ever wonder if anyone would miss you if you just up and vanished, and was never heard from again... i have. i have felt this way quite frequently lately. jus this past wednesday, someone asked for the movie times for a movie they wanted to see the next day after hearing me voice my desire to see it, i gave them the times and the proceeded to schedule to go to one of these after i had said all this, and didnt even thank me for the times or even think to ask if i wanted to join them. that hurt soo badly. i feel like i will phase right out of my group of friends without them even noticing. i feel so isolated with my own group of friends. i know that i have partially done this to myself but think about something for me if you will- the love of your life is about to leave you to go away to college, will very rarely get to see him. you can understand how we would want to be together but that still doesnt mean that we want to be excluded from everyone. which is what usually happens but i dont think people think about they probably think 'oh they want to be apart from everyone because they're a couple, we'll just exclude them'. well guys, that hurts. and to say, 'well we just put it on phusebox and it was last minute' ok you still own a phone dont you?? in the past i have called to make sure people know about things that are going on so no one felt left out. not everyone checks this thing everyday. im sure that you all think im pyscho now, but oh well i needed someone to know how i felt and there it is. but i hope some of you still love me and will try and keep friendships going over the next year. it will be a tough new experience for most. but anyway i love you all no matter what ok!
mucho luvies