I think change might cause me physical pain. My first days of Middle and High school were rattled by unbearable tummy aches (High school worse than Middle, though. Much worse.) The same happened at my baptism, and, all of you are going to think i've losed it and reached that level past obsession that is commenly called crazy, but i also felt it the day after i finished Twilight. That last one scares the crap out of me, but anyway, ignoring that bit of insanity, these are all huge events in my life, a new chapter in the book that is existance. I'm going to implode when i move away to college.........ug, that's a scary thought.

Off the subject of my newly proven lack of brain (even though everyone whos anyone already new i was hopeless) I'm gonna talk about High school. I love it and i hate it. 1st block is hard but cool because Mr. T is the president of planet cool. 2nd block is from heck, exept for the fact that it holds the highest number of my friends, but there all to busy doing math to even look at me. 3rd block is pretty awsome, mainly because i get to go to lunch and it's my only class with Megan. 4th block is like 3rd grade all over again, but Robyn and Jacob keep things interesting. The gayest thing about high school is that i have no classes with Carmen. This sucks all the way to sucky town, but there might be hope for next semester.

ya, well, ya

ya, i feel like i haven't bloged in forever and a day so.....................ya. I read the last Harry Potter book. It was very good and equally depressing. Funny quote: "IF WE DIE FOR THEM, I'M GONNA KILL YOU, HARRY!" haha. Ron, gotta love Ron.

School starts on Monday. I'm so scared, yet im not, really. Im throwing a sleepover and all my friends are going to go to school with me, Woo!!

Crap, i need to clean my room!!!!!!!

"Does thinking I'm the last sane person on the face of the earth make me crazy?" -IRobot. That's a good movie, good movie. NEW FAVORITE SONG: "Spiderpig! Spiderpig! Does whaterver a Spiderpig does!" LOL

ECLIPSE COMES OUT A WEEK FROM WENSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!  woot!! 

"It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose, wherever it goes, I always know. That you make me smile, please stay for a while, now. Just take your time, wherever you go."

This is from and AWSOME song that i just got for FREE on iTunes. "Bubby" by Colbie Caillat.

I have always wondered why i'm afraid of change, and i just found out without even knowing what i was doing.

"I never change, and for some reason i don't expect anyone else to change either. That's why i'm so afraid of change. Because when something changes, everybody starts going in fast-forward, while I stand and watch everyone leave me behind."

I typed that in a remark without thinking about it really, but i found my answer. It's a scary one. Everything is scary now.

I deleted my "not afraid" thought.

The fear has been rekindled.

The last firm piller of my old life has crumbled, now i have to try to build a new one.

I am afraid of high school.

And my enemys.

And my future.

And my friends.

And myself.

"If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. Don't skip songs.

---Eh, sometimes repeat artists come up.... skip it or keep it. . .whatever

Opening Credits
"Bigger Than the Beatles" Joe Diffie

Waking Up
"She'll Leave You With a Smile" George Strait

First Day at School
"Definately Maybe"  FM Static

Breaking up
"Settle for a Slowdown" Dierks Bentley
Happiness
"Grillz" Ali & Big Gipp, Nelly & Paul Wall

Life's Okay
"Concrete Angel" Martina McBride

Mental Breakdown
"Teardrops On My Guitar" Taylor Swift
Driving
"I Can't Make You Love Me" Bonnie Raitt

Flashback
"Drops of Jupiter" Train


Getting Back Together
"Sweet Victory" Spongebob Squarepants

Wedding
"Like We Never Loved At All" Faith Hill (lol......dosn't fit at all)

Birth of a Child
"Meant to Live" Switchfoot

Final Battle
"These Days" Rascal Flatts

Death Scene
"The Sweet Escape" Gwen Stefani

Funeral Song
"Stay With Me (Brass Bed)" Josh Gracin

So Long  
"Home" Daughtry

LOL. None of mine fit at all.

On serveys and crap like that, i never had an answer to "What is your comfort food?" I do now. I'm unhappy about the outcome of some recent events, and i can't stop eating cherrys. It's really weird, but i've like killed 30 cherrys in the last 10 mins. It's insane. I've never wanted to eat something so bad. Ya, well, that's all i had to say. gotta go eat cherrys.

Mark the things that you have:
[x] A mom
[x] A dad
[ ] Stepmom
[] Stepdad
[x] A younger brother
[x] A younger sister
[ ] An older brother
[ ] An older sister
[x] Grandfather
[x] Grandmother
[X] Cousins
[ ] Half-brother
[] Half-sister
[] Stepbrother
[] Stepsister
[ ] Brother-in-law
[ ] Sister-in-law
[ ] Niece
[] Nephew

1. Are you a child of the 70s, 80s, or 90s?
90's
2. Where were you born?

    Nashville
3. What city did you grow up in?
    Dickson, baby!!

