it's finally the weekend! even though it won't feel like it, since i have a game tonight, a pancake breakfast and practice for most of the day tomorrow, and i'll have to clean house for Sunday.

anyways i took this really nifty picture today


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HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE!!

yay phusebox is at schoool. that rocks my socks off.

you guys have an awesome day!!

hey check out the new pics in my album. they're from last year. are you in them? i dunno you'll have to seee!!

this heat needs to go away right now ...

it's amazing what can happen to so many people in such a short time span. there's so many things to be praying for, and it's just the 2nd week of school.



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my favorite freshman!!!



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i miss San Ant[i]onio.

i hope this upcoming year is as good as the last. i already miss so many people i'm not in classes with anymore, but as in latin amor omnia vincet ...

love you all...

p.s. can someone show me how to do hearts?

LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

4 who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the LORD,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts,

5 who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
He who does these things
will never be shaken.


that hit me this morning. it's a definition of who I'm supposed to be with when i grow up. as well as something i should strive to be.

i didn't know Bruce, but somehow I know i would've loved him, as so many of you guys do. i'm sure he was the epitome of Psalm 15.

Rest in Peace Bruce...

wickedly fast day today. Jesus is now in my English class, i've found that i just can't work a paper cutter, i'm more stupid in algebra than i thought i was, and so far i'm totally digging band, but that could change at any given moment. we talked basically the whole time in Chem., and i actually enjoyed latin today, because all we did was write.

band was horrible, it was sooo hot, and the final run was terrible. i'm already getting sick of it, and it's only the 2nd week in.

i really miss some people. the people i don't see or get to talk to the entire day. kim, michael, brittany, etc....

i'm a planner. so naturally at the beginning of every year, i think of the route i will take everyday, but this year, is weird. mostly because i don't have a band hall locker. and it's slowly tearing me apart.

now for the seriousness....

i'm drifting from God, faster than i ever have before. i'm praying with no results, and maybe He's taking His time, perhaps to make me see that i need him more than anything. because at this moment i'm finding other things to fill the void of Him not being there.

God-Shaped Hole- Plumb

Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But it all comes down to faith
That's the way I see it

You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
"All we have is now"
But I don't believe it

Chorus:
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void only He can fill

Does the world seem grey with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?

Chorus

That's my point of view...

There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void (repeat 2x)

Only he can fill
Only he can fill
Thats my point of view
Thats my point of view, yeah

well i had like the best night i've had in a REALLY long time. Alyssa was home for this weekend i guess, and we went to Pizza Bell, Sonic, Fantastic 4, and Starbucks. i haven't laughed that hard in a while. plus it was with people i don't really get to hang around, so it was even funner.

oh and apparently i'm in a fight with some girls in Tampa, who were being really mean to my friend so i called them sluts and now they're IMing me and commenting on my xanga saying i smoke pot and do shrooms. yeah and they can't spell worth a flip.

i find it kinda amusing...



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chels, em, and me



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being silly



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can't wait!!!



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Seanie and Alyssa



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mmm Mint Chocolate Chip Frappacino!!!

woot. it's FINALLY over. weird tan lines, hurt knees, headaches, and the never dying thirst are over. for a while anyways.

i have 3 days withOUT band. which is terrific if you ask me. our first "field" run on the football field was so-so, but i think that it'll be AMAZING later on.

and now onto sleep.

school started.

it's going to be an interesting year...

so umm is it really sad to be completely jealous of the girls who made a sorority? and did i even want to be in it to begin with? or just wanted to belong??

man i hate feeling so defeated for no reason.

my throat is still killing me, but i'm in happy spirits, singing all by myself and doing dirty dancing when we're supposed to be at "stand by".

i better get on that "memorizing music" thing. :/

yeah ok pretty generic titling right? ok yeah, so this week, 9-9. not excited but hopefully it'll be ok. we got 12 sets done on Friday, discovered that my pitch on piccolo is horrendous, and got even madder at this guy. in fact i was smiting him, and he didn't even know it. :evil grin:

Brett, about yesterday you're safe from me, i'm just worried about Michael, and i'll have to talk to him about that one. :(

i've been having this REALLY weird dreams, and i have no clue where they're coming from.

