People are always 'pro' this and 'anti' that..........it's really kinda annoying. Oppinions are cool, dont get me wrong, but do we really think that everybody wants to know? That's the problem with humanity, (and i'll admit i have this problem too, cause we all do) we act like everybody cares about how we look, what we do, what we say, and what we think; when in reality very few people (if any) even notice, much less care. I think this is one of the keys to self-confidence, and some people just cant wrap their mind around the fact that nobody is really worried over them. And that ties back to selfishness, another of humanity's big problems.

 

 

Humanity has a lot of problems

This is so totally hilarious.

Ophelia Melody Garnizky (OMG)!!!!!!!!!! This is the official teaser trailer for the movie Twilight!!! I'm so beyond pumped.

Ok, so this is the best thing that has ever or will ever be on TV. If you don't watch it you have missed one of the happiest things on the planet. So watch it!!

 

"I cannot go to the ocean, I cannot drive the streets at night, I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind"

Images

 

 

 

p.s. check my new layout. it is the shiz.

"I'm a new soul in this very strange world hoping i could learn a bit bout how to give and take. But sence i came here, felt the joy and the fear, im finding myself making every possible mistake."

 

 

 

 

 

 

O_o*

 

 

 

i.....am......gosh, idk what i am or anything or whatever what? As you can see, i am confused. Pretty sure i've been that way for a while, but the problem is, i have no earthy idea what im confused about. i'm not looking for love, Jesus knows i dont want it. i dont even know what that is and im not lookin to hard to find out. maybe i feel out of place because everybody but me is lookin for love. Or somethin. idk. i think mayb society has been brainwashed into thinking that you cant be happy unless you have a sigificant other, which so totally isnt true. I don't think. Ga! this blog was so totally random and pointless. Or whatever.

 

O_o*

 

If their is "always someone better for you than the person you have"......

 

then how do you find the one?

 

O_o*

 

"Feathers are like dreams, if you have enough you can fly."

               -Some random dude in my history class who prolly copied it from somebody else.

 

 

 

O_o*

Yo! Isn't life a big puddle of joy and rainbows? ya, you know it...........whatever. I'm feelin' same as usual. Kinda not feelin, kinda pumped, kinda not so pumped. Really 'whatever'. That is exactly how i'm feelin. Well, actually, kinda not cause i was really hype & happy today for unsaid reasons. Yay! I live bein happy for my friends. I would prolly love bein happy for me to.........sigh. Lol, i'm such a drama queen. Speakin of drama, i'm goin 2 see the Wiz O' Oz at the death school on thursday. I'm purty pumpted (yes, that totally is a word.)

 

I need a new name. I've been "I am Switzerland" forever!! Plz reply with ideas.

 

O_o*

Ok, so............where to begin? I havent been on here in, what, a month and a half? More? NEway, so i was reading my 49 friends blogs when i noticed something. About the first 20 of them were so super depressing that i just wanted to cry. Why is every body (including myself) so dang bumed all the time? We are YOUNG! No one can tell us we're wrong! People need to realize that while they sit aroung depressed, the world spins. We waste good breath complaning about how we wish it could be and we totaly miss the beauty of how God made it. For example, (and alot of people will prolly hate me for saying this) unless you are a super genius or a mature adult with a spouse/fiance, then i'm willing to bet you don't know what love is. I know it's totaly not my place to criticize anyone, and that's not what im tryin to do at all, but that "love of your life" is probably just gonna be "love of a few months" unless it's God's will. But you dont know if it is or not, so you should be prepared (as in, don't fall into a spiraling depression if your high school sweetheart breaks up with you).

 

I'm  not tryin to boss anybody or hate or anything, so if you totaly appose what im tryin to say plez don't hate me. I'm just tryin to adress the total lack of joy in the majority of people in the world (or high school comunity).

