What to do...

April 17 2006
Hmmm....Im bored and stressed out all at the same time.  I guess that comes with procrastination.  I should probably work on that.  

Home

April 15 2006
I'm home.  Good 'ole home.  Got to spend some time with my kimmybear.  That was superfun.  We just watched tv at her house but it was so good to hang out with her again. 

I'm worried about driving home tomorrow.  It's going to be thunderstorming all day tomorrow.  I want to try to get out of town as soon as possible.  That's not good though because it is Easter.

So I don't know what to do.   Grrrr!!!

My AWESOME Day!

April 12 2006
So I told you I would fill you in on my day with Trent. 
First he surprised me with a bouquet of flowers with were wonderful and I put them in a brand new vase .  They are sitting on my window sill.  They are sooo pretty.

Then we walked to his car and he had my favorite drink from the local coffee shop.  That was awesome.  I never get them anymore so that was definitely a treat.  He then drove me to Cave Run Lake and we sat by the lake.  He had a picnic basket which had these awesome pretzels that I love that were filled with cream cheese.

After that, we went to the Spillway and watched the water.  I've never been to the Spillway in the daylight so that was great.  We then drove back to campus and grabbed my car and drove to Lexington.  We met my parents for dinner at Cracker Barrel where they surprised me with a sewing machine (which I LOVE...Thanks Mom and Dad). 

SO this has been one of the best birthdays EVER.  And I want to say thanks to everyone who made it that way and I loved all of my birthday wishes from all of my friends.

Today

April 12 2006
Today is my birthday!!!  I'm so excited.  But thus far, I haven't really done anything.  Trent has something planned tonight and I'm excited.  Then we're driving to Lexington for ice cream to see my parents.  I'm excited.  I can't wait until I'm done with class today.  That's when all the fun starts.  So I will update later on how the rest of the day goes.  Hehehehe.  I hope everyone else has a great day!

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April 11 2006
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The Boy...Sorry it's long.

April 07 2006
So, I have some news.  I have a new boy.  It's official.  And his name is...drumroll please...Trent Ashcraft.  To some of you, this will come as tremendous news, and to others, this will cause you to utter "FINALLY!!!"

Let me explain the situation...I determined at the beginning of the semester that I was not going to date anyone.  I really wanted to focus on God and He placed on my heart that the relationship I was in, was not the most healthy.  But being the awesome God that He is, God placed Trent in my life at a time when I didn't want him.  And for a long time, I didn't realize this great guy that God had given me.  Trent first was my friend, a guy that made me smile and laugh.  Then he became this complicated part of my life that I didn't want to give in to.  I didn't want to step back on what I had told everyone and people were keeping me accountable to...but I have.

However, this has been a relationship that has been evolving for over a month.  And Trent and I have talked about everything under the sun.  I can honestly say, I have never been more comfortable with any other guy.  It's amazing to me. 

Trent and I started hanging out in January and soon found a really good friendship there.  The more we hung out, rarely alone, we both (at different times) realized that we liked each other.

So then I had no idea what to do.  I don't want to start a relationship when I clearly think that God was trying to keep me out of one.  Through all of this, I let Trent know.  Being the understanding guy that he is, he was willing to wait for me to be ready to start a relationship with him.

That, to me, was crazy.  Never before had I met a guy so insane, that he would possibly wait MONTHS for me.  I had no idea what to do.  This is where prayer comes in.  I did not want to make a decision hastily and therefore I prayed and waited.  Trent was just patient, he didn't understand it completely, but he was patient.  And I couldn't have appreciated it more.

I had several reasons for holding back the relationship.  1.) I told everyone that I wasn't going to and didn't want to look like a hypocrite or cause any weird reactions.  2.) I felt like God was telling me I wasn't ready.  3.) I didn't want to get into a relationship right before Poland, where I wouldn't get to see him for months.  4.) I was scared.  Period.  I was very, very scared because I was afraid the relationship would turn out bad and I didn't want to mess up anything with Trent.

