When they call your name
Will you walk right up
With a smile on your face
Or will you cower in fear
In your favorite sweater

With an old love letter
I wish you would

I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records

I wish you would

When you're walking downtown
Do you wish I was there
Do you wish it was me
With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine
You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records
- Ryan Adams

i love summer rain..i was sitting outside tonight and thunder started rolling...

keep on keepin on kids.-kels (heh)

i just want to thank Brian and Nemanja for kidnapping me today..getting me out of cleaning my closet and taking me to Marinas and a movie...:-).. i love you kiddos!


never put your soul
into someone you dont know
because when you turn round you see your frown
yet all the while a smile
you feign

youre drowning in this place
yet its all voluntary
what you thought you once loved
your partridge...your dove
is nothing more than a part time friend
...your blindness must be hereditary

its time for a change so you go all the way
only to find out that youre the stray,
youre lost in this world without a trace
of the light of your love...no sign of her face
her favorite roses...the sunset she'd say

ive been a bit out of place
...imagining things again
comes with the territory i guess...

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i can see the smile upon your face
all at once falling from its place
your image slowly fades from my mind
a symbol of the love you left behind

you pulled me in but you really through me out
you made me sure while filling me with doubt
youre the only one who gave me a chance
and now you send me home
yeah thats romance

why did you have to let me go
when only yesterday you loved me so
none of this is making any sense
was it ever love or only false pretense

you took my dark and turned it into light
you were the only one who made things right
you became my muse when i needed hope
and now you send me home
yeah what a joke



...a few words i came across...they rang true for me tonight
-kels

not only for his painting style..but ive come to realize that he had the right idea when he cut off his ear...mine are both dying..i have an ear infection..plug your ears with your fingers and youll have a good idea of how well i can hear..

so may 28th came and went much too fast...and im 17 and beginning my time on my actual 18th year..i feel like time is flying by..soon ill be living in a dorm at mtsu for a month..then comes senior year at oakland..

i had a good birthday.

keaton gave me moonstruck and elizabethtown
mom and dad- easel and brushes(which i reeally needed)..and new clothes
emily -sidewalk chalk, playdough, and stickers for my lovely car
grandparents -$
we went to shopryland (as my dad calls it) and then to the spaghetti factory..me and keaton walked around..came home and rachel swift, ron moore, and my grandparents ate lemon cake or chocolate pudding cake..mm. i hope you saw my sunset last night ..it was beautiful.

-kels

-oh and remember to pray for poor emily...shes dying in girls state at mtsu hah.

there have been about a million things running through my head these last few days..so much has happened..only two days of school left and all the graduations coming up..

it hit me tonight how every year i seem to get so close to the seniors and then off they go...im really going to miss this group so much.. tonight at church some of the seniors got up and spoke about their high school years and what they had learned.. brian king spoke about love.. and how thats really what it all boils down to. Theres also a quote that ive come to love in the last few hours that Brian shared with me..

"It is the intensity of love we put in our gestures that make them into something beautiful for God." - Mother Teresa

i just think that that is so true. i believe in great love and that love pouring from every inch of your heart is where you will find peace.. -kels


Let me say it, let me play it,
Let me lay it on you.
Let me know you, let me show you,
Let me grow it on you.
All I have is yours,
All you see is mine
And I'm glad to have you in my arms,
I'd have you any time.

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My love she speaks like silence,
Without ideals or violence,
She doesn't have to say she's faithful,
Yet she's true, like ice, like fire.
People carry roses,
Make promises by the hours,
My love she laughs like the flowers,
Valentines can't buy her.

