ok people, i went to the doctor today and apparently i am suffering from what 1 in 5 women in america suffer from... migraine headaches brought on by stress, change in routine, and other stuff like that. soo he said that alieve should work but i should go back for a prescription if that doesnt help them. so heres hoping that it will go away. he said that it could last the rest of my life or go away 2morrow. so heres prayin... but anyway i got on the bandwagon:

You are a
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and an...
Economic Moderate
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Well people, college life rolls onward. and according to my English Prof. i should change my major to English. nice to know i got options to fall back on if this whole nurse thing doesnt work out lol. but anyway i made a B on my Psy test which makes me happy. so we shall see what happens from there. but anyway hey guys please pray for me cuz i been getting these really killer migraines the past 4 days, they happen at the same time and are always in the same place its like my forehead even swells and it hurts when i poke it. mom says if it happens again 2morow then im goin to the doctor. so please pray that if it happens its nothin serious. u know me always thinkin the worst of things... im scared about it though....

well today started out well enough. got up went to english. was told about a new assignment that im really excited about. got done at like 9:25, hit the library to study for my huge Bio Lab test today right. i studied for about 2 1/2 hours. SOLID! ok we were told to know the functions of the cell and the junk in it, know the different kinds of tissues, and where each type could be located. all that great stuff oh and the anatomical positions and junk, and and the steps of mitosis. ok maybe some microscope parts too. so he told us to know all this so i study this. i get to class today, feeling amazingly confident only to be told that the test is all with microscopes. as is there is a type os tissue in it u have to identify when there is nothin in the book that tells u these things. and i do not recall him sayin anythin about this in class. so needless to say i failed it miserably. so now i am in a very depressed mood. i hope i can get some extra credit or something. guys please pray for me, Bio is going to be the death of me. i miss u all. i have to work 2morrow which stinks. from 1-8 so i probably wont be at church. and i have a Bio test 2morrow and a Psy test on Friday. guys again i beg u to pray for me. now i am gonna go study like no other. i love you all!

my goodness, life has been crazy these past couple weeks. i am sorry i havent updated, everyone! im sure everyone is on the edge of their seat wonderin what happened to me lol. but anyway, i worked the football game last weekend, first payday is friday yay! i think i have almost 50 hours banked so go me! but anyway, school is good. i think history and psychology is awesome! *winces awaiting verbal jabs* again anyway, i have to work again this weekend and i wont be as fortunate to get out at 8:30 this time, i have to help clean up, some people say they dont leave until after 12. but thas illegal for me at the moment so i have an excuse. yay lol. hmm lets see, stats test friday, the first 2 chapters arent THAT bad but they still arent easy. im doin pretty well in hist, i like the professor though most say they dont. oh well, i am sick but its gettin better. i found out im gettin a new guitar for christmas, the deal is i have to pay half of it, but its sooo worth it. *drools* brand new fender telecaster in sunburst! oh the sexiness lol. but yeah, hmmmmmm not much else to say really. i love you all so much! ttyl! adios!

got called into work today after being told yesterday that i wouldnt have to work this week or weekend but now i am workin 4-9 today and 4-9 2morrow, but hey its money, im free so why not. lol but im sure i wont have to work the whole time, i think only once have i actually had to stay the full time i was supposed to. but anyway, guess people all went home for the weekend. oh well ttyl mucho luvies!

I am at college right now lol! i still cant get over the fact that i am in the Library and making a post yeah i know im odd. but my honors English class went well today so thas good. right now im killin time with amy powers, we both dont have another class until 11:20. i saw clint today which was cool. i dont have anyone in any of my classes that i know. but its ok cuz my teachers seem pretty cool. i think psychology is goin to be my favorite class. but only time will tell. sooo hope everyone has a good day, and to those who dont have school, lucky you lol! but anyways talk to all later! mucho luvies!

have you ever had your heart ripped out of your chest?

i have, last night was the toughest thing i have ever had to do. having the one you love taken three hours away.

i hope i get to see him soon.

i love you guys! please keep me busy in the meantime...


