it's amazing how the world throws curveballs at you. i was really upset about numerous things this morning, almost started crying on the way into class, but Anna and Catherine brightened my mood. and the more i thought about it, the more i knew that it's actually better this way. because i still love him, but more in a brotherly/protective way, and i think that's why i liked him so much to begin with.

i was also very upset about another guy, who obliviously hurt my feelings, but that was in no way his fault. but then i decided that i was just the stepping stone for the relationship he's in now, and i should be proud not hurt.

so as i was thinking to myself in church, "hmm you should just swear off boys for the moment, all they do is bring stress over something you shouldn't even be worrying about anyways." so i was perfectly fine with this resolution, and then who do we spot not 3 rows behind us?? nathan's sister, kristen. the world just threw thoughts of him in my face. i find it really funny, but at the same time cruel....

found a passage i really like for this moment in my life...

1 I cry aloud to the LORD;
I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.

2 I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.

3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.

4 Look to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.

5 I cry to you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."

6 Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.

7 Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.

-Psalms 142

i hope this week is sooo awesomely better than this past one