 

 

 

 

 

 

p.s. I was gonna try to be more phusebox-active and post more often, but my "I'M BACK!!" blog really didn't turn out as planed, so we'll see what happens.........O_0*

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!! erase x's from other people when you are filling it out


[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies, Bratz, etc.
[] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] I did Gymnastics
[] I love skirts
[x] Hollister and/or American Eagle are my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i will wear
[] I own Victoria's Secret PINK pants
[x] i did ballet as a little girl
Total: 4


[x] my hair is almost always straightened
[] I own a purse from Coach or Prada
[] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earrings
[] In the summer i have to have a tan
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] I love reality shows
[] Bobby pins are my best friend
[] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 7


[] I don't shop at Hot Topic
[] my cell phone or ipod might as well become a part of me
[x] I wear mascara everyday
[] bathing suits are adorable
[] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[x] I own over 10 purses (but i don't carry any of them)
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 9


[] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[] I love people doing my hair
[] I give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs, especially spiders
[] carnivals are so fun
[] Summer is THE greatest thing ever
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x] musicians are so hot
TOTAL: 13

[x] i am self-conscious
[x] I cry often
[] i pick out shampoo and conditioner strictly based on smell
[x] I don't like sports
[x] I HATE to run
[] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] i eat fruit as a snack
[x]I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 18


[] I dance a lot.
[] I only have 5 billion hair products
[] I love to get dressed up.
[] every part of my outfit needs to match
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day
[] I would love to have a photo shoot
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[] I wish I looked like a model
TOTAL: 18


[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[] I wanted a bra way before i ever needed one
[] i own Birkenstock's
[x] i love music
[] I pop my collar
[] I like to be the center of attention
[x] guys with mohawks are weird
[x] u gotta love rainbows
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] KITTIES are adorable
TOTAL: 23

[] I write my own music
[x] I'd love to visit Hawaii
[] Valentine's day is cute
[] I would not be caught in all black
[x] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[] I like to read magazines
TOTAL: 25

[] I love to talk
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[] I love Celine Dion
[x] I have or still do plan ahead for my wedding
[] My friends and I are in a strict group.
[x] I like little kids
[x] soda rules
[] I am or at one point was a vegetarian
[x] love chocolate!
TOTAL: 30

[] check my myspace/email everyday.
[] I love life
[x] i have a lot of jewelry
[] I have to shop
[] i show my legs almost every day
[] I have a friend named maddie (I had, when I was little)
[x] i would never want to be the other sex
[] Its not what they said it's the way they said it
[] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 32

1. Do you like blue cheese?
cant say ive ever had it but it smells bad.

 

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?

i didnt know you smoked it i thought you injected it or whatever......

3. Do you own a gun?
no but nate has ALOT.

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
i get grilled cheeses from sonic.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
no unless the doc's a perv.......so, yes.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
their hot, dawg.

7. Favorite Christmas song?
Merry Christmas from the Family

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
nothing, it hurts my stomach.

9. Can you do push ups?
not, like, hard-core army push ups, no.

10. Can you do a chin up?
never tried. prolly not (as in NO)

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
earrings-pretty much all earrings

 

12. Favorite hobby?

falafalalala

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
idk idc

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
yes as in no as in yes (as in yes)

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
GORRILLA HANDS!!!!!!!!

16. Middle name?
zeppoka
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1.god, what am i gonna say?

2. *a bunch of stupid stuff i thought just to write, like pickles*

3. i really do have gorrilla hands

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. your soul

2. nothing

3. more nothing

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) tea

2.) milk
3.) not water (ew)

20. Current worry?

earthquake project

21. Current hate right now?
water. actually, the whole 'let's be healthy!' revolution is pretty friggn stupid. "yay salad! yay water! let's be heath freaks and all preppy and stuff!" your gonna die anyway might as well eat what you want on the way.

22. Favorite place to be?
in room, alone.

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
i sleep and wake up. it's another day.

24. Where would you like to go?
to sleep.

25. Name three people who will complete this?
well, i did.

26. Do you own slippers?
why does this survey care? in fact, why am i wasteing my time???

27. What shirt are you wearing?
orange

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
dear lord i cant take it.

29. Can you whistle?
no

30. Favorite color?
yellow

31. Would you be a pirate?
 who thinks of these things? sure

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
the song of silence

33. Favorite girl's name?
trinity, evangeleen

34. Favorite boy's name?
goober

 

35. What's in your pocket right now?

im in pj's, otherwise, all kinds of crap.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
nate

37. Best bed sheets as a child?

O_0*

38. Worst injury you've ever had?

bit my tounge off.


39. Do you love where you live?

why not?

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?

5

 

41. Who is your loudest friend?
please, im not even close to hallie's constant annoying screech (in a good way) Carmen you better read this.

