April 27 2006
My point with my last post about the invisible children was not to chastise anyone for their actions. I apologize to anyone who is investing their time and effort into this movement who I may have offended. The point I was attempting to make was one of realism and politics, not of moral doctrine. I know the verses that speak of caring for those who cannot care for themselves. I am not ignorant of, nor am I insensitive to these passages. My point was to try and get the people who are demanding a governmental intervention to count the cost. Why should we tell our government to do something if we are not willing to do it ourselves. If this is something that is so important to you, join the Peace Corps or some other internationally affiliated organization and make a change yourself. But when this nation is in such debt that the Congress had to approve a new debt ceiling of $9 trillion, that's right, trillion, it would be irresponsible and illogical of our government to send enough money and troops to make this problem go away. We already have a bull's eye on our back, and any involvement, at least uni-laterally, will have nothing buy negative repercussions for this nation. I am not saying that the people who participate in Saturdays sleep in or out or whatever it is called are stupid and wasting their time. I am asking them to seriously consider the ramifications of their participation before acting in such a strong manner.
April 24 2006
March 22 2006
growing up means making actual decisions that have tangible impacts on the rest of your life.
it sounds great to grow up in theory, until you have to pay for this and that, and your advisor says she can't help you until you pick a major...
ben moser's post made me think back to when everything was fun, and if it wasn't fun, then you made it fun through some stretch of the imagination...
i miss those days...
January 18 2006
well kids, it is that time of the year again. the time when robert realizes that he sincerley wants to win the lottery so that he does not have to the whole "school/work/study/not get enough sleep" thing.
classes are good so far. i am registered for 13 hours, 10 of which are in the Honors department, so this semester is going to be considerably more difficult than last time around. but on a more positive note, i usually excell when i am challenged.
the bookstore is constantly packed with people who apparently cannot read or else they would not need my help to find their books.
if you didn't know, i will tell you now: Damascus Road, the band that melts your face with its amazing guitar solos, played last night, and they did phenomenally! Justin Holt continues to amaze me, and Josh Vance continues to surprise me his vocal improvement (he gets better and better every time i hear him)
i know that they are having a great time and are being faithful to God's will in their lives, but i miss my friends.
my mom is a pretty cool lady, for those of you who don't know my mom, if you get a chance to talk to her, do so. i reccomend it.
i see so much of myself in my little brother that it is scary. maybe he will be smart enough to use my mistakes for his benefit.
for the one negative attitude remark: do your best to keep your opinion about other people's lives to yourself unless they ask you. you have no idea how much damage can be done through seemingly simple remarks that find their way back to that person.
December 07 2005
In the news recently there have been a lot of complaints from evangelical Christians about stores not saying "Merry Christmas" and instead saying "Happy Holidays" or something of that sort. It seems like last year the "Christians" were complaining about commercialism and now it's semantics. I sincerley wish that people who get so bent out of shape over such stupid things would quit calling themselves Christians. If something so meaningless can get you all in a tiff about Christmas, I truly think you have missed the whole point of the season. Also, just for something to think about, If the Christians were not out at stores buying gifts and feeding the commercialism monster, which they so fervently complain about, they wouldn't hear any body say "Happy Holidays" Get with the program people, it's not about gifts or what people say, it's about our Savior. ral
November 16 2005
something that everybody has to acknowledge at some point in their life is that our timing is not God's timing. just because i don't know what i am going to do with life, doesn't mean that God will show me because i'm simply frustrated. faith is a terribly difficult thing to learn, especially if your entire life you have never leaned on anybody for support or guidance. if you are an independent person who does things by yourself and rarely asks for or recieves advice from others, faith can be a back breaking characteristic to acquire. another thing that i have seen lately is that when you ask for a characteristic like faith, paitence, or trust, God doesn't simply give you those things, he puts you situations where you can build your character and gain those things. so be prepared to accept the responsibilities that come along with prayer. especially be careful to pray for humility and brokeness, because God will give it to you, but the cost may be more than you are ready and willing to pay...