So here I am basically dating the boy, but without any real commitment.  I finally feal like I'm at a place where I don't have to be afraid.  Trent and I went for a walk tonight where I explained some of my fears to him and he just reassured me.  He reassured me that things wouldn't change just because of some silly title, and that it didn't matter because he was still going to be here.

So we walked and we talked some more, and I was just really at peace.  I felt like God gave me this great guy and I was finally ready to accept it.  God knew that I could and probably would have just easily jumped into the relationship and it would have easily crumbled.  But with this time that has elapsed, God has allowed a foundation for this relationship that consists of a friendship and understanding and patience.

I know now, that the commitment shouldn't have been not to date this semester, but to allow God to place a wonderful godly man into my life when I least expect it.  And I couldn't be more thankful. 

So tonight/this morning, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and now I'm able to just be comfortable in the situation that God has placed me in and know that this is right where I'm supposed to be. 

Stree

April 03 2006
So, more stress than I could ever be excited about.  I found out that my checksheet wasn't online.  So then I tried to get it put back on and the wrong one was put on.  So that was frustrating.  And now I tried to turn in the correct paper and the lady was out to lunch.  Now, I don't blame her because I like lunch as well, but just putting it all together does not help things.  Then, let me explain the importance of this checksheet.  You have to have it to pre-register online.  And since I can pre-register online before I can register in person, I would like to pre-register online.  It would make my life that much easier.  So now I'm trying to get everything done.

However, in other news, I played on photoshop last night and this is what I created.
So I think it's really pretty.  Well, that's all.  Just thought I should vent a little. 

Once again...

March 29 2006
Once again, I've found myself sitting in the box office, almost doing nothing.  Oh, the fun of it all.  However, we did find ourself with 5 people crammed in here, so that was great. 

So I have a players performance tonight but I haven't memorized the newest skit and I'm doing it with Trent and he doesn't even own the skit.  So we are going to try to work on this later before the performance.  Should be interesting.  We're going to be cutting it close...performance wise tonight.

In other news, a while lotta stress has been taken off my shoulders.  Woohoo.  I finished another website that I was freaking out about for the last week or two. 

I get my stitches out on Friday by Gene Parr, the campus minister.  That's super fun.  And then I'm running to Georgetown, OH with Trent to get his license and registration.  Should be fun.  Then maybe there will be a good movie for the free movie.  That would be great. 

I wanted to work workcall this saturday but there isn't one, so I don't know what I'm going to do.  I need to get my hours in but I don't know when I'll be able to get that done.  Things are going to get really crazy here soon.

One Acts have not started yet so it'll be exciting and chaotic to see how well it will work.  Who knows.  Anyway, I need to go to class.  I'll talk to ya'll later!

Building 429 and Relient K

March 22 2006
So, can I say that Building 429 is some of the coolest guys ever?  I mean, they are awesome!  I went to a free concert at a coffee shop on Friday night and it was so good.  They didn't play too many songs because they just wanted to hang out with us.  That was fun.  Mandy and I got their cd for only $5!  That's amazing! 

Relient K was fabulous as well.  It was really crowded and very hot but so awesome!  The doors opened 1.5 hours late so we were outside freezing for 3.5 hours.  That's not fun.  The concert made up for it though.  There were 3 opening bands and the second one wasn't too bad, but the third one was AWFUL!!!!!!  So Relient K didn't start until like 10 or 10:30.  It was crazy.  But when they started it was great.  I think everyone else was getting pushed around but I wasn't.  I was fairly comfortable.  They put on a great show.  And what's more amazing is that they don't use set lists.  That's super fun.  Although disappointing for me because I collect them.  Oh, well.  I did pick up a signed guitar pick that I didn't see them throw out.  That's kinda cool.  And I got some t-shirts, so that's super fun.  All in all, I'd do it again just for that GREAT concert!

