Ok, so about those birds again. Well, as I said they have a nest on our front porch with little birds. What has happened is that now the parent birds are starting to dive bomb at Jarred, My dad, and Evan. It is the funniest thing in the world!!!!! lol...it's so awesome! They don't dive bomb at me and my mom so that is a good thing. : ) They have cute babies though.
Bees. I hate them. They annoy me so much. Jarred says that they can't kill me so I shouldn't be afraid of them. Sorry, I still don't like them and I still swing my arms around like a weirdo and yell whenever they come near me. : ) Yes, I'm kinda weird. : )
Lovely things. The beauty of nature. I love it. The sun setting is the best thing in the world. : ) I like it. Oh, and I like pizza. Vegan pizza, mind you. I made it and it was good. Too bad, I had to share. darn. I want some more.  

So, since I was gonna write about this yesterday but I forgot too, I'm gonna write about it now.We have some baby birds on our front porch. They are really cute birds too! I watch the mother build the nest and now I get to see the birds grow up...it's pretty awesome! I like birds. My mom doesn't. : P 
I want to go to sleep....well, not really but I thought I'd say that anyway. I want to eat more food. And yes I actually do want to eat more food. : ) I'm weird.

How's life? perfect. ok, maybe not but that's ok.I like my friends. Even if they are crazy! And weird. And all around strange. : P   

Church was awesome tonight!!! It was really good...like super good. I needed so it really was awesome. God is awesome!

I'm feeling quite strange at the moment. : P What that means? I don't know. : ) But, yeah. I was suppose to go to Lane's house with Car-Car tonight but her horse isn't doin well. : ( But, yeah.

 

I wish you were here tonight. So, we could make this work. Nobody is meant to try alone. I wish I could fix everything that is wrong. But, I know I can't. And that hurts so much. I miss you.

 

 

tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

And know the stars are ,

holding you , holding you, holding you

tonight

It's father's day. We got our dad a card. : ) We're kinda cheap this year.I'm tired. Not sure why. I'm hungry too. Maybe I should eat. I miss some people right now. I wish they were here with me. grrr...kid....grrrrr. : P  Life is not a highway. You can't tell which way its going. On a highway you can. I can't figure people out. I've tried but it doesn't work. Too bad. 
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitternessAnd I would have stayed up with you all nightHad I known how to save a life

I went horseback riding. It was fun. I got annoyed but yeah. Don't say a word Grace! I'm happy. Just thought I'd let ya'll know. : )

So, my sister brought up an interesting topic tonight on her blog and I thought I'd post about it.
Adoption. Yes, the question of what you believe about adoption. It runs through my mind sometimes. Like, I wonder what my friends think about it. I don't discuss it much but tonight I think I'm going to. :)
It's weird to think that so long ago I was put up for adoption by my birth mother. But, it's nice to think about it. The thing that bothers me the most is the fact that people just come to their own conclusions without finding out what the truth is. I mean, just because you are adopted that doesn't mean that you weren't wanted by your birth parents. That is the most stupid thing I've ever heard. If anything that shows how much love they have for you. Ya know, it's weird to even think of it differently. Lol....I'm laughing. I just thought about the first time I actually realized that i was a different color then all my friends. But, it lasted for maybe 10 seconds then i was off into something else. : ) Adoption is cool.
But, I honestly want to know your view. What do you think about adoption????

: ) Don't we love politics? grrr....some people in the whole political realm are so annoying sometimes. Life would be easier if they weren't so darn stubborn. I've never really thought about it, but I'm a Republican and I've come to realize that whether I want to or not, it's kinda important to know what is going.
Here's a song that makes me smile.

Follow your Leader, John Reuben

They've got me pinned against the wall
it's political and predictable
anything you say will be exaggerated and completely blown out of proportion
ignore them if you can but I doubt you will
they're out to control how people feel by pushing their agenda on you sub-conscience
while you're unaware they start the brainwashing process
time to call out the unwilling
the ones that need to be cut deep in order to have feeling
you're not used to facing opposition
you've done all the talking now it's time to listen
I understand you want to make a difference
well you can start by sticking to your own business
you're an entertaining man trying to be a politician
stop abusing you position

