I have been so tired lately. I look forward to sleep so much! I try to get to bed by 11 read for like 15-30 min and then go to sleep. I  get the same amount every night pretty much but I am still soooo tired! I think it may be that since last weekend I did not get to sleep in any day I have been a little off. I need to have atleast one day a week that I don't wake up to an alarm clock and I just wake up naturally but that has not happened in a while. My roommate is sick today, she has a fever, she's been sleeping all day.
On another note work has been very frustrating. My boss changes his mind on everything but he never communicates to me what he has changed so then I am thinking we are doing one thing when we are doing something completely diffrent, but the person that he does tell, his fiance, seems to have a little additude when I don't know what's going on because he hasn't told me. It is also a little difficult to be on the same team as her. I think it's because we are both strong leaders put on the same team, she wants to take the reigns but it is my job to have the reigns so there is this struggle. I need to talk to them about it but how do you really say to your boss that you have a problem working with your fiance, and I know that most girls don't take it too well when you tell them that they have an additude!
Oh I don't want to have to deal with these issues any more!!!! Tomorrow I am meeting with my Pastor about June. I hope that it goes well, then I just have to tell everyone else at church, not looking forward to that! I think I am going to get some coffee because I am tired and I still have my team meeting, which I found out this morning that my boss will not be here to lead(again with the communication thing) and then go to my small group. But really I would like to go home now and sleep!

    So yesterday I realized something, maybe it something simple and everyone knows this but it hit me yesterday I felt like I needed to share. So like you know there is that one thing that you slip up with when it comes to sin and like when  you do slip up on it you like think the world is gonna end. Well that is the way I am. I think I have this view of walking on a tight rope and when I stumble I will fall off the rope and that is the end of it. But there's the net which is God's grace. If I mess up it really is not the end of the world. God still loves me no matter what. The other thing that hit was that I get upset on the big thing that I mess up on but I don't even notice the small things. I need to be just as upset over the small things as I am over the big things. I also need to remember that I am not perfect, and I am not expected to be perfect, I should strive to not sin but I am not and will not be perfect. Everyone struggels with something or a whole lot of somethings,everyone from Paul to me and to you. I'm tired of Christians trying to come off like they are perfect and that the biggest sin you commit each day is like lying or saying something behind someones back, we deal with big and small things everyday but we put on this mask like we are all doing fine but we are not. Sorry that I am on my soap box about this. I think I am wirtting this down more for me because I need to hear this too.

   So nothing too big today. I succesfully moved a majority of my itunes from one computer to another. I am working on adding some umph to the weekyly newsletter that I send out to the students. It's pretty boring. For the second day in a row I am the last one in the office. I hate having to lock up.
Elizabethtown was a great movie, I may need to buy the sound track. I really liked it, I had a great valentines day with the girls! So tonight I hope to go to be early. I may work out at home. I joined a gym but I have not been there yet. I am a little intimidated by the people there. I need to go with some one so I can get comfortable. I have a visitors pass, anyone want to come? So only one more day left for this week. Might go see Mute Math at the Knitting Factory in the city on Friday night but not sure. I have to get two cavaties filled so we will see how I feel after that. Have a great night everyone!

  So I figured out what I hate more than snow, the slush that is left after the snow has started to melt! It's just gross! In other news I got some new songs on i tunes. Picked up the new Dave Barnes CD!!! The All American Rejects which I love!! I also got the Garden State Sound track, I know I am a little late but I use to have my roommates and when she moved out she took her cd with her. Tonight a few of the girls and I are going to have dinner together at my house. A little pasta, salad, and strawberry shortcake (my fav!) and then watch Elizabethtown, which I have not seen yet and heard some mixed reviews. Other than that things are good.
Dentist appointment on Friday not looking forward to it! I have to get two fillings and one of the teeth get's a lot of problems because of my sinus problems.

So I noticed that a lot of the Murfreesboro people have been talking about the snow that they had this past weekend. It's like a speck of snow, mean while I have to litteraly dig my car out of the snow thanks to the snow plows that come through to clear the street of snow. 