ok so this is just a pointless entry but i'm basically saying that i won't be back around to the internet until at least friday night.

i think i need a complete makeover. something clothes, new makeup, or even shoes won't fix. i've said this once before, but i didn't really change. i'm scared of what my "friends" say about me, but even more scared of the stuff i say about them, without really meaning it, just so i have something to talk about. i'm sick of treating boys the way i do. i know i do it, yet i keep doing it, with every single one.

maybe i shouldn't ever get married because all i'd do is cause the guy pain.

blah on dreary days...

sorry such a sad post, if you want a happier one visit my xanga . the music makes me happy...

it's official. my neighbors have THE cutest dogs...ever. like it was all i could do to not steal them. they are SOO precious.


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Lyla



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Lulu
hmm so today is the last day i can really work on my school work and what am i doing? yeah you guessed right, surfing it up.

mental note: put sunscreen on your legs!!!

so i'm playing the pic now... or at least i hope i get to. i'm ok at it, i guess, i'm sure there's someone out there better suited for it than me.

first day of precamp was yesterday. i liked seeing everyone, but i can tell this is going to get old, fast. i'm sad to say, i'm actually looking forward to doing drill. plus tonight's sectionals and we all know how that goes with two old people who play clarinet and sax more than flute. fun times up ahead i tell ya...

anyways everyone else have an awesome rest of the last week of freedom!!

hmm so my day so far, got up, ate some cocoa krispies (mmm), got in the shower, listened to music, reorganized my cds, and read a little bit of Silas Marner.

went to subway, got the usual, and listened to Oaklands band's section leaders discuss what they need to change this year and how the new freshmen are too stuck up blah blah blah. i'm just glad i didn't have a siegel shirt on...

i'm really looking forward to band season to start up, but then i'm not because i like summer and the fact that you don't have to do anything. but then i guess as soon as school starts the faster my birthday and Disneyland are going to get here.

anywho, what is everyone's favorite soundtrack?

yay for DCI tonight!!

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ok yeah i'm random.

went to see War of the Worlds with Michael today. it was good, i just wish i could've gone to starbucks :(

i'm resorting to sparknotes for summer reading, because it's the work of the devil.

does anybody know the literary devices used in Ethan Frome??

today was the first band practice thing. music is awesome and i can't wait to start doing drill and stuff. i was really glad to see everyone again, its amazing how much guys grow in 2 months :)



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me, kim, and brittany



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i finished the painting today, this is the finished product :)


ooo and pretty sure our band trip this year is Hawaii!! :)

painting. mmmm yes painting. fun stuff

sitting at home, with nothing to do, but be on the computer. yes i know i should finish my math or finish Silas Marner, but nothing's giving me that extra push in the right direction.

i have an urge to watch Pirates now so does anyone want to join me for a saturday night viewing??

ooo new pic of my Phantom shirt!! ---->

band camp is looming ahead of me, semi excited semi not.

the theme and stuff sounds cool, but difficult. boo

haha and i haven't practiced, or gotten in shape like Rhody said. i'm gonna kick myself for not doing like he asked...

hmm so not many remarks.

playing paper soccer with my dad + listening to phantom of the opera= good day :)

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KITTY!!!



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everyone at Emily's party



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Emily's homemade cookie cake



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Carrie, Luca, and Chelsey



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Emily's finally 15!!



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me and Erica



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the birthday girl watching Swimfan.

haha Emily's party was amazing. swimming in the rain and "singing" along to Camp. i ate SO much there. i don't think i'm going to be eating for a while :P

so i FINALLY finished Harry Potter at 3am Tuesday morning. i didn't cry, possibly because i read ahead and knew who was going to die. i was giddy with excitement about who hooked up. *sigh* they made a cute couple i think :)

am i a horrible person? all of the sudden i'm feeling like i'm this totally selfish dare i say witchy person that's not me and i hate it, but for some reason i can't control it. i don't think i'm doing anything wrong and then people bring what i do to my attention and i feel like the most downright horrible person ever.

i've been treating some certain people like dirt and they don't deserve it. so from now on i'm going to make a more conscious effort to be a better person.

i love all of you and i hope you know it :)