42. How many dogs do you have?
1

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
....................ug.......................

45. What is your favorite book?
twilight

46. What is your favorite candy?
airheads

47. Favorite Sports Team?

preds!!!


48. What song do you want played at your funeral?

"well, im dead"

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?

watching tv

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

i wonder if i'll do a pointless and stupid survey today.......

I don't know what i'd do

if i said that i loved you.

 

I don't know what i'd say

if i could just whisk you away.

 

I don't know what i'd think

if we worked out every kink.

 

I don't know what i do

if you said you loved me too.

 

 

 

So....I havn't blogged in a while.....prolly cause I have NOTHING to blog about. So I'll rant (which isnt really blog cause people like to read blogs and not rants.) All I ever do know is rant! Gah. NEway, is my life really supposed to be that interesting? People ask me what's up and I say nothing and then all of the sudden I'm selfish and all this crap. I don't talk about my life because IT IS NOT INTERESTING AND THERE IS NOTHING TO SAY!!! Some people *coughmegancough* can't grasp that concept. Just because I'm the most apathedic person on this planet dosn't mean that I'm selfish (cause that assumption really dosn't make sence at all.) So....ya. The rant fire is dieing. So I leave with this:

 

ap·a·thy  

1.absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement. 2.

lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting.

 

Their is nothing wrong with being the above.

 

 

And also a cool tidbit from the song Moving On:

 

"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces. Each one is different, but they're always the same. They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it, they'll never allow me to change. I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong. I'm moving on."

so i got a new 2tally awsome backgroung with dinosaurs all over it AND a new song. it is "unwell" by matchbox 20 and it is my theme song. Really, if u listen to that song, it practicaly IS my life. so....have a great life!!!!(no sarcasm intended)

Kay, so this thought was gonna be about how i went to see Cloverfield and it was good but sad, but instead im gonna write about my youth minister you is in ICU. Apparently he had a heart attack on tusday and didnt tell anybody so when he finally did yesterday, it was bad. He's having open heart surgery soon, so im going to cry now.

Ok, you know what i hate? When people right blogs about "never" getting on phusebox again because of some stupid drama. If ur gonna stop getting on here, just stop. dont write some big, dramatic farwell entry. Nobody wants to here about it, so get over it. So, while i'm on a role, I'll just list all the things that get on my nerves:

 

Christmas trees with only white lights

Over-protective parents

Stupid people

 

So that's my rant. I feel like i have a million pounds lifted off my sholders.

 

Whatever

 

I sit beside the fire and think

  of all that I have seen,

of meadow-flowers and butterflies

  in summers that have been;

 

Of yellow leaves and gossamer

  in autumns that there were,

with morning mist and silver sun

  and wind upon my hair.

 

I sit beside the fire and think

  of how the world will be

when winter comes without a spring

  that I shall ever see.

 

For still there are so many things

  that I have never seen:

in every wood in every spring

  there is a different green.

 

I sit beside the fire and think

  of people long ago,

and people who will see a world

  that I shall never know.

 

But all the while I sit and think

  of times there were before,

I listen for reterning feet

  and voices at the door.

 

-The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring

 

 

 

 I'm not allowed to see that new movie that looks really cool called The Golden Compass because it is based on athiest themes. The movie is based on a trilogy of books in which the main charators kill God. My church sent out a bulliton with this information in it and at first I didn't know weather or not to belive it. But it's true. I Googled it and the author (Pullman) has admitted to being a proud athiest and is quoted saying "My books are about killing God." There are little to no hints to this in the movie, but some people will go buy the books after seeing it, and the anti-Christian theme is much stronger there. In each part of the trilogy the hints get stronger until the villan is called "the Almighty" and "Creator" in the last book.

 

I just wanted all yall to know this before you went out to see this movie and support this industry.

Ok, so last night I went to the cast party for A Midsummer Night's Dream (i was a fairy, it was awsome!!!) Anyway, it was at this guy's house and his parents were out of town (which i did not know.) So after our adult supervision left, ppl started drinking and smoking. So i left. I really thought some of the ppl there were cooler than all of that, but i was wrong. It was a really disappointing night.