    The "blizzardof 2006" is apoun us. I am stuck in my apartment and I have no desire to put on all those layers and to go out and shovel my car out. There really is not any where that is worth going to anyway. Pretty much everything is closed. So I just go done watching 10 Things I hate about you. Good thing that I only have to walk across the street to get to work because I think that I would not be albe to make it in. 

   So it's snowing here in Jersey and we already cancled church for Sunday. I am lookign forward to having nothing to do tomorrow but it was supposed to be a big Sunday for us. We have are launching a new series called Desperate Households, which is a play off on Desperate Housewives. It was also baby dedication which is big for us and we have been encouraging our members to invest for the las three weeks in their friends and to invite them to the new series which was supposed to start this week. So it's kind of sad that we are not havign church. But we are not in control God is and it gives us an extra week to be prepared and to continue to invest in our people. 

    So I didn't got to work today because I was sick, I was watching movies on tv and I saw a John Cuzack movie that i had never seen before called "The Sure Thing", let me first say that I have a love for John Cusack, and it was a good John movie. It was not that great of a movie, but a pretty classic 80's teen John Cusack movie. It was no say anything but not nearly as bad as like better off dead. So it was just like a sick day in high school where I stayed at home and watched a stupid movie! Got to go deliver some cookies to the RA's on campus and then we are bowling tonight!

    So tonight I can't wait to clean my room, do my laundry, wash some dishes, take a buble bath, sing, talk to God, and maybe work out! Can I do it all tonight? I am going to try! I joined a gym this week and I was supposed to go tonight to meet with a personal trainer, but I didn't feel like going. So I am going to get started on the laundry! Why is it that when I have a free night I feel like I need to jam as much as possible into it so the ngiht dosen't even really feel relaxing.
Ok so here I go I think Ihave like a ton of laundry to do!

So Florida was nice for a day and a half. The day I got there it was really nice but by the time we went for lunch and got into the hotel room it was dinner timeish. So the next day was beautiful and we hung out at the pool all day and we had planned going to the beach the next day with my mom but after 12 ish it started to get cloudy. Then it rained the rest of the time that we were there! Sad! But the hotel had a great work out room so that was good and we went to get breakfast at Perkins and I had some great bicuts and gravy! So that is what my trip was like. Oh on  Thursday I got to see the new Survivor season. I think the older ladies made a huge mistake by not voteing off the lady who is afraid of leaves. We'll see what happens this week!

    I am going to Florida! Yeah! So tomorrow I will be there and it will be hot! Yeah!

   I am going to Floridia this week! I cannot wait to get on the plane Wedensday! On Tuesday this week it's supposed to snow but I will be heading out for 79 degree weather!!! That's right be jealous! Wathc it rain the whole time I am there.

    Ok so i am definetly avoiding writting my paper. I feel like I am back in college avoiding work until the last minute. So my plan is to work on it tonight and tomorrow. But right now I just don't feel like starting it!!! I need to just start it once I start I can get it over with! So I think I will start some laundry clean up my room and then start. Can I also say that my very loud neighbors have been fighting all evening it's like impossible to not hear them.

   So this week is going to be crazy! I have all of this work that I need to catch up on from last week and being away in the city for class, plus I still need to take the test that I have for my class and write a 10 page paper. Every night this week I have something to do for work. Today I had staff meeting at 6:30 in the morning and have Cru tonight wich I am not looking forward to. Today's weather sucks which could also add to my crankiness.
I got some very exciting news though last night! One of my closest friends, Emily Thormahelen got engaged last night! So she will have a much simpler last name after October, but she'll always be Emily T to me!  Got to start working out again since I'm in the wedding!
So right now the only things that will get me through today are God, a nap, and the fact that next week I am going to Florida!
So I think I need to head over to the office and go to work even though I have no desire to leave this couch.

