30. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged or kissed someone in front of your parents?
well...um never.

32. Honestly, are you normally a happy person?
um not really...used to me...not any more.  but i'm kinda happy.  mostly in the middle

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
people that are RUDELY opinionated.  I respect opinions.  but when somone wants to come back at me on every little thing, it get's pretty freakin annoying.

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
most of the time yes.  except ...nevermind.

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself?
um.  i guess i do...i believe in myself, yes.

36. Honestly, are you annoying to people?
yeah prolly...BUT WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK

37. Honestly, is cheating acceptable?
no it's lying.  and sometimes stealing...either way it's not cool

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
yeah.

39. Wish you could have something or someone?
SOMEONE WAY TOTALLY

40. Honestly, are you a relationship person?
uh i'm confuse-ed

(question 41 was stupid so I erased it! mwa ha ha ha!)

43. Who is the last person you hugged?
i don't member....oh MY SARAH!!!

44. Are you lonely right now?
sorta.  but i'm kinda at my house with my geometry book...so i am lonely

but there's strength in numbers hahahahaha...okay that was really corny.  lol

this might be a tad bit depressing.  prepare yourselves.

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"Time...moves like a snail with our impatience.  And races like a gazelle when you can't catch your breath."

-From the incredible movie, Simon Birch

 

I was once asked what the thing I treasured most in life was.  I had no answer...my answer now would be Time.  When I want it to go by, it creeps so slowly it feels like the world is standing still and when I wish that for one second it would slow down, it moves too fast for me to even think.  I try to grasp the moments in time that mean the most to me, to hold on to them forever.  But, in time, they slip away and I can't seem to stop them from doing so.  I try to regain consiousness while the whole time my mind is spinning in a whirlwhind so fast I couldn't stop it if I wanted to.  I wish to go back in time...to that one moment I know I'll never see again.  That one moment when I was in your arms...that one time I said I loved you...and that one time you weren't who you are now.  I wish to go back in time and change who I feel like I made you become...even if I had to relive all this.  Sometimes I wish I had more time, to maybe stop all this before it goes way too far.  But I know that I can't change destiny.  If this is destiny...I wish to be out of time.  Time is the most precious thing...worth the most...coveted the most.  Missed the most, and taken for granted the most.  I took our time for granted.  I wish, I so wish, for them again.  I want you to hold me one last time.  I want to hold your hand if only for 2 more seconds.  I want to see you look at me through sincere eyes.  I want more time...more time with you.

      

RED = ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
a bit, yes

2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
prolly my mom...okay definitely my mom

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
oh yes

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
well, my face is red all the time...so...sure

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
both cuz i'm cool like that

ORANGE = EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?

uh duh no 

2. Are you easily excited?
yes i suppose so

3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
i'm not excited about too much right now...probably wednesday night...

4. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
i have no thoughts....NAW i'm just playin....prolly...OMG

5. If you could have anything right now what would it be?

oh everyone knows...who i want.  it's not who you think either.  unless you think the right person.  then that would be right.  :)

YELLOW = SELF DISCOVERY

1. Name:
Carmen

 

2. Birthday:
November 22 (Thanksgiving)

 

3. What's your main goal in life?

um...whatever God's main goal for my life is 

 

4. Do you want to have children?
idk...i guess so.  love children!

(when i'm married, duh)

5. How do you want to die?

i don't particularly think of such morbid things

GREEN = OPINIONS
 

1. Are you against gay marriage?
yes.  adam and eve not adam and steve

 

2. Lower the drinking age?
NO WAY JOSE

3. Capital Punishment?
it depends

 

4. Abortion?

is murder

*it's not a choice, it's a child*

5. Democrat or Republican?
both!

BLUE = LOVE

1. Do you love someone?
i think i do...i hope so.  if love is real, then yes i do.  (and again, it's not who you think unless you think the right person, then that would have to be correct.)

2. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

boy...do i wish.

