Ok so my apologies for not getting the song of the week out sooner I have been very busy here in NC. I enjoy it very much, however, I had a bad night last night, message me if you wanna know more...probably not though. Well this is Josh Groban's "Oceano" Hey this is the song for the week of the 1st. So please enjoy Josh Groban. I know I will.

So I have been reading some things that people before me have said and I have come to the conclusion that:

God is a complete gentleman.

We keep telling him to get out of our schools, our government, and our lives. So when we did so he, being the gentleman that he is, he backe dout quitely, with ofcourse, christians such as myself and many others fighting for him. Now people tend to wonder how God could let something so horrible as Katrina, or the Attacks on September 11, 2001 happen; Then I must ask you how can someone that we have pushed out defend us? Or why would he? 

It is not unlike our police officers standing outside of a building that has a bomb in it. They know it will expload soon but you come barging in there. You fight the officers and kill one, the rest back off. You go in the building with the police officers screaming to get out. You don't. The can do nothing else when the bomb is set off. I belive that relates very much to God and our country's current position on him.

What are your thoughts? Agree or think it is asinine? 

I have done nothing but load my weapon since I have been here.

No fighting, until now, I continue to threaten.

Now my gun is loaded and I have it raised against your forehead.

I stare you in the straight in the eyes

and 

My finger is meer milimeters away from pulling the triger

The hammer already pulled.

Curse you finger, Curse you blessed Revolver.

You have never failed me before in past conflicts.

Now the curse of past kills has come to haunt the one who has raised it.

I have prepared everyday of my life for something that I will never be ready for.

I have fought a thousand times never before have a fought in anger. I pray to god that this cloud of hate for my enemy is lifted so that I may see clearly enough to aim.

Now my gun is loaded and I have it raised against you forehead.

I stare you straight in the eyes

and 

My finger is meer milimeters away from pulling the triger

The hammer is already pulled.

Curse you finger, Curse you blessed Revovler

Now the curse of past kills has come to haunt the one who has raised it.  

Ok so like yesterday if you were in Dickson you saw how much it rained. How awesome was that? I mean it was just pouring down that is with out a doubt some of the best weather I have seen in a long time. I love that kind of weather.

So yeah I am heading to North Wilkesboro, North Carolina, my home town. Chris Daughtry wrote this song about his home town Greensboro. Which just so happens to be in North Carolina and only about 2 hours south of mine. So as I am getting ready to depart from Dickson heading to N.C. I like listening to this song. lol kinda gay...kinda corny...fun though.

If you don't have it then chances are you don't need it.

So I had another song planned for the song of the week but I was ramaging through you tube and I came across this song...I had forgot about it for a number of weeks and I remembered how much I loved it...LIE ok fine...well I did have another song planned but then I forgot the name of it and then I was trying to remember the name and I for some reason thought of this song then I remembered how amazing the video was...ok that is the truth. I love this video I think it is probably one of the best out there. I love this song too I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do. Coldplay "Fix You"

Of your little quiz thing...I got a score of 111 out of 140.

I am not lost.

I am just not sure where I am going right now.

I did not leave.

I am just not here right now.

I am not lieing.

I just can't see the truth right now.

I am not unstable.

I am just off balance right now.

I do not hate myself.

I just can't stand to look myself in the eyes right now.

 

     Don't you dare be so consided as to think this was caused by you. This occured to me long ago, when my actions reflected my heart, when I let them. Now I must hold back, not from fear of failure or the fear of anything else just simply the desire to...actually this goes against all of my real desires. I guess I am here floating down the river praying to God for an oar so I can help control this a little better. Has he not already done so though? It was indeed my choice. How many things have fallen so perfectly into place though. "Maybe it is hell that is calling me to the place that I call heaven." quote me on that.

