mmm i do so love chocolate chip pancakes with 3 of my favoritest people in the world :) at 11:30 at night. in our only IHOP... surrounded by 20 blackman kids... fun times, i llloooove it.

congrats Nathan and Rachael, that's about the sweetest thing i've EVER heard, or seen, or both. i dunno. but you guys are the sweetest thing together!!

Journalism is proving harder than i thought. with only 2 weeks to go until the 6 (technically 5) weeks is over, i have only $20 of ads, out of $300. i'm not exactly sure how i'm gonna make it this time.

my party was awesome. i'll have pics later... my computer at home is down at the moment...

i hate the way they bring me joy, only to crush it the very next second

i hate the way they look so dang good, like all the time, and i just want to run up and hug them, but i can't cuz they have a girlfriend...

i hate how they can be so flirty and so comforting and so nice, yet not even have the slightest bit of feelings toward you.

i hate how all of your friends can say that you'd look completely awesome with each other, only to get your hopes up, but the next second that comes crashing down.

i hate that you can have crushes on guys that you know you shouldn't like, maybe you just liked them because they actually looked your way.

i hate that they give good hugs and smelly nummy.

i hate that they seem so much more enjoyable and loveable and all around cute when they have girlfriends. so that way you can never get what you want, and have to continue searching for the perfect guy that never seems to get here. :[

i didnt mean this to be a depressing post, just what i'm feeling towards a few certain guys. they are amazing. too bad they're taken...

GREAT weekend. be sure to visit my xanga for more pics!!

it's almost eben 2 weeks since i've written on here. wow.

disneyland was amazing, as well as arizona, and my birthday!!! i got an iPod, a letter jacket, a really pretty necklace and watch, and a slew of pink jewelry from my grandparents.

look at the pics i downloaded!!

sooo.... fruit kick-off meeting is thursday night. they told us where we were going on the band trip this time last year... so you think i will know in less than two days!??? ahhh the suspense is KILLING me!!!



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they look stupid and hot all at the same time xD

this weekend was amazing. drive in friday night with Brittany, practice, sheet painting and chili's and movie with people on Saturday, sleep, Predators game, crazy pictures with my sister and the spaghetti factory on Sunday. and then i stayed up late working on that ridiculous english paper that i procrastinated WAY too much on...

yeah so if you want to see those crazy pictures, just check my album :)

good times this weekend. and it's not even over.

last night me and brittany went to the drive in movie and saw Just Like Heaven and Red Eye. Red Eye was amazing, and Mark Ruffalo is just about the sweetest thing ever. but Cillian Murphy scares me....

today was practice and then i took a shower and went to Christina's to paint the sophomore sheet. it looks amazing!!!

after that i went to Chili's with emily, chelsey, chip, jacque, kyle and booger. then we saw The Corpse Bride ("there's an eye in me soup."). there were tons of band people in there. it was really funny.



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jackwah!



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me and emowee



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jacque and chelsey



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chelsey and chip

life is confusing. but i think i like it that way.

i asked someone to the dance, pretty sure that was awkward.

4 1/2 school days left till fall break and DISNEYLAND!! oo and 10 till my birfday. ya'll better get me something AMAZING. especially since i'm turning the big 16!!

mmm free weekend. and that rocks my socks off...

lol you better love me for that :P

my dress pictures are up! as well as what i'm gonna wear to the pep rally. i wanted to keep it a secret, and kind of reveal it to everyone the day of homecoming, but i love it too much not too.

there's only 9 (really only 8 1/2) school days left until fall break. you don't know how unbelievably happy this makes me. hmm next week i get out of most of my classes to help with school pictures, star trek is friday and Hixson is saturday (hopefully we'll be a lot better with 2 more weeks of practice under our belt). now i just have to get through THIS week.

i think someone needs to find me a boy... :)

for no particular reason, but i love her anyways :D



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i love my kimmeh kim kim



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i love my girl scout troop :)

i found my dress today, and my business suit stuff. plus really cute shoes. i had the best time with emily. she's the funnest to shop with ever .

yay brett is getting me a rocking awesome coldplay shirt. mmm i love that boy!!

i like pictures, maybe i'll take some soon.

