i think i need a complete makeover. something clothes, new makeup, or even shoes won't fix. i've said this once before, but i didn't really change. i'm scared of what my "friends" say about me, but even more scared of the stuff i say about them, without really meaning it, just so i have something to talk about. i'm sick of treating boys the way i do. i know i do it, yet i keep doing it, with every single one.

maybe i shouldn't ever get married because all i'd do is cause the guy pain.

blah on dreary days...

sorry such a sad post, if you want a happier one visit my xanga . the music makes me happy...