On monday I got to go to the dermatologist and get that cyst looked at.  That wasn't so fun because they removed it and a mole from my arm so now both of those just kinda hurt.  And I found out that I genetically got passed a gene that gives me those cysts.  So who knows how many I will have to get taken out.  Funny how things work.

I've also been sewing like I told you I would.  I've made 5 or 6 purses, I can't remember.  And I still have like 2 or 3 more to go.  So I will stay busy tomorrow as well.  I think on Friday I am leaving for Nashville or Knoxville to see my cousin run a marathon.  I'll also get to see my Aunt and Uncle that I won't get to see this summer because I will  be in Poland, so that's cool.  It's too bad I won't get to see any other family.  They are great.  I have been kinda bored but I've been doing a pretty good job of occupying my mind.  I do have some homework I could do, but that doesn't sound like fun at all.  Nope, not at all.

So anyways, I'm gonna run and work on some web design stuff.  That way I won't be stressed when I go back to school.

Going home tomorrow

March 16 2006
So tomorrow I get to go home and I'm going with my good friend, Mandy.  She's awesome.  She's coming to see the Relient K concert with me.  And I will be SOOOOOOO bored over Spring Break.  There will be nothing to do but sew.  And as excited as I am about that, it will take me like a day to finish it all.  So then I have like 4 days of nothing to do.  I could do school work but that doesn't sound like fun.  Not at all.  But I'm ready to go home. 

In my directing class, we have to direct our own one-act.  Well, we have to share cast members and everything so we will all be fighting for the same people and I'm not excited at all about it.  Everyone will be fighting for the same people and that will just stress me out.  So boo for directing class. 

I need me some Moe's and some Skyline.  I'm ready to be home and get me some GOOD food! 

I think I've gotten another cyst on my scalp.  I had one removed last year and I think I've gotten another one.  If this is a trend, I don't think I like it.  It's not cool. 

Well I think I'm gonna get off of here and try to start cleaning and packing!  Love ya'll.

I can't wait to see my KIMMYBEAR!!!!!

Good days, but busy

March 14 2006
SO today was good, it was just really busy.  I woke up and decided I wanted to be pretty so I curled my hair and dressed nice and impressed everyone who normally sees me look grungy.  So that was fun.  And my hair stayed curly the whole day.  I thought I wasn't going to be able to eat today and the awesome guy that Trent is, he brought me food.  And it was GREAT.  So after classes and doing my duty of sitting in the box office, we had to host auditions for my directing class.  Then as soon as that was over, I had to run the B so that I could do the whole cast of Wizard of Oz and Hulk Hogan.  I also got to add some sideburns for Elvis.  So that was delightful.  Doing make-up makes my day.  I think that is something I would LOVE to do for a living, but I don't think I'm technically good enough for it to be my career.  I cannot wait for Spring Break.  Absolutely cannot.  I get to go to two concerts and sew lots of things.  I also get to go to Southeast's Easter Pageant.  I've never been before so I'm excited.  And this is the last year for it so it's even better.  Anyway, I hope everyone else has a great week and an ever better Spring Break, if you haven't had it yet!

Play Analysis...I hate them!

March 12 2006
So, you'd think a play analysis would take SOME work but that it wouldn't be too bad.  Well, I spent 12 hours yesterday just working on that alone.  And I'm only about half done!  It's ridiculous.  I didn't go to church this morning because I figured I better make sure that I can get this thing done today.  Hopefully it won't take me too much longer, but I don't know.  Pray for me, you all, because I'm struggling right now. 

In other news:
RELIENT K IS IN 6 DAYS!!!!!!!  So at least I have something to look forward to!

Mid-terms

March 06 2006
Mid-term time is one of my least favorite times ever.  I have so much stuff due and I don't like it.  I have a web design due on friday along with a virtual notebook and an actual midterm due on Wednesday and a huge project due on Monday.  So why am I typing this, because I don't want to do any of it.  But, alas, I'm a good student and sometimes I just don't want to be.

