Tears of the Stars

December 19 2006
The tears are running down from the stars
as they weap for me and you....
they've waited so long for our world to have peace
but the dream never comes true....
they wait and they wait, with the patience of Gods
their strength, as one, is all that unites them...
without empty stares and long drawn faces
their lives, they are filled with wisdom.......

i watched as their words came sinking in
and they crossed oceans and plains to meet me...
they brought me a sign, of the most fragile image
and their love, then soon, consumed me...

and here i stand..

i'm trying to start a revolution
and prove we all can stand as one...
i ask you all to please join hands
our era of peace has just begun...

and then snow sprinkled down upon the empty houses
their owners drowned in constant sorrow...
it proved to me that there's light in the darkness
if so many would look for tomorrow
with an outstretched hand, i grasped this new found truth
and hid it away inside my aching heart.....
now the time has come, i feel it erupting today
my heart says it's time to start....

i cried and cried for us all to believe
that our future still holds hope to be bright..
and i reached and reached for this vision of gold
i've held onto it, with all my might...

and here i stand..

i'm trying to start a revolution
and prove we all can stand as one...
i ask you all to please join hands
our era of peace has just begun...

and i see the future, it's all up to us
no longer can we follow the blind.....
but first we must seek our own preservation,
the peace is for us to find...

i'm trying to start a revolution
and prove we all can stand as one...
i ask you all to please join hands
our era of peace has just begun...

Take a Breath

November 18 2006
So here we sit, just to waste away..
Where light must fade, and so does the day..
Where we pass the time, with each new rhyme,
To realize all that we didn't find
Were the figments of our dreams....

You can see the glow if you close your eyes,
Passing through the skies, with no goodbyes
There is no threat, if we don't regret
That we let life's meaning go, and forget
That there's more here than what we see....

God doesn't promise tomorrow
Because He wants us to
Live... For... Today...

If your curl up nice, warm and tight
And ponder the meaning of morning's light
You'll come to find, what's there in your mind
Was always there to find,
if you'd only chosen to see...

but by God, I say, let's listen well
We all have stories too sad to tell
bury them now, to drown the sound,
and hope they're never found,
For they will bring us down again..

God doesn't promise tomorrow
Because He wants us to
Live... For... Today...

Don't waste your time, it's a brand new day
Stretch out your arms, your hearts
Let us not waste away..
Our hour has come, I truly believe
It's as real as the Earth,
And as deep as the sea..
Take a breath, Make a wish, then try not to cry
It is the hardest thing
You could ever try..

God doesn't promise tomorrow
Because He wants us to
Live... For... Today...

God doesn't promise tomorrow
Because He wants us to
Live... For... Today...

God doesn't promise tomorrow
Because He wants us to
Live... For... Today...

Have Your Will

November 14 2006
the stars rained light upon your flourescent eyes..
you smiled as rain fell down from the skies
and brought you close to me...
and there we stared out upon the roaring sea
the winds were fierce, but brought you closer to me
and for the moment time stood still...

don't forget the love i've shared
and all the words i've said
oh if skies could spell it out for you...
you'll never believe just how i feel
it's though the world has left
and my dreams made true...

oh believe
 
the time has come, won't you please step out
our victories won, won't you come and shout,
won't you come celebrate with me..
and we will share our toast to destiny
oh the times were hard, but brought you closer to me
Oh God, I say, have Your will...

don't forget the love i've shared
and all the words i've said
oh if skies could spell it out for you...
you'll never believe just how i feel
it's though the world has left
and my dreams made true...

From Out of the Darkness

November 13 2006
From the depths of this darkness
The light sparked on its own
It began to ignite, without action,
Atleast none that was shown
And from blackness, so pitch,
I felt its warmth on my face,
It sank into my skin, and
In my heart, found its place.

I found peace through our pain
The joy fell just like rain
And I managed a smile
Though the world's gone insane
I trudged on toward the light
And I cried at the site
Of a thousand faces
Escaping the night

And I watched the ash fall
The substance covered the past
And from the darkest of memories,
We vowed to never look back,
We marched onward, like soldiers,
And left no man behind
We dropped all our pain
Where no one could find.

