I need prayer.

This week has been the worst. i've spent the past 2 years trying to build my trust level again. [because things happened in my family that really caused me to not be able to trust anymore.] I was doing this with the help of a youth leader. Only to find out, this person wasn't the most trustworthy either. Knocking my trust level back to zero. I feel as if everyone i get close to isn't honest with me, or leads a complete double life. they use me & lie to me. i don't know what to do anymore. i want to shut off the world completely. Honestly, i'm angry at God a little for allowing this to happen. But i've stayed in the scripture trying to make sense of all of this. maybe it just needs time.

& Now, what i ask of you is that you pray for me, that i may have a forgiving spirit towards all of this, that i have strength to say that this won't hinder my walk with Christ, that it will be a stepping stone to build my relationship with Him, and make me smarter for the future. right now, all of that seems so out of reach. But i'm trusting the power of prayer. and support from my brothers & sisters in Christ.

Love you all.

<3