November 14 2005
well, we're in the home stretch of this whole first semester thing, and i have to say the college is a lot better than high school. i mean, sometimes i miss the warm nutruing environment of a high school where teachers actually care if you pass and people want to help you succeed, but it is all part of growing up.
on a lighter note, going to nashville with justin vance on Saturday night and dancing with attractive Belmont girls beats the heck out of watching Saving Private Ryan, which is what i would have done if he hadn't called, so thanks. oh yeah, and for all of you country music lovers out there, keep an eye and ear open for a cool cat named Cannan Smith who quite possibly could be one of my favorite country voices, and i've only heard him play a handful of times, he rocks
November 03 2005
it is very interesting when you realize that you're no longer a little kid anymore so you need to quit acting and thinking like one. it is completely real that in life there are limitations. sure, when kids are little you should tell them that they can be anything they want as long as they try real hard. but the honest truth is that some people are not made to do the glamorous jobs in life. as a high schooler you always hear that one day you are going to have to make it in the "real world" and you always think that you can handle it, but honestly the real world is tough. no longer are you surrounded by people who care about you. it is a very strange feeling the first time you realize that your teachers could not care less about your grade in their class, they don't care that you graduated magna cum laude, or that you're on a presidential scholarship, they care that your butt is in the seat with tuition paid so they can get a pay check once a month. of course not all professors will be this way, but it is strange.
it is also strange when you realize how selfish you were as a "child." a couple of posts ago i asked people what i should do with my scholarship refund, a motorcycle or a lift kit for my jeep. how incredible selfish and immature of me! why should God bless me with anything if my concern is going to be how i can satisfy my own desires? there are so many people whom i could help with that money, and all i was worried about was which toy to spend it on.
interesting feeling to be disgusted with yourself...
October 13 2005
so we're half way through with the first semester of college, and i still don't know why i am here. i know that i need a degree and so on and so forth, but i feel like i am wasting my time since i am not working toward anything. i just wish God would give me direction or even motivation to do something. i constantly feel sluggish and stagnant. motion is desired in large amounts
September 30 2005
so i saw that some of you people were doing that political survey thing that showed you what you were and such, so i decided to partake in the fun.
they told me that i was a Strong Republican, surprise surprise, and when i looked at the little chart thing, it showed that i was right next to being a facist, which is pretty cool, because facism is a cool way for government to go, if you are in power, and don't let the power go to your head, but that usually doesn't happen and you end up using marketing propaganda genius to turn a whole country against one people group and then you end up making bone headed military moves and then other countries get mad and come beat you up and, but i digress...
echoesflow tonight at rocketown, give me a call if you want to go, i think me and justin vance and some other folk are gonna get a carpool system thing together as not to waste the ever precious gas
September 29 2005
which do you think i should spend my scholarship refund money on?
a. lift kit for my jeep
(saving the money is not an option)
thank you for your input
September 14 2005
i love that feeling you get when you just enter into a new relationship with somebody and you can see the potential in it, and you hope that someday down the road, everything will work out the way it is supposed to and you will get to be together, but for now all you can do is wait and hope and pray. i love this feeling, its like nothing else, contentment and peace are amazing, i love God for his divinity, and for his sense of humor, but mostly because he chooses to use me even when he doesn't need me, it's unexplainable, i love it, and Him.
Life is good...
September 11 2005
No matter how much i want God to be a microwave, he is, and will always be, a crock-pot
September 07 2005
fast foward to today, i'm on page ninety, and i'm going to go ahead and say that it is better than Wild at Heart by John Eldridge. i don't know, i haven't read all of it yet. it might be that i'm a different person now than i was when i read wild at heart, but it is still amazing, so go read it.
passages that smacked me in the face :
"Violence is arrogance that does not get its way" (smack)
"Submission is not about powerlessness; it is about meekness. To be meek is to have controlled strength." (big smack)
all my life i have had the proverbial "little man syndrome" because i was shorter than everybody else i felt it necessary to be beligerant and fight with nearly everyone. while lately these fights have verbal assaults and so forth, when i was younger it would not be uncommon for me to enter into a playground brawl. bing raised in the deep south, my parents always taught me, "Never start a fight, but you better finish it." needless to say i let this carry over into my speech and so i have alienated countless individuals.