 

3. Is it better to have loved and lost than never loved at all?
i guess so either way...love sucks

 

4. Do you believe in love at first sight?
do i believe in love at all?

 

5. Would you tattoo your lover's name on your body?
um...no thanks 

PURPLE = Q&A

Q: How many beds did you lay in today?
like 1

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
brown

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
breathe...mostly

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
i have none....:P

Q: Look to your left. what is there?
a piano and some other stuff

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?

a shirt...it's real cute too!
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
 phusebox...and email

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
um...no i don't think.  maybe somewhere under all the stuff.  lol

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
does my heart count...

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
i don't ride in taxis.  they frighten me.
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
yes, in fact, i do.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
like now.  :(

PINK = LAST

1. Person you saw?
um...fajah

2. Person that said they loved you?
i don't know.  don't care.

OH ACTUALLY it would have been mrs. shawn, the pastor's wife

 

3. Movie watched in cinema?
um.............i think it was hairspray.  i could be mistaken.

 

4. Song you listened to?
um...dunno.

 

5. Person you talked on the phone with?
GRACE

GREY = TODAY

1. What are you doing right now?
this and breathing...sorta

2. What are you doing tonight?
mime.  i think.  not like i will really be there anyway 

 

3. What are you going to eat?
FOOD DUH

(gosh tyler why'd you have to steal my dang answer???)

 

4. Did you accomplish anything today?
i guess.  if you call...making it through the school day accomplishing something...then yes i did.

 

5. What shoes are you wearing?
my wond-ee-ful rocket dogs. 

 

BROWN = TOMORROW

1. Is?
um...tuesday.  one more day till wednesday!
2. My plans are?
piano and school...and hopefully talking to that one person

 

3. Are you going to laugh?
golly gee i hope so

4. Any TV show you watch coming on?
well...maybe some reruns of smallville or scrubs...but i don't watch tv all that much really

 

5. Do you know what you will eat?
food...again.

hey you kiddos this is a song i wrote a while back and recorded (by myself...definitely NOT professionally.  i used a tape...lol)  i really don't think it's that good, but people seemed to like it.  in fact, i was talking to one girl the other day (Jessica) and she actually remembered the words.  I'd say i wrote this around New Year's, judging by the lyrics.  lol (some of you might know...well maybe only one of you.)

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Verse 1:I fell for the same old love traps

Time and time again

Each time I thought you’d fallen for me,

You turned your back and ran

From everything,

And all the lies

And all the things you told me

There’s a side of youI wish I’d never seen that day

Now…All I have to say…is 

Chorus:

I don’t know if I’m over you

But I sure don’t

Wanna be in love with you

Not anymore

I don’t know if you’re through with me

But if you are

Just wait and see

When you want me to come back,

I won’t be there,

Not anymore… 

Verse 2:

I don’t know why I 'loved' you

You were just a boy

I don’t know why I trusted you

My heart was just your toy

You used me and

You treated me

Like you were all that

Now I wish I’d run away

And never had turned back 

Chorus:

‘Cus I don’t know if I’m over you

But I sure don’t

Wanna be in love with you

Not anymore

I don’t know if you’re through with me

But if you are just wait and see

When you want me to come back,

I won’t be there,

Not anymore 

Bridge:The wasted time

The wasted tears

The wasted thought

The wasted years

Why’d you have to

Let our trust fall

The love I see

The heart in me

Longs for you

Although it’s true

I don’t know why you’d

Treat me like you did 

(repeat chorus)

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haha when i played this for the 'writing club' i had to hide in the bathroom because people chased me down.  it was amazing.  lol.  actually, austin took the tape and somehow lucas got a hold of it or something and i was very mad because i didn't know where the song was that i thought was bad, but was actually good i think, and he didn't know either.  but i think we found it.  i'm still not sure where it is, though.  hmmmmmmm.  i wrote another song, that was better...it's in my notebook or something.  well there you go.

NOT ANYMORE

(this is not about anyone in particular.  it WAS...about a year ago and yes, i did get over them...and moved on to someone else i am NOT over...FYI)

i'm back.  yippee.  i guess this was a lot of fun.  ok who am i kidding it was freakin awesome!!!!  i worked at the stables for like 3 days and rode horses like 40 gazillion times...i went to james madison's house (monticello) and i got to tye-dye a shirt and play fun ping pong and be artsy!!!!  (sorry, not a big deal for you-big deal for me.)  i have so many pictures i don't know when i'm going to find time to put them on here. 