EIGHT Last's:

1. Last drink: orange juice

3. Last phone call: megan

4. Last text message: megan

5. Last CD played: christmas CD in mom's car

6. Last bubble bath: when i was little 

7. Last time you cried: I'm always crying

8. Last meal: like an hour ago

 

Have You’s:

1. Have you ever dated someone twice? no

2. Have you ever been cheated on? i hope not

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? i've never kissed anyone

5. Have you ever lost someone? yes, forever and ever

6. Have you ever been depressed? am currently

7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? ask me no questions i'll tell you no lies.

 

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:

1. washed my feet

2. danced the fairy dance

3. blew a bubble-gum bubble

4. yelled at my sister

5. watched a baptism

6. breathed (is that a word??)

 

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to

1. God

2. Megan

3. Batey

4. Carmen

5. Myself

(the key words are "pretty much")

 

List THREE favorite colors

1. Yellow

2. Purple

3. Pink/Green

 

List TWO things you want to do before you die

1. be the best Christian i can be

2. let it all go and not have to worry at all about anything; perferably while dancing in the rain with my one true love on  vacation to some wonderful places all aroung the world.

 

SO FAR IN 07…

1.Been to school - sadly, yes 

2.Made a new friend - indeed

3.Fallen out of love - pshaw, i dont know what love is.

4.Done something you swore never to do- now that's an interesting question........ya, i suppose so

5.Laughed until you cried - ha! i did within the past week!

6.Went behind your friends back - oh yeah, definatly. regreting every second of it.

7.Met someone who changed your life - I'll never be the same.

8.Gotten close to someone - yeah, i did. life would be so sad if you were not close to people.

9.Found out who your true friends are- kinda a hard thing to come to terms with, isn't it? yes, i did.

 

1. Do you have a crush? i have a boyfriend

2. Who is the best hugger that you know? Mom

3. Do you believe in love at first sight? it could happen...

4. Is there something you want to tell someone? if i know a person at all, i want to tell them something.

5. What brand of shirt are you wearing? something from macy's

6. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? maybe ;)

7. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? yes, a relationship

8. How many people on your top friends? sorry, can't remember!!!

9. How many kids do you want to have? 3 or more

10.Do you have a good relationship with your parents? They know what i want them to know. 

11.Do you wanna change your name? No

12. What did you do for your last birthday? sleepover

13. What time did you wake up today? 6:30ish

14.What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping, surprisingly

15. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: get out of geometry

16. Last time you saw your dad? like 2 hours ago

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? be more smart

 18. Which hand do you like better? right

 19. What are you listening to right now? the TV/radio/little voices

 20. Have you ever talked to Tom? O_o* Tom? Who what?

21. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? yes

22. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yes

23. Least favorite month?January/Febuary

24. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? tank top 

25. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? Mr. T

26. Most visited webpage?  phusebox

27. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing?  I would help them if they were winning.

 28. Coke or Pepsi? neither

 29. What’s the worst day of your life? when my great-grandmother died. She is still the closest person to me.

 30. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? No, let the murder and hate continue.

 31. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds? some people's lives are in serious danger because of weight issues. So, ya.

1. Is someone in love with you?
I don't know, but i highly dought it. 

2. Do you know anyone named Dave?
Alas, no

3. What color is your couch?
it's a swirly-like pattern with lots of browns and tans

4. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
prolly at some point, but i cant remember any specifics.

5. Have you ever tried Propel Water?
yes and it is nasty
6. What color are the walls of your bedroom?
lime green

7. Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?
Skanky is a funny word.

8. Are you named after a grandparent?
nope

9. What did u do yesterday?
I went to Church, hang out around the house... yeah thats about it

10. What is your greatest fear?
going to hell

11. Are you taller than 5'6"?
i think i am 5'6..........or taller

12. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
well,not personaly but i see all those peeps on the news and stuff. I know of people in jail.

13. Ever seen a dead body?
Unfortunaly

14. Do you like the color green?
course i do

15. One of your favorite things?
brown paper packages tied up with string

16. How old are you?
 14. Woop diddy

17. Who was the last person to send you a text message??
beautiful, wongerful Megan

18. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs?
who dosn't??!?!?!?!?? (lol j/k)

19. Last restaurant you went to?
Chili's 

20. Whats the weather like today?
Cold and rainy.

21. Last voice mail you received?
prolly Megan but idk for sure

22. What did you do today?
school. it was as spectacular as reciving a basket of kittens.

dead kittens.