In the dime stores and bus stations,
People talk of situations,
Read books, repeat quotations,
Draw conclusions on the wall.
Some speak of the future,
My love she speaks softly,
She knows there's no success like failure
And that failure's no success at all. -Bob Dylan

jazz fest..
nothings better than jazz in the rain.
nothings better than laying under a tree
nothings better than coffee when youre cold
nothings better than the soft lights on the square
and nothings better than sweet sounds driving home


it was a nice night. came home and me and emily ventured into my old journals from the last couple of years..it was pretty hilarious reading through my old thoughts and just reading what i was going through or prayin about.
..its funny how unexpected things happen and you go back and see how things were before they had happened...

did that make sense?...

anyways ive been obsessed with an artist named madeleine peyroux..so heres some lyrics:

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
I’m always walkin’ after midnight searchin’ for you

I walk for miles along the highway
Well, that’s just my way
Of sayin’ I love you
I’m always walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for you

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight*
Just hopin’ you may be
Somewhere a-walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for me

packin up the van with blankets and pillows...food and music.

im really excited about tonight...sleepin outside and such..

You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I'll keep lookin' up awaitin' your return

My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire

I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end
To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly
And if you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall

Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling.
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well...4th day being sick and i feel so gross. im sick of laying in bed.. BUT..

i have rediscovered that i have the worlds best - best friend forever and ever (BFFAE..ha:-))

Emily Windham brought me lilies today.. i think they make me feel better than the medicine does..

if you didnt hear about it...invisible children was on Oprah today...the three guys that went to Uganda were on the show..it was awesome...if you dont have anything going on this weekend..make sure you go to invisiblechildren.com and get involved in the Global Night Commute in Franklin..we will be meeting at the target in the cool springs area saturday the 29th at 8..

love-kels

i was just thinking
that i have been missing you
for way too long
and theres something inside this weary head
that wants us to love just instead

..i am sinkin, merrily sinkin.

i think about long distance rates
instead of kissing you babe
and if i wait for you longer my affection is stronger
but i was just thinking
merrily thinking



...the grandparents dropped in today.

i love my grandparents so much - they are so happy and so full of life... they've got stories to tell and everything they say is sentimental to me...

my grandpa has been diagnosed with Alzheimers... which makes me so sad..hes acting a little differently already.. keep my grandma in your prayers

-kels

so that last entry was pretty interesting huh?..chemistry class missed me...:-)

let  me paint you a picture of what im doing at "school" right now...the room is dark and the door to outside is wide open with a nice breeze comin in...a movie is playing...im listening to slowdive.. and writing to you.

i guess what im really trying to say is that school is a complete waste of time and i really would love love love to be done...yesterday i spent the whole day walking around mtsu...it was pretty nice. the art building was really fun, but (im sure ive said this a thousand times) i just feel  so at home there because i truly know what it is that i want to do ...i want to be a silly girl in college covered in paint ..doing something that i truly love..

ah. i guess itll come sooner than i think..but for now..ill sit in a spanish class, listen to music and daydream about where my life might go..

-kels

un jour la défectuosité connaissent votre puits de visage ainsi que ma brosse n'aura pas besoin de mes yeux

hey, i like pocketwatches and dinosaurs! I am too good to go to school today, instead i went on a field trip. I am cooler then everyone else in the world..

my name is kelsey

and i love shebelseys

my dog is hoot

and it looks like a boot

this is my rhyme

and now im outa time

I see the things and people and events in my daily world as an endless succession of paintings.
-Richard Schmid - one of my favorite artists..


THIS IS WORTH IT :

http://www.invisiblechildren.com/

please please get involved if you can..i know a lot of you will have prom but we will be walking from the target (in franklin) to the peoples church then writing letters to congress!..we will stay there with hundreds of people overnight..its going to be soo awesome...:-)

call me if you want to go (556 5222)..hopefully i can get another movie night together ...

or.. we may be showing the invisible children video at belle aire this coming wednesday...not too sure yet.
love -kels

"Love is giving someone the power to destroy you... and trusting they won't" - Justin Vance's Friend Blake (ha)



so. it was a nice day...church was good..
brian, cam, and rachel came over afterwards..so that was fuuun...burned brian some stay fly- y-y-y ...ha..



well, anybody can be like me,
obviously
But then, now again,
not too many can be like you
fortunately.