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also, i don't like what i see now that i'm back.  you people are very sad and depress-ed.  this does not make me smile, and personally i am a fan of smiling BIGTIME. 

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i guess i also came home to something good, too.  (maybe not for you guys.  i guess it kinda sucks)  I got a letter from some college and they invited me to come live and study on the campus with other kids my age.  something about program for the exceptionally gifted (PEG) and how i'm not challenged enough or something.  i'm still not sure if i'm going to do it.  but see, the problem is that the college...is in Virginia.  so that means that i would live...in Virginia.  which is kinda bittersweet.  okay REALLY bittersweet.  i don't like this at all.  I really would like to take this opportunity and make the best of it, but i don't want to leave my house...or my friends or my county or my family or anything in Tennessee or really anything that i know!  ugh.  so much for a break to RELAX.

LUV YOU GUYS MORE THAN YA THINK

bye i'm going to virginia!!!  see you...kiddos later.

bye dang it

so today i hung out with my friend Deven and Chandler and a kid named Jacob and my brother...and Deven and Chandler's mom!  We had SO much fun.  i'm pretty tired and now i'm waiting on Neely to get to my house.  i don't know when she's gonna be here...hmm.  i just found out some WONDERFUL news.  YAY ME!!!  i'm so dang excited.  i'm gonna go...do something.  or something.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!  (that's me screaming because of my good news.)    

so i hope you guys and gals had a hey-ho-wonderful-o day, i know i did!!!! 

so i gotta go now.  well not really but i'm gonna go breathe or something.  bye love you people

My brother and I were just having a talk about the word "Hot".  I told him to always call a girl beautiful, never hot.  He said, "WHY??  what if they are?".  I told him that hot is a pretty degrading word to girls and they would much rather be called beautiful.  It makes them feel important.  Instead of just some other girl...yeah.  He still disagrees with me.  WHAT do y'all think?

i just want to say i would sacrifice a guy for one of my friends any day.  well this friend, at least!  :)

but forgive me if i slip up.  thanks!  i promise i am going to try

really hard.

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

well tonight i went to the football game (the freshman barbies) with my right hand gurl and partner in crime, grace, and watched some guys push each other down.  it was VERY entertaining.  i laughed my head off...lol!  AND i deleted all my pictures on my memory card by accident.  i thought i was gonna scream!  but then i took some cool ones and i was ok.  thankfully, most of the important ones were already on the computer!!!!  it was really cool that my buddy got to go..yay!  i really want to see that movie Enchanted...it looks pretty cute and funny.  PLUS it comes out the day before my birthday.  but i won't be doing anything on my birthday except stuffing my face and visiting family because it's Thanksgiving!!!  so yeah, i guess that's about all.

~Pooch-E.A.~

I don't wanna see you or feel you,

I don't wanna look into your eyes,

I don't wanna touch you or miss you,

I just wanna love your memory tonight.

I can't handle all this pain

All we ever do is fight anyway.

Why we even tried, I haven't a clue.

With hearts involved, there's way too much to lose.

I don't wanna see you or feel you,

I don't wanna look into your eyes,

I don't wanna touch you or miss you,

I just wanna love your memory tonight.

You were something else to look at,

Your intentions, they weren't all bad.

You tried to make me something I wasn't,

Lord knows there ain't no future in all that.

I don't wanna see you or feel you,

I don't wanna look into your eyes,

I don't wanna touch you or miss you,

I just wanna love your memory tonight...

okay so on saturday i auditioned for the freshman honors choir.  I MADE IT!!!  i was one of 4 freshman (from my school, that is) that made it...and the only alto.  I'm pretty excited!!!  but i'm really ticked and annoyed right now (for more reasons than one) but mainly because i can't find my stupid binder that has my Bible studies in it that i have to have for tomorrow.  it really stinks.  Well i guess if God really wants me to do the study, i'll find it.  but i made choir (some of you people better come or else.) lol      but it would be real cool-like if ya'll could go.  BUT ANYWAY...i guess that's all.

-sparky