When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

well i went to MTSU today to fill out yet more forms for my new 'job', and i found out that my first day is this thursday and i get to work 9 whole hours. oh the excitement, lol. but hey its good money and im not doin anythin else so why not right? but anyway, i also got my books think they came out around $475.00 or something like that. but i walked my classes and stuff, so i wont get lost on my first day. but anyway, need to go hope to see everyone for one last wednesday before i move up. but anyway mucho luvies to all! and here is my schedule for anybody who has free time same as me jus give me a call!

Bio: MWF 8:00-8:55
Hist: MWF 9:10-10:05
Psy: MWF 10:20-11:15
Math: MWF 11:30-12:25
Eng(Honors): TTR 8:00-9:25
Lab: T 11:20-2:05

happy new school year to all and to all a good night!

So yeah who got a job yesterday? Yeah thatd be me! Im so excited it sounds really fun. I get to be a server person for a catering company that does all the events and stuff for MTSU! i get a spiffy uniform and everything, even have to wear a tie! mwahaha! so i go in today to turn in the paperwork and i think i get my uniform today but again im not sure about that. but anyways wish me luck, hope it all works out! ttyl mucho luvies

and the word youre looking for is..... anyway.

mwahaha im extremely hyper at the moment and there is no reason that i can think of as to why. college startin still has me kinda freaked out, but other than that life is good. fixin to start to job hunt yet again, but eh i want a job i need money lol. gas is crazy expensive as im sure that all of you know by now lolol. finally got the class i wanted dropped without having to call and 'talk to an advisor' as it said i had to before i could get it dropped oh yeah who beat the system! thatd be me! *takes dramatic bow* im envious of amy powers for taking a drama class, no fair. i wish i could but then it would take me like 6 years to finish school lol. but oh well i will just cope. man, life seems to be wonderful at the moment, yet i cant help but feel somethin may be up with it. you know how you feel like everythings perfect so there must be something either wrong with it or something bad is about to happen? oh well im not goin to let it get me down, tis just a feeling at the moment....

im sorry i blew up at you guys, i just got so tired of not knowing about things, you know. im sure you guys know, im sure you have all felt this way at some point in time. i think im just a little freaked about college and stuff and im letting my emotions rule over over me. i tend to think too much at times and i let it get to me which isnt good i know but i cant help it. im leaving some old friends behind, but im gaining some old friends in the process. so im excited yet bummed. i do thank you all for understanding, you guys rock most the time lol just messing with you! but i hope you guys will forgive me and just take the previous post into consideration when you plan things.

ever wonder if anyone would miss you if you just up and vanished, and was never heard from again... i have. i have felt this way quite frequently lately. jus this past wednesday, someone asked for the movie times for a movie they wanted to see the next day after hearing me voice my desire to see it, i gave them the times and the proceeded to schedule to go to one of these after i had said all this, and didnt even thank me for the times or even think to ask if i wanted to join them. that hurt soo badly. i feel like i will phase right out of my group of friends without them even noticing. i feel so isolated with my own group of friends. i know that i have partially done this to myself but think about something for me if you will- the love of your life is about to leave you to go away to college, will very rarely get to see him. you can understand how we would want to be together but that still doesnt mean that we want to be excluded from everyone. which is what usually happens but i dont think people think about they probably think 'oh they want to be apart from everyone because they're a couple, we'll just exclude them'. well guys, that hurts. and to say, 'well we just put it on phusebox and it was last minute' ok you still own a phone dont you?? in the past i have called to make sure people know about things that are going on so no one felt left out. not everyone checks this thing everyday. im sure that you all think im pyscho now, but oh well i needed someone to know how i felt and there it is. but i hope some of you still love me and will try and keep friendships going over the next year. it will be a tough new experience for most. but anyway i love you all no matter what ok!
mucho luvies

Miriam-Webster Dictionary:

Main Entry: soul mate
Function: noun
: a person temperamentally suited to another

Does anyone believe in soul mates anymore? Does anyone believe in signs from above? I’m just curious and I’m just venting but hopefully someone will respond to this with an answer that they have come up with on their own.

