"i like dat, i like dat a lot!"

ah...

i'm so tired..but i had a blast last night.

went to a pool party..9PM, in freezing cold rain = too much fun...

didn't get home till 12:30...woo hoo

hm...new pictures...

that's about all that's happened...
haha...

my birthday wish list:

- 3 and 1/2 years with jesus...just hanging out
- a holy ghost car wash..

hahahahaha...i loved camp this year...although 3 out of the 5 days i was puking my guts out! yay! haha...yes, i know. i am amazing. i think i've had a whole bottle of pepto bismol this entire week, while running on 4 hours of sleep!! =] so, at the moment, i'm extremely hyper. i drank mountain dew.  i love that stuff...

so many inside jokes from camp...
i lost most of my voice because i was laughing so hard last night.

i'm really starting to adjust to my new youth group. this trip REALLY helped me. i'm getting to know them, and apparently they like me. (or they're really good actors...either one)...so, that's good.

and i really, really, really like this guy. he's amazing. AND HE LOVES GOD!! what a deal!!!  =]

mucho love,
[[50 cent]]

hahahahahaha...
we will never forget you, bertha!

i need someone to hold me right now...a friend who's shoulder i can cry on...

i used to have two, but lost him & her due to stupidity within the church...

i need a reliable friend...someone who loves me no matter what...
someone who doesn't look down on me because of what i've done in the past...

...the best friend i never had....

leaving the 2nd to go to my cousin's graduation in st. louis...(that side of the family really has nothing to do with me, so i'll be alone...someone text me!! [verizon only..hehe] )
getting back from that trip on the 4th
wash all my clothes
leave the 5th for youth camp with my church (can't wait for the late-night talks and 3AM pranks...hmm...)
get back the 9th
go to a end-of-school party (hopefully) the 9th at my friend's house
get home that night...and sleep...sleep...sleep...

nothing else for the rest of the summer...
unless my dad's in one of those completely random, rare, happy moments and we all up and leave for a theme park..who knows with him...

but i'm not going to orlando as planned, so...yeah...
this summer = super boring....

i'm happy.

and that's all you need to know    *grins*

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"Does Anybody Hear Her?"  - Casting Crowns


She is running

A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

She is trying

But the canyon's ever widening

In the depths of her cold heart

So she sets out on another misadventure just to find

She's another two years older

And she's three more steps behind


Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?


She is yearning

For shelter and affection

That she never found at home

She is searching

For a hero to ride in

To ride in and save the day

And in walks her prince charming

And he knows just what to say

Momentary lapse of reason

And she gives herself away


Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?


If judgement looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we never even met her


If judgement looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlet letter

And we never even met her


Never even met her


Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?

Or does anybody even knows she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me


Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?

Does anybody even know she's going down today?

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Does anybody see?


He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

Kitten Cannon

i haven't laughed this hard in a while...

=]

meatloaf.

okay...guys, sorry about my attitude lately..
some things happened here in my house and it's been very stressful for me.

dang...i've been having these REALLY BAD leg cramps lately...and those of you who know me know that i've been through a lot and it takes a lot of pain for me to really hurt...well, i was up crying last night because it was so bad..it's really weird...i thought i already went through the growing pains area...guess not...well, my mom gave me some stuff that's considered to be narcotics..haha...this will be fun...

tonight at church, i realized what i'm supposed to be doing (for now at
least)...i feel like i've been called into the ministry with kids...don't know exactly what...but to add onto that, i've always been drawn to the ministry commercials about the kids who are starving in other parts of the world, and they've always touched me. i can't sit there through a commercial and just let it pass me by...it's always on my mind...kids who aren't getting the food they need and also kids who are being abused...it's just something i've always had a heart for...

yeah, okay, enough of me rambling...
talk to you guys later...
[[beccanator]]




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(yeah, so maybe i copied and pasted of off xanga...who cares?)

pretty cool videos>> 
Arcade Acappella
Honda Acapella

well, it's been a while...
although not much has changed...

i still need a job...
badly...


recently, a lot of my friends are graduating...
man, i'll miss them so much.... *sighs*

but yeah, that's about it...
someone needs to call me..
i'm so bored

[[[beccanator]]]

well...turned in a youth camp staff application...

just pray they love me enough to let me in..