Follow him
follow them
follow me
follow you
follow who,
follow your leader
do you even know what your buying into
before you follow your leader
it's the blind leading the blind
don't be so eager to follow your leader
know the truth before you try and turn me into a believer
and make me follow your leader

conservative, uptight right wing republican
last time I checked I was none of them
but that's the brush you want to paint me with taint me with
some aim to please but you aim and miss
A.D.D maybe but I can't tune you out
I would change the station but your signals too loud
and you're too proud to realize you're a moron
defend what you want whether it's right or wrong
and this applies to both sides of the equation
arrogant men in power sure are frustrating
on a pedestal you hear them ranting and raving
proudly proclaiming what they know nothing about
I hear you talking loud
but I will not allow tinsel town to show me how to live my life
sure you can sing and dance
but that don't mean that you are qualified to give America advice

: ) Yes, It was a very good night. I enjoyed it. Too bad I got my clothes all wet...well, not me, but carmen. : P I'm not please with her. Did I mention I haven't swimmed in like two years or so? But, yeah. It was fun ducking Lane. : ) Oh, yes.  

"Remember it's not a sin to enjoy the fragrance of a rose, but he who grasps after its beauty carelessly will reap the pain and suffering of its hidden barbs," Hedge of Thorns.
I like that.

ok, I heard this song and then asked my mom about it. It's kinda sad.

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Little jackie paper loved that rascal puff,
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other
fancy stuff. oh

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

Together they would travel on a boat with billowed
sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on puffs gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow wheneer they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flag when puff roared
out his name. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, jackie paper came no more
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless
roar.

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like
rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave,
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his
cave. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

Ok, so I have practice Take You at Your Word a grand totally of...get this....once. Thats it. Not anymore. Not any less (though if it was less I wouldn't have practiced at all). Ok, now this is not good. Our presentation is on Sunday, I don't know what the heck I'm doing! I need to practice...keep your mouth closed tyler. ; ) I know its bad when even my mom is telling me I need to practice. Which I honestly do. I'm comfortable with There is a God and Basic just not Take You. I'll watch a video of it tonight and see how its done. grrr....carmen. : ) I love you girl.

Anyways, I have to go to the airport today to pick up my brother. I've been to this airport a lot.

We are redoing jar's hair before he goes to work. I liked it. Oh, well. I'm different. : ) Of course, we knew this already.

So, I'm done with the tomatoes.... : ) By the way, did you know that when tomato juice gets in a cut it burns???? Yup, I found that out the hard way.
We have a presentation at Elizabeth's church....grrrr kid....Making us get up so early. J/k Actually, I think it should be fun. I hope!!! : P Anyways, I'm doing Carmen's part in Take You at Your Word....need I say more?? Ok, I'm almost positive that she does it a whole lot better then me. And since I didn't get a chance to practice it at our actual practice time I'm left to figure it out by myself. This should be interesting. Hopefully I won't mess it up too much...please pray for me. : )
Did I mention that I'm going to the Amish tomorrow? Yes, it is that time again. This will be our sixth or maybe seventh, I can't remember, summer going out to them. Every year we do the same thing, get the same stupid flies and the best strawberries ; )

If you really knew me you would know.....

1. I hate big crowds

2. I'm really kinda shy

3. I have a hard time talking front of a group

4. My form releasing my frustration is listening to music

5. I'm not very open

6. I don't like when people judge me.

7. I can't stand the smell of smoke

8. I'm really not that friendly

9. I can fake happiness...don't ask

10. I'm usually very lonely.

there it's done...don't use it against me.

Life is like the wind...You never know where it's going or where it's been. But, there is a time for everything.


Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

This is what I want to do. I want to go on a vacation to get away from everything and everybody. I guess that sounds selfish but who cares. really? I need to get away and breath. It's been a really lame past two weeks. I need time to think and some major space. Like not in a negative way just time for myself.

When you keep on telling someone *ahem* that you don't want them to go and spend money on you but the keep on insisting that they are going to. So, you get stuck because they are just as stubborn as you are. gosh.....austin. You really make things hard. : )

In other news, my mom's birthday was yesterday. : -) We had Rice Dream....sorry tyler and austin we just didn't get a chance to invite you over. : ) Maybe next time.

Did you realize that this year is passing so fast??? Gosh, I realized this today when I finally actually realized that like we are in may now.