McManus teaches that we have to be humble to be a servant of God, and the greatest thing is not to know that you are humble, but to live your entire life for others. it rocks.
i personally feel that God put Oswald Chambers on this earth to write My Utmost For His Highest specifically for me. every time i pick up that book, and read the days devotional, i get an answer to a prayer, nine times out of ten it isn't the answer that i want, but confirmation of god divinity nonetheless.
Lets take the past two entries for example, September 6th and 7th. if you don't already know this you do now, sarah broke up with me last saturday. so far it has been pretty hard to cope with having such an integral part of my life for the past three years just cut off, and i didn't know why and i was being mad and bitter, and then i read yesterdays entry entitled: The Far Reaching Rivers of Life. it talks about how your relationship with christ will result in a river of love flowing from your heart. however, when there is an obstacle in the path of that river, (hint hint robert, pay attention to the obstacle), the river is blocked. Chambers says: "Never allow anthing to come between you and Jesus Christ - not emotion nor experience - nothing must keep you from the one great sovereign Source." (amazingly huge smack)
so that was awesome, and then i woke up this morning and read: Fountains of Blessings. which once again smacked me for being so short sighted. "If you find that His life is not springing up as it should, you are to blame - something is obstructing the flow...Is there anything between you and Jesus Christ? Is there anything hindering your faith in Him?" ( a mighty smack in the face dealt by God through Chambers)
it is a strange feeling to broken by God, i mean it still hurts and you still feel pain, but through it all you see that eventually it is going to get better, and you can't wait for that to happen.
so in summary, i still love sarah, however i wasn't foucusing on God like i should have been, so God being a jealous God, and rightly so, took her out of my life. Do i wish that i could have had my act together so it didn't take that to get me in line? absolutely. but God gave me warnings, he told me i was heading for hurt, but i ignored him, so he did what he does, he worked in mysterious ways.
I love God, he gives me so much when i know i deserve so little...
August 30 2005
Honestly, it happened. Ask Garrett, he was there, it was quite possible the funniest thing of the day.
August 27 2005
August 25 2005
i am blessed with so much more than i deserve. i have two parents who love me, a pretty cool brother, a wonderful home, material things beyond what i need, and yet i can be so selfish sometimes that if i take a step back and look at the situation as an outsider i'm disgusted with my actions
i guess it is my fault that i'm like this, but instead of liking somebody as soon as i meet them and waiting until they do something that makes me dislike them, i dislike them until they do something to make me like them. that is probably why i don't have many close friends, i mean i have just as many aquaintances as anybody, but i can't say that i have many actual friends. i guess unfounded arrogance and hubris isn't too appealing.
my plans mean absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things. my plans up until this point have not included a calling from my creator, and that so far has been my problem, i have been concerned with my plans, i still don't know what i want to do or what i'm supposed to do, i know a lot of things that i don't want to do though, so i guess that's a start
when leaders focus on what they are getting out of leading others instead of being concerned with what those that they lead are getting from them, then organizations and groups of all sorts begind to decay. i sure hope, for posterity's sake, that the BAY gets it under control because the way i see it, gravity is taking over in this downward nosedive
late bloomers, in spiritual matters, seem to have an extreme advantage over those who have been conditioned into religion by years of redundancy, not to say that being brought up in the church is by any means a negative experience, but it sometimes makes it harder to have an actual relationship with christ than those who have seen the bottom and now see a light at the end of the tunnel that isn't a train, unfortunately for myself, i had the unique pleasure of experiencing both of those scenarios