Today the old life ends.. and the new one begins........

NOT!

Happy Graduation to all of my classmates.  And all of the class '06, from any school.  We earned it... now lets PARTY!!!!!

with a few words and a smile
my whole mood has been changed
like the world's become mine
and my first moves have been made
i'll sleep well tonite
with your face in my mind
with a smile, i'll wave
at all i've just left behind
believe that i'll wait here
believe me, i'll call...
cause you're just what i've wanted
here all along...

and now...
i'll sit and i'll wait....
it won't be too long..
i know that you're worth it
so my heart will stand strong...

I've walked through the darkness once,
If not a thousand times..
And everytime I've felt so alone
But tonight there's something different.
I feel it in my bones,
a rushing sensation,
Like i've beaten the world,
at it's own sick game.
And it's at times like this
I can't help but sink to my knees
Lift my arms, and I pray
The others feel this with me..

day after the day,
i pretend that all is okay
but i can sense it,
in the back of my head
something's broken away...

and night after night
i let it go on, like it's right
but i'm condescending,
by pretending i'm not me
with all of my might......

won't you come and see me
just stay behind the line
protect yourself and your friends
because the knives
they have sharp ends

and if it's too much for you
just go and run away
you didn't have to come
so you know you
don't have to stay

where did all the smiles go
they must have gone while i wasn't looking
i swear one day we're something
but my mind was left there cooking up
some lie for me

now i'm lost and i'm broken
and no sleep reeks from my eyes
and all the blue's been taken
from my once so pretty skies

don't you see that i need you
i need you
i need you
i need you.....

I can see the shore off in the distance
A vast blue ocean still lies to cross
But I can make it, I can feel it
I have a feeling all's not lost

I can see the sunset in my heart
An end to the bad, with a fresh new start
I can feel the passion growing inside
This feeling I thought I'd never find (and)

I'm on my knees, please hear my cry
I'm here and waiting for all you invite
Whether a brand new morning sun,
Or a starry sky on a moonlit night (it)

Means so much to hear you care,
The clear blue sky proved you're there,
Just don't let me feel it ever again
That you may have left me, deep within....

"Tell you of a girl that I saw, I froze in the moment and she changed it all..."
- Yellowcard, "How I Go"








Prom was amazing. Jaleah looked so beautiful. I can not even describe.... Well, first our group went to Opry Mills where we ate at TGI Fridays. That was amazing. While we were there we did not neglect to ride the merry-go-round in the food court. it was quite entertaining. then prom was awesome. danced with jaleah for about three hours straight. hm... then we came back to my house and the group played Dance Dance Revolution til' time to go to After Prom. That was okay, it got old really quick though. Then me and Jaleah just kind of hung out til' five in the morning. Hm... that's it.
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all it worked out
a great night on the town
all the friends they were laughing
not one wore a frown
and then as one
we all danced the night away
we stayed up til' day break
then most slept the next day
and all i can say
to the end of the night
it ended so sudden
and it just didn't seem right
the night was so great
i hate that it had to end
and to think i didn't get to kiss
the greatest date God could've sent....

i can't be as cool as you
i stay between the lines
the world could take a step towards the worst
and i'd still be standing here
though many follow blindly
i chose to stand and see
and how much i wish
you weren't one of the masses
and i wish you'd stand here with me
but i guess i'm not that cool

How far away one can seem,
When sitting under shoulder,
though you smile when you look at me,
in your eyes are all the tales,
and in your hugs, i feel,
the limpness of your arms....

what happened to all those days?
where we went through, as one,
with our caring friendship...
i do so miss it so
I'm left here to sit here with you,
wondering where you've gone....

what i've said, it only scratched the surface
what i've done, i've done it with a purpose
though the meanings never clear
and the hurt is always here
i swear i meant all good things
and i hope you never will forget

it seems once again, i lay here bleeding
it seems there's no thought behind my thinking
i feel i'm never gonna change
i feel so lost and feel so strange
seems the world has just broke me in
to hold me out and then drop me

though the fire burns inside of me
that flame feels it could die
and if all my hope, should be blown out
well i guess i'll say good-bye..
well i guess i'll say good-bye..

i'll sing a song for you,
if you just sit and wait
let my emotions come and ring me out
just come and set me straight
i swear i mean every word i say
just give me a second
to make all of this sound okay

you know i love it when you stand
and look me in the eye
just to let me tell you that i love you
i love it when you dance and laugh
just to leave me here
standing in awe of you're beauty

please don't let me down from this...

