do u fear it? or embrace it?

August 04 2007

So i am reading this book, called Rachels Tears! its about a Girl named Rachel who died in the Columbine tradgedy! she was asked if she believed in God! she said"you know i do!'' klebold then said "go live w. him then" & was shot!the 2 guys that shot her , one reportedly had a crush on her, [he wasnt the one to shoot her !] but he ridiculed her , and called her a GODLY whore , & all kinds of names! why didnt he save her? ....

 Rachel was a strong Christian and at the talent show she presented "watch the Lamb" & she was made fun of! but she didnt care! i wish i could be like that , every choice made by me , is all about what others think!

   she died for what she believed! i thought about this & if i was asked"do u believe in God? " & they had a Gun pointed at my head , would i say Yes?its easy to tell you i would, but then actually being in that situation would I? would I die in his name?  i have to 100% honest at this....

   i hate admitting that i Dont know  if i really could ::hopefully i wont be put in that situation, but then that the greatest way i could die! my death would impact others!i should be proud to die like that! but then why is there so much fear in dyeing! why do i fear death? i should look forward to it!!shouldnt i?

 okay, now heres the question would you be willing to die for one who died for you? does anyone feel like i do?


"we don t know when our time is up , you cant die b4 your time , you die when its your time !we needda live like its our last day , because might be"


Yeah , okay!

July 12 2007


i made it!!!

Easy enough !

 i got some stuff done , not as much as i would like to have though....

 Read 2 books (10 com. of dating, &measure of the heart)

      okay , you know how God gives you what you need b4 you even realize you need it? well, b4 church i had this unhappiness about someone , & i told erin & we decided i should just take a break  4rm them for a few days , dont call them up or nothing! we couldnt decide how 2 go about doing that & telling that person  ! & God was at work ..... he put the youth group lesson , and that challenge in front of me , so then i cant talk 2 them any possible way !!!!!yay!! .. anyways.


 tuesday i layed in bed most the day, wasnt feeling so great . i wasnt sick, just sorta not feelng too well..... just being a sissy!


  yeah & then i get on here , and i dont really feel to loved and all!! lol... its okay i totally understand! yall just needed a break from Elizabeth!

i wont be on til thursday!

July 08 2007

Yeah its true , our youth group  had aclass on addiction & starting monday i signed up for 3 days of pain!i  cant use computer , phone , radio, or tv ... pray i make it& dont tempt the easily tempted... dont call me ..okay .. cuz i will pick up ! im glad we didnt do food!!!! lol.

well, leave messages for me kids! love yall

4th of july [the ideal perfect day]

July 04 2007

it was awesome i made up w.kollin!!!!! Itwas just a mood yesterday[ ... hmmm.... someone no nmes begining w. myself and that person beng me! errr... needs to get checked 2 see if they are bypolar!!!lol.. no seriously!]brb ....

 well, today was great ... me & kollin are better than b4 ,wAY BETTER! WE AE FANASTIC!&  TONITE WAS REALLY SPECIAL TO MY HEART !!!!!  it all meant alot 2me!!! and i had a great time,and areally good taLk w. mom!!!! and life is sooo short , this day was soo short to me , its a vapor in the wind!!!!! its all memories now , .... moving on ..!!!


June 30 2007

this is funny you guys! corey couldnt get in his house , today .... oh , it  was funny !!! soo.... he lifted me up , and i got in the window , and well, almost got straight threw, til i realize my ... was not gonna go well, i tried , to make it work , but no go ...... so i scraped my leg ... GOOD NEWS I MADE IT threw !!!! bad ew leg is scraped yay!


fun... reminds me of the time i got stuck in a baby swing in that feild of dreams park , they had to call the fire dep..... then i got out b4 the fire dep. got there , so we had to put me back in , & when they came , theyjust lifted theswing tipped me over , and i fell on my face ... TRUE STORY , too...loll

camp as jr counselor!