Anyway, in other news, my mom has assigned me (although I basically volunteered) to make her several things over my Spring Break.  This is good because I won't have ANYTHING to do.  And it will give me practice.

So, I saw When Harry Met Sally for the first time ever and it was a decent movie but not as GREAT as everyone claims.  Sure, it's a love story and I like those but it was just ok.  Sorry everyone who loves that movie.  You know what movie is really fabulous and is a love story?  Pride and Prejudice.  I do, btw, happen to LOVE that movie.  Well, this has been fun but I have stuff to do!  Have a great evening, I will talk to you all later, if I ever update.

Pride & Prejudice

March 01 2006
I am so excited about Pride & Prejudice being out on dvd.  I loved that movie.  It is probably one of my abesolute favorites and I don't know why.  I'm not a particular fan of Kiera Knightly nor do I really like those kind of stories but I loved that movie.  As soon as I get money (which may be never) I think I will buy that dvd.  Hmmm...that sounds like a good idea.

Life

February 28 2006
So life has been pretty decent recently.  Haven't been getting into too much trouble.  I'm just working in the box office hanging out.  I love it.  Anyway, made another purse and it's orange and fabulous.  For all of you who don't know, orange is my favorite color.  My mood has been pretty good recently.  I worked a lock-in on Saturday and I was sooo tired.  I tried so hard to get some sleep but I physically could not.  So I was really worried about driving home on Sunday morning.  However, I didn't have a problem staying awake, but we got lost and added like an hour.  That was fun.  Everything was kinda mad at me but whatever.  I get paid for my gas.  So Sunday night I was so tired that I was going to take a nap at 5pm.  Was going to wake up at 6:30 to do some work but apparently I never heard the alarm and slept right through it.  Lauren was going to kill me because it just kept going off.  I got a phone call at 11:20 that I heard and then went right back to sleep.  I then woke up at 3:30am.  I was so confused when I woke up because I couldn't figure out why all the lights were out and why it was dark outside.  So I decided I would get ready for bed and promptly went back to sleep.  I then woke up late for my 9:10 class.  Apparently I turned off my alarm while sleeping.  So in total, I slept for about 15.5 hours and it was glorious.  And I felt awesome on Monday morning.  So it was great.  So that's all the news I have for now.  I'll talk to ya'll later.

Tonight

February 16 2006
SO tonight I had one of the best nights I've had in a long time!  I ran to Wal-Mart after Players practice with Trent and on the way back we ended up running to fuzzy duck on a whim because I'd had a headache all day and needed a picker-upper.  While there, I remembered Trent talking about swinging at Cave Run and I realized we could swing at the local park.  So we did before PBS and it turned out to be awesome.  We just played and had a good time.  I mean it was like we were 10 or something and it just relieved a lot of stress and put me in a great mood.  I was lovin' it.  So anyway, thanks Trent for an awesome night!  You are a GREAT friend.

V-Day

February 14 2006
So it's V-Day and I have no valentine.  That's no goodness.  Makes me lonely but I gave out the really cheap valentines and that made people smile so that was really fun.  I got to do make-up for TNL so that was super awesome.  I'll have pics up later.  I got to put staples in someone's face.  That's awesome.  And I did a witch and rosied someone's cheeks.  That's about all I did with my v-day.  Pretty boring!

Edit

February 10 2006
I retract everything I just said.  Sorry.  I'm glad to know they still love me!!!

Saddness

February 10 2006
So my day definitely just got a whole lot worse.  I found out one of my friends doesn't consider me as good of a friend as I thought.  That hurt a lot.  I mean...it just hurt.  I'm trying really hard not to cry even though I really want to.  I mean this person meant a lot to me and I thought they felt the same way but I guess they don't and that is just one of those things that can just wound you.  I don't know.  I just thought I would share.

BLAH!!!!!!

