i don't know what to think anymore

September 13 2005
i go to school already dreading the day. this year has gotten crazy way too fast for me. fundraising is driving me insane, and my big mouth is even worse.

i need a break already, and the one day i would even get partly off, i have a stupid band practice. yup that's right. 4 dang practices in one week. plus a 2 performances friday and saturday night. kill me now.

band is REALLY frustrating me. it's not on this year, there's no motivation. i see it in myself. i'm not pushing myself as hard as i could. i don't manage to get anything done. it's just there. blah

milly

September 13 2005
ah being phantomized is the best!!