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In the lonely night
In the blinking stardust of a pale blue light
You're comin' thru to me in black and white
when we were made of dreams..

Bob Dylan
-kels

p.s. the moon is gorgeous tonight.

all i wanted to do tonight was keep driving..

ive had some time to think about it

and watch the sun sink like a stone

ive had some time to think about you

on the long ride home.

Mexico was incredible. i had such a great time. it was so nice to see what its like outside the good ole usa...i know mexico isnt too far -but it was still so different. The people there are so open and happy. Those children have the most sincere and happy looks on their faces..they have absolutely nothing..but they are so much more grateful and content..

it was also really beautiful..and the weather was great..i took a bunch of pictures of the people and the land..the trees are different there...they kind of wind up and spread out then up..anyways..you get the picture..me standing there looking at the mountains ..remembering how great and beautiful my God is.

well..im in art class so i should probably do something right?

love you-kels

would you please pray for me?..im going through some stuff right now...and im stressed about school...and to ice the cake, im leaving the country in about 4 days.. and i have no time!

love-kels

praise God for answered prayers..!

I MADE GOVERNORS SCHOOL.


AHHH.

im going to the 2006 Governors School For the Arts...:-) :-) :-)
-kels

have you noticed this weather?

...i start the car, turn on some good music, pull out, and there begins such a beautiful time alone.. sunday was the most beautiful day. i couldnt help but not go home. i drove and drove for about an hour until i couldnt  possibly waste any more gas....i went by the place where i grew up and watched my sister and me dance around the trees that are so much bigger now.. i looked at the yard where id lay and pick dandelions and the porch where me and my dad would watch the storms roll in..

dont you love those good memories?...

then to top it all off on monday it stormed. i havent seen a good storm in a while and it was even more fun to grocery shop in...

 ive come to the conclusion that it is so evident when a person knows what theyre living for and why they are breathing. its so nice to see people like that..it made me think of a quote.. "i saw a man in an elevator today that knew exactly what he wanted, and i wished that i could be half as lucky as he, .. a hour and half later me and brinkley moved out.." (- youve got mail)..

ive been working on that lately, just showing the world around me that i know why im here and how great that is, but also that im very uncertain about where im going and what all the things to come have in store for me..so..i guess all that to say..its okay to not know whats next but its so crucial to know why youre doing the things that youre doing, and why you are here.

but anyways. there i go rambling. love you -kels

(The train leaves
At half past ten,
But it'll be back tomorrow,
Same time again.
The conductor he's weary,
He's still stuck on the line.
But if I can save you any time,
Come on, give it to me,
I'll keep it with mine.)

formal was so fun this year, me and josh had a really good time..through the games of battleship with emmy, thousands of pictures, milanos, the presentation...more pictures.., waffle house, and ferris b's day off we all had a really good time.. ill upload some pics for you to see.. -kels

oh yes, i almost forgot...i am going to Mexico this spring break...its  going to be so great..i know that God will do great things..

hey my best buddy! this is rach! i love you and miss you in chem! i'm mad...grrrrr....cause you're not here! --Rach

dear kelsey, 

where are you today? spanish just wont be the same without you.

your friend, meghan

good day to be absent, i needed a ride today! oy  

love will

gatlinburg was fun..

i actually hid in the back of our van with a sleeping bag on top of me for about 35 minutes so i could jump out and surprise keaton when she finally realized we weren't on our way home..
last night i went out in the 20 degree weather and hopped in the hot tub..it was so so so beautiful. Snow all around and the trees.. and that perfect blue color that the moon makes on the snow..

we walked around..got some taffy and saw the aquarium too.

good news...i finally found a dress for formal...ill post pictures later...
so how bout a little bob dylan?



Buckets of rain
Buckets of tears
Got all them buckets comin' out of my ears.
Buckets of moonbeams in my hand,
I got all the love, honey baby,
You can stand.

I been meek
And hard like an oak
I seen pretty people disappear like smoke.
Friends will arrive, friends will disappear,
If you want me, honey baby,
I'll be here.
-kels