February 09 2006
So I'm ready to go to Poland.  Training was awesome and I love all the girls that I met and are on my team.  Made some new friends: Jared, Amber, Kent, Josh, Levi, KAYLA.  It was good times.  I loved it.  This week has been a little rough for me.  I learned that my tags on my car expired on Jan. 31.  That's not cool.  I also learned that I haven't had a valid form of insurance in my posession since Nov. 5, 2005.  That's no good.  So I can't drive my car until I get my new license plate that my wonderful Father sent me yesterday.  So, I might be bumming rides.  I don't know.  I need more fabric and I need zippers.  I don't know why I've been so bummed and down this week but I have and it's starting to frustrate me.  I need to perk up and I don't know how I'm gonna make that happen.  I know that I need to work on it because other people are starting to ask me and I'm supposed to be the happy one and I usually am.  So I will work on that.  That's my homework for this weekend.  I will work on it diligently.  Lauren's been gone all this week and won't be back til Sunday and I miss her.  I miss her a lot.  It's soooo lonely in the room by myself.  Well, PBS is going to start soon so I will talk to ya'll later.

Wow

February 02 2006
All of a sudden, I have been really tired.  I mean, like all week.  Tomorrow I have training for Poland.  I am soooo excited.  I can't wait till I get to go.  I really want to head off to Poland.  I'm kinda just bored this semester.  I'm not as stimulated as I think I usually am.

well that picture was for your viewing pleasure.  Several BSU-ers went to go see the groundhog today.  That must have been exciting.  Too bad I don't take such risks.  But I am spending the summer in a different country so I can't complain too much.  Well, I think I need to run to the BSU for rehearsal.  So I will talk to ya'll later!

Untitled

January 28 2006


This is for Trent Ashcraft.  He wrote a beautiful Xanga just for me because I complained so much about him not updating.  Therefore, Trent deserves his own Phusebox entry.  Trent brightens my day everyday.  He creates sunshine on an otherwise cloudy day.  With his smile and love of Elton John (which he loves to play for TNL skits) he might be one of my favorite people in the whole world.  Trent's awesomeness is not even fathomable.  I'm still trying to figure it out.  I just want you to know, Trent, that my heart is full of love for you.  Now, I hope you have a great night and a wonderful day tomorrow.  Love You!!!!

At the B

January 27 2006
Here I am at the BSU loving my time well spent there.  Everyone else (besides the wonderful Trent Ashcraft) is playing the game Mafia which I very much refused to play.  I'm not a Mafia player.  Tonight was basically just spent at the BSU.  Went to Melini's with a few of the Playaz and it was fabulous.  I have to say that I really enjoy my time here at the BSU.  This is quality time that I would never have gotten had I been in shows this semester.  I'm loving my free time to spend.  Lauren auditioned for some summer theatre tonight and I don't know how it went.  She hasn't gotten back yet.  Really weird.  Anyway, I'm gonna enjoy the rest of my night and leave you to yours!

BLAH!

January 24 2006
So BLAH is what I feel like!  I mean, I just feel really bored and ready for something awesome to happen.  I'm in TNL tonight but the part isn't anything big so I'm not worried about it.  I love being in TNL.  It makes me feel special.  Woohoo.  Yay for TNL!!!

School

January 18 2006
Well, first two days of school went pretty good.  I changed around some classes and now I'm pretty happy with my schedule.  My classes don't look TOO hard this semester.  I'm excited to be doing discipleship 101 which will help me prepare for Poland and once again be taking sewing which will teach me how to make purses.  That's fun.  I know Kim can't wait until I make her some purses.  Right Kim????  I picked out some fun blue fabric today to make the purse out of.  We had a fun time at Wal-Mart.  Lauren and I ate dinner with Colby tonight at ADUC.  I think I like eating dinner here better.  Much better.  And I just asked Lauren and she agrees so we will probably make dinner here more often.  That should be D-E-lightful.  Woohoo.  Well, I think I will be going to bed early tonight for the first time in forever.  So I will talk to ya'll later!