I found peace through our pain
The joy fell just like rain
And I managed a smile
Though the world's gone insane
I trudged on toward the light
And I cried at the site
Of a thousand faces
Escaping the night

Peering through the looking glass

November 12 2006
am i really so disgusting that you can't even answer?
am i infecting your mind, plaguing your peace with cancer?
am i salt in the wound that i failed to inflict
saying words, doing actions you failed to predict
to the charge of innocence, i'm guilty at best
go ahead sir, take me away with the rest
for i am one of the many, you people enslave
crying out every night, for those you never forgave..

will you open your eyes to what i've laid down
will you ponder my offer, before you turn it to ground
will you see me not for who i am, but who i want to be
a soldier for God, pushing for us to be free...

alright Miss "No response", i think that i've had it
despite all compliments you've ignored me, so stab it
forget my offer, like some kind of ode to demon born
a villian of troy, a traitor bred to be scorn
yeah forget me now, though i'd be a very good friend
someone made to be loyal, and stick strong till the end
the offer is gone, it's been burnt up in flames
and by morning, day break, i'll have forgotten your name

please open your eyes friends, nothing is sound
please see the world as it is, not the excuses we've found
stick to your human values, and follow what dreams you know,
because life is short, and you only have one life to do so.
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may the world sleep in peace tonight
if even for personal reasons...
i fear that by day break, the chaos continues
as quick as the change of the seasons...

running with scissors never seemed this fun

November 10 2006
running out of miracles
and losing my mind too...
i wish i could feel complete
but the feeling won't come through..

they're running round in circles
and on their way back again..
i wish i could explain myself
but can't find the place to begin....

the world is on it's knees, grasping for eternity
would someone please get me outta here.......

pick me up and stretch me out again
take me home, my only friend
ask the same old questions
still have no answers
i'm clawing at my memory's cancers
i'm telling you there must be something wrong..

in this town, i'm nobody
but yet still someone too...
i got the familiar face, you can't place,
yet signal's still coming through..

it seems the impossible's
not as improbable as it seems...
just one steps difference from
reality and all your dreams..

this world is full of pain, begging for more of it's acid rain
would someone please get me outta here.....

pick me up and stretch me out again
take me home, my only friend
ask the same old questions
that don't have any answers
i'm clawing at my memory's cancers
i'm tell you there must be something wrong...

take all you like, and do what you want
take all the lies, and make them truth
and take all the pain, and make it cease
lets make this world a better place

pick me up and stretch me out again
take me home, my only friend
ask the same old questions
to get no new answers
clawing at my memory's cancers
i'm telling you there must be something wrong...

"Bob Barker is behind Door Number 2"

November 08 2006

A few more words, I'm guaranteed to bust..
Would you please just say, What I want to hear??
Please calm your voice, know I speak sincere,
Will you check your pulse, know that I'm no threat...
In the back of your mind, I'm your safest bet
The blue collar prince, that you dream for most
But lets set these engines to cruise or coast..
accept your fate, like it's all you have to believe..

With an open palm, I'll stretch out to you
But what comes next is up to you..
will you go with me tonight?
cause it seems so good and it feels so right
please open your eyes to this flirting cause
this acting game is worth much applause..
i say all the words you long to hear..
but it's so not true, and still dangling on your ears..

just a few more minutes, please buy this lie
i can sail you rivers, and prove your dreams
in your deepest hopes and most violent screams
i am the the one you hate
and the one you long to love...

Words about Yesterday

November 05 2006
forgive me if i seem so vague
but these are words about yesterday
how the time ticked by
and didn't seem to fly
no one seemed to care at all
or even bat their open eye..

all alone in this cell of silence....
whispering to myself

assuring me that everything's alright
i'm lost here without you..
all who knew me before
i walked out the door
and left to find a new horizon
that's leaving me so unsure

i pray to God you find me....
and i'm no different than i was before..

