Nicole

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Siegel High

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God, School (some what), intelligent conversation, books, music, theatre, shopping, road tripping with my buddies, chocolate, obviously updating my two online journals, dancing, singing, politics, mock trial, riding horses, writing poetry and stories, working on my scrap book, taking random pictures, watching movies, muddin, spendin what little time I'm given with the love of my life, trying to keep my life under control .freefever { This layout is from www.freefever.com/myspace } body, body.bodyContent { background-image:url('http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/layout_bg/16484332_l.jpg'); background-position:Top Left; background-repeat:repeat; background-attachment:scroll; cursor:Default; background-color:white; scrollbar-face-color:FF6666 !important; scrollbar-track-color:FF0000 !important; scrollbar-arrow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-shadow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-3dlight-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-darkshadow-color:FFFFFF !important; } table, tr, td {background:transparent; border:0px;} input {background-color:transparent !important;} td, span, div, input, a, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; font-family: "Georgia" !important; } td, span, div, input, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; } body, body.bodyContent, div, p, strong, td, .text, .blacktext10, .blacktext12, a.searchlinkSmall, a.searchlinkSmall:link, a.searchlinkSmall:visited, .btext, .redbtext, .nametext { color:FFFFFF !important; } a { cursor:Default !important; color:FFFFFF !important; } a:hover { cursor:Default ; color:FF9999 !important; } img {border:0px;} body, body.bodyContent, html {visibility:visible !important; display:block !important} div.msmnet{position:absolute;right:5px;top:35px;border:1px solid rgb(128, 128, 128);background:url(http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/msmaster/fade.jpg) repeat-x 0 0 ;padding:0;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul{list-style:none;padding:5px;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul li{padding:2px;}div.msmnet ul li a:link, div.msmnet ul li a:visited{color:rgb(128, 128, 128);font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;}div.msmnet ul li a:hover, div.msmnet ul li a:active{background-color:rgb(128, 128, 128);color:white;text-decoration:none;font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;} MySpace LayoutsMySpace LayoutsMySpace CodesMySpace Backgrounds

Another random monologue

September 08 2006

Ok so this has nothing to do with my life whatsoever, but it is a deleted scene out of a story I'm writing.


We knew this day would come; we had gone to chase dreams, and those dreams took us in different directions. Maybe you changed, maybe I changed, that's not the point here. The point is that something changed. You aren't the guy I fell in love with, and I'm not the same girl. What we had was nice, it was beautiful, and it was fun. But it couldn't last forever. How long could we sit and pretend that nothing had changed?


Niether one of us wants to say it. So why don't we just skip ahead to the part where we lie and say we can still be friends? No one wants to say it's over and done. No one wants to be the one to say I don't love you anymore. Damn it, are you going to force me to say it? You are, aren't you? I was trying to put it nicely, and I was trying to make it less painful, for both us. Well fine I'll say it, but it won't be pretty. I'm done dressing the truth up and coating in sugar. It won't make it easier to swallow anyway. So fine I'll say it.


It's over, and I think it's been over for a long time now. We wanted to make it work so much, that we ignored the plain and simple facts. You don't love me anymore, maybe you never did. We were kids then, and we didn't understand what we were doing. And I thought I loved you, I tried to love you, but I don't think I ever really did. I know it hurts, but it's the truth. We were never in love with each other, we were in love with being in love. It's sad, but I think that we needed the distance to see it. We needed to chase our dreams so that they could take us apart and show us that we don't belong together. So I guess this is goodbye. We can lie and say it isn't. We can say we'll still be friends, but I don't think we can be. Not for a very long time. Good bye.

Dani

September 08 2006
on an unrelated note... mock trial was o so fun last nigth!!!