I NEED A JOB!!! AHH!!!
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well...yesterday was lots of fun...got to hang out with travis, his mom, pastor nathan, ivy, bj and angela...what a group...

twas fun...

i was able to talk to mrs. lavelle for a good two hours just about everything that had been putting me under a lot of stress lately. just being out in the middle of nowhere on 21 acres sitting on the front porch swing just talking...the only disturbance (if you'd even call it that) were the beautiful birds chirping and the wind in the trees...

you guys don't know how much that helped me...
i love being outside in nature and having someone there with me i can talk to about my experiences and also get counceling...

god blessed me with people like that in my life, and without them (god or the people themselves) i don't know how i would have survived this long.
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1 Peter 3:4 (New International Version)
Instead, it should be that of your inner self,
the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit,
which is of great worth in God's sight.

quote of the day:

" AHH!! MOM!!! DON'T RUN OVER THE BIRDS!! OH MY GOD!!!"
spoken by the most amazingly paranoid person on this earth, emily...


haha...
what a day...

-singing veggie tales while bowling with tyler
-making fun of tyler and his "dance moves" because he's "down with it"...haha...
-bowling period. i love making fun of people bowl....(too bad when i bowl, everyone laughs as well...so...we're even)
-stuffing my face with oreos
-laughing at tyler b/c he had to go to a square dance party
-too many other things to mention...

i love it...

don't even ask me about fine arts.

i didn't advance...that's all you need to know...


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on the other hand, stress is slowly taking over my life...

AHH!!!! HELP ME!!!

FINE ARTS TODAY!!! ahh....

i can officially freak out now!!


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ugh...

life is okay for once.

don't know how much more of my family i can take, but hey...i could have been in a worse position...i'm glad i got the family i did...

leave me some comments please...i need someone to make me smile...

mucho love,
[the beccanator]

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everyone like my new profile pic?

i got bored today...and took LOTS of pictures...

mucho love,
[becca]

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here are some from earlier:


my fine arts photo

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me and hay...(trav is in the back looking at us like we're dorks...he's right...)

last night i went to a sectional youth rally with my church, and i don't know what happened...

but i feel a lot better...

leave remarks!!
mucho love!
[becca]

life = hectic

i haven't had but a grand total of 2 hours of sleep this week.

dang.

[me]

dang..
i haven't hung out with any of my fwc people...man, i miss you guys like none other!!


lately i've been having a lot of migranes...you know whenever you hear something (and you hear EVERYTHING) it just gets worse? yeah...i've had one like that all day...man, it needs to go away!!

today i got to hang out with some cool people...*cough* randy *cough*....but yeah...

well, i'm gonna go for now...
leave me remarks...
they're mucho appreciated!!

[becca]

okay, amanda, i didn't fall off the face of the earth.


yet.


but matt's been on here doing stuff with his website for fine arts...yeah, no time for me and my geography project (which is now due on this monday and i'm just starting it...grr...)

but anyways, i got published! since i didn't really have the money to buy the book (it was $20) my english teacher (mrs cing...the best teacher EVER) decided to give it to me as a gift. i was so happy to see my writing (although it sucked) ... i also saw so many people in there that i knew, like randy and michelle tullos...pretty cool...

well, i'm gonna go...
let's go learn about madagascar! =] yeah!

*sighs*

[beccabeccaboo]

this is what i did today:

JUMP.

i absolutely despise shopping with my mother.
gah, she makes me feel fat, insecure, and all of those other sucky things...


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at least i make good head-shots =]  hehe...