Forgive me but...

"as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out...and as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone..."
                                                                                       - Dashboard Confessional

Sometimes as much as you don't want to...you end up making some dumb typical teenage post about something so unimportant when there are so many others things that are much more vital than this.

it's a mystery.

and i've temporarily sunken to this level.

"if I could find you now things would get better
we could leave this town and run forever"

okay...it's out of my system.
Your intellectual and.... let's face it...the absolute coolest sara is back to her normal self.

the cliche has reached its end.

God is amazing and most definetly evident in my life. I love him so much and I thank him for being my strength because he knows I am not capable of living without him.

I see people everyday, I see their beauty and the mind that they've been blessed with and my heart goes out to them because they are blind to the potential that they have to change the world. They can further God's kingdom in so many ways and yet they are paralyzed.

But then I have to think....am I too blind to the potential I have to further God's kingdom?

I am not done growing and I am looking fwd to the trials and experiences that God has in store for me.

Do you ever have thoughts such as, " I want to forget everything and walk barefoot with a backback and tell Jesus to everyone I meet" ?

Frustration.
Excitement.
Wonder.
Brokeness.
Happiness.

I want to change the world.

I want you to come with me.

sometimes the people you love the most...will never know.

But is that mysterious factor which makes the great love stories?

         And so...

I wonder what it would be like if things were just a bit diffrent. If the timing were earlier and my fears didn't exist.Know what I mean?

I love people. Be my friend.

Jonathan Moore...you're my favorite.

so... the retreat was absolutely amazing. The the theme was "Who Am I?" the age old question. Skid came up and talked to us and it was by far the best lesson I've ever heard from him. God was truly speaking thru him last night and I felt like he was talking directly to me. Lately I've been so confused as to what direction my life is suppose to be going and the brief hours I spent at short mt. were ones I cannot forget. I became aware of my spiritual gifts and what role I must play in God's kingdom. I came to numerous realizations of what I should do with the brief time I have here. Everything I do and I say must reflect my God. I must take this time to form as many relationships as possible. I must act in such a way that everyone around me can't help but see Christ in me. Who am I? I am God's...

Jonathan Moore leave me a comment...
- the coolest person you've ever met


p.s. use cherry flavored Purel

well, I leave for Mexico at 3:00 a.m. tommorrow morning...so you can bet I won't have any sleep tonite for fear that I won't wake up in time. Don't miss me too much.

"if looks had language, the merest idiot might have guessed I was over head and ears"
-Wuthering Heights

yes so whatever happned to people commenting on the cool sara besides brian?
but thanks brian for commenting.

yeah so I hung out with cool bel aire people today...

it twas awesome. so many good stories to tell...just ask. I saw God work through some close friends of mine....truly amazing. thank you God, so yeah my computer dosent let me upload pics on here so check out www.xanga.com/americandesi765 if u wanna see pics. see ya later.

I want to be intrigued by you
I want to watch you laugh and melt
I want to see you cry
I want you to pick apart my brain and completely fall in love with it
I want you to grow fond of my dramatic movie type scenarios that I insist on performing
I want to hear you say "I'm so glad you're here"
I want you to hug me for absolutely no reason at all
I want you to randomely ask "what are you thinking?"
I want you to wonder about me when you see me staring off..
I want you to challenge me
I want you to smile at me for no reason...just because you're glad to see me
I want you to want to know me.

yes, that's what I want.

well no one who reads this will know what I'm talking about but here it goes:

I was driving down manson pike earlier today with the radio on and the windows down, and all of a sudden I turned the radio off and I found myself rambling to God and I found myself telling myself,
"Sara, this isn't for you. God has something a little bit more diffrent in my mind." I continued driving and recollected the memories that involved this situation. They were great memories but I knew that they weren't for me. It's hard to say goodbye...but right now I'm saying hello to God's plan.

He's just not for me. But I pray that God will show me someone who is.

It's amazing what chocolate milk can do for your not so great moments.

well apart from the fact that phusebox won't let me upload my pictures...*tear* I'm doing pretty darn good.
Recently, I've talked with more people that I haven't been able to talk much to, I've formed more friendships, and I'm beginning to get more perspective.
Life has been good to me....or better yet, God has been good to me.


when no one else cares where I've been...you run to me.

alrighty, well got the memo from brian king that all the "cool kids" were getting a phusebox...and c'mon we know i'm a cool kid.