Just Like Slow Motion

November 04 2006
i remember the last time i saw you
you were still in a chair, staring at your monitor..
i know cause i was slowly pacing my way to your door..
i'd had one of the worst weekends of my life...
when I rang the door bell..
you were no where to be found..
and i was sent back to walk away in slow motion..

yeah it was just like slow motion
for a moment my heart stopped
and the moment sank in
and now it's unforgettable
it won't happen again...
yeah it was just like slow motion..

i remember the first time i met you
in the depth of the darkness, i saw your eyes
i know for the casting of light from the tv upon them
i'd never felt better in my whole life
then when I drove back home...
with your number in hand...
i turned to drive back home in slow motion..

yeah it was just like slow motion
for a moment my heart stopped
and the moment sank in
so unforgettable
it will not happen again
yeah it was just like slow motion..

and reflecting back
i did all that i could to save us..
that is one fact i know..
but no matter what
the time we had is in the past...
it is time i let go

it was just like slow motion
the night when you met me
but so similar the
night when you chose to leave
seems some things are too alike
the good and the bad..
and the difference in feeling
is what makes it so sad..

Jay Jay (a new song)

November 01 2006
jay jay,
let me drift off to sleep
let me swim in your oceans
for i've not slept for weeks
send me your gentle fin
to swim by your side, forever
i tell you now, this love,
i can not hide
these days grow hard
and they grow long
you know even roman's failed
when they were strong
i guess i'm not invincible
as i once thought...

(chorus)
she'll drown you inside your deepest dreams
she's a free swimmer at heart
she's an angel, she's a picses
she's so free, i swear it hurts
but yet she makes this feel so real
it's her greatest strength
but also her achille's heel
please come to shore to take you home
you're so much greater than you may have known
let me reel you in and take you home
with me
(end chorus)

Jay jay,
please take me home with you
send me cross your open sea
this still crest just won't do
send me a gentle thought
to hold by my heart, forever
i tell you now, this wish,
i fail to part
oh it strikes hard
with force that's strong
and these stormy nights grow more
vicious and long
it seems i'm not invincible
as i once thought...

(chorus)

(bridge)
the memories help relax me
the future, i don't know
the dark waters you swim
are plagued in sorrow
please swim safe
my marlin angel
avoid the hook
and killing angle
i'll be your distraction
if only you ask...

(chorus)

Find It In You

October 30 2006
my eyes are open
and what about yours?
will you follow the world, blindly
or fight for what could be great

find it in your heart,
something to believe..
then hold on to it
with all you've got

sometimes, in this world
that is all you'll have to trust..
what do you believe in
If all you relied on walked away?

The end of it all

October 30 2006
seeing the light
at the end of it all
is harder than it looks
when the darkness seems endless
and with every step
the light seems further away
and getting smaller by the minute

surely one day the tunnel
will collapse on me
revealing the light
to the only conclusion
that made any sense.....

the end of it all

Pace with me, Slowly

October 26 2006
one night i awoke, in a dripping sweat
a pounding pulse, oh i can't forget
the nightmare i had..
there were people screaming, and hearts left beating
while their dreams flooded the earth
left to be forgotten and trampled on for years...
oh it brought me down to tears...

my greatest fear is being treated like a loon
like i never knew what i wanted to do..
when all i wanted was to save the world
from our own fate, and our own mistakes..
oh we can't live like this forever..
in time we'll surely die..
fight it off your demons with me!

we'll take this over in time
just step by step and stride by stride
pace with me slowly,
it won't happen over night...
no matter how hard you wish..

we'll save each other, even with
a dying breath..

The Last Words

October 24 2006
I hope one day you see it again

this same love, I wanted you to have..

I hope in his eyes you see my face

And realize that I'm not crazy..

And when he tells you what he loves the most

I hope all the answers are the same...

As much as I still think the best of you...

I still feel that you just walked away..

You'll always be a friend in my heart

I hate the way things came to an end..

But God willing you still see me as I once was

With a smile on my face, holding your hand..

I guess some people are driven by heart

And not by the sense in their head...

The Thoughts Keep Flowing

October 19 2006
give it up, that ship has sailed
i'm not the first to know
that it's a quarter past three
but my thoughts keep flowing
like blood through my veins
and i feel i shall not dream again
til' the end of all suffering
is pouring from our hearts
like rain..

until dawn, i shall sit
contemplating all attempts
i shall undertake to make
all of our greatest dreams
become real.. i say, together,
our worst fears will become ash
to toss into the sea..
we'll watch them drift out,
as one, now and forever..