I'm at a lost for words. I feel like a fool. Not going towards any goal but following the wind. Nothing seems worth the trip. I can't stand feeling like a loser. Missing the mark. Wandering in the valley of confusion. I'm not suppose to feel this way. But, I do. I know it's not for me. It never will be. Why do I bother chasing after things that aren't suppose to be?? Can I deny the fact that God doesn't want me to do this? I want the things that aren't for me. I can't lead people on this way. It's not right. I'm trying to make something be that's not suppose to be.

Plain, by Zoegirl
It made you feel plain when he forgot your name
let me tell you something I've felt the same
I know your in pain, there will be another boy along the way
And God, He made you beautiful and
There's nothing about you that's plain

You are a jewel, you are a treasure
you are one of a kind
And shine just as bright as the stars in the sky
You're a rare kind of wonder, created just right
So keep you head up no matter the pain
There's nothing about you that's plain

You tell me you're not the type, the kind of girl they would like
You're a little insecure of how you look in their eyes
Well, fashion will change, and trends come and go everyday
But God only made one of you and
There is nothing about you that is plain

You are a jewel, you are a treasure
you are one of a kind
And shine just as bright as the stars in the sky
You're a rare kind of wonder, created just right
So keep you head up no matter the pain
There's nothing about you that's plain

See your mind, it is precious
Though your heart may be restless
And your eyes they will see all that you're meant to be
Cause your spirit is strong and your soul carries on
You keep your head up no matter the pain
There is nothing about you that's plain

You are a jewel, you are a treasure
you are one of a kind
And shine just as bright as the stars in the sky
You're a rare kind of wonder, created just right
So keep you head up no matter the pain
There's nothing about you that's plain

Ya know, I have my days when I feel out of place, yeah
I look at who I am, I cover what I can
I wish it all would change
but you take the make-up away
you'll see the same girl still remains
she may not feel that beautiful but,
there is nothing about her that is plain

Oh, the joys of pestering your friends to go and spend money on you. : ) Well, I'm just pestering one friend. Poor guy!! But you see, when someone is so cool, snazzy, wonderful, amazing, beautiful, friendly, kind, considerate, and all together just awesome. You gotta spend money on the person. right? Ok, now I'm being conceited. grrrrrr........I just felt like putting that there.

In other news, Life is like a um...a...dang! I forgot what I was going to say. Well, anyway, there is some stuff going on in my life that I wish wasn't. : ) Isn't that how it always is??? Anyway, so if ya think of me sometime, will ya please pray?? thanks, I love you guys.

How can you be so certain of things but then suddenly everything not make sense????
How can you be so sure that everything is going to be ok, then suddenly that all be taken away???
When does life make sense???
grrrrr....I hate this feeling....

Yup, so it's that time again. It's time to rewind and think about the presentation and how it went.

First, I'm tired. This presentation made me tired I'm not sure why. Well, I think it went pretty well. Besides me totally messing up in every song. grrrrrr....oh, well. Oh, well we didn't get all that much time to put on makeup that was kinda different. I was hoping for more time. I guess I didn't look that bad. As for the presentation, it went well. The people were really open to it. : ) To God Be the Glory!!!

So, right now Jarred is sleeping. Yes, I know it's late but he needs to sleep. You see, He worked a 12 hr. shift last night. How did he do it?? He worked an over night shift at Kohl's. Now, this means that he went to work at 6 p.m and didn't get off till 6 a.m. : ) Poor guy. Plus he has to work tonight.

I actually practiced last night. It was good. I hope to be able to practice a little more tonight. I need to work on There is a God and America Again. It's been a while since I've done those songs. Oh, did I mention Jarred is going to be presenting??? Yup, he is. That shall be fun.

I guess I should end this now since I don't have anything else to say. I love you all.

I'm not sure which one fits me. I think I'm sad that a certain someone isn't coming to the presentation. But, happy that I get to present. Not like I've practiced yet, keep your mouth shut tyler!!!!

In other news, I found out that life is pretty funny. Nope nothing like what you may expect. We got our vacuum fixed today and me and jarred were taking turns using it. stupid!!! Gosh. Vacuuming shouldn't be fun. I think that has worn off though.

Ok, so I just noticed that my pants are wearing down in the knees. Which means I will be retiring them soon. drats. I really like these to wear around the house. Oh, well.

Oh, our presentation is on Saturday...But, I'm going to do lousy cuz I haven't practiced. Man, I wish Lane had time to really work with me in There is a God. That's not going to look good. grr...I should get motivated to practice. : )