everyone has their good days and their bad days. today is  bad one. i cannot take this anymore, why does everyone have to rely on me to solve their problems, yet when i have a problem, i'm pushed aside? yesterday travis was being truly annoying, and may have made elizabeth hate me. elizabeth if ur reading this, u kno i'm not like that. truly not. but then again, no one knows who i really am. i'm so sick of being the guy who jokes all the time. really don't think anyone has a clue about who i really am. the worst part of it all, i don't think anybody cares. to add to this day, i blew off my new year's plans to be with u-kno-who, but stupid me thought that she might actually want to spend new years with me. like that's gonnna happen. i'm not even sure we could  ever happen b/c we are just so different. but this thought roams my head, and it will not desist.

i don't think i'll update in a while, b/c nobody would really care. i'm out.