June 22 2007

well, camp as a junior counselor ..

 was like nothing ive ever expirienced ...

 it was wonderful , but then it was terrible!!

 it was thrilling , yet boredom ran through my system!

it was easy , but then so hard!!!

 ive been harrassed by fellow male jr. counselors who think its hilarious when i get mad , and i cant help but laughing bc THE PRANKS & JOKES ARE DOWN RIGHT HILARIOUS!!!! i cant believe how much sleep i havent had .... 6 hours per night , is not enough to keep my engines running!!!

lol.....  i think i did  great , but its good to home


June 08 2007

Hey Kids !

 im back from camp , i sorta missed mckennas wedding !!! thats hilariously sad , i wish i couldve been there , but i was exhausted and i sorta fell asleep , or sleep fel on me .... lol.

well, im back .. Yay! ... but then not Yay ! i loved it there ~ i had to much fun .....

 heres the most important thing i learned

your talk talks , and your walk talks , but your walk talks louder than your talk talks ... lol... seriously write that down and think about those words!!!!

 well, i missed you guys , but right now i miss my Kollin boy!!!!!

He was a real sweetheart , held the doors open for me , threw away my trash , held my bag , im serious , guys thats really attractive , especially when its a dudely guy , he had some muscles , and he plays post , and he loves God !!!!!!oh , and he had pretty eyes , im telling ya ....

  this is my second year w. him ,and e really treats me like a person , and some of you guys need to learn to treat your girls like that!!!!! i am sooo amazed ... i think this relates to how god treats us in away think about it!


May 20 2007

well,  todays presentation was good !!!!~ im messed up some but it was still good both of them were ...... but i got mad at the team because of something , it really made me upset...! i was gonna go off on the team monday , bc it really made me out to be a liar , and im not ... i was soo mad i was even thinking about quitting the team , bc it just made me furious!!!! but when my emotions finally got intact w/ my head , and i remembered that it aint really bout all that i felt better ...!!! well, yeah , sooo .. i didnt mean to come off like i did sorry !. have a great day kids!

to Jarred!

May 19 2007

Hey hey Hey !   i hope this makes you LAUGH! its gonna be okay ,i know yousaid you feel weird , but in the future you will laugh , & really it cant be that bad at least not as bad as these....

Its OKAY to scream!

its okay to be sad!!!!

but DONT GO CRAZY!!!! tehehe.... love you!remember it will be FINE!


May 16 2007


heres to help you guys through today!: (its what i think will help you right now according to what i know about how your doing ihope it helps someone.

Tamara -eccl.3:1-8 there really is a time for everything , and you are  gonna be awesum at the presentation doing carmens part ,you always are!~

tyler im gonna give the same verse as tamara  ecc.3:1-8 ... there is a season for everything , and also , many things in life go not the way we ever planned , but it all works out for the best josh.1:9b

Austin- i hope you have an awesum day , and even when your feeling lazy , just keep working hard ! no matter how much you dont wanna do it! i thess. 5:12-15

Corey- remember you have many friends , and when you feel alone remember you got me & jesus & the mime team!prov.18:24

Jacob- you are really growing , and dont slow up!!! i mean growing in more than one way , especially spiritually , and in mime , and even as a friend!!!col. 2:6-7

gracie- dont ever feel like you have to do things to fit in , bc your awesum , and i know you arent , but i want you know you are soooo cool, and you dont ever have to be liuke this world! Rom.12-2

Jarred- you are going through many changes , and that doesnt mean bad nor good! just change , you have a real talent , and you are good at everything you do .... do it to your best. col.3:23 .. u know it!phil.4:13

 hey yall read those verses! it will encourage yall!

ive decided to stay!!!!~

May 15 2007

okay i ve decided ill keep my phusebox afterall!!!!! i guess i love u guys way tooo much!!!!!!! im sorry for anyone who cried all night the night i said im deleting my phusebox ... i really didnt mean to make you sad . this means ive got to get all my friends back , and put new pictures up ... and waste a bunch of time... lol... but you guys are worth it , ... i think.