    So I was getting ready for church this morning and I got the call that we did not have church today because of the snow and ice that we have today in NJ. I like the sonw when I don't have to go out in it. My roommate just left to go to her church because she has to sing today.
Oh did I mention that I am typeing on my new iBook G4! I got it on Friday, and I love it! This is not my first Apple but it has been a while since I had one like 4 or 5 years. I had another Apple lap top but I fell down the stairs with it and it broke. So I am hopeing that I have better luck with this one! So now I am going to have a little Jesus time and then take a nap! I love Snow Days!

God is still knocing my socks off with this oppertunity he has given me. He keeps on opening more and more doors. I am really looking forward to the weekend. Oh big new we are getting cable and internet tomorrow at the apartment! I have not had cable in like a year and a half. I am also getting ready to purchase my laptop! I am very excited about that and all the cool stuff I will be able to do with it!!! Yeah! So just working right now and I hope that I might get to go for a walk today since the weather has been so nice here which is really a shock. This time last year we were about to have a blizzard. It's carazyiness. I am wearing flip flops in January in NJ!

So God's really been knocking my socks off lately. He made something very clear to me this past week at Passion. I was a little scared about it but excited to . I had to talk to my boss about it and I was really scared about that. But he was cool with it and gave it his blessing. That's another conformation for me!
So about my bag from the last entry. It finally arrived at 4:53pm. The man that dropped it off was like well ussually you come down to the van to pick it up but I guess I could bring it to you since you don't have a coat, I almost let that guy have it, but I didn't. So I get it back to my apartment and I realize that it is broken. So I will be sending them a letter, maybe I can get a free flight some where!
In three weeks I am going to Florida! I cannot wait. I bought that Jergens tanning lotion so I won't be pasty white when I get there. They had better have good weather while I am there or I will be very upset. So this time 3 weeks from now I will be on a plan waiting for it to take off so I can go be in the sun!

So they still have not delivered my bag. It has been found and was supposed to be delivered today around 1pm, it is now 1:32pm and I don't have my bag. Yesterday I had to run out to CVS and buy all of the things that are in my bag that I really need like a tooth brush. I really want my bag and I really want to have a normal apartment. My apartment is a mess because I not only have one roommate moving in the old one is moving out and there is just utter mass confusion in my apartment. I want my bag and to clean my room so that I can feel settleled.

So I just got back from Nashville last night. It was not the best trip of my life Ihave to say. The orginal plan was that we were supposed to drive down with the group from church and that I would fly back on Staturday get home Sat. evening, run in to work catch up on a few things and then have a relaxing Sunday before heading into the work week.
So here is how it all went wrong. Gary the other over 25 year old attende was supposed to drive the van because I have never driven anything bigger then my Carolla but then a work project came up and he could not get out of  staying so now I have to drive the van down and possibly not get to stay in Nashville with my friend for a few extra days. But Chris and I were working on that whole driving thing. The drive down to Nashvill was horrible. It rained like the whole time and I was worn out by the time I got there. That night I slept like a lamb. Got up the next morning did the whole Passion thing the whole time trying to find a driver for the dang van. Same thing the next day, got to go have coffee with Em and then had dinner with the TLJ gang. Worked out some way for Chris's sister to drive the van back so I did get to stay. I got to visit the 'boro for a little bit and spend more time with Em. The downfall on the trip was at the airport. My flight was majorly delaye by like 2 1/2 hours so I missed my connection in DC so after I got on another flight I talked to coustermer service in DC and they assured me that they would get my bags put on the right flight. Of course when I arrive back in NJ I am standing at the baggage claim and no bag's for me! Oh joy! So now when I call their like you are on a priority trace beut we are unable to find your baggage at this time. So yeah I am really in a bad mood because now I have to do all of this work now  and I have none of my stuff, no make up, no deodrant, no contats stuff, no hair dryer, nothing! So I have never flewn United up until today and I don't think I ever will again.

I'm not sure if everyone is familiar with the scavengers of the sea, seagulls, but they will eat anything and do anything to eat something. So today I was driving to staples to pick up envelopes for our christmas offering at church this Sunday and I almost hit a seagull on the road. It had droped it's food my lane and tried to retrive it as I was driving . I really thought I was going to have a Seagull stuck to the grill of my car. Dumb bird