have you ever met someone who seems to...for lack of a better word...complete you?  someone who is exactly like you in some ways, yet totally and completely different in others.  the things you aren't good at, they are.  and the things you are good at, they aren't always.  you are envious of what they have, the things they can do on a whim.  it's not a greedy envy or a selfish one, it's more of a looking-up-to kind of want.  it's almost like...they are made for you.  you find things getting more and more complicated while they are one of the few things that remain the same.  unchanging and steady.  you feel calm and...at rest when you are with them.  you will do anything just to make them happy.  and they the same?  i feel like this right about now.  it's like i've only known this person for a little season, but it feels like a lifetime.  i'm not crazy over them.  i'm not in 'like'.  i don't have a crush.  i just feel like they are supposed to be in my life in this season for a reason.  i don't know what that reason is yet, but i hope to soon find out. 

========sorry.  i feel that way========

so yeah.  i was at dunkin donuts lastnight with the pastor and fam, my fam, and angelina.  me, chandler, deven, and ross and angelina were all sitting at a table and all the sudden deven walks away.  i figured i probably made him mad.  and so i said, "Angelina, i think he hates me."  she looked at me with this crazy surprised look on her face like WHAT?  She said, "REALLY?  He says you're his best friend."  i felt so happy right about then.  so i went and i talked to him.  i asked him,"What's wrong???  Do you hate me...you act like it."   "Right now...right now?" he said.  "Well yeah," i said, "Why did you just get up and leave like that?"  Deven said,"Well, you were too busy talking and i was trying to tell you something and you weren't listening to me!"  i felt like a mean and horrible monster.  not really, but oh well.  so yeah...we fixed it all.  i really only put that up here to say...

it's funny when you find out that someone thinks so highly of you and you never even thought that at all.  just the opposite my friend, just the opposite.

well this is pretty random.  but i'm just letting it all out.  i have lots more to say, but most of you didn't even finish reading this.  if you did, kudos to you.  if you didn't, whatever.