4. did you have a good childhood?

    not as bad as some people's, but it wasn't pleasent.

5. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

a teacher, a paleontoligist, and an illustrator.

6. What do you want to be now

    not sure.....a Historian maybe.............

7. Name the first memorable vacation you took as a kid?
    DISNEY WORLD!!!!!!!

8. What was your first best friend’s name?
    well, during Elem. skool i thought i had best friends, but, not really, so, Carmen.

9. Are they still your friend?
     thank goodness, yes.

10. Can you name all the schools you ever attended?
stuwert burns elementary, dickson elementary, and dms

11. Were you closer to your mom or dad as a kid?
     probably mom

12. What was the first record, tape or CD you remember buying?
     i don't remember

13. How old were you when u first heard of chuck norris?
     i'm gonna get killed for this one................like,13.

14. Are you scared of anything?
     yes, im scared of change.
15. How old were you when you wanted to get your ears pierced for the 2nd time?
     i don't wanna get them pierced again.

16. Did you buy school lunch or bring your own?

     bring in elementary skool, buy in middle.

17. Broken any bones or had any freaky accidents as a kid?
     I almost bit my tounge off as a baby.

18. Were you a mean kid?
     no, i was a lonely kid.

19. Favorite board game of all of time?
     OMG, The Game of LIFE!!!!!

20. Did you play house or pretend to be a super hero?
     I played house.

21. What was your favorite class in elementary school?
     I hated every part of elementary school.

22. Seriously, are you still just a kid at heart?
     heck, yes!!!!!

23. Did you ever come close to dying?
     not physically.

24. When you were little did you ever do drugs?

      um...no

This is the last entery in my school journal:

5-23-07

Today is the last day of Literary Club and instead of the cake and fun that we were promised, we get to write. Joy. The ONE day I don't have a book on me...ug. I'm gonna miss Middle School so much. I don't deal well with change...I really don't think I can do High School. I'm so afraid that I'm gonna forget all the cool memories. I'm gonna write some down now and NEVER lose my journal.

1. Teach Me. There was a bookmark in Mrs. Redden's class about a student/teacher affair called Teach Me. So Me, Megan, Carmen,and everybody made a joke about it and went around saying "Teach Me" to each other and then replying "Teach you WHAT?" It finally got on Megan's nerves, but i didn't stop, so she printed out hundreds of tiny papers that all read "Teach Me" and put them in my bag. Sence then, they have been found on all 3 halls and by 7th graders. A huge pile found it's way into Teddy's binder, and he wasn't even in on the joke. Gen found on in her locker, as have i and Megan. There was one in my new purse. We also found one in Nashville. Really. No Joke. (SIDE NOTE: sence this entry was written, i have found Teach Me papers in numoruos places around my house, in my mom's car, and my church)They are possesed by evil, they follow you around and choose there victoms.

2. Fat Camp. So one day Teddy came up with this random Fat Camp thing. He said he was 800 pounds overweight and he needed help. Before he new it, 25 or so people were going to "Fat Camp" including  me, Jessica, and Carmen. We camp up with a slogan: "You are sadly overweight and need help, go to Fat Camp!" We  "went" to Fat Camp that weekend and on Monday discused our adventures, like getting fat-free jelly donuts on the bus and losing 350 pounds. We all made and wore signs saying "I survived Fat Camp!"

3.Moon Butt. At Jessica's party, a girl named Tylar had a pic. of some guy's butt on her phone (from a movie) and Megan said "Is that a butt!?!?" and Tylar said "No, It's a moon." Everybody laughed, but poor Meg didn't get it. She said "What? Moon Butt, Butt Moon...." We all laughed and somebody explained to her. We still don't leave her alone about it.

4.Yomamma. At lunch we talked about naming your child Yomamma. We came up with these sentences for the situation: "Guess who went potty today? Yomamma!" "Yomamma is the ugliest girl in school!" "Guess who I'mm taking to prom? Yomamma!" "You know who I saw making out with Tyron at the movies last night? Yomamma!" There are millions more.

5. Make the Honey. At my party we went to see Spiderman and they had a comersial for a movie about bees. The commersial said "Get the pollen. Make the honey. Get the nector. Make the honey." For some reason we found this hilarious and all throught the movie we said "Make the honey" at random moments. After that we pretty much said it all the time and even came up with an award-winning rap called "Make the Honey"

So that's my 8th grade year, prety much. If I wrote everything I'd kill all the trees everywhere. Bye Middle Skool! Now I'll never forget you.