What Does it Take to Save the World?

October 16 2006
as i watched the stars

i dreamt that two collide

to form a new world

and what was before died

leaving behind all traces

of their glowing flame

to form a new aura

all one, and the same

and from that vision

came my sign of hope

with passion reigning

it began to develope

and it said:

what does it take to save the world?

i wish to rid us of lies and greed

of blood and violence

and all that planted the seed

i wish to rid us of our prejudice

and the roots of our hate

by spreading pure hearts

and cleaning the slate..

i wish to bring joy

to all nights of sorrow

to end all suffering

with a bright tomorrow

can we all join hands

to hold up the fight

stand as one and with
a dream, unite..


The Weight of the World on your Shoulders

October 16 2006
i see no signs of hope
to renew the light
but still press on
to a brand new day..
in the darkness i lie
praying for the touch of God
but to try and leave would be insane..

They are all around
in twos and threes..
Go alone and you
Shall surely die..
But if you take my hand
We'll run together
Take this darkness
Kiss is it all goodbye...

Take a giant leap
Then a sigh of hope
we're the greatest thing
for we're earth's only hope
let us take our role
with the greatest modesty
then fight
for the world abroad...

Breaking Free of the Tyranny

October 09 2006

and i feel if i run a little faster,
i'll find myself, and my hidden purpose..
but all i find is an empty skyline..
where the sun has faded away..
and i still look back, peeking over my shoulder
only to find that there's no one there..
but still in fear, i push on and move forward..
if only to get further away...

no one's chasing after trying to bring me back
no one's trying to save me or making me stay on track
all i want is a thought and a word from You...
And on the darkest night, of my worst storm
I'll shield my eyes and then refuse to conform
Because in my heart, I'm living what I believe...

another night, in my broken vessle
i'm sinking hard, trying to find the surface
i'm in too deep, in this choking quicksand..
and the light is fading away..
i need you to find a little courage,
brave this curse, and my own nightmare..
and in the end you'll awake beside me
with all the darkness faded away..

Spitting Thought

October 02 2006

i'm running hard to the end of the line
passing stars and all the planets that hit me
forgive me if i should pass you by,
nothing personal, just trying to save me
don't doubt that i will look back and wave
i'm just sorry there's no time to visit..
going this hard, is wearing me out
but i can't stop or else they'll catch up
and drag me back home..

Spare Me a Moment

September 28 2006
if this glass is half empty
then so is my sanity
and i'm losing my mind
one little frame at a time
oh, my brain could explode..
but not before it uploads
all the negativity you've fronted
and all these words that you've flaunted
to me.....

and with a sigh i will rest...
just for moments, to do that which i might regret
but with this downhill fall
what else could i lose, if i lose part, i will lose it all

oh please listen, i have words to say
and emotions to spill, from my hearts overfill
just give me a moment of your time...

i'm trying hard not to faint
from the hurt of the pain
but my brain here is pulsing
from all the thoughts you're provoking
oh i'm trying to learn
my heart refuses to burn
no it ticks here deeply inside
and i guess it refuses to lie,
or decieve...

and with a sigh i will rest...
just for moments, to do that which i might regret
but with this downhill fall,
what else could i lose, if i lose part, i will lose it all...

oh please listen to me, i have words to say,
for thoughts of you linger still, and i'm trying to steal
them all just to simply run....

i'm a loser at heart,
and that i've known from the start
for what can't be changed..
well i guess it won't change..
though the world may think it should..
and i would if i could
but i'm one of few, who stand for what
they believe...

please stop all attacks
and won't you just relax
you know i don't deserve this
for i did you no wrong
and if it didn't hurt bad
i wouldn't write this song
but it hurts me so much
i can't keep in touch
with someone i thought once
could bring me through...

and with a sigh i will rest,
just for moments, to do that which i might regret
but with this downward fall,
i could lose it all, so now i'm just a guy
with something to prove, and nothing to lose
so please just spare a moment...
of your time....