i never walked on water,
never saw a reason to be goin out that far.
i never found a star then made a wish,
but now the sky is list'nin to my heart.

they can break me, make me, if they want they can chase me.
love me, hate me, i don't care any more.

till you, i was nothin but lonely nights,
there was nothin but sad goodbye's for me to fall through.
come true, my dreams are awakening
somebody is makin me the only one in the room.
what no body could do, no body till you.

and the more you talk, the less i fear.
no matter what you say, we're still on the same hemisphere.
and there's comfort in just knowing that wherever i go
a part of me is stayin here. with you.

so take me, shake me, if you want you can chase me.
love me for me, and stay away from the door.

till you, i was nothin but lonely nights,
there was nothin but sad goodbye's for me to fall through.
come true, my dreams are awakening
somebody is makin me the only one in the room.
what no body could do, no body till you.

what kinda world would it be if you ever went away?
oh. and i, i can't go back to what i had,
cause it will never be the same.

till you, i was nothin but lonely nights,
there was nothin but sad goodbye's for me to fall through.
come true, my dreams are awakening
somebody is makin me the only one in the room.
what no body could do, no body
till you, i was nothin but lonely nights,
there was nothin but sad goodbye's for me to fall through.
come true, i'm awakening, you're shakin me
no body knew what to do, no body till-
no body till you, there were lonely nights.
till you, there were sad goodbye's.
come true, i'm awakening, you're shakin me.
no body knew what to do, no body till-

no body till you.

so wow. i am so effing tired.

yesterday my mommy and i went to Hotlanta to the Lenox mall. we were shopping for no joke, more than 8 hours. or almost that.
i finally got to go to URBAN OUTFITTERS!!! amazing store. my mom and i had a little tiff over money, but we worked it out. i got some really nice stuff.
and i bought myself a shirt in Hollister. haha - my mom got a sweater there. =] precious.
we went in a lot of cool stores: Anthropologie, Oakley, Macy's, etc etc.

then today i went to the Zoo with my mom, my sisters, and my nephews. MAN talk about a day.
it was a lot of fun though. i got some pictures that i'll put up later.

and i've really been wanting a guy lately. maybe two. not really a boyfriend, but someone to go on dates with. that's all i want is dates.

ah well.

so i went to Ryan's party. it was fun.
more fun than i expected.
i met like so many really epic people. and... danced. and stood there looking hot.

that was saturday.

yesterday i hung out with Caitlin a little. we went back to Ryan's house... cause he wanted me to come eat pizza. but we didn't stay long.
then i went to my sister's for the night.

fun.

now i'm sitting here. at home. gonna go to work in a little.

<3

The Secret Garden: A Spring Ball: @ the Factory in Franklin

March 31, 2006

Building 8 230 Franklin Road Franklin, TN 37065
7:00-11:00PM-(Sorry but the factory makes us stop then, but we can party after)

$10.00 per person at the door
Plus bring a small item (required in order to attend) to donate to Haiti.
like Small Toys, Medicine, Kool Aid, Silly Puddy, Bubbles, Popcorn Kernals, etc.

Contact: 615.403.0513
Haititeam06@aol.com


Bring a date or not come dressed up and ready to dance.

100% of the proceeds will go to Restoration Ministries in Haiti where they help the needs of the community though food, clothes, education and so much more.

The Secret Garden: A Spring Ball: @ the Factory in Franklin

March 31, 2006

Building 8 230 Franklin Road Franklin, TN 37065
7:00-11:00PM-(Sorry but the factory makes us stop then, but we can party after)

$10.00 per person at the door
Plus bring a small item (required in order to attend) to donate to Haiti.
like Small Toys, Medicine, Kool Aid, Silly Puddy, Bubbles, Popcorn Kernals, etc.

Contact: 615.403.0513
Haititeam06@aol.com


Bring a date or not come dressed up and ready to dance.

100% of the proceeds will go to Restoration Ministries in Haiti where they help the needs of the community though food, clothes, education and so much more.

so...

new hair.

^_-

kay so i lied. i'm not JUST letting my mom go so she can buy me stuff. (sara was right) i just didn't wanna sound dorky hanging out with my mom on spring break.

dumb me.

today was ugly. but i had fun with Carly and Abby and Abby's family and my dad at Mellow Mushroom after school. <3

cept some crazy stuff happened. like. one crazy thing. other than the fact that i knew almost everyone there.

but yeah. <3

so i went downstairs and there was this thing on the stove that looked like a cooked mole. and i said "mom, what is that?" and she goes "don't look at it...... it's a soy roast"

so i looked at it, and she starts to cut it. i say "that's not soy. that's a real roast"

...

and she's cutting it and she says "i cooked it in teriyaki" like that makes it okay. and i said "mom it's not soy"

and she just kinda shrugged and kept cutting it.

wtf. haha.

today was shit. comepletely. weather sucked. and i'm totally through with school.

my mom said that for spring break we can go to Atlanta and she's gonna buy me stuff at Urban Outfitters. the actual store! yay.  ^_^  that's the only reason i'd let her go with though.

<3

... i never thought it'd happen.

i went to Riverdale's play today. it was so-so. it was presented well. just... not the best choice. i think.

but i enjoyed it anyway.

and Andrew and Carly and i goofed off... and that was fun.

and hearts semicolon

so like. i'm taking everything personal. and i realize i'm doing it. but i still let it hurt.

listening to remixes of Madonna's "sorry"

i've been BLAH all week. don't feel like making my blogs hot. don't feel like...

i just wanna see people. like &droo. and i wanna hang with Carlizzle and Abby Dee. and i need to shop. like. seriously.