So every night before I go to bed I pray to God that I will have the chance to give my life in service of my country. But I am really torn too, I mean I am going to serve in the military no matter what, and if my life is called upon I will not hesitate before taking the bullet, I just keep thinking of the family I would have. I know after I am dead it won't matter though. I think that my letter will sound something like this. Please enjoy Tim McGraw's "If You're Reading This"

Ok so I am going to be honest about something. You know how people will flavor their coffee with crap like "Coffee Mate" that makes it all carmel and crap? Ah that grinds my gears. Now I am not saying that I don't enjoy a good House Blend or Starbucks Grande Carmel Mocha, but when you are just drinking coffee just drink coffee. And there was an old saying that came around, "It ain't done until the bullet floats." That is how thick their coffee was. So come one, this morning or some time when you are about to drink coffee grow a pair and set down the sugar, pour a little more grounds in the coffee maker than normal and drink it straight.

Would it be easier to understand if I were a philospher?

Would it be easier to fight if I were a Marine?

Would it be easier to believe if I were a preacher?

Would it be easier to run froward if I were a marathon runner?

Would it be easier to walk away if I were a quiter?

Would it be easier to take a hit if I were a bullet proof vest?

Would it be easier to breathe if I were an oxygen tank?

Would it be easier to continue if I were a machine?

No.

Just because I have been hit does not mean I will not load my rifle again.

Just becuase I have ran out of ammo does not mean that I will not keep fighting.
Just because my brother has died in the same act does not mean I will stop.

Just because I can't feel my left hand does not mean that I cannot kill with my right.

Just because I am bleeding does not mean I will stop and wait for a medic to heal me.

Just because I believe in God does not mean I will pray to him in this land.

Just because they fight in the name of God does not mean that they will win.

Just because I have lost this battle before does not mean that I will win this time.

Now that you have left me, you must be dead to me, or I will not live to fight again.

I will not show you all of my battle scars,

I will just tell you I know what I am doing.

I will not tell you that I trust you,

I will just take your hand.

I will not tell you I am going to throw down,

I will just draw.

I will not lie to you my love,

I will just do excatly what I say.

I will not pray for forgiveness,

I will just believe that god understands.

I will not put up deceptive covers,

I will just stand in the rain for you to see.

I will not believe that you and your God will defeat me,

I will just fight till the death.

 

What do you do when you have already drawn but you just realized that you forgot to load your weapon?

When you are already too deep in a thing to stop because you love where you are at but your heart is where you have been.

I can't get over the fact that a long time ago I may have messed a lot of things up. Now 3 years later, I am still bleeding from the wound. I tried the quick clot but it is quick and does not last.

I cannot kill if I never feel anger. 

I cannot fire my weapon if I don't have a target.

I cannot believe if I don't have something to believe in.

I cannot fight if I don't have something worth fighting for.

I cannot hold on if I have nothing to grab.

I cannot be moved if I have nothing pushing me.

I cannot tell the truth if I have reason to lie.

And

I cannot love if I have never loved myself.

What do you expect me to do?  

So this is gotta be one of the funner songs to sing. Everyone one of the Dickson County High School Football team knows this song, or at least can sing a long with it in the locker room. I love country boys. Even the black guys on the team sing a long. Well so it might not be the best thing that he drinks his blues away. Oh well it is Garth Brooks so enjoy.

The things that go unsaid really never need to be, said that is.

Walking away is not running away. Is it?

Believe me when I tell you I would not blink.

I would just draw.

Believe me when I tell you I would not look back.

I would just keep running.

Believe me when I tell you I would not back down. 

I would stand and fight.

Believe me when I tell you I can not look in the mirror.

I would say it was because of you, and you.

Believe me when I tell you I can't believe the truth. 

I would but it hurts.

Believe me when I tell you I am not on her side.

I would be in hell.

Believe me when I tell you I can't take the pressure.

I would break.

Believe me when I tell you I can't run.

I would die.

Believe me when I tell you I am not sure this is better.

I would rather be alone.

Believe me when I tell you I can't take this.

I would say there are tears in my eyes.

Believe me when I tell you I can't admit the truth.

I would rather die.

No matter how much it would help all of us.  

So this song is pretty cool. You have to wait until the video starts though they have some advertisment crap at the beginging. Well please enjoy Bullet For My Valentine "All These Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me)"