Nicole
Relationship Status
In A Relationship
Highschool
Siegel High
Interests
God, School (some what), intelligent conversation, books, music, theatre, shopping, road tripping with my buddies, chocolate, obviously updating my two online journals, dancing, singing, politics, mock trial, riding horses, writing poetry and stories, working on my scrap book, taking random pictures, watching movies, muddin, spendin what little time I'm given with the love of my life, trying to keep my life under control .freefever { This layout is from www.freefever.com/myspace } body, body.bodyContent { background-image:url('http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/layout_bg/16484332_l.jpg'); background-position:Top Left; background-repeat:repeat; background-attachment:scroll; cursor:Default; background-color:white; scrollbar-face-color:FF6666 !important; scrollbar-track-color:FF0000 !important; scrollbar-arrow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-shadow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-3dlight-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-darkshadow-color:FFFFFF !important; } table, tr, td {background:transparent; border:0px;} input {background-color:transparent !important;} td, span, div, input, a, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; font-family: "Georgia" !important; } td, span, div, input, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; } body, body.bodyContent, div, p, strong, td, .text, .blacktext10, .blacktext12, a.searchlinkSmall, a.searchlinkSmall:link, a.searchlinkSmall:visited, .btext, .redbtext, .nametext { color:FFFFFF !important; } a { cursor:Default !important; color:FFFFFF !important; } a:hover { cursor:Default ; color:FF9999 !important; } img {border:0px;} body, body.bodyContent, html {visibility:visible !important; display:block !important} div.msmnet{position:absolute;right:5px;top:35px;border:1px solid rgb(128, 128, 128);background:url(http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/msmaster/fade.jpg) repeat-x 0 0 ;padding:0;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul{list-style:none;padding:5px;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul li{padding:2px;}div.msmnet ul li a:link, div.msmnet ul li a:visited{color:rgb(128, 128, 128);font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;}div.msmnet ul li a:hover, div.msmnet ul li a:active{background-color:rgb(128, 128, 128);color:white;text-decoration:none;font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;} MySpace LayoutsMySpace LayoutsMySpace CodesMySpace Backgrounds
Favorite Music
Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, Keith Urban, Garth Brooks, Chicago, lots of 80s music, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Billy Joel, Little River Band, the Eagles, Lifehouse, Gavin Degraw, Tim Mcgraw, Rod Stewart, Cyndi Lauper, soundtracks to my favorite movies, The Beatles, Boston, Led Zeppelin, The Beach Boys, Queen, .38 Special, The Allman Brothers Band, Brooks & Dunn, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Electric Light Orchestra, Fleetwood Mac, Foreigner, Jimmy Buffett, Kansas, Stevie Nix, Peter Frampton, The Rolling Stones, Steppenwolf, Steve Miller Band, Three Dog Night, ZZ Top, Don Henley, The Doors, Eric Clapton, Reliant K
Favorite Movies
Tombstone, The Cutting Edge, Real Genius, The Princess Bride, National Treasure, Dragonheart, Dirty Dancing, Roadhouse, James Bond Movies, Pirates of the Carribean, Blues Brothers, Pretty in Pink, Disney Movies, Romancing the Stone, Jewel of the Nile, Merlin, Dragonheart, Next of Kin, Top Gun, Harry Potter, The Replacements, Band of Brothers, Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, Hook, Patch Adams, Field of Dreams, Lethal Weapon 1-4, The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai, The Longest Day, Ghostbusters 1 and 2, So I Married an Axe Murderer, Stripes, Back to the Future, School of Rock, Stealth, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Young Frankenstien, Men in Black, Men in Black II, El Dorado, Rio Bravo, Rio Lobo, McClintock, Gone with the Wind, The Quiet Man, The Cowboy Way
Favorite Books
Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, The Simarillion, Inkheart, The Princess Bride, Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Band of Brothers, Eragon, Common Sense, Pride and Prejudice, Arthurian Legend, Xanth novels, Chronicles of Narnia, The Go-Between, Dragonriders of Pern, Green Rider, Sherlock Holmes, Lolita, Manga, Phoenix and Ashes, 1984, Animal Farm, Fahrenheit 451, Little Women, Anne Frank's Diary of a Young Girl, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Frakenstien, To Kill a Mockingbird, Hamlet, Gulliver's Travels, A Goddess is a Girl's Best Friend
Another random monologue
September 08 2006
Ok so this has nothing to do with my life whatsoever, but it is a deleted scene out of a story I'm writing.
We knew this day would come; we had gone to chase dreams, and those dreams took us in different directions. Maybe you changed, maybe I changed, that's not the point here. The point is that something changed. You aren't the guy I fell in love with, and I'm not the same girl. What we had was nice, it was beautiful, and it was fun. But it couldn't last forever. How long could we sit and pretend that nothing had changed?
Niether one of us wants to say it. So why don't we just skip ahead to the part where we lie and say we can still be friends? No one wants to say it's over and done. No one wants to be the one to say I don't love you anymore. Damn it, are you going to force me to say it? You are, aren't you? I was trying to put it nicely, and I was trying to make it less painful, for both us. Well fine I'll say it, but it won't be pretty. I'm done dressing the truth up and coating in sugar. It won't make it easier to swallow anyway. So fine I'll say it.
It's over, and I think it's been over for a long time now. We wanted to make it work so much, that we ignored the plain and simple facts. You don't love me anymore, maybe you never did. We were kids then, and we didn't understand what we were doing. And I thought I loved you, I tried to love you, but I don't think I ever really did. I know it hurts, but it's the truth. We were never in love with each other, we were in love with being in love. It's sad, but I think that we needed the distance to see it. We needed to chase our dreams so that they could take us apart and show us that we don't belong together. So I guess this is goodbye. We can lie and say it isn't. We can say we'll still be friends, but I don't think we can be. Not for a very long time. Good bye.