Back to present day. i read that entry today and cried my eyes out. Can we do that again? Could anything ever compare with that year? Have we used up our fair share of funny? Will we live our lives saying "Remember in 8th grade when......."? And who is "we" now? All these are questions that I'm terrified of and that will soon, too soon really, be answered.

When i type it feels like there is nobody one the other end. i haven't got a reply or a message in like forever!!!!! Did everybody die? Sigh.....I NEED TO CONTACT A FRIEND!!!!!!!!! Where did you all go???? i hate this summer.

Anyway, I'm going to Virginia w/my church in a couple of weeks and im really exited!! I hope some of my friends will come so i know that they didn't fall of the end of the earth.(which, by the way, really is flat. those pics from the moon are fake, they just wanna try to make the peeps from the past look stupid.)

Ya, i read this book called Speak and it was really good. I said it would practically be my life in High School, but i really hope it's not. The girl in the story is the most miserable person i've ever read about, and i've read about alot of people in some really stressful situations. I already know i won't be like her, because i have so many close friends and my entire graduating class dosn't hate me. But everything turns out O.K. at the end. The girl gets a huge, sucking burdon off her chest and regains some street cred. yall should read it.

I also read Becoming Naomi  Leon. It was also pretty good. It's about a girl who's mom dumped her and her deformed brother at there great-grandmother's house and leaves them, only to retern 7 years later and try to take the girl, Naomi, away to Las Vagas to live with her and her boyfriend. The mom's an alcoholic and really, really awful so the family runs away to Mexico to try and find the children's father.

Well, that's my book nerd moment for today. I need some help.

Fill this out in YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as "My Autobiography"

Prologue 1. Where did you take your default pic? I didn't take it.

 2. What exactly are you wearing right now? A green and blue hippie shirt with little animals and trees on it from Goodys and blue jean shorts from American Eagle 

 3. What is your current problem? High School and what awaits me there.

 4. What makes you most happy? Being totally and completely care-free with ALL my friends.

 5. What’s the name of the song that you're listening to? Some old song I don't know, but "Watching You" by Rodney Atkins *spelled wrong* just went off.

6. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away? yes

7. Do you ever watch MTV?? yeah 

 8. What’s something that really annoys you? People who don't know when to stop.

 

 Chapter 1:

1. Middle name: Top secret

2. Nickname(s): Karebear, Kookie monster

3. Current place? Computer room/spare bedroom

 4. Eye color: Dirt brown (ug)

---------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 2:

1. Do you live with your parents? yes

 2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?most times

 3. Are your parent’s married/separated/divorced? married

 4. Do you have any Siblings?yup 2

 ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 3: Favorite...

1. Ice Cream: I had this one once, chocolate with chocolate chips and browny peices.

 2. Season: fall, not to hot and not to cold

 ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 4: Do You..

1. Write on your hand: yes

2. Call people back: on the rare occasion of someone calling me

3. Believe in love: I belive in love, and heartbreak...............

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed? I sleep right in the middle of my bed.

 5. Have any bad habits? yes

 6. Any mental health issues? Most likly

----------------------------------------------------

Chapter 5: Have You....

1. Broken a bone: nope

 2. Bought new stuff in the last two weeks: depends on what "stuff" is, if that inclueds food, than yes.

3. Had physical therapy?: no

4. Gotten stitches:nope

 5. Taken painkillers? yes

6. Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling: no

7. Been stung by a bee? i think

8. Thrown up at the dentist: no  

9. Ever sworn in front of your parental. No, i've only sworn once and am dealing with uncontrolably horrid consiqences. :(

10. Had detention: No

11. Been sent to the principal's office? yeah (snuck out of the classroom. 3rd grade was a baaaaaad year.)

12. Been suspended: Thank the Lord, no

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Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

1. Movie(s) you watched?: Evan Almighty, not as good as Bruce but still hilarious. 

 2. Person to text you: I dont have texting.

 3. Person you called: Batey

4. Person you hugged? Mom, probably.

5. Last person you tackled: Idk, probably my sister, but it's been a while

6. Thing you touched: I'm touching my keyboard *O_o That question's kinda weird.

7. Thing you ate: Long John Silver's fish 

8. Thing you drank: Mountain Dew

9. Time you cried: Sunday

10. Wished on a star: Not since before my brother was born, probably more than 3 years

 

From the book Speak, which is practically the story of my life, or will be when high school starts.

1. We are here to help you.

2. You will have enough time to get to your class before the bell rings.

3. The dress code will be enforced.

4. No smoking is allowed on school grounds.

5. Our football team will win the championship this year.

6. We expect more of you here.

7. Guidance counselors are always avaliable to listen.

8. Your schedule was created with your needs in mind.

9. Your locker combination is private.

10. These will be the years you look back on foundly.

Im leaving for camp!!!!!! Talk to yall on Sat.!!!!!