14 days till we leave for California! 14 days and 4 hours till my birthday!!! i'm soooo excited.


gosh i LOVE my friends. especially on bus rides back from hendersonville :)

well for those of you who are wondering. homecoming is Oct.14th. lots to do before then, and no time. but hey it'll ALL be ok. God's on my side and will pull me through everything.

this week has been amazing. i'm a firm believer in the when you have a bad week you'll have an awesome week the next theory. everything's going my way, with school, with homecoming, friends, the whole boy situation is undercontrol and it's AMAZING to feel this kind of release. God really has been good to me lately :)

anyways i hope you guys have an amazing rest of the week. i have practice and a game tomorrow afternoon, and then Hendersonville on Saturday, so i probably won't be on here again, unless i get on tomorrow.



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my wonderful escort on the right...



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man i love this kid :) we have way too much fun in latin....

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."-Psalms 37:4

i got homecoming!!! it's soooo exciting!! Roberto's gonna be my escort and that just makes it better!!

i go to school already dreading the day. this year has gotten crazy way too fast for me. fundraising is driving me insane, and my big mouth is even worse.

i need a break already, and the one day i would even get partly off, i have a stupid band practice. yup that's right. 4 dang practices in one week. plus a 2 performances friday and saturday night. kill me now.

band is REALLY frustrating me. it's not on this year, there's no motivation. i see it in myself. i'm not pushing myself as hard as i could. i don't manage to get anything done. it's just there. blah

it's amazing how the world throws curveballs at you. i was really upset about numerous things this morning, almost started crying on the way into class, but Anna and Catherine brightened my mood. and the more i thought about it, the more i knew that it's actually better this way. because i still love him, but more in a brotherly/protective way, and i think that's why i liked him so much to begin with.

i was also very upset about another guy, who obliviously hurt my feelings, but that was in no way his fault. but then i decided that i was just the stepping stone for the relationship he's in now, and i should be proud not hurt.

so as i was thinking to myself in church, "hmm you should just swear off boys for the moment, all they do is bring stress over something you shouldn't even be worrying about anyways." so i was perfectly fine with this resolution, and then who do we spot not 3 rows behind us?? nathan's sister, kristen. the world just threw thoughts of him in my face. i find it really funny, but at the same time cruel....

found a passage i really like for this moment in my life...

1 I cry aloud to the LORD;
I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.

2 I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.

3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.

4 Look to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.

5 I cry to you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."

6 Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.

7 Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.

-Psalms 142

i hope this week is sooo awesomely better than this past one

-i hate it when i'm not allowed to like boys.
-i hate immature senior guys who have no life and just continue to make up crap that i did wrong.
-i hate it how they make me want to cry and laugh all at the same time.
-i hate how whoever i like always seems to get a girlfriend when i want them the most.
-i hate it when i get disappointed in them and put our friendship on the rocks.
-i hate how the only ones i can ever talk to, don't ever seem to like me.
-i hate how they are so oblivious to our emotions
-i hate how they smell so darn good...
-i hate how they can be the sweetest greatest boyfriend around their new girlfriend, but aren't when they're mine.

why do i suck? why can i not hold a relationship more than a month? why do i ruin every single relationship (boyfriend or not) with guys?

i need some Jesus....

it's amazing how fast the world can turn on you. one day you're breezin on by, and the next it hates you. we shouldn't be of this world, so i guess it's ok right??

In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. -Psalms 33:21

woohoo for no remarks! yes!

lol so my quest for getting on homecoming court is kinda looking good...

lots of fun... i ate WAY too much and played too much golf. i don't want to see a golf ball or putter ever again.

lots of inside jokes...

check out the pics they are up and if you want to know anything about them just ask!

GOOOOOOO JESUS!!!

so the dreaded game is finally here. i hate playing teams in murfreesboro. too much hate, i swear!

lots of fun today. i don't know it was just slow, but enjoyable :)



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heck yes, me as the pink ranger when i was like 5. i SOOO miss those days.

i'm a closet power ranger fan :)

woah i've finally heard smoke on the water!

heehee "what if God was one of us" just came on Jack. lol i was singing that all day :)

man i hope we cream Oakland....

NO SCHOOL

i'm really worried about the people in New Orleans and Mobile. i was reading CNN.com, and it was saying how New Orleans is going to be uninhabitable for weeks perhaps longer. it's crazy to think that one of the most well known cities in our nation could possibly be gone after this storm hits.

another thing to think about is that it'll hit us on monday and tuesday, meaning no practice AGAIN. and i would just love to know what we're gonna do for those 3 hours. personally i wouldn't mind going outside and just marching in the rain, it was the funnest time i had last year. we'll probably go in the gym and work on visuals for the drum solo... again...

i'm getting really excited about this new greenbox thing Nathan is cooking up. i can't wait for it to be unveiled.

new pics up. they are umm... interestingly funny.

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