oh my dear friend
what the hell have you done
you've opened yourself up
for the knife and the gun
you're asking for it
all the pain you don't want
i pray and i pray
all of this you'll give up
so you can smile for years
when all this is gone
and i pray and i wish
that you had never begun
to see it all as is
trying all that you see
i fear all my prayers
went wasted from me
and i can't help but feel
really scared to death
i pray that you listen
and i'm not wasting my breath

Hey guys wrote a new song for you.  Hope you enjoy!  Peace.
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"The War Is Over"
(verse 1)
so here they came - the sighs of relief
all is over - all that's left is peace
and there we stood - standing so proud
the cheers came - screaming oh so loud
it's been so long, i'm so glad that it's done
our battle's fought and the war is won
and everything's as good as it should
i'd have made it sooner if only i could
and

(chorus)
i love to shout it out
at the top of my lungs
the war is over
and life has just begun
here we stand ready
for the rest of our lives
and all looks well
across those clear blue skies
i can't help but think
that this is really the end
that the page has turned
a new chapter's began..
we're standing at ready
for the rest of our lives
as hurt is draining
from our tear wrought eyes...

(verse 2)
and there we sat - looking back at ourselves
at all the hurt - upon all of the shelves
as if every photo's - another anthem to all
that war is bad - that it's all man's fault
and it's all so plain to see
that it doesn't - solve - anything
i'm glad for the moment - it's gone and done
i just think i'd feel better - if it'd never begun
and

(chorus)

Cripple me stupid
May I think for myself no more
May you guide me through firey rings
And through my battles with horrid fiends
Please bless my abilities to strike back
And strike with a force that's mighty...

that's it, bring in the bricks
stack them up nice and high
stack them to block them all off
and so I can't even see sky
may i sit in my dark recess
may i sit here in peace
may i sit here til' doomsday
or until i'm deceased

just take it all away
all the pain that you've caused
may you fill all your emptiness
with meds and dry gauze
just leave me alone
leave me as myself, here in one
just leave me be, my friend
what you've left has been done....

Some may think that the worst feeling you can have
Is feeling all alone....
But yet again, would it not be worse
If someone had put you there.....

When all is over and all is won
I'll look back to see your face
And say I remember when all was lost
When we both sat in that horrid place
To say life just sucks
Lets just run away
Lets escape it all
and then there we'll stay
But no we fought on through the epic war
And made it through, and we're there no more
So lift with me this toast to life
And live with me, let's say we'll try

No, I can dream
If you can dream
And I can say
What you can say
And I can feel
What you can feel
But only life can prove
That love is real

It seems today is just day one
And I can see your smiling face
And still I remember when all was lost
But we left that horrid place
Where dreams are lost
And hope is gone
Where all is said
And then never done
But we opened up our eyes to finally see
There's someone there to go through with me
Someone there who's not afraid to fight
Someone to hold you close all through the night

No, I can dream
If you can dream
And I can say
What you can say
And I can feel
What you can feel
But only life can prove
That love is real

And while you're gone I'll sit and wait
And worry all the time
Though you may not be mine
I care for your soul
My friend, my love
My breath, my life
Just know that I care about you

There's too many words to say
That you've heard many times before
I feel it, and I fear it's drawing near
The day you shall be near me no more.
I just pray before then you realize my thoughts
You truly understand what goes through my mind
And how I think of you all the time,
With a love that's of the most special kind
A kind you might never be able to find again.....
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Well I must have passed this spot
A thousand times
The carpet stares, grown thin
I guess when someone's in love
They can make a profession
Out of thinking about that special someone.

I can't help but feel you'll never understand
I can't help but think I'll be like this forever
Not to say my heart be wasted
But not ever able to love someone else

Only God knows what you mean to me....

One more sip from a cauldron
One last taste of what life brings
I'm so sick of always feeling like this
I'm breaking off from all my chains
I can't stand this silence ringing
I can't wait for it all to leave
I'm just contemplating what to do
You don't understand all that you mean

I'm thinking up all excuses
While covering all my bruises
I'm trying to see you here with me
Though I feel all I have is me
And I guess I'll make the most of it
Yeah I guess I'll make the most of it
Now...

Well it was
Cool and moist on a Tuesday night....
It was One in the morning
When suddenly, I had the urge felt to go...
I found myself standing beneath
Your window....
Standing with pebble in hand
Ready with the next one to throw...
Though found you were not coming
The thrill wasn't over
But away to home I had flown....
But not before, left evidence
A note beneath the angel block
Left of the door,
It'll be known......

I love you...