~keri luvs Jesus~

1. Hi my name is.......keri

2. Never in my life have I.......walked up to some random person and hugged then, but i've really wanted to.
3. The one person who can drive me nuts is.........there is no one person, there are 26. (names changed to protect the not-so-inosent) A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, Z.
4. High school........is going suck like a hungry vaccum.
5. When I'm nervous........i bite my fingersnails

6. The last time I cried was.........a few days ago when i looked at my parent's wedding pictures, "cried" is an understatement. I was weeping.

7. If I were to get married right now my wedding party would be..........i have no idea, under no circumstances would i be getting married right now anyway. 
8. My hair is.....ugly, uncontrolable, and brown. like dirt or crap.
9. When I was 5..........i was 5

10. Last Christmas........i got and iPod and a cool new phone. 
11. I should be.....a straight A student, but i dont try hard enough and i know it.
12. When I look down I ......see the ground. that's a stupid question

13. The craziest recent event was....the last day of school, and it will remain the craziest until the first day of school.

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be......i have never seen a episode of 'Friends' my entire life, so i have no idea.

15. By this time next year......i'll probably be doing exacally what im doing now, but i'll be 15.

 16. My current gripe is......um, no comment.

 18. There's this girl I know who......yet again, no comment

19. You know I like you when.....i hang out with you and talk to you about pleasent subjects.
20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be......the nearest or easiest to reach person i knew.

21. Take my advice.....life isn't always good, in fact it's mostly bad, but your gonna haft to get used to it.

22. My most wanted item is.....a clue.

23. If you visited the place I was born......you wouldn't stay very long. 
24. I plan to.....try to un-make all my enemys, even though it's not gonna work.
25. If you spend the night at my house.....you'd be bored out of you ming withen 2 hours.

26. I'd stop my wedding if....i found out the guy i was marrying was A. not in love with me. or B. not a man.

 27. The world could do without....jerks, know it alls, murderers, terrorists, liers, and fights amoung friends.
28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than.....do any thing that would kill my friends, family, or self.
29. Most recent thing I've bought myself....a drink.
30. Most recent thing someone else bought me....i don't know.
31. My favorite blonde is.........i could never pick, i love to many blondes.
32. My favorite brunette is.......(see above)

33. My favorite redhead is........i dont really know many redheads, Sydnee Duke is the only one coming to mind.
34. My middle name is........if i told you, i'd have to kill you.
35. This morning I.......was asleep.

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are.....elephants.

37. Once, at a bar.......I drank 18 gallons of Mountian Dew and did the hokey-pokey with some old women from Flarpinvakvia.
38. Last night I was.......asleep

39. There's this guy I know who........no comment ( the 3rd time's the charm)
40. I don't know.......anything.

41. A better name for me would be.........that one girl Nobody likes and Everyone loves.
42. Tomorrow I am...going to sleep 
43. My birthday is........a Mexican holiday, no joke.

44. What I really want for Valentine's Day is.......a bag of dark chocolate Hersheys kisses.

45. I am allergic to........fights between people about  males that hate me and stupid notes that tear friendships apart and send them to the depths of the sea where they drown and are replaced by one-word conversations about how sorry you are and people who hate me and how your sorry and cow's will fly when things will be back to normal and dog's bark on the street but some people who hate me are loved by my mom's daughtor's friends and i think i said sorry about a certain hatrid-starting thing i said but maybe not and notes are sent by Q to Y and me and Q says mean things and it makes me said because fish fly and birds swim but friends love people who hate me and i dont wanna talk but they do and Y crys and X talkes about Q who hates me and my cat's dog's egg this whole thing is stupid and confusing and it admits gasy fumes that hate me and make me sneeze. So ya, im allergic to confusing fight fumes.

  

 

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I'm so exited! On Sunday I leave for camp!!!! Camp Leatherwood is my absolute favorite week all year. I get a whole week away from the chaos of the world, no TV, no radio, no phone. Just a whole week to have fun with my brothers and sisters in Christ and come closer to God. I love Leatherwood, despite the fact that that there is no AC anywhere in the camp, and the only bathrooms are in the bug-infested shower house. I even like the games we play, including basketball, and if you know me, you know how amazing it is that i like any form of any sport. My favorite thing about Leatherwood is the attitude. Everybody there is a Christian so theres no fights or cussing, everyone is nice to everyone else. If i had my way, I'd stay at camp all year. I know this sounds like a corny TCAP essay, but im kinda braindead today, so i guess ill just be corny.

"God dosn't love you because you are good, He loves you because He is good"  -Brad Dimond (guy who teaches my class at church on Wen.)

because im bored. and i miss my friends.