What is the definition on a ‘soul mate’? I believe that everyone has their own version of how they believe this term to be defined. I have my own. At least what I thought I knew to be mine. First and foremost, I believe it to be a God thing. He is the one that made a special someone in my opinion for everyone He has created. A perfect, well at least our version of perfect, match for every last human on the planet. Feel free to disagree with me, but I will not be moved from my viewpoint. I believe the first reason to be enough of a definition to me, but I have others obviously though I’m not sure how to really put them into words. It’s just a feeling I believe in the pit of your stomach, in the bottom of your heart, in the back of your mind, in the very being of your soul, that you know who that person is. What’s sad is that some people don’t believe in this at all. This saddens me, but I cannot change their minds, and they are free to have their own opinion. This is long and I’m sure people think this is pointless. Honestly, I don’t care. I needed a place to vent and get people’s feedback on their beliefs and this is the best place that I can find to do that with okay!

One last thing before I give up and go to sleep. Do you believe in signs from God? Do believe that if you ask Him to reassure you that you’re doing what He wants, and you’ve flat out asked Him, He will answer you in a way that you completely understand? A ‘sign’ if you will. Would you take this sign as an actually one or as merely a coincidence? Analyze the situation to the point that you believe that it wasn’t supposed to be taken that way. Who knows, I may be way off base here, and most probably don’t have a clue what I’m talking about but that’s fine. Just please hear me out I’m almost done. You should take to heart what God has said to you. No matter what anyone else says to you. You know better than anyone what He has or hasn’t done for you. I understand that what may be said to you may be completely different than what was said to someone else using the same ‘sign’. Still, don’t try to analyze something not there to be analyzed, only accepted.. I know I lost a lot people if you have made it this far, I love you with all my heart and soul! Thank you all much.

-Ashley

well people, i am officially depressed now. i got the wisdom teeth out this past friday and i cannot feel the top of my tongue. this means that when i eat, i cannot taste anything at all. majorly not good. and i can only open my mouth about half way, any further and it locks up and pain shoots through it. im thinkin this is not supposed to happen 4 days after surgery. the one plus is that the swelling is down almost all the way finally. but other than that please pray. im scared. i dont want to have to have jaw surgery. *runs to corner crying*

*Edit* and now im off to the doctor wow tha was fast. wish me luck!

Well..... i thought it wasnt that bad. apparently i was wrong. all i can say is that i look like a friggin chipmunk! and ohhh the throbbing, ehh cant eat anythin, being forced to eat tons. its like a bad dream. make it go away please!!!!!

Ashley is still alive! And she only passed out twice yesterday! yay more details lata!

well guys, i must say that the funky weird mood/vibe that u've been gettin from the past posts is over. i think im gonna be ok. the shock is now over i think i can be in the same room as some people now. lets just hope things go back to the way they were pr at least as close as possible. but anyway 2morrow the wisdom teethies go bye bye, sooo i will be unreachable for a couple days though messages and cell phone or on here if people dont wanna take the extra step lol im jus messin with u guys though it would mean a lot..... lol. but anyway, love you guys. please pray. hope to see you all sunday. thank you for your time and attention!

"Scars" by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]


hope u took the time to read most of those lyrics. amazing song. sometimes u jus need to stop, analyze your life, accept the changes in people, move on, pray you learn to forget and forgive... i love you guys

life has taken a whole new spin.
i am concerned, scared, angry, jealous, sorry.

have you ever been talkin to someone but your mind somewhere completely different. i mean you respond to the person but you have no idea whats goin on. you zone out but not. sooo many things to think about... so much pain to come.

well i went to the oral surgeon today, and he says that my wisdom teeth will never ever come in but they need to come out sooo next friday at about 10 o'clock please pray for me as i will be goin under to get them out. anyway this is what my schedule looks like for the moment:

Bio-Human A & P I MW 2:20-3:45
Lab F 2:30-5:15
Engl-Honors Expository TR 8:00-8:55
Math-Applied Stats MWF 8:00-8:55
Hist-American MWF 9:10-10:05
Univ 1010 MWF 11:30-12:25

im wantin to drop that dumb Univ 1010 thing so that i can try and get the classes i need to get my degree in Nursing. so but i have to call and crud to drop the class. bummer, then i'll try and switch my bio to 8 am MWF then get a Communications class at 10:20 MWF, then a Stats class at 11:30 MWF. but we shall see, i cant get on the Drop/Add class thing from my computer because it sooo slow but on the 19th when everythin opens up i'll be at my moms work with a DSL connection. soo hopefully i'll get everythin to work out but anyway i think this was boring enough i will talk to all later. adios!