23. What's the first thing you would do with five million pounds?
move to England to spend them

24. How much did you sleep last night?
sleep @ ten-thirty awake @ six-thirty

25. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
not that i know of.

26. Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
some mexican who kept callin my phone.

27. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
hahahoheha. that's funny, good one.

28. What jewelry are you wearing?
a ring and thats it

29. What's your middle name?
like i would tell you.

30. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
pshaw, what else would i do? Stay home? Hahahe, you really are funny.

31. Whats your favorite drink?
orange soda

32. Do you swear at your parents?
every day!! what's a sentence without a curse word????? ;)

33. Is your phone right beside you?
i wish.........i really need to find it................

34. Ever been in a car wreck, while you were driving? 

I cant drive. the Lord is blessing the good people of dickson.

35. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Well, if someone is reading this and learning all this personal info about me, then prolly.

36. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
i dont wear shoes with laces.

37. Whats the color of your bedsheets?
they are striped with lots of colors

38. Have you ever crawled through a window?
i dont think so..........

39. Are you photogenic?
absolutly not

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
trip to Europe

42. What was the last thing you did?
typed "trip to Europe"

43. Do you have a tattoo?
ya. it's right in the center of my back and it says "tattoos are gay."

44. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
no, i watch cartoons all the time.

45. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
Yes.

46. Have you ever told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?
I say "i love you" to people i've barley even met. bad habit, really. But i love everyone with the love of the Lord.

47. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
haha, good times.

48. What are you doing in 2008?
sorry, i cant predict the future. (actually, i can, but yall dont know that) 

49. What is your ringtone?
my fone is always on vibrate

50. What were you doing at 2am last night?
partyin like a rockstar *coughsleepingcough*

 

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? The Lord only knows. Prolly a living cheeta or small pox or something.

2. When was the last time you threw up? When I was sick a couple of months ago. This is a gross question.

3. What's your favorite curse word? Are you seriously asking me this? 

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? My brother, my sister, and the British guy in my sunday school class. 

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning? Getting ready for church, of course!! *coughsleepingcough*

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? same thing im doing right now. cant get me away from the computer!!

8. Have you ever been to a strip club? pshaw, hundreds of times. You know, sence I'm over 21 and a pervert and everything.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud? "thanks for the grilled cheese mom. it was delicious."

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? chocolate

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? cran-grape juice

12. What are you wearing right now? clothes. No, I do not need to put some pants on, thank you very much!! 

13. What was the last thing you ate? grilled cheese

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? no but ma mom did. I get them for Christmas.

15. When was the last time you ran? I don't feel the need to exert myself in this way.

16. What's the last sporting event you watched? football on TV

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? don't have one, but on phusebox, Carmen

19. Ever go camping? no

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? in restaurants. 

25. What did your last text message say? good morning from Jacob

26. Are you someone's best friend? I would like to think so, but it's really up tho the other person, isn't it?

27. What are you doing tomorrow? school

28. Where is your mom right now? in the livingroom

29. Look to your left, what do you see? a wall

30. What color is your watch? i dont wear watches

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? Megan and Europe.

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? hecks yes, fool!

33. What is your birthstone? emerald

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? which ever my mom feels like 

35. What is your favorite number? 121

36. Do you have a dog? yes

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone? Megan

38. Have you met anyone famous? I've met several people who will be.

39. Any plans today? freezing my butt off in the parade.

40. How many states have you lived in? 1

41. Ever go to college? plan to

42. Where are you right now? computer room

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? school and homework

44. Last song listened to? cant hear radio

46. Are you allergic to anything? dust and lies

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? rocket dogs, the official shoe of heaven. 

49. Are you jealous of anyone? certain persons at certain times.

50. Is anyone jealous of you? yes, I know for a fact of one person. 

51. Do you love anyone? of course.

52. Do any of your friends have children? Do they?

53. Do you eat healthy?pshaw, no

54. What do you usually do during the day? sleep

55. Do you hate anyone right now? debatable. I'm not to fond of that devil guy.

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? prolly

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 15.

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? yes, I have never zipped up my pants sence then (lol j/k)

60. How did you get one of your scars? jamming a pencil into the roof of my mouth.

Click here to create your own painting.Well, this is my personality in paint. Interesting.