::sigh::

spring break is in a week.

you don't know how nice that sounds.

i swear, i can't stad some people at school.

but i'll be okay.

"starkburts" tonight.

<3

i had a great weekend. after work on thursday i went to Caitlin's and had a sleepover with her and Addie. we were out driving around and being CRAZY till like 3:30 in the morning. it was a blast. went to Steak 'n Shake and looked for a party. Cait and Addie flashed... we were just wild.

haha.

then firday we had lunch with Brian then took Ads home, and Cait and i hung out. Andrew came. and... we hung out. then Andrew and i went and saw Ultraviolet. i missed Sarah Wall's bday party ... and felt really bad. but after the movie we went to Carly's and watched Party Monster with her and Abby. Andrew fell asleep. he is PRECIOUS when he's asleep. he hums. aaaaaww. but he's really weird and random when he's tired. he insists we were driving on a bike trail last night...? hehe. and he spent the night at my house.

then today... just sat around. played Sims. went to Mickey Dee's with Andrew. and now i'm typing.

whoo hoo. the new Sims expansion pack is amazing. they have New Wave now and Depeche Mode is on there. fun. and they can open a business.

anyway. i'm off.

well...

4 days this week. that's fun.

and...

woo.

so omg, we had a totally epic time in Nashville. it was me, Caitlin, Andrew, and his friend Patrick. who is amazing.

we had so much fun.

we didn't stay for the show at Coco, cause it was $4, and we didn't want to pay for it. haha. so we ate and walked around town acting crazy and taking pictures. epic.

and... some guy tried to sell us wasted concert tickets. (the show was canceled) and we gave change to homeless people. aanndd... took lots of pictures. looked at magazines in Borders. were amazing. uhm. i asked Andrew on a date. ^_^ and Patrick asked me out. and Caitlin laughed both times. and we had the most wonderful time ever.

it was great.

we are awesome.

so i'm definetly going to Coco tonight. i'm cited. i really miss going to Nashville regularly. Caitlin's goin with me, and hopefully Carly. and HOPEFULLY Andrew can meet us there.

then tomorrow is a campus tour of O'More. ^_^ joy.

then work.

then sunday. and i think work again.

whoop.

i feel dumb not hanging out with people and enjoying this BEATUIFUL day.

but i don't really know who to call.

i'm sitting here... waiting till it's time. time to go take the ACT.

my mom says she's more worried about it than i am. and she's right. i prolly shoulda studied more... but i'll pay for the next one if i do crappy on this one.

::shrug:: it's gonna be boring as anything.

anyway... it happened. sandwiched right between Fall Out Boy and Neo on Carson Daily's most requested show. number 8. "Everytime we Touch" by Cascada.
if you've known me for at least a year, you should know that that song was my summer anthem last year. (2005) and it's been one of my favourites since then. i even played it for Thomas after one of our first dates. and there's just this sinking feeling when you've been listening to a little-known song for a year and then you hear it on the radio. i'm kinda pissed, but kinda enthused since it's techno and that's always good to have around.

i just don't want my music to become popular. which i don't think it will, but still.

well okay, i'm off to my day of four free hours. if you guys wanna cheer me up, you could come see me at work tonight. i'll be there from 4 to close.

xoxo

"take me anywhere" by Tegan and Sara

Bright just like the stars above me
Proud just like my mother planned it
Short on all the things I don't want
I'm full of love and longing

Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere
You would take me anywhere

Still, cause I don't want to move a thing
And all the things I don't want they're full
Of love and longing

Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere
You would take me anywhere
Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere
You would take me anywhere

And it goes, its like a come on come on to me
And it goes, it's like a come on come on to me

You, you say you don't see any part of me
To love in all this mess and I know
You take the good and all the bad that comes with me

Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere
You would take me anywhere
Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere
You would take me anywhere

And it goes, its like a come on come on to me
And it goes, it's like a come on come on to me
[repeat]

so i saw Curious George with JohnJohn, Ethan, Becky, and my mom. it was SO SO so cute!! omg. i loved it. George is adorable.

yup. i want one. i even cried at some parts. great movie. i reccomend it.

<3

tonight after work sucked. i rolled my window down to say bye to Brigette, and then it would only go halfway up... then i went to get gas, and the door to my gas cap was frozen shut, so i had to scrape the ice with my key... and i tried to get the window to go up, and it did a little, but it's still about an inch open... i think the motor's broken.

but other than that... okay day.

xoxo

i was gonna write something... forgot what.

went to lunch with Carly, Amy, and Megan. it was fu-un.

saw Hayhay and Meghan at Old Navy.

came home. watched Tyra.

<3

goin to work in about an hour.

so aparently people have a problem with me... but no one says anything.

whatever. i'm not bothered by it.

i had a really good conversation with my dad about ... stuff? like, my sexuality, and how some people are really shocked and asking if i'm "okay" and stuff. and i told him i broke up with Kohry, and we just talked about stuff. i'm getting a lot closer to my dad than i used to be. he's a good person.

anyway.

 i hope my weekend doesn't suck, and that i can actually see my friends. ::shrug:: just hope it's fun.

love

tomorrow's thursday.

that means friday is soon. half day.

definately gonna hang with Carly and hopefully Abby!

yay.

so kohry and i are just gonna combine myspaces.

fun.

only 3.5 days of school this week!

fun.

and i get to see my Kohry for four days this weekend.

fun.

<3

i think i'm about ready to leave myspace...

it's cause a lot of comotion, and i have no reason for that.

and it never works anyway. most any time i try to log in, ither login is disabled, or they're doing maintainence, or there's some kind of error.

it's not worth it.

so it's xanga and phusebox for me.